Hell, I was told to introduce my self in the 'introduction forum'---can i FIND it...? ...no. so i will have to do it here
I am a 'sad quere'. I have never really been able to fit in....why?
cause when i was a youngen...going yearrrrrs back, . alright you've dragged it outta me, i grew up in the 1960s......! and in the UK, ....and even the CONCEPT of 'being gay' wasn't even ....it just wasn't . it was completely taboo
now. at the time i was a good lookin boy, and was popular wiz ze girrrls. this was a curse!----why??
because it meant i was drawn into this surreal double life which seriously fucked me right up. see i am not bi-sexual. i believe there ARE bisexuals. but i wasn't on that part of the spectrum. i was totally into males, YET---and even a counsellor i had who i tried to explain it to couldn't dig it. can I??..i didn't know what i was. i lied to myself. i was a secret exhibitionist. i would go out and loved exposiong my self to lone males walking about., even cross country runners. in our local park. so not even caring if some of the older students at my school might recognize me flashing...!
i went out with this girl for over 3 years. we didn't even fuck, but would snog and snog. i was doing it tho i 'wouldn't admit it to myself' to fit in with my peers who was doing it
at 15 i came out--ish. but i am afrad this early mindfuck has had bad effect on my life. i am not in anyway hunting for pity, sympathy. i am tellin it like it is. and if anyone out there reading this maybe has experienced anything similar or is doing , well they may not feel so alone
NOW QUESTION----i have never ever subscribed to A porn website. so i need to know how safe it is. for example, the one i want to try is a real pervy one called dadsonfilm. they say you can have a trial run for 3 days, but if you dont CANCEL they keep taking money out of your account!!!!! and if you go for their main one of 20 odd dollars they will do the same lessen you cancel. so i am wary. i need to know if anyone has payed that site and how easy it IS to cancel. i wouldn't want stress of not being able to cancel and my money disappearing
I am a 'sad quere'. I have never really been able to fit in....why?
cause when i was a youngen...going yearrrrrs back, . alright you've dragged it outta me, i grew up in the 1960s......! and in the UK, ....and even the CONCEPT of 'being gay' wasn't even ....it just wasn't . it was completely taboo
now. at the time i was a good lookin boy, and was popular wiz ze girrrls. this was a curse!----why??
because it meant i was drawn into this surreal double life which seriously fucked me right up. see i am not bi-sexual. i believe there ARE bisexuals. but i wasn't on that part of the spectrum. i was totally into males, YET---and even a counsellor i had who i tried to explain it to couldn't dig it. can I??..i didn't know what i was. i lied to myself. i was a secret exhibitionist. i would go out and loved exposiong my self to lone males walking about., even cross country runners. in our local park. so not even caring if some of the older students at my school might recognize me flashing...!
i went out with this girl for over 3 years. we didn't even fuck, but would snog and snog. i was doing it tho i 'wouldn't admit it to myself' to fit in with my peers who was doing it
at 15 i came out--ish. but i am afrad this early mindfuck has had bad effect on my life. i am not in anyway hunting for pity, sympathy. i am tellin it like it is. and if anyone out there reading this maybe has experienced anything similar or is doing , well they may not feel so alone
NOW QUESTION----i have never ever subscribed to A porn website. so i need to know how safe it is. for example, the one i want to try is a real pervy one called dadsonfilm. they say you can have a trial run for 3 days, but if you dont CANCEL they keep taking money out of your account!!!!! and if you go for their main one of 20 odd dollars they will do the same lessen you cancel. so i am wary. i need to know if anyone has payed that site and how easy it IS to cancel. i wouldn't want stress of not being able to cancel and my money disappearing
