GODDAMMIT...my shit done burnt up!!!

[willsboy84]

Whaddup bitches!!! It's been awhile. I know I haven't made much of an "impact" in my few years on JUB, but for those who DO know me, and might have wondered where I've been the last couple of months, I thought I'd let ya'll know that willsboy84 IS alive and well. I'd ended up losing a good portion of my income, and had to give up my cable/internet for while. Sucks, but I had no idea how fucking shitty things were about to get soon after.


So, I'll make a long story short. I wake up the other day, reach over for my bowl & my sack-- gotta get that wake-n-bake on, but anyway...

I'm getting a really nice buzz going when I start to hear a weird crackling noise. It actually sounds like flames crackling, but I brushed it off as I'm always hearing odd noises in that house. That's when I realize that the bud is not the only smoke that I'm smelling, but I can't tell where the additional smoke is coming from. Stepping outside, I see a shitload of smoke barreling up from the top of the house. i have to race back in and scoop up my mom-- she's "elderly" & disable, so I've been caring for her over the last few years.

I get her safely down the street, but I'd left my cell upstairs, along with my stash. Run back in to scoop that shit up, and call 911 obviously, but by the time I get back in, MY room is actually ablaze. Ended up losing pretty much everything I own, wihich admittedly wasn't all that much, but it was MY SHIT!!!

Of course I DO realize that what really matters is that everyone made it out safely, and belongings can be replaced, so I've been trying to keep my head up about everything.

Never mind the fact that all this went down 2 days before christmas, what's REALLY killing me is my current temporary living situation.

We've been taken in by an uncle, the "money" in the familyl. Don't get me wrong, everything he's been doing to help out IS grearly appreciated, but part of me can't help but think that deep down he almost enjoys this situation. He's one of those types who loves to run to the rescue, and is always sure to let you(and anyone else who'll listen) EXACTLY how much he's doing for you... Not to mention the fact that he's a goddamned Jehova's Witness, AND a fucking homophobe. I'd known about the JW thing for awhile, and I never would have thought him the most open-minded person I knew, but I honestly didn't realize how he felt towards homosexuals until I heard about his complaining about an extended family member who's children are being "corrupted by the crazy dikes" who babysit them. Until recently, I didn't really have alot of contact with good ol' Unc, so I don't think he knows that his nephew loves the cock....
It's been awhile since I had to actually go outta my way to hide who I am, but I feel like while I'm stuck under his roof, I kinda gotta play by his rules. Forgot to mention that they live out in the fucking STICKS...and I don't drive!!! Can you imagine...a chain-smoking, homosexual pothead, stuck out in the middle of nowhere with a bunch of damned Jehova's Witnesses? Walking down the road in the middle of winter, all to be able to toke up peacefully...that shit's getting old, and it hasn't even been a week yet....

Got some thangs in motion though. Hopefully, within a month at most, I should be able to get shit together to be able to move into a new place. And since all my shit is burned to hell, I guess I can look at that as less shit to move into a new place, right?

On a lighter note, I have to ask: Has anybody tried those Strawberry Milkshake Whoppers--you know the malted-ball candy? I highly reccommend them, as they are FUCKING AWESOME!!!

Anywhoo...
Since as I've previously mentioned, I've lost all my stuff, I'm using a borrowed pc. Meaning my internet access will be pretty limited for a good while, so I still won't be able to post here on a regular basis. Like I said, just wanted to check in real quick and let ya'll know what was up. Brotha's trying to keep his head up, and I'm figuring things have GOTTA start looking up sooner or later, right? Guess that's it for now though...peace, love and all that other shit!!! Here's hoping ya'll are enjoying your holidays a little bit more than I am right now, lol.

 

[willsboy84]

Wow, um...guess I shouldn't have bothered. Thanks a bunch guys
Lol, it's cool though. Like I said, I know I've not made much of an impact here, so whatevs...

 

[pat grimshaw]

Well, as long as you're not self-obsessed.

Are you a Southerner?

 

[strangepoetry]

Sorry things have been so shitty. It gets better, I've heard...

 

[star-warrior]

I'm sorry to hear about the fire, willsboy84, but you rescued your mum, that's heroic!

As for your uncle, bide your time with him. When you are back in your own place, thank him for letting you stay - don't burn bridges unless you really have to.

 

[LilBit]

Dang. I'm sorry to hear that, babe. I hope the temporary living situation turns out to be REALLY temporary. And good job rescuing your mom.

 

[roadtripboy]

I never what to say in these situations, glad you're both okay.

 

[jizzeater]

Now's your opportunity to 1) quit smoking (most JUBbers hate smoking) 2) learn how to drive (you can bang up your rich uncle's cars )

http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?t=329604

 

[T-Rexx]

I had the same thing happen to me a couple years ago, willsboy. I had a house fire, so I can relate.

The fire itself didn't destroy that much, but I lost a great many things to theft afterwards (all my stuff went into storage while the house was repaired, and everything valuable disappeared while it was in storage).

I never really did recover from that fire.

Life sucks a lot.

 

[birddog7]

Sorry to hear about the fire. Main thing is, nobody got hurt. Things will get better.

 

[Jayden]

 

[rareboy]

^This.

If my chain smoking pot head nephew torched his place and I gave him a roof over his head, the first thing I'd sure as hell would expect is that he'd be working as hard as he could to help out around the place and contribute meaningfully to the household. Granted, I wouldn't be some red-neck homophobe adherent of the Jehovah's Witnesses...but I have cousins who are JW and quite tolerant...the kind of folks who would never see someone left in need.

So. Ask him if there are any chores he needs done while you're freeloading off of him.

