is there anything wrong with me

[Love_chair]

Hey everyone and KennyD you asked why I live with my mother well I just haven't moved out yet am kinda a momma's boy not ashamed of it we have a very strong relationship when I told her I was gay 3 years ago she said (oh don't worry I already new that come help me set the dinner table were talk eating)you see am 20 and my dad died when I was 16 and so I came out to everyone when I was 17 so I never got to tell my dad but my mom told me he suspected it which makes me feel better and just recently she was diagnosed with cancer at age 43 and so its a very hard time for me and my whole family and am helping her through the process of chemotherapy were taking it one step at a time and if she dies it would just devastate me and so am trying to stay strong and keep my head up

 

[screwnutty]

Hey everyone and KennyD you asked why I live with my mother well I just haven't moved out yet am kinda a momma's boy not ashamed of it we have a very strong relationship when I told her I was gay 3 years ago she said (oh don't worry I already new that come help me set the dinner table were talk eating)you see am 20 and my dad died when I was 16 and so I came out to everyone when I was 17 so I never got to tell my dad but my mom told me he suspected it which makes me feel better and just recently she was diagnosed with cancer at age 43 and so its a very hard time for me and my whole family and am helping her through the process of chemotherapy were taking it one step at a time and if she dies it would just devastate me and so am trying to stay strong and keep my head up

I wish you and your mom the best. I too was a momma's boy. She passed away early this year due to heart failure. I miss her a lot! You don't have to explain yourself to anybody!

Good luck to you and your mom. If you ever feel lonely and just want to chat. I'm here for you. Check out my profile for my msn handle.

you take care now!

 

[rareboy]

I think that your father dying when you were 16 and the relationship with your mother and your fear of her dying may have a lot to do with you being emotionally bottled up.

One more reason why I would suggest talking to someone about a lot of this stuff. If you don't and god forbid, she may have terminal cancer, you may spend the rest of your life coming to terms with all of this. Maybe you need to have a heart to heart with your mother to start with.

I have to assume you're looking for some guidance because your original post talks about fear and disassociation.

Good Luck.

 

[screwnutty]

Did somebody call for a Doctor!!

 

[NomineDetracto]

i think rareboy gives some great advice.

 

[Love_chair]

Did somebody call for a Doctor!!

LOL I like that video thanks alot screwnutty made me laugh and thanks for all the advice rareboy and everyone I really appreciate it you no am the baby of the family am 20 my sisters 22 my brothers 23 I always say the best one comes last and my brother says (no am the first so am the best) I be like yeah sure whatever in a playing way my sisters like (well am the only girl so am number 1 all by myself how you like that) LOL we always act dumb like almost all siblings do my sister had no problem with me being gay she walked in on me

painting my toe nails I do that when I get bored and then take it off with
fingernail polish remover I like the pretty colors shes like I smell nail polish and she walked over to my bed and looked down to my feet and she seen it and I was alittle worried at first and she said first words out of her mouth are you gay and am like yeah and she said Oh I figured something was up and I said are you mad and she said mad no alot of my friends even told me they thought you were

because of the way you act and as your sister of course I noticed it to so no not surprised and I don't care I still love you and if anyone makes fun of you tell me and I will slap the motherfuckers she started laughing and so did I my sisters kind of a wild child but my brother had a small problem with it at first because hes a very macho straight masculine kind of guy and am very feminine me and my brother are not anything alike we are so different it's hard to believe we are even

brothers LOL but I told him 3 years ago and it took him some time but now hes fine with it theres no problem with me and him he accepts me now and am glad well I think I have talked to much I get carried away LOL sorry am hungry going to make me something to eat later

 

[screwnutty]

Your welcome Love_Chair. The clip is from a movie called Doctor Detroit. It was one of the first movies Dan Ankroyd did . I saw it back in the days when you had to rent VCR's (because they went for 1200 bucks back then! 1983) Yes...I'm old. I'm 32!

I think it was funny? I can't really remember it very much...have to rent it again sometime! LOL