I want a boy! never had sex either! help!

[Hugedickboy]

Well Hi.

I never had a boyfriend nothing like that.
since childhood I had some sexual playings with my neighbours in the village 2 brothers but that was very stupid things.
and had too like this reelationship with a neighbour in the second village this too very stupid things.

and the relationship with my neighbour in my hometown. but the thing is that this boy is 23 years old I'm 20 years old from early childhood hewas interested in me and ofthen tried to fuck me kiss me things like that.

He's bi cause he does girls too. and I really really never liked him cause he's not cute nothing like that I'd say he has very common stupid look. hehe so he managed to convince me to fuck with him just 5 years earlier. and he fucked me to tell the truth it doesn't hurt me at all and I felt absolutely nothing I was like a wood after that I feel so bad so bad that even thought to kill him. I feel sorry abput myself that had first sex with that guy and that was my first contact with boy and well he's got 7 inch cock normal but it didn;t hurt me.

after that I told him that never to come to my house anymore and he agreed. we don;t have any relationship I try to ignore him when I see him I feel so awfull.


the thing is that I think that he's one cause of me gay or bi personality cause from childhood he was forcing me to have relationship with him, almost rapied me once. ad also i don't have father he died when I was 1 month old so I don't remember him. and I was grown with my grandmother and mother so i think that that's 2 cause of my gay or bi personality. cause I don't even know Am I gay or BI.

I like girls too like theit appearances but more like boys think abut boyslook at boys want all cute boys and I'm a kind of person who cares about apperance 100% cause "no good personality could interest me if he's not beautiful extremly beautiful, I'd prefer 100 times a criminal beautiful guy then agood guy but not very beautiful"

So the thing is that I don't have a bpyfriend neither a girlfriend cause I think I'm not active I don't act like gay never cause my naturality is acting like I act as a normal guy I don't have any gay things in acting at all. and think that that's why there is no open interest but the second thing is that, in my country no one acts openly well being gay is not crime here nothing at all ad everything is allowed very well but coming out is difficult here.


for me too there are persons who know I like boys theese are mostly girls.
As a person I allways joke make funny things that all the people die of laghing. and everybody says to me that I ned to be in some "SITCOM" hehee.


to say the truth I have complexes cause I'm afraid to have very close relationship with guys cause there were cases when I felt almost in love and for that.

I can't identify who is gay or not why?? Am I too stupid???


helpppppppppppppppppp meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



there were 5 guys in my life whom I liked very very much but not with all them had a close relationshiop.



cause the guys I like all are straight.



and one thing more I HATE HAIRY GUYS SO MUCH THAT UHHHHHHHHHHH CAN"T EVEN SAY.




WHAT TO DOO??
HOW TO GET A GUY TELL ME HOW TO FEEL ABOUT SOMEBODY THAT HE'S GAY OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT?


CAUSE I WANT TO FUCK WITH SOMEBODY WITH JOY AND LOVE SOMEONE OR LIKE SOMEONE VERY MUCH THERE ARE SOME GUYS I WOULD LIKE TO DO THAT BUT THEY ARE STRAIGHT AND I CAN'T DARE TO ASK THEM SOMETHING ABOUT THIS OR MAKE INTENTIONS.



I'M SOOOOO UNHAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY IN THIS PART OF MY LIFEEEEE

 

[G-Lexington]

Well, I think I've found out why you've never had sex.

Lex

 

[Hugedickboy]

And Whyy????? Hehehe Write It. on thing I had sex with that guy I wrote there which I hate. if you don't call that sex?? hehehe

 

[Lube]

Hi, Hugedickboy*, and welcome to JUB!

Sorry to hear about your first bad experience. Don't let that taint your view of all gay men. Some are like that; many are not. You just have to be picky, and find the right one for you.

I know nothing about Tbilisi or Georgia, but you've let us know that you won't get killed by the gov't for being gay. That's a good start!

You ask how to know if guys are gay so you can make a move on them. Well, how do they know you are gay? They don't, 'cause you're in the closet. You have to let guys know you're gay, so they can let you know they're gay, so you know whether to go after them or not.

Or maybe there's an online site you can use?

*--not the greatest name, but whatever.

 

[954dude]

There's one way to get a man and have sex: go out there and see what happens. Stop thinking so much and complaining, it's a turn off. Gotta dust your shoulders off, go through the pain, get over it, move on, and go forward.

 

[Hugedickboy]

thanks for the comments hehehe

well here are streets in my town gay streets but I don't go there i don't know maybe I'll go but you know I'd prefer "University gay story" rather than a get a man in the street hehehe.

let's see I'm in university here are gays but the thing is they are most femenine I don't like guys like that I prefer bisexuals

 

[Lube]

let's see I'm in university here are gays but the thing is they are most femenine I don't like guys like that I prefer bisexuals

OK, even if you don't like feminine guys, they are gay and--guess what? They probably have gay friends. So even if you don't want to fuck 'em, befriend 'em and maybe you'll expand your view of gay men at university.

 

[Hugedickboy]

Yeah probably well hope to do anything hehe

 

[Just_Believe18]

You need to accept your sexuality and those around you first before you can have what you want. You have a lot of insecurities and your standards for "beautiful bisexual" men are too high. If you want a man, find someone of your own caliber.