I just started accepting my sexuality just recently. I guess I knew I had some sort of attraction to guys sometime in high school or even before that, but I really never thought much of it. Most of my focus has always been on girls. It was just until the beginning of my senior year in high school where I realized that I liked guys just as much as I liked girls. It freaked me out. I didn't understand why I couldn't just choose one or the other. I still enjoyed the rest of my senior year, but at the same time I had this whole internal struggle with myself that bothered me a lot. Just a couple months ago I've finally become comfortable with myself. I haven't had any sort of physical or emotional relationship with a guy yet, but I am absolutely sure I'm bi. Now I'm just struggling with the whole coming out thing.
Just felt like typing the above because it feels good to tell someone, even if its some random person.
I haven't officially told my family. I thought I was pretty good at hiding my porn, but I guess I'm not.
My sister, my mom, and my dad have all seen my porn by accident.
My sister found it while she was downloading a song and I forgot I was downloading gay porn when I let her use the computer. We got into this REALLY awkward conversation. I was really confused at the time, so I didn't come out to her. I just told her I was curious. She thinks I'm just going through a "phase" and we haven't talked about it since.
My dad found bi porn when he clicked into a folder. He then told my mom and showed it to her. My mom ended up confronting me about it and asked me if I was gay. I told her I wasn't and that I was just curious. She lectured me about the "Christian" way of life. Although she wasn't mad at me. None of us have brought up the subject again, and I think they both believe I'm going through a phase.
I do plan on eventually coming out to them, but at the moment I don't think I have the courage to.
So far I've come out to three friends from my inner circle. All three of them are girls.
The first one I came out to was my ex. We became really close friends after we patched things up after 3 months of not talking. We got really comfortable with each other again and took our relationship to friends with benefits, because we both thought that if we got back together it wouldn't work out. We were having this talk about secrets two months ago, and I let it slip that I had one BIG one. When I told her she was shocked, she didn't expect that. But she was fine with who I was . A couple weeks later she told me that she was bisexual too and was afraid to admit it to me when I told her because she wasn't sure.
The second friend a came out to was someone I've known since pre-school. We were having a deep conversation in her car, and I told her I was bi. To my surprise, she told me she was bi too. We both ended up talking about what we've been going through, and how neither of us expected the other to bi.
I just came out to my third friend two nights ago. We were having a goodbye party since everyone was leaving for college, and everyone had left. I stayed a little bit to help clean up. We were having this serious moment while we were talking and reminiscing, it was then when I told her I was bi. She was surprised too. She told me I was the last person she would think would not be straight out of our group friends. She was very supporting of it and told me she would be there for me no matter what.
As for the rest of my friends, I do plan on telling all of my inner circle of friends when I find the right time to tell them individually. I don't think I could handle all of their reactions as a group. I don't plan on telling all my other friends anytime soon, unless I get to the point where I can trust them enough with that information. There are a couple friends who I know are extremely homophobic and I don't think I'll ever be able to tell them.
I'm more worried about the reactions of friends from my past. For people I meet in the future, I think I'd be more willing to tell them once I reach that point of trust.
I've only dated girls, but this was before I realized I was bisexual so obviously I never told any of them. As for future gf's or bf's, I think I'll be honest with them once the relationship becomes serious. Or maybe even from the beginning, not sure yet.
I don't think I'd tell a casual sex partners that I'm bi. I guess I've told one, but she's also a close friend.
I'm 18 and I've never had a job
. Although I do plan on looking soon. I've never had experience with a work environment, so I don't know if I'd tell anyone at work. I probably wouldn't.
I wouldn't tell random people. As for showing any sort of public affection or interaction towards a guy, I think I'd be able to do it. I'm really not sure, since I haven't been in a relationship with a guy.
Whoa, after looking at the preview post, I didn't realize how much I wrote. Sorry for the long read. Thanks for taking the time to read everything.
