luckyass69
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But I really like this story because it hits close to home!
I wrote about it you should check it out.
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inthecloset
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I'm working on Chapter 5 right now. It's long and i think you all will be pleased with it 
This story is really good! 
I love the friendship they have and really feel emotional for Cameron's unfortunate turning point 
His bright future is defuncted by stupid Craig 
Good job and I hope to read the next chapter soon! 
I love the friendship they have and really feel emotional for Cameron's unfortunate turning point His bright future is defuncted by stupid Craig Good job and I hope to read the next chapter soon! 
inthecloset
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Hey guys, Update: Chapter 5 should be up within the next couple days....trying to tweak it to make it not only worth reading, but worth the wait.
Thanks for the positive reviews!!
Thanks for the positive reviews!!
inthecloset
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Chapter 5!!
Ok this is gonna get really cheesy.
So here we go…
I was really nervous about my date with Cameron. He wouldn’t tell me where he was taking me, and he just told me to be ready at 6:30. I had to make an excuse for Alexis because the three of us always did stuff together. I was wracking my brain all day trying to find an excuse, but no such luck. I was about to start getting ready when Alexis knocked on my door.
“Hey, I’m going out dancing with some friends tonight and then we’re gonna go to a movie. If you and Cameron wanna meet up with us we’ll probably be going around 8:30.” She said.
“Eh no thanks, we’re probably just gonna sit around at his house and get fat,” I said smiling.
“Ok well if you change your mind, give me a call,” she said and waved at me as she left.
I whispered a thank you up to God when she left the room. Though my issue of the moment was solved, I still had butterflies. I was pacing back and forth in my room looking at my cell phone every 5 seconds. It was only 5:59, what was I obsessing about? I sat down and started watching T.V. I couldn’t find anything interesting so I shut it off and got online.
I went directly to Myspace and saw Cameron was offline. I sent him a text saying “Hey” and got no response. I was getting really nervous. I went into the bathroom to put on more deodorant and fixed my hair a little. I usually just brushed it out of my face and made sure it was flat, but tonight I wanted to look nice.
When 6:29 rolled around I was waiting in the Living room. My parents had already left to this fundraiser for Cameron’s dad. He was running for some city official position I can’t remember what it was. I saw a figure come up to my door and immediately jumped up to answer it. I opened the door before he could reach the bell.
“Ready to go?” I asked.
“Yeah, boy you’re excited,” He said.
“And you’re not?”
“Well, I’ve been planning what we’re gonna do tonight,” He said smiling.
“Right which is…?”
“Ah ah ah, what’s a date without a little suspense?”
I frowned at him when he refused to tell me what was going on. He knew I was a total control freak and I could tell he was enjoying how he was messing with me. I was about to protest to his mind games when he grabbed my hand and led me to his car.
We were driving for about an hour but the time just flew by. I spent the entire car ride holding his hand and looking at him. I was mesmerized by the sunset making his brown hair glow, and though he was wearing sunglasses I stared deep at his bright green eyes. We finally stopped and he turned off the car. He took off his sunglasses and stared back into my eyes. No words needed to be said, I knew neither one of us wanted to let go of each others hand.
We got out and I saw the sign to Red Robin’s my favorite restaurant. I smiled at him and put my hand on his shoulder as we walked in. We had to act casual because this was a popular place. Though we’d eaten here together before, Alexis was always with us. I was a little nervous to how this would look, I wasn’t sure if I was ready for people to know so soon. But Cameron didn’t seem worried; in fact he was acting like he usually did.
We sat in a booth in the back and talked back and forth. We saved relationship talks for a more private scene though. I just told him that I was getting nervous about college and everything and he told me about how his schedule was looking.
“Look…about yesterday,” He said, “I just want you to know, I’m not ashamed about what I said or did. I avoided you because I thought you wouldn’t feel the same way about me, and I was scared about what you might say…”
“Cam…you never have to be scared. Even if I didn’t respond the way I did, I would’ve supported you and I would never ever say anything to hurt you,” I said grabbing his hand.
“Thanks.”
“You can always tell me anything,” I said.
“Anything? I think anything I tell you after this won’t seem like much,” He joked.
