I need Help

[BigBoss]

Okay Guys Time to Update,,,

First he has my cell Number in his Mobile in ICE (In Case of Emergency) Section.Thats y the doctors called me,,he left no suicide note
Secondly the poison was enough to damage one of his kidneys.
Third i guess Doctors should prescribe rat poison to ppl like my bf becuz it changed his mind totally,,
After three days at hospital he came to my place,, strange he showered me with kind of love that he used to do before things started to mess up between us.

Fourth i guess i am the problem here,,i been demanding and expected more than his capacity.
I tried meeting other ppl as i mentioned before but somehow i dont let them even touch me as i feel guilty,
I realized that its me who wants to have sex with others ,,may be becuz i think that i am 23 and still have time to explore,,,but i guess love is not about getting what u desire rather its what both partners desire..

BTW thanks every one for ur advice,,you guys really helped me to reach a conclusion and analyze the problem more carefully. And the conclusion is
for now i will be with him,,till i make him find some one better than me which he will with my help. i might get hurt during and after the process but thats all i can do for a Guy that i loved.

 

[G-Lexington]

Big Boss, your choice has been made. All I can say is best of luck.

Lex

 

[StlKj]

Sometimes there really is no better response than .

 

[KaraBulut]

BigBoss:

Thanks for letting us know of your decision.

I can only suggest that you print out this thread so that you will have it for the next time.

 

[silentalk]

Just want to point something out. Don't be certain that he would go for someone else. If he really loves you, then - no matter who he meets - he won't go for anyone. You "might" be the perfect and only one in his eyes, no matter how hard you try to change that.

 

[BigBoss]

Ok today i just thought to update this thread for the last time,,

So after he got discharge from hospital, he came to live with me for a while,,,gradually i decreased the sex count per day,,to a point till a day came when i would even avoid a kiss,,that took 1 1/2 month...so what i observed that he is getting better with his acts,,but i knew it that the bad things would happen again,,so better let him go slowly...

So after few days he had a news for me,,,he was transfered to an other city,,wow thats i wanted,,but he wanted me to have long distance relationship,,,i assured him i will,,,infact some how i was burning from inside that he took the decision without even asking me ,,,so what?..i was also not in mood to keep him...

So when he got shifted,,he kept on calling for few days and was getting emotional,,,after 1st week i finally made my mind to get out of this relationship for full and final time,,,so i had few pack of alcohol. and searched for a person online,,found one and went to have sex with him while i was drunk,,so drunk that i don't even remember the person's face .

So after Having sex with him,,i called my bf and informed him about the whole thing,,and told him that he is now ex for me,,,he kept on using some bad words and started to cry but i kept my self calm and pretended that nothing happened ,,,
So for few more days he kept on calling and always tried to patch up again and he also intimated that he is ready to forgive me,,Oh hell,,I had sex with another guy after few days and when my ex called again i told him that i have become a total slut and i am not repenting on that,,so he stopped calling me,,,

i had a soft corner for him in my heart,,but that eventually dissappeared ,,as once again he proved to be an asshole.,.i had an accident few days back and the medicines and doctor fee dried up my bank account,,one of our common friend told him all about this,,,he called me while i was in the hospital and he asked about my health,,i told him i am going through some financial problem, and i am planning to call my parents for help,,i didn't want my family to worry about me,,thats why i was avoiding that,,,

So instead of offering any help,,,which he should on the ground that we lived together for almost three years,,he kept on asking about the usual health thing,,,
so after all these incidents i never picked his call again,,,but four days back i went to the doctor to find out that i have high blood pressure at the age of 23,,and yesterday i picked his call so to hear that he is planning to get into relationship with someone else.. made my Bp to go even higher,,i told him not to call again i have hypertension and don't want to hear to things like that..,,and today he called me to tell me that how much he cares about me,,and i thought he might care,,

But in the end he told me that his new mate advised him to call me for asking about my bp...he said that his new mate is such a nice person ,,he is not even jealous and bla bla...

I did what i should have done before ,,,My last Words to him were

"Who the fuck is he to get jealous and tell u to call me for asking my health,, I bet he is a jerk as u are,,,and tell him that don't compare me to himself..for he just picked my toilet paper,,"

Omg i finally had the guts to tell him that he is a jerk,,and guess what he hanged up...

Now all of us should pray for his new prey as one day he will come here and write about him the way i did,,

Sorry guys i wanted to vent out everything,,,

 

[G-Lexington]

Most people would just call it over. They wouldn't feel the need to go get drunk, hook up with a guy, have sex, then call the details to your boyfriend-not-boyfriend. That's not "breaking up" - that's "enjoying the game".

I'm not surprised to see the soap opera continuing. And you know as much as I do (and everyone else here does) that it isn't over. I'm sure you'll somehow find a way to keep tabs on him, looking for more ways to make him miserable. Hey, maybe you can fly out to his new city and sleep with his new boyfriend! Wouldn't that be a hoot?

Enjoy the soap opera.

