I can't believe I am at this point. . .

[makeurowndstny]

To start off, I never once ever thought I would be in this situation. I have always tried to keep my emotions in check and have always wanted to be against this stereotype, but here I am... guess it shows that you can't help who you fall in love with.

Ok now that my little preface is out of the way (by the way this is going to be long, sorry) I guess it is time for me to start. I'm in love with my straight best friend, but the plot twist is that he loves me back. And quite frankly, I don't know what to do.

I will start with our relationship. He is a flirt, in all aspects of the term. He will grab my nipples, bite my neck and ear, grab my crotch and ass and constantly hug me (all of this in public). He knows all of this turns me on and I have told him time and time again that he makes me horny and I want to just have sex with him. His response is "if you get me drunk enough." Its actually funny because he has never once told me know. He will either say, a couple of more shots or that I wouldn't want to sleep with him because he is "bad in bed."

So the first time we got drunk together, we were playing video games and such. We got really fucking drunk and he kissed me. It wasn't anything major, it just caught me off guard. He goes on to tell me that he is glad to have met me, tell me how awesome I am, and then made me pinky promise to never leave and to always be there. Then he proceeded to kiss me again. It ended up being 4-5x that night. No tongue or anything, just long kisses on the lips.

The only things to note is that he tells me he loves me a lot and is always making me promise not to leave him. Also if I flirt with anyone, guy or girl, he has to come in and intervene and do something to me (ie, grope, molest, even kiss on the cheek). We also cuddle a lot.

The next time anything serious happened, was when we were hanging out with a group of people. My roommate (lesbian) brought a girl she was talking to to hang out with us. Well, my best friend being the flirt that he is was flirting with her and the girl was flirting back, but the girl took it to the next level and actually thought my best friend was interested. She then started ignoring my roommate so I got mad at my best friend because he knew that she was my roommates date. I know I overreacted to the situation and I still feel bad for it, because its not usually like me to over react. I regret my words, but I told him that I was disappointed in him. He got really upset and went into my roommates room and started to cry while talking to one of my mutual friends. They left my roommates room and he went into the bathroom while our mutual friend said "That was a good fuck" as to distract people from him crying. Well my roommates "date" didn't like that so she pushed our friend out of the way and went into the bathroom after him. My jealousy/protection of him and my roommate kicked in and I yelled to her to get out of the bathroom, her response was "you can't tell me what to do" so I flipped and ended up kicking her out of my apartment. My best friend at this point came up from behind her, grabbed me by my arm and dragged me to my room. He asked why I was mad at him and I told him that he hurt my roommates feelings and just continued to ignore it. He then told me that he didn't want the girl and he sincerely thought it was innocent. When I told him she didn't think so, he started crying again so I gave him a hug. He then looked at me and went in to kiss me, but took it one step further and started making out with me. He then told me that he loved me, would do anything he could for me, told me he wishes he could give me everything I needed and then finally, what caught me the most off guard... "I really wish I could be gay for you, all I want is you." He also told me that when he says he loves me he's not just saying it, but meaning it. I told him it was fine and we're best friends and I wasn't going to go anywhere then he started making out again. After 15 minutes of reassuring and me holding him while he finished crying. So after he finally stopped crying he was like "I know I'm not the best kisser, but I tried." So I responded that I would happily make out with him again, so we kissed again and that time he got even more passionate with it. So the night ended, we ended up falling asleep cuddling and then we moved on. The next day, the only comment that he made was "I meant everything I said last night." So I dropped him off at home and because he lives an hour away I haven't seen him. We only really see each other on weekends. We talk via text and facebook nonstop though. We're gonna see each other on Friday. Its our "bro-date" as he calls it.

I just don't know how to take it. If I talk to another guy, he gets jealous. He is constantly telling me how he wishes he could give me the world. And he has never once denied my advances. He actually told me that with me and him there is no line, so I will never cross a line. I just don't know what to do. How to feel. Any advice? I feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.