“Yeah, I guess you’re right,” I said smiling.
“Well since I can tell you anything…I kinda told the waitress that I wanted her to bring you something.”
“What?”
“You’ll see…” He said grinning.
At that moment, our waitress came out with 2 slices of double chocolate cake, my favorite dessert. They had little graduation caps on them and whipped cream on the edges. I gave his foot a little kick and turned and smiled at him.
“Why did you do this?” I asked.
“You spent 4 months taking care of me. I want to spend the rest of my life taking care of you,” He said.
I didn’t have anything to say to that. I just stared deep into his eyes. I wanted to kiss him and I would have if we weren’t in such a public area. We finished our dessert and went back out to the car. When we both got in I leaned over and kissed him.
“Whoa what was that about?” he asked, but obviously wasn’t protesting it.
“For what you said. I love you Cameron Diaz and I want to let you take care of me,” I said.
“I love you too Josh Gordon,” he said smiling.
He pulled me in for another kiss. They weren’t slopping, tonguing kisses, but passionate, soft kisses. He drove us back to his house, with his arm constantly around my shoulder with me leaning into him. When we got to his house he got a big smile on his face.
“You know…I’m not wearing any boxers,” he said giving me a sexy dirty look.
“Good,” I said, returning the look, “Less effort on my part.”
“What do you say we pick up where we left off last night?” He asked.
“I was thinking the same thing…”
We were two steps inside his bedroom when I felt him turn me around and pick me up. He pushed my legs around his waist and started kissing me with his hands around my back, holding me up. He glided over to his bed and gently placed me down. He started unbuttoning his white over shirt exposing his white tank top. He leaned over my waist and pulled up my dark blue t-shirt. He started kissing my stomach going upwards, pulling my shirt up a little more every time he moved until it was completely off, where he met my lips in a deep kiss.
He then went back downwards following the same path and lightly gliding over my stomach which tickled me. I giggled a little and he looked up and smiled. He did it again and it made me shiver this time. He reached his hands up to my belt and started unbuckling it.
“Hey,” I said slapping his hands away, “you’re still fully clothed. I hardly think it’s fair to make me the only naked one.”
“You’re right,” he said dropping his over shirt off and ripping his tank top open and dropping it on the floor.
“Sexy,” I said.
“Only to impress you stud,” He said smiling.
He went back down to my belt buckle and pulled off my belt. With his left hand he rubbed my crotch through my jeans and with his right he unbuttoned them. He pulled the zipper down and dragged my jeans off. His left hand kept rubbing my crotch as he examined my boxer briefs.
“Nice undies, your mommy buy them for you?” he joked.
“Oh I am so making you pay for that,” I said.
“I highly doubt that,” he said.
He grabbed my waist and pulled me up against the edge of the bed. He plunged his face into my crotch and started nibbling at my boxer briefs. I gasped a little as I felt his fingers slip under my waistline. He gently pulled at it slowly. He moved his mouth up to my belly button and followed his fingers down as he slowly but surely pulled off my underwear. Then with one sweeping motion, he pulled my briefs off and threw them across the room.
“Wow,” He said as he gazed at me, “You look good naked.”
He smiled a big toothy smile at me.
“It’s not easy to pull off this look,” I said.
“Hmm…” He said as he unbuckled his pants, “Think I can pull it off?”
His pants dropped to the floor and I gasped. He was bigger than I imagined. He looked to be about 7 inches but my sense of measurement is shitty.
“Oh definitely,” I said.
“Now let’s get to business babe,” he said with a wink.
He got on his knees in front of me and pushed me on my back. I felt his fingers on my dick. He was holding me so lightly it was almost like he wasn’t there. Then, I felt his tongue at the base of my shaft, slowly going up. I shivered as he did this. He moved his other hand from my stomach to my leg and started caressing it. He was so gentle in his movements I had to keep looking down to make sure he was still there.
It wasn’t long before he really started getting into it. He started licking my cock more aggressively and then started to take the whole thing in his mouth. It was unbelievable how good it felt. About 5 minutes into it I started to feel myself go over the edge.