I also am very sorry to hear of your misfortune, but the first thing you'd better be grateful for is that you had a family member who felt it to be his duty to offer help.

So get straight. Get work. Start looking for another place to live asap. Get out and volunteer to help someone or group.

2011 could be the year to turn your life around.

Best of luck.

 

[silosybin]

If my chain smoking pot head nephew torched his place

i don't think he actually burnt his house down, from the sound of the story it just happened that he was blazing at the time the fire started

good luck OP, hope things work out

 

[willsboy84]

^This.

If my chain smoking pot head nephew torched his place and I gave him a roof over his head, the first thing I'd sure as hell would expect is that he'd be working as hard as he could to help out around the place and contribute meaningfully to the household. Granted, I wouldn't be some red-neck homophobe adherent of the Jehovah's Witnesses...but I have cousins who are JW and quite tolerant...the kind of folks who would never see someone left in need.

So. Ask him if there are any chores he needs done while you're freeloading off of him.

I also am very sorry to hear of your misfortune, but the first thing you'd better be grateful for is that you had a family member who felt it to be his duty to offer help.

So get straight. Get work. Start looking for another place to live asap. Get out and volunteer to help someone or group.

2011 could be the year to turn your life around.

Best of luck.

Don't get me wrong, I know I was in a pissy way yesterday, but I DO appreciate unc's hospitality, and OF COURSE I've made myself available for anything they might need there. I do want to add that I'm only staying there, and aside from our weighing on utilities, we asked for and accepted nothing else. Also, I didn't "torch my place"...we had an electrical fire due to faulty wiring, not under my control.

Ironically, I was actually in the process of getting a new place. I knew we were going to start having some problems, and I'd been looking into having us out of that house within the next month, tops.

I know I might have come off as somewhat ungrateful towards my uncle, but while as I said, I appreciate the hospitality, there's a whole history there that I won't go into, so know that this isn't just me "whining" about my current circumstances. I've had quite a few problems with a couple of my uncles growing up--to the point where had I been a weaker person, I'd have ended my life. It's not that I'm not grateful to have the roof over my head, believe me I am. I think what frustrates me the most, is being forced into a position to NEED the assistance. It's been a bad year, but the one thing I'd been able to take pride in was the fact that I never let myself ask anyone for anything, until now.To be honest, if it was just me, I'd have just crashed with a friend, atleast then I wouldn't feel so akward, but like I mentioned, I take care of my disabled mom, and I couldn't really see having her around the type of people I hang around. Therefore, I accepted my uncles offer of a place to stay. Trust me though, I'm working my ass off to make sure the arrangement is as temporary as possible.

I'd also like to add that it'd be alot easier to express gratitude to someone, if they weren't constantly letting you know you're in their debt. I'd also like to apologiize for my ranting yesterday. Believe it or not, but it actually HAS occured to me that not only am I not the only person in the world with problems, but I could have it alot worse. I'm not COMPLETELY self-absorbed.

So check it, my fucking hand is going numb, so I'm out. Be easy bitches!!!

 

[willsboy84]

Interviewed for a pretty decent place last night...fingers crossed!!! Getting kind of antsy. We've only been out there less than a week, but it feels like it's been MONTHS already!!! Actually getting along with Unc for the most part, only real problem is that it's a bit crowded-- he's also got 2 adult kids living out there, one of whom has 2 young kids of his own. And obviously there's a bit of a personality clash, but it's all good. Unc gave me a funny look yesterday when he came across me reading a book, while all the other guys were glued to the football game. Lol, it was like he was absolutely bewildered that I'd choose a book over THE GAME I'm still trippin' over the fact that they don't have a single book in that house, atleast that I've seen.

What's really odd is the way they interact with each other. I don't know if it's just the awkwardness of us being there, but it doesn't really seem like they deal with each other at all. There's my Uncle and his wife, my 28 year old cousin and her kids, and my 20 year old cousin. Unc and wifey went on some church retreat over the weekend, didn't even bother to inform their family that they were driving hundreds of miles in pretty wicked blizzard. The 20 year old came up to me yesterday morning and asked me where the hell his parents were!!! I dunno...it's just odd.

Anyway, all's good, ya boy's hangin' in there
Hopefully, I'll be getting some good news later today.

 

[PreTTy PeTe]

I hope it all works out for you willsboy.......

I learned a long time ago not to worry so much about others but to make sure I do the right thing for myself.

love your uncle if you want....love that he was there for you when you needed it but in the end take care of yourself.

2011 is your year I'm sure

 

[willsboy84]

Three places to check out this week. Still got my fingers crossed for a call back at a place I looked at last week....

It's frustrating as hell though. Actually have enough put aside for security, 1st and last months, just gotta find a damned place!!! As much as I don't want to be there, I'm sure Unc's ready for us to go as well, lol.

And while it sucks losing all your shit, I've really been trying to remind myself how much worse things could've been. I mean, it's fortunate that the fire happened at the time that did. Had it occured in the middle of the night while I was sleeping...I'd have probably slept right through burning the hell up. I sleep HAAAAARD...when I'm out, I'm fucking OUT!!!
Also, as I was sitting around being angry about losing material things, I remember something that happened over here a couple of years ago. A girl I'd went to school with, didn't know her personally, just someone I knew OF, who'd died in a housefire, along with her mother & children. Just an awful, awful situation, but it's reallly kind of put things in perspective for me.

Anyway, hope ya'll enjoyed the holidays. Me, not so much, but like I said, I'm hanging in there. I was long overdue for a good kick in the ass anyway, so I'm looking at this situation something to learn and grow from.

BTW, much thanks and appreciation for all the kind words of support and encouragement, and again, I apologize(somewhat) for my original rant.

 

[jizzeater]

Good luck finding a place soon.