PS- If you took the time to read all of this, thank you. I know I can get wordy and rambley. Lol

 

[MoltenRock III]

So, my gut tells me he loves you, but he is not gay. The hardest thing for US males to learn is that you can have emotional intimacy without sexual intimacy, likewise have sexual intimacy without emotional intimacy. The best is when you can marry the two!

 

[glasvegas]

Do you have feelings for him? I know once people stepped in the bro zone, it is hard to picture him as a boyfriend. If you have feelings for him, go ahead, try it out, like Molten said, it can be non-sexual. If you just want to be friends, hang on on him alright? He is a good friend, you're so lucky to have him around.

 

[makeurowndstny]

Oh I have feelings for him, I love him dearly. And I want to try it out and I know if I make a move it wouldn't ruin our friendship...

And yes, he is a good friend, I wouldn't give him up for the world.

Oh, I probably should've mentioned that he is moving in with me in a month

 

[glasvegas]

Oh I have feelings for him, I love him dearly. And I want to try it out and I know if I make a move it wouldn't ruin our friendship...

And yes, he is a good friend, I wouldn't give him up for the world.

Oh, I probably should've mentioned that he is moving in with me in a month

Go for it dude. From what you described, he is a cute and nice guy. And there is something about guys crying, he is comfortable of being vulnerable in front of you. Wish you best of luck.

PS: I am so jealous of you!!

 

[medic1]

Hey Buddy.
You have been getting what i think is really great insight,s in this thread
like the other guy,s i say go for it ,to me it is really obvious that the guy may be struggling with his sexual feelings for you.
But from what i have read you both seem to have found something very special(and in the proces made this Scot really jealous).
You don,t want to be sitting down the road in a few year,s thinking What If.
I am wishing you the best,good luck.

 

[HunterM]

Continue to make out with him and see how it goes.

 

[Seasoned]

Give it a try. It's seems as though the two of you are solid friends and if something happens that either of you regret you'll be able to get past it without losing the friendship.

 

[makeurowndstny]

Thanks guys, I definitely am considering just going for it... I think right now its more of my fear of being rejected more than anything else... I've seen him naked, he's seen me naked. I've groped him, he's groped me. I would just rather do it sober, but I honestly don't have the balls, when they call alcohol liquid courage, they mean it. The only reason we've made out is because he initiated all of them. I've only kissed him once when he was upset as a consoling kiss. I really am a coward when it comes to that lol

 

[TX-Beau]

Yeah you're not going to thank me.

Why do you want this guy who you make out to be a basket case- weeping, confusion, denial? And what the fuck is your issue?

This is drama central.

You are "confused" by what? and you don't do anything to clarify.

Are you enjoying the drama? Is that the point?

Any guy who gropes and makes out with me is making himself quite clear, and your confusion is what?

If this is happening the way you say it is, what is the problem? You know he's a cloest case. Better question why would you want him?

Where do you think this might go?

 

[Rolyo85]

Also, he sounds pretty physical to me. How "straight" is he exactly?

 

[medic1]

TX-Buea may come across as a little harsh and uncaring but i think that he does
raise some good point,s.
I for one would be really happy for everything to work-out though at the same time maybe a little caution,because you have mentioned that you both get it on
when either one or both of you are pretty wasted,nowt wrong with a bit of Dutch
courage,and it still seems to me that there is something there,as before good luck m8.

 

[KaraBulut]

Your friend has issues. He's needy. He's emoitionally manipulative. He's seductive and attention-seeking. He probably has a drinking problem.

If you lookup histrionic personality disorder in a psychology textbook, you'd probably find a picture of your friend there.

Whether he's gay or straight is not something you should be concerned about at this point. You should be more focused on how you can be a supportive friend but not get dragged into his drama and turmoil.

If you weren't good friends with him, the advice would be to run away. Run far, far away.