“Cam…” I gasped, “I’m gonna…UHHH…cum…”
He didn’t seem to care that I said it, and just kept going with his movements. I grabbed his hair and pushed into him and exploded in his mouth. He took every drop of it in and got up to kiss me. It was weird to taste myself in his mouth…but it was also really sexy.
“That…was…amazing…” I said.
“I know,” he smiled.
“Your turn?” I asked.
“No, we’ll take care of me later. It’s you that deserves it,” he said poking my side.
I jumped at the jolt of him poking me.
“You ticklish babe?” he asked with a grin.
He started poking me over and over tickling me onto the bed. He did this for some time until I pinned him onto the bed, holding his wrists up above his head. I leaned in to kiss him and he broke free of my hold and wrapped his arms around me. We both laughed harder than ever before that night.
“I could just stay here in your arms forever…” I said.
“Same here, all I want to do is hold you,” he said squeezing me a bit.
We fell asleep like that for a while. It wasn’t until about midnight when I woke up to my phone ringing in my jeans pocket. I got up slowly to answer it so I wouldn’t wake Cameron. I will never forget what I heard on the other end of that phone.
“Josh, it’s Mom…Alexis died…”
Ok this is gonna get really cheesy.
So here we go…
I was really nervous about my date with Cameron. He wouldn’t tell me where he was taking me, and he just told me to be ready at 6:30. I had to make an excuse for Alexis because the three of us always did stuff together. I was wracking my brain all day trying to find an excuse, but no such luck. I was about to start getting ready when Alexis knocked on my door.
“Hey, I’m going out dancing with some friends tonight and then we’re gonna go to a movie. If you and Cameron wanna meet up with us we’ll probably be going around 8:30.” She said.
“Eh no thanks, we’re probably just gonna sit around at his house and get fat,” I said smiling.
“Ok well if you change your mind, give me a call,” she said and waved at me as she left.
I whispered a thank you up to God when she left the room. Though my issue of the moment was solved, I still had butterflies. I was pacing back and forth in my room looking at my cell phone every 5 seconds. It was only 5:59, what was I obsessing about? I sat down and started watching T.V. I couldn’t find anything interesting so I shut it off and got online.
I went directly to Myspace and saw Cameron was offline. I sent him a text saying “Hey” and got no response. I was getting really nervous. I went into the bathroom to put on more deodorant and fixed my hair a little. I usually just brushed it out of my face and made sure it was flat, but tonight I wanted to look nice.
When 6:29 rolled around I was waiting in the Living room. My parents had already left to this fundraiser for Cameron’s dad. He was running for some city official position I can’t remember what it was. I saw a figure come up to my door and immediately jumped up to answer it. I opened the door before he could reach the bell.
“Ready to go?” I asked.
“Yeah, boy you’re excited,” He said.
“And you’re not?”
“Well, I’ve been planning what we’re gonna do tonight,” He said smiling.
“Right which is…?”
“Ah ah ah, what’s a date without a little suspense?”
I frowned at him when he refused to tell me what was going on. He knew I was a total control freak and I could tell he was enjoying how he was messing with me. I was about to protest to his mind games when he grabbed my hand and led me to his car.
We were driving for about an hour but the time just flew by. I spent the entire car ride holding his hand and looking at him. I was mesmerized by the sunset making his brown hair glow, and though he was wearing sunglasses I stared deep at his bright green eyes. We finally stopped and he turned off the car. He took off his sunglasses and stared back into my eyes. No words needed to be said, I knew neither one of us wanted to let go of each others hand.
We got out and I saw the sign to Red Robin’s my favorite restaurant. I smiled at him and put my hand on his shoulder as we walked in. We had to act casual because this was a popular place. Though we’d eaten here together before, Alexis was always with us. I was a little nervous to how this would look, I wasn’t sure if I was ready for people to know so soon. But Cameron didn’t seem worried; in fact he was acting like he usually did.
We sat in a booth in the back and talked back and forth. We saved relationship talks for a more private scene though. I just told him that I was getting nervous about college and everything and he told me about how his schedule was looking.
