I am Straight but fantasize and wank over gay porn everyday?!

[UC3543]

I used to say the same thing you are saying - exactly the same, until one day I figured out that I was gay, but just in denial. Just my experience

 

[deserter85]

But I wank over gay porn everyday, I find guys attractive in a number of ways; their cock, body and ass.
I get turned on by gay porn and wank, but as soon as I am going to orgasm I realise my true attraction and imagine a hot girl or tits, pussy etc then the next day do the same thing.

Dude, you're gay. Very, very gay.

Homosexuality is defined as "having a sexual attraction to persons of the same sex".

You're gay. Ok, maybe bisexual. But in no way are you 100% straight.

You are probably imagining the hot girl/tits because you're in denial and justifying your sexual fantasies by adding girls in to make it "not gay".

I used to think that I'll probably get married to a girl and continue having sex with guys as that makes me "not gay". Then I realized I'm an idiot. A very miserable, depressed idiot.

Now that I am in a loving relationship with a GUY whom I can have hot, crazy sex with, I'm much happier.

I hope that you can come to terms that you're gay so that your internalized conflict will be alleviated.

 

[spencer]

Do you think that the biggest male sluts on the scene that score different men every weekend have " emotional or romantic feelings to males"?

Don't label yourself, just go out and be free and found out what you're attracted to. But don't do the on the side stuff, just don't settle down or be with one person at a time.

 

[NephilimSin]

You said in your own words, "but I wank over gay porn everyday, I find guys attractive in a number of ways; their cock, body and ass."
Just the fact that you find yourself attractive to men "sexually" (which you do you) or emotionally makes you gay. Who ever said that finding a gender emotionally or romantically attractive defines your sexuality?
You are in fact sir, a bisexual. Regardless to the fact you don't have any romantic nor emotional feelings towards men.

 

[GayJB21]

dude, you are so gay or bi!....i have never ever heard of any 100% straight guy wanking over gay porn...lol

 

[FootballMuscle]

A lot of younger gay guys do not have romantic feelings for other guys. That's one of the reasons why gay culture is so sexual.

You could be fantasizing about having a dick or body like the guys in the porn you look at, but you're also following a pattern of just about every single guy on this site who once labeled himself straight.

It was smart of you to come here though. We can answer questions, and we won't tell anyone.

 

[LoveIsNow]

Did someone say me at 16?

I used to do the same thing. I would jerk off to men and then, when I was about to come anyway, think about a girl and say that I was "straight" because "the thought of a girl made me cum". I look back and think it's pathetic. And hilarious.

I also used to say that I didn't have emotional feelings for men, because I felt it was taboo. When I let myself, I found I had these feelings, and I had had them all along, I just misinterpreted and denied them.

 

[G-Lexington]

Well, I can tell you what I think. It's worth exactly what you're paying for it, though.

Most gay guys I know don't (or wouldn't) "feel ill" at the thought of being in a romantic/emotional relationship with a woman. It's not "them", mind you, and it's not something they aspire to, but it's not something that make them physically sick. And I don't want to put words in the mouths of my straight friends, but I don't think my straight male friends would be sickened by the idea of them in an emotional/romantic relationship with another guy. Again, not something they want, or that they think is gonna happen, but it doesn't nauseate them. It'd be more like "Can you picture yourself walking on your hands the rest of your life?" They'd say no, but they wouldn't go "EW! NO!"

The fact that you say it makes you ill is, I think, very telling. It doesn't prove that you're straight - it proves that you have a mental block when it comes to same-sex relationships.

And you look at gay porn. Not on rare occasions to spice things up. But pretty much exclusively. Guys turn you on...until orgasm, when the non-sexual part of the brain takes control again, and you can once more resume the "straight facade".

I'd like to suggest something to you. Something to try out, that nobody but you has to be privy to.

Just try it out.

For a few days, just pretend you're gay. Full on. Don't adopt any phony mannerisms or anything, but just try being gay. Check out guys surreptitiously if you like. Look at gay porn - not in the shamefaced, "this isn't really what I am" sort of way, but in the exciting, "yeah, this shit really turns me on" sort of way. Look at the guys, and focus in on the parts you like, and fantasize about doing to them (or them doing to you) absolutely anything you want. Moan, groan, talk dirty. And when you hit orgasm, don't bring the guard back down. Ride the wave. Sit there with come and sweat all over you, with a goofy post-orgasmic grin, and think "DAMN, that was hot." And think about what parts you want to watch next time...and what else you might want to see.

