Rockafellar_Skank
Virgin
OK so i feel completly pathetic right now...my ex dumped me like we were living together and finally he decided with everything thats happening right now with his school and what not that he doesnt have enough time for a boyfriend and for him to continue dating me would not be fair to me...well first off i believe him when he says this which either means i am a damn fool or hes being honest which means that he really does care about me. He also mentioned that at the end of the semester which is the end of december he would have more time in his life which makes me think he might want to get back together and so for the past 3 months ive been getting my life in order but still overall waiting on him and it tends to make me feel pathetic about everything because u hear about how much in love all these people are and how magical their relationships are and i look back at my situation and it makes me wonder if im just being stupid for waiting because i mean to be honest u dont wait for time to get a boyfriend u get a boyfriend and u make time and thats what ive always done in relationships ive always found ways to make time. any wayz halloween comes and he ask me to come to his halloween party so i go and we end up sleeping together and i stay the night and its like instantly im back in boyfriend mode and well the next day is almost over and i ask him what did all of it mean and he says well to be honest you know i care about u but sex is just sex which translate into nothing relationship wise has changed and of course this fucks me up because i think that things are finally back to normal or whatever and they're not and i wish that i could wish to move on with my life but i cant ...