“Look…about yesterday,” He said, “I just want you to know, I’m not ashamed about what I said or did. I avoided you because I thought you wouldn’t feel the same way about me, and I was scared about what you might say…”
“Cam…you never have to be scared. Even if I didn’t respond the way I did, I would’ve supported you and I would never ever say anything to hurt you,” I said grabbing his hand.
“Thanks.”
“You can always tell me anything,” I said.
“Anything? I think anything I tell you after this won’t seem like much,” He joked.
“Yeah, I guess you’re right,” I said smiling.
“Well since I can tell you anything…I kinda told the waitress that I wanted her to bring you something.”
“What?”
“You’ll see…” He said grinning.
At that moment, our waitress came out with 2 slices of double chocolate cake, my favorite dessert. They had little graduation caps on them and whipped cream on the edges. I gave his foot a little kick and turned and smiled at him.
“Why did you do this?” I asked.
“You spent 4 months taking care of me. I want to spend the rest of my life taking care of you,” He said.
I didn’t have anything to say to that. I just stared deep into his eyes. I wanted to kiss him and I would have if we weren’t in such a public area. We finished our dessert and went back out to the car. When we both got in I leaned over and kissed him.
“Whoa what was that about?” he asked, but obviously wasn’t protesting it.
“For what you said. I love you Cameron Diaz and I want to let you take care of me,” I said.
“I love you too Josh Gordon,” he said smiling.
He pulled me in for another kiss. They weren’t slopping, tonguing kisses, but passionate, soft kisses. He drove us back to his house, with his arm constantly around my shoulder with me leaning into him. When we got to his house he got a big smile on his face.
“You know…I’m not wearing any boxers,” he said giving me a sexy dirty look.
“Good,” I said, returning the look, “Less effort on my part.”
“What do you say we pick up where we left off last night?” He asked.
“I was thinking the same thing…”
We were two steps inside his bedroom when I felt him turn me around and pick me up. He pushed my legs around his waist and started kissing me with his hands around my back, holding me up. He glided over to his bed and gently placed me down. He started unbuttoning his white over shirt exposing his white tank top. He leaned over my waist and pulled up my dark blue t-shirt. He started kissing my stomach going upwards, pulling my shirt up a little more every time he moved until it was completely off, where he met my lips in a deep kiss.
He then went back downwards following the same path and lightly gliding over my stomach which tickled me. I giggled a little and he looked up and smiled. He did it again and it made me shiver this time. He reached his hands up to my belt and started unbuckling it.
“Hey,” I said slapping his hands away, “you’re still fully clothed. I hardly think it’s fair to make me the only naked one.”
“You’re right,” he said dropping his over shirt off and ripping his tank top open and dropping it on the floor.
“Sexy,” I said.
“Only to impress you stud,” He said smiling.
He went back down to my belt buckle and pulled off my belt. With his left hand he rubbed my crotch through my jeans and with his right he unbuttoned them. He pulled the zipper down and dragged my jeans off. His left hand kept rubbing my crotch as he examined my boxer briefs.
“Nice undies, your mommy buy them for you?” he joked.
“Oh I am so making you pay for that,” I said.
“I highly doubt that,” he said.
He grabbed my waist and pulled me up against the edge of the bed. He plunged his face into my crotch and started nibbling at my boxer briefs. I gasped a little as I felt his fingers slip under my waistline. He gently pulled at it slowly. He moved his mouth up to my belly button and followed his fingers down as he slowly but surely pulled off my underwear. Then with one sweeping motion, he pulled my briefs off and threw them across the room.
“Wow,” He said as he gazed at me, “You look good naked.”
He smiled a big toothy smile at me.
“It’s not easy to pull off this look,” I said.
“Hmm…” He said as he unbuckled his pants, “Think I can pull it off?”
His pants dropped to the floor and I gasped. He was bigger than I imagined. He looked to be about 7 inches but my sense of measurement is shitty.
“Oh definitely,” I said.
“Now let’s get to business babe,” he said with a wink.
He got on his knees in front of me and pushed me on my back. I felt his fingers on my dick. He was holding me so lightly it was almost like he wasn’t there. Then, I felt his tongue at the base of my shaft, slowly going up. I shivered as he did this. He moved his other hand from my stomach to my leg and started caressing it. He was so gentle in his movements I had to keep looking down to make sure he was still there.
