gdude30
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Well I turned 18 over a cruise recently. And by that I mean 2 days ago.
I've known I was gay since I was little and learned how to masturbate and everything by myself and discovered the wonders of porn by myself. I sometimes wonder if because I have two gay dad's is the reason I am gay. But I guess it doesn't really matter.
I've dated throughout middle school and high school and it never really worked. And chasing after girls made me depressed for a while.
Anyways I'm better then I used to be and more attracted to bears, daddies, and mature men more then ever. It's hard to control it at work since I see all kinds of hot men there and even on the cruise and when walking around sometimes. Sometimes I think that some of the men that I notice are checking me out or something. Not sure if that's true or not. I'm not really interested in men my age and my body type you could say. Not into the real skinny type who are smooth and look like a teenager or something like that. It's probably wierd that I'm into older guys. But I've always respected and looked up to older men anyways.
I just see oldermen and daddies as being wise, strong, and friendly people. And that's usually what I see. I don't really want to make a move on anyone at work and risk getting fired because I love my job.
I figure I should just try to meet someone some other way. Which is why I joined this place because as soon as I got back I googled some gay forums and this one looked like a good one.
So maybe I'll meet someone or maybe I won't. At least if I don't ever meet anyone I'll know that I tried.
Oh I should probably describe myself. I'm sort of normal weight. I'm getting a little bit of a belly but it's not that much. I am getting sort of hairy. I have a beard coming in, lots of hair around my belly, and a line of hair that seems to go from my chest to my belly which looks kinda cool I think. My hair is black and my eyes are brown and I am mixed with incan and asian ethnicity. I think I little hispanic too. Well my real dad is dead so I can't really prove I have some asian. My face looks sort of boy-ish you could say but with my beard sort of coming in it is getting more rugged.
Man this sounds so wierd talking about men and me being gay. No one knows I am gay or suspects it. And I have never talked to anyone about this before. It's sort of exciting yet wierd at the same time.
Anyways I'm looking for some type of bear/daddy/mature man that could be a friend probably and would be fun to hang out with and someone who I can relate too and also someone who can show me the ways of gay sex. I also want to be careful and don't make a mistake and end up getting killed because I rush or finding the wrong person and get raped. I don't really know if I want to have sex with some random hot guy who I'd probably never see again or find a lover to have sex with. Maybe dating a man would be a good idea. But I don't want to be a male prostitute or anything and end up getting aids or some other disease.
I've already experimented with a dildo and I love it. It's just a small one but I love the feeling of it. Actually..since I've been playing with dildo's recently I shower more to clean my hole for dildo penetration.
Man it sounds so wierd talking about this in a forum with probably hundreds and thousands of gay men.
Uhm anyways yeah I'll stop talking about stuff like that. Anyways maybe I am rushing too much to think about sex..even though I'm really horny and want it. For now I just want to find a gay friend since I really don't have one.
I should say right now that I'm not really into fashion, jewlery, tv, and movies, and stuff like that. I'm not saying all gay guys are into that but gays are stereotyped as that. Actually I don't really know what gay people are like. I assume they are just like any other person except they like men. Afterall that's what I'm like. But I guess I'll learn. Anyways I'll shut up now since I've probably bored the hell out of some people here. So yeah hi people ^_^
I've known I was gay since I was little and learned how to masturbate and everything by myself and discovered the wonders of porn by myself. I sometimes wonder if because I have two gay dad's is the reason I am gay. But I guess it doesn't really matter.
I've dated throughout middle school and high school and it never really worked. And chasing after girls made me depressed for a while.
Anyways I'm better then I used to be and more attracted to bears, daddies, and mature men more then ever. It's hard to control it at work since I see all kinds of hot men there and even on the cruise and when walking around sometimes. Sometimes I think that some of the men that I notice are checking me out or something. Not sure if that's true or not. I'm not really interested in men my age and my body type you could say. Not into the real skinny type who are smooth and look like a teenager or something like that. It's probably wierd that I'm into older guys. But I've always respected and looked up to older men anyways.
I just see oldermen and daddies as being wise, strong, and friendly people. And that's usually what I see. I don't really want to make a move on anyone at work and risk getting fired because I love my job.
I figure I should just try to meet someone some other way. Which is why I joined this place because as soon as I got back I googled some gay forums and this one looked like a good one.
So maybe I'll meet someone or maybe I won't. At least if I don't ever meet anyone I'll know that I tried.
Oh I should probably describe myself. I'm sort of normal weight. I'm getting a little bit of a belly but it's not that much. I am getting sort of hairy. I have a beard coming in, lots of hair around my belly, and a line of hair that seems to go from my chest to my belly which looks kinda cool I think. My hair is black and my eyes are brown and I am mixed with incan and asian ethnicity. I think I little hispanic too. Well my real dad is dead so I can't really prove I have some asian. My face looks sort of boy-ish you could say but with my beard sort of coming in it is getting more rugged.
Man this sounds so wierd talking about men and me being gay. No one knows I am gay or suspects it. And I have never talked to anyone about this before. It's sort of exciting yet wierd at the same time.
Anyways I'm looking for some type of bear/daddy/mature man that could be a friend probably and would be fun to hang out with and someone who I can relate too and also someone who can show me the ways of gay sex. I also want to be careful and don't make a mistake and end up getting killed because I rush or finding the wrong person and get raped. I don't really know if I want to have sex with some random hot guy who I'd probably never see again or find a lover to have sex with. Maybe dating a man would be a good idea. But I don't want to be a male prostitute or anything and end up getting aids or some other disease.
I've already experimented with a dildo and I love it. It's just a small one but I love the feeling of it. Actually..since I've been playing with dildo's recently I shower more to clean my hole for dildo penetration.
Man it sounds so wierd talking about this in a forum with probably hundreds and thousands of gay men.
Uhm anyways yeah I'll stop talking about stuff like that. Anyways maybe I am rushing too much to think about sex..even though I'm really horny and want it. For now I just want to find a gay friend since I really don't have one.
I should say right now that I'm not really into fashion, jewlery, tv, and movies, and stuff like that. I'm not saying all gay guys are into that but gays are stereotyped as that. Actually I don't really know what gay people are like. I assume they are just like any other person except they like men. Afterall that's what I'm like. But I guess I'll learn. Anyways I'll shut up now since I've probably bored the hell out of some people here. So yeah hi people ^_^
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