Well it happened around the time when I moved to a small town and I didn't make any real friends (I was also starting to think I was gay). It made me sad, but the lobotomy feeling happened a little later. I just started feeling really emotionally numb. However I've moved a lot during my life and felt sad a lot, but never like I've had a lobotomy. But I have real friends now and I accepted being gay a while ago, and the feeling won't go away. I don't see how knowing what triggered this will help the frontal lobotomy feeling go away, 'cause it's still here. The only time it feels like it's gone is when I'm dreaming, but then I wake up and realize it was just a dream.
Sometimes I think that maybe the place I live is just really shitty compared to where I used to live, and that's why I feel like I have a lobotomy. But recently I visited a place where I lived when I was a kid, and the feeling didn't go away. Everything looked the same as I remember, but it just didn't feel the same. It's as if it was a parallel universe version of what I knew when I was little. So that's when I knew for sure that something changed inside me. And I still don't know how to reverse it.
Here's a fact: You can't reverse the way your life unfolds.
Here's another fact: You can always change the way how your life unfolds.
Not to say I'm very religious. But I do believe in fate. At the same time, I do believe in Law Of Attraction(L.O.A). Its a Law, so you can't really deny it. It applies to all of us all the time. Its a very very very big subject to cover. However, here's some basic things you need to know.
The the LOA states: You will get whatever you put your energy & focus to.
Notice that it doesn't say you get whatever you wish?
Question to you is: What energy are you sending to the Universe?
The Universe does not respond to whatever you thought or whatever you will think. It responds to whatever you feel at the present moment. Have you noticed that when you think about a person and you have the feeling of meeting with him (joy or sad), eventually that person will give you a call or you meet him at a party or mall. That's how LOA responds to your thought. It does not care wheather you like it or not. As long as you think and focus & put energy towards that thing, you'll get it. Notice how you keep typing and I assume you did that with full of emotions and feeling on how to express you current situation. Trust me, its not going to get better if that's how you keep feeling.
Here's another good news: You don't have to think how LOA going to make your desire come true, infact, it doesn't make sense at all to have that Ferrari or strike a lottery based on your current financial situation(for instance). It will bring you whatever you focus and give energy too. You just have to know about the what and let LOA do the how.
I suggest you get hold of the Book Law Of Attraction by Michael Losier. He makes LOA easy to understand and he teaches you how to apply it in your daily life. I would say, Practical and logical Michael Losier towers all sucessful authors on Law Of Attraction. You simply have to read one before you die in order to really enjoy the true meaning of life.