It wasn’t long before he really started getting into it. He started licking my cock more aggressively and then started to take the whole thing in his mouth. It was unbelievable how good it felt. About 5 minutes into it I started to feel myself go over the edge.
“Cam…” I gasped, “I’m gonna…UHHH…cum…”
He didn’t seem to care that I said it, and just kept going with his movements. I grabbed his hair and pushed into him and exploded in his mouth. He took every drop of it in and got up to kiss me. It was weird to taste myself in his mouth…but it was also really sexy.
“That…was…amazing…” I said.
“I know,” he smiled.
“Your turn?” I asked.
“No, we’ll take care of me later. It’s you that deserves it,” he said poking my side.
I jumped at the jolt of him poking me.
“You ticklish babe?” he asked with a grin.
He started poking me over and over tickling me onto the bed. He did this for some time until I pinned him onto the bed, holding his wrists up above his head. I leaned in to kiss him and he broke free of my hold and wrapped his arms around me. We both laughed harder than ever before that night.
“I could just stay here in your arms forever…” I said.
“Same here, all I want to do is hold you,” he said squeezing me a bit.
We fell asleep like that for a while. It wasn’t until about midnight when I woke up to my phone ringing in my jeans pocket. I got up slowly to answer it so I wouldn’t wake Cameron. I will never forget what I heard on the other end of that phone.
“Josh, it’s Mom…Alexis died…”
musicalgenius14
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Oh wow... definitely didn't see that one coming.
Great chapter! There will be more right?
Great chapter! There will be more right?
sexmadboy29
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Hope we get more soon
rEStiNPeaCe
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His twin sister is dead? I didn't see that coming. I think Josh might be feeling really guilty for not bringing Alexis that night.
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“Cam…” I gasped, “I’m gonna…UHHH…cum…”
He didn’t seem to care that I said it, and just kept going with his movements. I grabbed his hair and pushed into him and exploded in his mouth. He took every drop of it in and got up to kiss me. It was weird to taste myself in his mouth…but it was also really sexy.
“That…was…amazing…” I said.
Love the the story and the sex. Two hot guys. But what a twist at the end. Thanks and keep it cumming!
He didn’t seem to care that I said it, and just kept going with his movements. I grabbed his hair and pushed into him and exploded in his mouth. He took every drop of it in and got up to kiss me. It was weird to taste myself in his mouth…but it was also really sexy.
“That…was…amazing…” I said.
Love the the story and the sex. Two hot guys. But what a twist at the end. Thanks and keep it cumming!
inthecloset
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Ok guys I'm working on Chapter 6. You're gonna hate me because of this chapter. Glad to see I turned some heads with that twist.
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Dude I"m Hooked!
inthecloset
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SORRY!
Things have been picking up at work lately.
I'm almost done!
Things have been picking up at work lately.
I'm almost done!
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SORRY it took so long guys. Here we go....
Chapter 6:
The rain came in waves that day. Sometimes it poured, sometimes it came down soft, but it never stopped all day. Someone once told me that God was in the rain, and that it was his way of reaching all of us. Unfortunately, I doubted that God was with me that day. I spent as much time as I could alone in my room, staring out the window. I watched the water streak down the glass for hours. Around 5 p.m. my mom walked into my room.
“Josh…honey it’s time to go,” she said.
“I’m not going,” I said.
“What do you mean?” she asked.
“If I go…then it means she’s really not coming back. I don’t think I can handle that,” I said with my eyes watering up.
“Josh, you can’t stay here,” She said.
“Why not? I’ve spent my entire life having things taken away from me. Shouldn’t I get one thing, just ONE thing to say ‘This…this I get to keep’? Why should I have to let go of everything I care about?!” I said.
She didn’t say anything; she just motioned for me to follow her. I followed her into the living room and saw my Dad, my aunts, my grandparents, and Cameron. I never looked Cameron in the eyes, but I knew he looked nice. We all started getting into the cars. Cameron never let go of my shoulder except to get into the other side of the car. When we got in he put his hand on mine, but something in me made me pull my hand away and put it in my pocket. I didn’t look at him but I knew he was upset.