Just try it out. If you're not gay, it'll be no big deal. But if you are, it'll fit.

Lex

 

[Seasoned]

You say you are straight, but your profile says bisexual. Do you have sexual dreams? Who are you dreaming about? Stay open. We are who we are. In the end the most difficult person we come out to may be ourselves. Love yourself.

 

[Jerry]

Yep, I did the same thing too.

I'd look at pictures of guys and masturbate, then feel guilty about it when I was done and sometimes I'd rip up the picture I was looking at, or just feel really bad about myself.

Now I've been able to accept what and who I am much more than I could then, and I know I like guys. My boyfriend knows too.

 

[Lube]

Many gay guys have been through what you're going through, as you can see from the previous posts.

It's OK. Really.

You're scared. We were all scared once, too. It's scary being different.

But, really, let it go. It's OK to enjoy sex with men. Tell yourself that. And I think Lex's idea was very interesting. Pretend you're gay. Try to get comfortable with it. I did something like that once with my family. You see the world in a completely different way. You also see people's prejudices and how mean they can be.

But own it. It's who you are. I hope you grow to love yourself as many of us have. Good luck! And keep us posted.

 

[dairyking469]

I feel the same thing right now.

You aren't alone.

 

[bcurius]

None is 100% straight. I do like watching gay porn, but I can't say that I would like someone to fuck me.. (Although I could fuck a guy once, just for the experience, and/or curiosity)
Furthermore, I believe all straight men dream of having a threesome with a girl and a guy (probably their best friend etc.) some time in their life...

 

[KaraBulut]

It takes a lot of energy to worry over words like gay, straight, bi, etc.

The question is when you're going to redirect that energy into discovering where this attraction will lead you. Or maybe you're not ready to find out where it will lead and that's the issue?

 

[chillyboi]

Only time will tell!

 

[trav715]

Having no emotional feelings for guys is actually quite common among bisexuals. I know tonns of guys like you that refuse to engage in any sort of emotional relationship with men. I hope you realize that that kind of mentality is completly ridiculous. A relationship between two men is just as real and commendable as a straight couple. But since society WANTS you to be straight I can understand why you would prefer dating women over men...especially if you find them more attractive than men.

And don't be ashamed at looking at gay porn. It's the best.

 

[bankside]

Okay, so guys make you horny, but you think about women once you have taken care of the horniness.

As long as I don't have to think about women while I'm actually horny, then I'm straight too!

 

[creatus]

I know I am straight because I have no emotional or romantic feelings to males never have and never will as it makes me feel ill, but I wank over gay porn everyday, I find guys attractive in a number of ways; their cock, body and ass.
I get turned on by gay porn and wank, but as soon as I am going to orgasm I realise my true attraction and imagine a hot girl or tits, pussy etc then the next day do the same thing.

Any advice or replies from people who do the same thing or anyone who can help me understand!

Thanks

This sounds like me... several years ago. By the way, how old are you?
Well, I can tell you - you will try it in the real life. The only question here is wether it will be tomorrow or 10 years later. And, if you choose the second option... then one day you will regret these 10 years you wasted meaninglessly, just wanking at porn.
Well, of course I can be wrong now... but I don't think so.

 

[Deandbn]

Why put a label on yourself - it's so confining and restricting.

Instead of calling yourself str8, why not just be you yourself and go out and have some fun with some boys, then go have some fun with some girls and see what you like best.

Maybe you'll get the shock of your life and find you like one, or even both! Yeah!!

ps: dont wait years cos youre to scared to have some fun while youre still young cos maybe youll eventually find that you have wasted all those years for nothing.

pps: I promise you that the boys would love to have some fun with you, and im sure the girls will too. Just try them.

 

[Captain53]

I know I am straight because I have no emotional or romantic feelings to males never have and never will as it makes me feel ill, but I wank over gay porn everyday, I find guys attractive in a number of ways; their cock, body and ass.
I get turned on by gay porn and wank, but as soon as I am going to orgasm I realise my true attraction and imagine a hot girl or tits, pussy etc then the next day do the same thing.

Any advice or replies from people who do the same thing or anyone who can help me understand!

Thanks

I spent most of my adult life thinking and feeling the way you do. Now I am divorced and have fallen in love with another man. Was the straight life I led a total loss: not at all. However, I have come to accept that my strongest sexual attraction is to other men. And I am blessed to have met someone who knows my past and accepts me for who I was and who I am. As others have said here, the only way you will ever know for sure is to have sex with another man, and not just watch in on video. The real thing is so much better