Giving Up on finding Relationship/Boyfriend

[DeafFoxDemon]

I have officially have give up on trying to find a relationship/boyfriend. I have tried everything from going to bar/club to online, etc, and no matter what i do;i always get rejected fast from guys that i am interesting in. The moment i tried to talk to them, everything was good, until i mention to them i am deaf, and bam, they left. Even other deaf guys are not interesting in me, most of them based it on the way I looks, my weight, my height, etc. I know that i am not cute nor handsome,hell even avg looking person, but what i lack in looks, i make it up in personally, etc.

i am very insecure about my looks, because i have been made fun of my whole life, and I just take it in and ignore it. Sometimes my friends would joke about it, and laugh about it too. I would laugh along because i am so used to it and when it comes to my look, i just feel numb toward it.

So i decided that I am going to stop looking, and stay single for the rest of my life I guess. I am not going to active seeking guys for NSA or anything like that anymore. Tried to form friendship too, but never works either. I do have lot of friends, but no gay friends which sucks because i want to find someone who have something in common with me that I can meet in real life.

Sometimes I feel invisible to everyone in my life, from my family to friends. I know that my family cares and love me, but it is like that they haven't take my feelings seriously, which cause me to want to move away and start fresh without them.

I believe that I am means to be single, and I am happy to be single, but I am not looking forward growing old alone, and being lonely. If i happened to find a guy then great, but until then I am happy to be single.

 

[dpnice]

I really can't put myself in your situation to understand how difficult it must be for you but if it is any help I am old and mostly alone and enjoy my life enormously.

But I do have gay friends who I see on holidays and chat to on the phone and obviously I am not as isolated as you must find yourself at times.

It's not fair that some people are likely to spend their lives without a partner, for whatever reason, but unfortunately it happens to many of us. There is no magic solution; one has to constantly make an effort, put oneself into the situations where you can meet others and always take the rejections with a smile. Difficult and depressing I know.

Life can be full of pleasure as I am sure you are aware but for some of us it is a bloody difficult job to live it.

Keep going, take things as they come and try to do your best.

David.

 

[DeafFoxDemon]

I really can't put myself in your situation to understand how difficult it must be for you but if it is any help I am old and mostly alone and enjoy my life enormously.

But I do have gay friends who I see on holidays and chat to on the phone and obviously I am not as isolated as you must find yourself at times.

It's not fair that some people are likely to spend their lives without a partner, for whatever reason, but unfortunately it happens to many of us. There is no magic solution; one has to constantly make an effort, put oneself into the situations where you can meet others and always take the rejections with a smile. Difficult and depressing I know.

Life can be full of pleasure as I am sure you are aware but for some of us it is a bloody difficult job to live it.

Keep going, take things as they come and try to do your best.

David.

I don't feel isolated, because i have ton of friends and I love them and my family. But I just want at least one person that have something in common with me that is being gay. I put my self in many situation to meet guys, but I am taking a break from it because i don't want to be so depress about it. I feel that the best thing for me is to take a break and enjoy what i have at the moment.