The drive seemed to take forever, and every fiber of my being was screaming at me to jump out of the car and run away as far, and as fast as I possibly could. I could tell Cameron knew what I was thinking because he put his hand on my shoulder again. This time I lifted my hand up to his and held it there.
When we got there, and we got out of the cars, the tears started pouring out of my eyes and down my face. Cameron came over and quickly wrapped his arms around me and I cried on his shoulder, wrapping my arms around his neck.
I hardly remember the funeral. I cried through most of it. I don’t remember anything anyone said, and I don’t remember much about looking at her coffin. The only thing I really remember is what happened after.
I walked out of the building before anyone else and started walking out towards the trees behind it. I stood there for God knows how long before I felt someone grab my shoulder. I turned around and saw Cameron staring at me with puffy eyes.
“I saw you walk out,” He said.
I said nothing in return just stared at his eyes. Even after he had been crying he still looked beautiful.
“Look, Josh, I know how you-“
“No you don’t…Cameron…” I snapped, “You don’t know how I feel. You know why? I don’t feel anything anymore. Alexis wasn’t just a sister to me. She was always there for me. No matter what happened, no matter what bad thing happened, she was always there to fix it. I could always count on her to help me. Now, I don’t have that guarantee anymore and I don’t have my sister anymore; so no, you don’t know how I feel.”
“Josh, you aren’t the only one hurting here. I’m in pain too. Alexis was family to me too but that’s not all that’s hurting me. It hurts that you won’t let me be there for you. Now I know you’re in pain, and I want us to be there for each other, but if you need time I’ll give it to you. I know you’re in a dark place now, and when you’re ready to come back, I’ll be waiting to pull you out,” He said.
The image that’s burned into my mind is Cameron walking away from me that day. I wanted so much to run after him, but I couldn’t. I just watched as he walked away from me, hoping he’d turn around and come back.
For weeks it was all over the news. I remember the local anchorwoman announcing it on the first report
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“Tragedy strikes our small town of Monroe as three teenage girls are killed in a car accident. Alexis Gordon, Michelle Ryan, and Chloe Sanchez, recent graduates from Monroe High School, were hit by a drunk driver as they were exiting the movie theater parking lot. The driver has been identified as Marco Gardez who had a Blood Alcohol Level of 3.0. He has been taken into Police Custody and is facing court arraignment within the next week. In other news…
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June went by fast. I did everything I could to avoid being at home. I picked up every shift I could at the video store, got another job at a local bookstore, and ran every errand my parents needed done. I did anything I could just to stay out of the house, except for one thing. Cameron and I barely spoke, even when our shifts at the video store overlapped; we barely said anything to each other. The most he did was pat me on the shoulder as he came in and as he left each time. I wish I could say that I was affected by it, but I couldn’t feel anything at all; much less feel guilty.
The days flew by and as the end of July approached, and the school semesters loomed over us, I knew there was something I had to do. I had to make things right with Cameron, especially if I was going to leave him behind when school started.
I walked from my house to his, trying to come up with what I was going to say. It took about 10 minutes to get there and I couldn’t think of a thing. I walked up to his front door and knocked. My heart was pounding as fast as it was 2 months ago when I was pulling up that night in my car.
I saw a figure come up to the door, and then disappear. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. ‘Come Inside’ was the text Cameron sent me. I opened the front door and walked down the hall towards his bedroom. I started having several flashbacks. I saw blood on the floor where it was the day Cameron was attacked, I saw my backpack next to the door as it usually was everyday after school, and lastly, I saw my sock laying in the hallway. It was the last piece of clothing I grabbed when I ran out the door after my mom called me that night. I opened his door and saw him standing there with one long stem rose in his hand.
“I’ve bought one of these everyday since we last talked waiting for you to come back,” he said. “I never gave up on you.”
“Cameron, I don’t know if I’m ready for this. I don’t know if I’m ready for anything. I just want to make sure, that if anything, we’re still best friends,” I said.
“Josh, I love you. And if that means letting you have your space, then I’m more than happy to wait a little longer. I’ve been waiting for 4 years, what’s another 4 months?” he said.
