I'm scizo-effective.

[Kennylingus]

And everytime I am honest about it with people, in their minds it automatically makes everything I've previously said invalid.

There was someone who I was just talking to who confided in me about having a mental disorder and to make his ass feel better I confessed this about myself and I got and "oh" and a "brb" and then he logged off completely. Up until then, this was on of my best friends.

You guys need to know, just because someone has this, doesn't make them some insane invalid. Hallucinations and dellusiontions are completely different.

Sometimes I see and hear stuff that isn't there, but now that I know what my disease is, I know that it isn't real and I don't pay attention to it. I cetaintly don't listen to what some mystical voice tells me. I am very much based in reality, and this diagnosis doesn't invalidate anything that I say.

 

[Kennylingus]

Maybe your friend just had to go somewhere. I was just talking to a friend who said "brb" and then logged out himself, logged back in and out again.

Maybe.

And maybe the dozens of friends that I've told over the years are just waiting for that perfect greeting card to come out.

Despite how I sound, I'm really not bitter. The thing about it, my aunt is a skiz. And it is genetic on the mother's side. But anyways....I used to make fun of her all the time. You see there really is a very thin line between the mentally healthy and the mentally ill. And unlike what the movie quotes say, it's not "One baaad day", it's genetics and drug use.

I've heard a dozens of different versions of that same brb since this happened.
It makes me sad only because I completely understand it.

 

[kevbo]

On the bright side, at least you're not actually a leper.

(Sorry to all lepers out there...)

 

[Hot White Trash]

I think its great that you can and want to tell people, but because a lot of us do not understand different disorders and often react inappropriately it may be better to not disclose it. There is no rule that we must air all of our dirty laundry.

 

[Kennylingus]

On the bright side, at least you're not actually a leper.

(Sorry to all lepers out there...)

If my arm ever fell off, I would be really upset until I started thinking about the pranks I could play on people.

 

[Kennylingus]

I think its great that you can and want to tell people, but because a lot of us do not understand different disorders and often react inappropriately it may be better to not disclose it. There is no rule that we must air all of our dirty laundry.

It's not such a risk here.
Not meaning to offened anyone, but in my life the people I know here don't rank too highly.
That doesn't mean I don't care about your opinions...just that I have people I talk to online and people I have in my life offline as I am sure the rest of you have.

While I have a respect for people's opinion on this website, I certainly wouldn't consider this a place to not disclose anything out of possible shame.

It's a fucking message board.

 

[Kennylingus]

I don't see why it would make any differnece, but that's just me. I'm sure are there are people for whom that would be a deal breaker. I've had people do the same to me when I was dealing with depression. Some people just can't handle it.

Yeah it shouldn't, but it does and for sometimes good reason.

Not to belittle depression. There is no greater killer in teens, I've done a fair amount of research on that as well and I know exactly how dangerous depression really is and how lightly we take it.

But even my own Mother, who I've always been close to will no accept me as I am diagnosed. Instead, she's insisting on that I am faking it.

That probably sounds harsh, but my Mom loves me. Any and every time I've needed even the tiniest bit of help and sometimes even when I didn't, she was there...sometimes to her personal detriment.

I've taken enough psych classes to know that for her it's easier to have me screwing over someone than for me to be deficiant in some way. So I play a long with her. And that's probably wrong... but everything about this is wrong and if it gives her comfort I'll play into it.

 

[Hot White Trash]

I wasn't referring to here or me but to people like the one you started the thread about.

 

[Kennylingus]

I wasn't referring to here or me but to people like the one you started the thread about.

Oh, ok.

Well yeah, I am usually pretty particular about who I tell.
The only reason I told this person was because they admitted to having a mental illness and was very distressed about it. I thought I could help by admitting my own, obviously I was wrong.

Lesson learned though, that's for sure.

 

[asu1117]

It's Schizoaffective Disorder, not Schizo-effective, by the way.

 

[Nomenclature]

And everytime I am honest about it with people, in their minds it automatically makes everything I've previously said invalid.

There was someone who I was just talking to who confided in me about having a mental disorder and to make his ass feel better I confessed this about myself and I got and "oh" and a "brb" and then he logged off completely. Up until then, this was on of my best friends.

You can't take that seriously; talking to someone online isn't exactly "real"; you can't expect someone who's only through text to actually care about you; Since it's semi-anonymous and it isn't face-to-face, people will be assholes online.

Sometimes I see and hear stuff that isn't there, but now that I know what my disease is, I know that it isn't real and I don't pay attention to it. I cetaintly don't listen to what some mystical voice tells me. I am very much based in reality, and this diagnosis doesn't invalidate anything that I say.

Well, keep in mind that many people with schizophrenia can't control their hallucinations. It causes a lot of people to give in to violent tendencies in an effort to calm down their tormenting hallucinations. You may have a mild form of it and be able to control yourself with or without medication, but you ARE the exception; most people associate it with people who can't control it.