Re: I need help bad, i keep crying and don't know what to do.
It's a troll, Quasar. Chop his head off.
Troll or not, the words are coming from some human being typing words on a keyboard which show up as data. And, troll or not, he (I hope I'm correctly assuming gender) is part of our world, and anybody who interacts with other people in real life, in any way, is constantly causing "ripples" which may affect what interactions are passed along by whoever he interacts with. I don't have to like somebody, etc., to hope that all people find their own paths to more contentment and happiness. All of it does its part to make the world a better place.
Yes, this guy appears to be a troll...BUT be that as it may,
and EVEN IF the entire post is a lie, it's clearly coming from somebody who is in serious need of valid and nurturing human contact, and somebody who probably needs to find a way to open up to somebody who will try to work through things with him/her, but he needs to seek change before anything can happen.
Let's assume there is some "validity" to his saying that he would hire escorts all the time, if he could find escorts who will be with him. If that's the case, finances will not be a serious issue for him, because seeing a "shrink" usually costs substantially less than similar time hiring a good escort.
His OP brings up another observation, too - I find that, usually, if one's entire life is built around having sex with guys who are gorgeous, it often causes problems of its own. That can entirely eliminate the chance for somebody ever to have friendships with the "other" gender, or with anybody who doesn't fit his preferred physical type, and what seems here to be an all-encompassing mania and lust for sex and nothing else will often scare others away. I hope I'm reading this wrong, and NH actually does consider interactions and friendships with people who he is not attracted to.
I also note he says that he entirely seeks sex with White guys...only. If that's true, and if it's also true that he cannot be friends with anybody he's not attracted to (which I also "got" from his post), does that mean that you (NH) aren't interacting with other African-Americans AT ALL? That is almost like denying your heritage, and part of your humanity. We all have a background, a heritage, and a culture which is best to preserve within ourselves. It's not easy to "make a go of it" when one abandons his own background, and things which can function as a foundation to maintain and build on. It's well and fine that you may interact with White guys, but please don't do that exclusively, at the expense of abandoning other things that are important, and which are limiting in that way.
The OP doesn't mention anything about family ties, etc. either.
We may not have the whole story here - I'm sure we don't. If the OP (PERHAPS) only wants to engage in extreme kink, finding an escort can be difficult or, if found, is probably more expensive than the average escort, because that escort needs the unusual and special skills to deal with kink which will send the other 98% running for the exits. But I'm also puzzled by his wording which sounds more like the escorts not noticing and coming to him...isn't it the OTHER WAY AROUND...if we want to hire an escort, don't WE contact the escort (or his pimp) instead???
Whatever the true nature of NH, he is clearly troubled. There's no way of getting around that, whether his posts are entirely truthful, or entirely lies, or anything between the two. NH, some of us are giving you advice here. Please heed it.
Cheer up OP, you don't need no help. Their are things in life that can bring you more happiness than another human ever will. Please take my advice and go fix yourself up.