I could tell what I said was really hurting him. I wish I could have told him what he wanted to hear, but I wasn’t ready for it.
“Cameron, I love you too. I love you more than you realize, but if we start this now, I’m just going to end up hurting you. I still want to be a part of your life, but I’m leaving soon and I couldn’t handle doing that to you. I’m sorry,” I said.
I turned around and walked outside. Clouds had formed again, the third time this week, and I could smell rain in the air. I started walking and about halfway home the rain started falling. I was starting to get soaked when I heard someone call out my name. I turned to see Cameron running towards me with something in his hands.
“Josh!” He yelled.
I stopped in my tracks and waited for him to catch up. I could tell he had been crying a little.
“I couldn’t let you leave without this,” He handed me a receipt. “I kept this from our date. It helped me keep my faith in you; that you would come back to me soon. I want you to have it. Don’t lose your faith Josh, I never lost mine.”
He looked me deep in the eyes and I could tell he was about to cry again.
“Josh, I know you’re leaving, but I am prepared to do anything at all to be with you. If that means I have to drive 1000 miles in one day to see you for 5 minutes…then bring it on. I’m not about to lose you too,” he said.
I couldn’t help myself. I leaped forward and wrapped my arms around him. He pulled his head back a little to reposition us and kissed me deeply, with the rain falling gracefully on our heads. For the first time in two months I felt that God was with me, in the rain.
Chapter 6:
The rain came in waves that day. Sometimes it poured, sometimes it came down soft, but it never stopped all day. Someone once told me that God was in the rain, and that it was his way of reaching all of us. Unfortunately, I doubted that God was with me that day. I spent as much time as I could alone in my room, staring out the window. I watched the water streak down the glass for hours. Around 5 p.m. my mom walked into my room.
“Josh…honey it’s time to go,” she said.
“I’m not going,” I said.
“What do you mean?” she asked.
“If I go…then it means she’s really not coming back. I don’t think I can handle that,” I said with my eyes watering up.
“Josh, you can’t stay here,” She said.
“Why not? I’ve spent my entire life having things taken away from me. Shouldn’t I get one thing, just ONE thing to say ‘This…this I get to keep’? Why should I have to let go of everything I care about?!” I said.
She didn’t say anything; she just motioned for me to follow her. I followed her into the living room and saw my Dad, my aunts, my grandparents, and Cameron. I never looked Cameron in the eyes, but I knew he looked nice. We all started getting into the cars. Cameron never let go of my shoulder except to get into the other side of the car. When we got in he put his hand on mine, but something in me made me pull my hand away and put it in my pocket. I didn’t look at him but I knew he was upset.
The drive seemed to take forever, and every fiber of my being was screaming at me to jump out of the car and run away as far, and as fast as I possibly could. I could tell Cameron knew what I was thinking because he put his hand on my shoulder again. This time I lifted my hand up to his and held it there.
When we got there, and we got out of the cars, the tears started pouring out of my eyes and down my face. Cameron came over and quickly wrapped his arms around me and I cried on his shoulder, wrapping my arms around his neck.
I hardly remember the funeral. I cried through most of it. I don’t remember anything anyone said, and I don’t remember much about looking at her coffin. The only thing I really remember is what happened after.
I walked out of the building before anyone else and started walking out towards the trees behind it. I stood there for God knows how long before I felt someone grab my shoulder. I turned around and saw Cameron staring at me with puffy eyes.
“I saw you walk out,” He said.
I said nothing in return just stared at his eyes. Even after he had been crying he still looked beautiful.
“Look, Josh, I know how you-“
“No you don’t…Cameron…” I snapped, “You don’t know how I feel. You know why? I don’t feel anything anymore. Alexis wasn’t just a sister to me. She was always there for me. No matter what happened, no matter what bad thing happened, she was always there to fix it. I could always count on her to help me. Now, I don’t have that guarantee anymore and I don’t have my sister anymore; so no, you don’t know how I feel.”
“Josh, you aren’t the only one hurting here. I’m in pain too. Alexis was family to me too but that’s not all that’s hurting me. It hurts that you won’t let me be there for you. Now I know you’re in pain, and I want us to be there for each other, but if you need time I’ll give it to you. I know you’re in a dark place now, and when you’re ready to come back, I’ll be waiting to pull you out,” He said.