Lex

 

[EvilForce]

Wow, too much drama for me.

Look dude, if you want to be completely self-destructive...knock yourself out. Did you bother (or even remember) if you used protection?

Please, seriously, seek some counseling. At this point I have to say I wonder if you two are better off being together so as not to ruin two couples....but limit the damage to just 1 couple, you and he.

Sorry if that sounds mean....but I'm just laying it on the line. What you have just described, and posted, isn't healthy, normal, adult, romantic interaction. It's kinda messed up dude.

 

[EvilForce]

Actually I just reread this thread from start to finish, and I take back the "kinda messed up" comment.

It's REALLY MESSED UP!

 

[BigBoss]

LOls that how relationship between two males ends up,,,or the other way is to pretend that things are fine,,yeah i am still safe no STDs...or so,,,

Just Doing fine,what ever happened to me,,might be a drama for u,,,but when it would happen to u then don't expect a different comment from my side,,,,

Things are normal now,,,i guess this episode has come to an end,,,
ANd i posted the final thoughts not to share and ask for comments,,,i want to complete the thread,,so that if in my life i am going to repeat such a mistake then instead of asking for help ,,i should come and read my past experiences,,,thats all folks,,,

 

[KaraBulut]

Just Doing fine,what ever happened to me,,might be a drama for u,,,but when it would happen to u then don't expect a different comment from my side,,,,
Things are normal now,,,i guess this episode has come to an end,,,

Congrats on putting the fun into dysfunctional.

This episode is part of what I suspect will be a continuing miniseries of dysfunctional behavior and dysfunctional relationships...until you decide to deal with your issues and get into therapy.

Until then, good luck to you.

 

[BigBoss]

KaraBulut i am doing exactly the way you suggested me to do in your previous posts,,,keeping all these incident on record and sort them out when i need help on similar issues,,,

I have observed that few of members been calling me a psycho,,or some mad person who is mentally unstable,,

The fact is i am just 23 and what you expect of this age?

Obviously i am in learning process and i guess the trial and error basis of learning is my style,,that is why i keeping hurting myself and people around me,,

I guess people here just judged me on the basis of this thread,,,this thread is just one part of my life,,go and read other threads which have been started by me,,if appropriate ..otherwise i am not forcing,,you will find out that i am not that bad the way right now i am portrait by most of you,,e.g

This thread shows my pics and my desire to continue after leaving my bf and obviously some show off..lols
http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?p=3892369&posted=1#post3892369

And this thread is showing that i am beginning to start over with another guy,,that means i am doing all the things in normal way,,

http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?t=215153


Again i want to remind u all that i am just 23 and still learning,,,the reason to post again here is to clear that i am the type of guy that u guys pictured,,

 

[KaraBulut]

KaraBulut i am doing exactly the way you suggested me to do in your previous posts,,,keeping all these incident on record and sort them out when i need help on similar issues,,,

I have observed that few of members been calling me a psycho,,or some mad person who is mentally unstable,,

There's an important distinction that you might have missed from the advice earlier in this thread.

When you are in a dysfunctional and unhealthy relationship, you are trading your self-esteem and self-worth for a relationship. The advice that you were given was to salvage your dignity and put an end to an unhealthy, manipulative relationship.

See... the problem with being in an unhealthy relationship is that pretty soon, you're unhealthy too. And after being in a dysfunctional relationship for a while, you forget what it is to be healthy and normal.

Instead of taking the advice you were given- to end this unhealthy relationship, you re-engaged into the unhealthy relationship and gave in to your boyfriend's attempts to manipulate you.

so i had few pack of alcohol. and searched for a person online,,found one and went to have sex with him while i was drunk,,so drunk that i don't even remember the person's face .

So after Having sex with him,,i called my bf and informed him about the whole thing,,and told him that he is now ex for me,,,he kept on using some bad words and started to cry but i kept my self calm and pretended that nothing happened

To end that relationship, you deceived and manipulated your boyfriend. You got drunk, tricked with someone you met online and then you called your boyfriend and punished him by telling him what you had done.

It's no longer about an unhealthy relationship. It's about two unhealthy people who were in an unhealthy relationship.

You're not psycho. You're cruel. And being 23 is no excuse.

 

[EvilForce]

I have observed that few of members been calling me a psycho,,or some mad person who is mentally unstable,,

The fact is i am just 23 and what you expect of this age?

I just read your other thread about getting an anal fissure from this fling and not using any protection. http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?t=215902

At 23 you know better than this. You now won't know for another 3 months if you been exposed to the HIV virus. Much less HPV or Hep A, B, C. You're being self-destructive. Even if you turn out safe this incident, if you treat this breakup as normal and repeat the process next time you may not be so lucky. So now you have to deal with this anal fissure, and wait for a few more months to be tested again for HIV exposure.

You're a very good looking, young, smart guy, you know better than this. Don't throw your life away like this.

 

[BigBoss]

thanks evil force,,,you are not that evil after all lolsss