Shattereddreams
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It all started three months ago when he flirted with me online. Apparently this guy called Ben whos Indian and unbelievably cute found out the news about me being bi-sexual. He asked me if he could come over and hang out after a series of questions about my sexuality and sexual experiences. I knew that he wanted to get laid and I wanted him aswell.
He came over. After an hour of awkwardness and silence. We watched porn and started with some foreplay. I sucked his stomach. He was insecure about a birth mark on his abs but I was fine with it. It was sort of cute how embarressed about it he felt.
It didn\\\'t go further than licking his abs and nipples. Apparently he came in his pants. It was the most passionate thing ever. Maybe it was because we didnt go all the way and I wanted more !
Three weeks passed and he did not call me or send me a message but I see him in school everyday. Hes two years older than me which makes him 20 years old. Our school offers college courses which he attends.
Finally he joins the school band even though hes only taking the courses and that makes uncapable of joining. I joined aswell. Fianlly I talked to him about it. He told me hes a virgin and he was going through a guilt phase. One that I went through when I started experimenting.
I felt relieved that it had nothing to do with him not wanting me, it was just a phase. Later that week I invited him over. Now this time things escalated. At first he was reluctant to remove his pants because he had an uncut penis and he recalled me saying I hated uncut penises but for him I\\\'d suck it anytime. When I managed to get him to take it off. I blew him.
That was the last time anything happened between us. I thought it was all over but something about the way he tasted and how passionate he was. I realised I was falling inlove with him. I couldn\\\'t stop thinking about him. I couldn\\\'t stop calling him and I couldn\\\'t stop masturbating to his images.
I dated three people and had sex with two guys after that incident and I still want him and only him but he doesn\\\'t want me back. He always made up lame excuses like I have a football match I wanna watch or got loads of essays to do. So I thought taking a trip would be the best thing to do. Maybe being in another country would really help wash his image off my brain or atleast thats what I thought. I travelled to Lebanon for Christmas. As refreshing and nourishing as it was, I still couldn\\\'t get him off my mind so today I did the unthinkable.
I called him and told him I was obcessed with him and then I was very forward with him. I asked him \\\" Are you ever going to fuck me or not ?, \\\"
He got all angry on the phone and said \\\" Why are you so vulgur, ? \\\" and \\\" Why the hell would you ask that question, ? \\\" It seemed like someone was listening in on our conversation and he was trying to cover something up. So I started saying things like \\\" You can\\\'t let what happened between us happen again, \\\" and then in an interesting turn of events he said I want things to happen between us. My heart beat rapidly. \\\" Okay You wanna come over tommorow ?, \\\" I asked him. \\\" How about next month ?, \\\" he replied !!!!!!
I hate how hot and cold he is !!! Right now I\\\'ve embarressed myself, lost my dignity and have maybe outed myself to his parents and what if they contact my parents and call me a sexual predator even though I am younger than him. My parents would kill me if they found it. I have many excuses ready but thats not the point.
I am an over sexed, lonely boy who fell inlove in a conservative country with a guy whom dosen\\\'t feel the same way......TALK ABOUT YOUR FUCKED UP DRAMA !!!
Judging by the things I have wrote in this post you could see that I am seriousley in need of help. Help beeing less needy, help with damage control and I want to move on.
I know this was long but thank you for reading it and any advice is appreciated !!!
He came over. After an hour of awkwardness and silence. We watched porn and started with some foreplay. I sucked his stomach. He was insecure about a birth mark on his abs but I was fine with it. It was sort of cute how embarressed about it he felt.
It didn\\\'t go further than licking his abs and nipples. Apparently he came in his pants. It was the most passionate thing ever. Maybe it was because we didnt go all the way and I wanted more !
Three weeks passed and he did not call me or send me a message but I see him in school everyday. Hes two years older than me which makes him 20 years old. Our school offers college courses which he attends.
Finally he joins the school band even though hes only taking the courses and that makes uncapable of joining. I joined aswell. Fianlly I talked to him about it. He told me hes a virgin and he was going through a guilt phase. One that I went through when I started experimenting.
I felt relieved that it had nothing to do with him not wanting me, it was just a phase. Later that week I invited him over. Now this time things escalated. At first he was reluctant to remove his pants because he had an uncut penis and he recalled me saying I hated uncut penises but for him I\\\'d suck it anytime. When I managed to get him to take it off. I blew him.
That was the last time anything happened between us. I thought it was all over but something about the way he tasted and how passionate he was. I realised I was falling inlove with him. I couldn\\\'t stop thinking about him. I couldn\\\'t stop calling him and I couldn\\\'t stop masturbating to his images.
I dated three people and had sex with two guys after that incident and I still want him and only him but he doesn\\\'t want me back. He always made up lame excuses like I have a football match I wanna watch or got loads of essays to do. So I thought taking a trip would be the best thing to do. Maybe being in another country would really help wash his image off my brain or atleast thats what I thought. I travelled to Lebanon for Christmas. As refreshing and nourishing as it was, I still couldn\\\'t get him off my mind so today I did the unthinkable.
I called him and told him I was obcessed with him and then I was very forward with him. I asked him \\\" Are you ever going to fuck me or not ?, \\\"
He got all angry on the phone and said \\\" Why are you so vulgur, ? \\\" and \\\" Why the hell would you ask that question, ? \\\" It seemed like someone was listening in on our conversation and he was trying to cover something up. So I started saying things like \\\" You can\\\'t let what happened between us happen again, \\\" and then in an interesting turn of events he said I want things to happen between us. My heart beat rapidly. \\\" Okay You wanna come over tommorow ?, \\\" I asked him. \\\" How about next month ?, \\\" he replied !!!!!!
I hate how hot and cold he is !!! Right now I\\\'ve embarressed myself, lost my dignity and have maybe outed myself to his parents and what if they contact my parents and call me a sexual predator even though I am younger than him. My parents would kill me if they found it. I have many excuses ready but thats not the point.
I am an over sexed, lonely boy who fell inlove in a conservative country with a guy whom dosen\\\'t feel the same way......TALK ABOUT YOUR FUCKED UP DRAMA !!!
Judging by the things I have wrote in this post you could see that I am seriousley in need of help. Help beeing less needy, help with damage control and I want to move on.
I know this was long but thank you for reading it and any advice is appreciated !!!