The image that’s burned into my mind is Cameron walking away from me that day. I wanted so much to run after him, but I couldn’t. I just watched as he walked away from me, hoping he’d turn around and come back.
For weeks it was all over the news. I remember the local anchorwoman announcing it on the first report
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“Tragedy strikes our small town of Monroe as three teenage girls are killed in a car accident. Alexis Gordon, Michelle Ryan, and Chloe Sanchez, recent graduates from Monroe High School, were hit by a drunk driver as they were exiting the movie theater parking lot. The driver has been identified as Marco Gardez who had a Blood Alcohol Level of 3.0. He has been taken into Police Custody and is facing court arraignment within the next week. In other news…
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June went by fast. I did everything I could to avoid being at home. I picked up every shift I could at the video store, got another job at a local bookstore, and ran every errand my parents needed done. I did anything I could just to stay out of the house, except for one thing. Cameron and I barely spoke, even when our shifts at the video store overlapped; we barely said anything to each other. The most he did was pat me on the shoulder as he came in and as he left each time. I wish I could say that I was affected by it, but I couldn’t feel anything at all; much less feel guilty.
The days flew by and as the end of July approached, and the school semesters loomed over us, I knew there was something I had to do. I had to make things right with Cameron, especially if I was going to leave him behind when school started.
I walked from my house to his, trying to come up with what I was going to say. It took about 10 minutes to get there and I couldn’t think of a thing. I walked up to his front door and knocked. My heart was pounding as fast as it was 2 months ago when I was pulling up that night in my car.
I saw a figure come up to the door, and then disappear. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. ‘Come Inside’ was the text Cameron sent me. I opened the front door and walked down the hall towards his bedroom. I started having several flashbacks. I saw blood on the floor where it was the day Cameron was attacked, I saw my backpack next to the door as it usually was everyday after school, and lastly, I saw my sock laying in the hallway. It was the last piece of clothing I grabbed when I ran out the door after my mom called me that night. I opened his door and saw him standing there with one long stem rose in his hand.
“I’ve bought one of these everyday since we last talked waiting for you to come back,” he said. “I never gave up on you.”
“Cameron, I don’t know if I’m ready for this. I don’t know if I’m ready for anything. I just want to make sure, that if anything, we’re still best friends,” I said.
“Josh, I love you. And if that means letting you have your space, then I’m more than happy to wait a little longer. I’ve been waiting for 4 years, what’s another 4 months?” he said.
I could tell what I said was really hurting him. I wish I could have told him what he wanted to hear, but I wasn’t ready for it.
“Cameron, I love you too. I love you more than you realize, but if we start this now, I’m just going to end up hurting you. I still want to be a part of your life, but I’m leaving soon and I couldn’t handle doing that to you. I’m sorry,” I said.
I turned around and walked outside. Clouds had formed again, the third time this week, and I could smell rain in the air. I started walking and about halfway home the rain started falling. I was starting to get soaked when I heard someone call out my name. I turned to see Cameron running towards me with something in his hands.
“Josh!” He yelled.
I stopped in my tracks and waited for him to catch up. I could tell he had been crying a little.
“I couldn’t let you leave without this,” He handed me a receipt. “I kept this from our date. It helped me keep my faith in you; that you would come back to me soon. I want you to have it. Don’t lose your faith Josh, I never lost mine.”
He looked me deep in the eyes and I could tell he was about to cry again.
“Josh, I know you’re leaving, but I am prepared to do anything at all to be with you. If that means I have to drive 1000 miles in one day to see you for 5 minutes…then bring it on. I’m not about to lose you too,” he said.
I couldn’t help myself. I leaped forward and wrapped my arms around him. He pulled his head back a little to reposition us and kissed me deeply, with the rain falling gracefully on our heads. For the first time in two months I felt that God was with me, in the rain.
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Well done.
Craiger
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Beautifully written and very much worth the wait. I hope there is more of the story to come, but, if not, at least we know that peace is with their world once again.
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Chapter 7 should be coming up soon. I've already written a lot of it at this point. Should be up tomorrow evening.