I'm so going to hell...

[RyanKilter]

And I'm afraid it's probably going to be here on earth.

I'm sure a lot of you guys went out and had some crazy fun.

But I on the other hand... I think I need a straightjacket.

Freaked with my best girlfriends bf who happens to also be my bosses son.
Made a big obnoxious mess of my reputation
Totally had my way with a drunk co-worker... poor boy -was- straight.
And to top it all, pretended to still be drunk/high so the host's bf would take advantage of me and... yea well you know....

I feel lower than scum right now. So low...



1. This was the same gf that gave me her ex when he mentioned he was curious...
2. I so need to gtf out of town...
3. I feel really bad and I'm praying he doesnt make an issue of it. We were both drunk and we're 19 & 20... so...
4. Yea... I think this is the point where I admit to myself that I f'd it big time.

idk why the heck I'm posting this really. i just feel so horrible.


ho/slut/homewrecker/drunk/idiotic moron/f'd up....

 

[Jeimuzu]

*hugs*

I think you should just personally apologize to everyone involved. I really don't think you're the only one who made a mistake here, keep that in mind.

 

[Kyanimal]

Uh ... I might take the route of, "Party? What Party??" badgrin: )

Good Luck!!

And ... oh, yeah! ...

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz

P.S.

 

[Christopher123]

Well... I doubt this will be any consolation, but we all do stupid shit once in a while. Or what WE consider to be stupid anyway, stupid to ourselves. I kind of had a similar experience with a guy I hardly knew. Which is rare for me because I'm really shy and NEVER start anything. But we were at a party (not this year, it was a couple of years ago) and both of us were drunk as skunks and we danced together, then ended up on the grass in the back yard. Now, keep in mind this was a huge party and people were running in and out of the house; hanging out inside and outside as well (the kegs were all out in the garage) so we're talking a big indoor/outdoor party here. Again, let me stress, I'm a shy person and would never do something as devious (haha) as having sex at a party in front of a bunch of other people. But there I was, flat on my back in the grass, making out with this guy while PEOPLE WERE WALKING BY US.

I was so drunk that night I had to pull my car over to throw up, lol. And yeah, I was so drunk I assumed I was okay enough to drive. It's a damn wonder I even made it home.

So let's see, I got drunk, made a jerk of myself, made out with some dude in the grass in front of other people, got behind the wheel of a car when I shouldn't have, and puked everywhere.

Soooo... you're not alone. I'm sure there are others here with similar experiences, maybe even worse than ours

 

[star-warrior]

Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes. Oscar Wilde.

 

[SilverRRCloud]

Yeah, you fucked it up royally. You are right.

That's why people go to such parties and drink themselves into stupor. It is an excuse, sort of a license.

Do not sweat it too much! You seem to be genuine and very honest in expressing your regrets here... we really do not know, what this other dude was really having on his mind, while all of the the previously described was taking place.

So, let's apply the good ole' 'What happens in Vegas...' and try to learn for the future.

SC

 

[thinksnowdc]

Heh... heh... sounds like fun to me.

Listen to the others--sounds like their past experiences can help you put it all into perspective.

 

[RyanKilter]

Come on, it was a party and by what you said, you were not the only person making out or making a fool of himself. So, you lost one reputation--now you are free to create a truthful reputation and start by being yurself.

So true hehe, I wasn't the only one. It's true people use these things as a liscense.
Anyway, after my nap I feel so silly having posted something like this, I'm sure a new silly queen does domething silly everyday.

There were a few points i totally couldn't mention online just in case >.> but I explained things to my gf, seriously one of the coolest women on earth. Oh how I wish she were a man sometimes...

o.0

Back to subject:
I think all I really can do now is take this day as a it is, a new day, a new chance. Change a few things that are going wrong, wrong enough to have let moi get outta hand.

 

[Kyanimal]

Ryan, Bud!

You seem to have gotten at least ONE thing Right! If you told your gf EVERYthing, and she's still talkin' to ya, then, yeah!, she must be one of the coolest women on Earth!!

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz

 

[Christopher123]

Actually Chris....That sounds kinda hot...........

Yeah, but it was so unlike me!

lol

I just wanted him to know he's not the only one that does stuff to make you question your own sanity

(oops, typo)

 

[bluedragon4]

Hello! You are a young kid. You are suppose to fuck up. Now if you don't learn from it than you are in trouble.

 

[Kyanimal]

Please note the words above my "Siggy" pic ...

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz

 

[Newbie_69]

Happens to me all the fucking time.Not much you can do. Just "Next!". That's it, you have to move on.

 

[luminum]

While we all make stupid ass mistakes, what people rarely do thats eparates them from being total jackasses is learn from their mistakes and excercise restraint.

So in short, don't do it again!

And if apologies need to be made and talks need to be had, have them. Confront these issues now so they don't become bigger and blow up on you and make the whole thing worse.