Esquire0399
Be My Baby...
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I was in love with him. Hell, I still am in love with him, and probably will be for a long time. But as of a few hours ago my seemingly perfect boyfriend and I have gone our separate ways.
From the very beginning I knew I liked him, but I honestly don't remember a single point before he asked me to be his boyfriend when I felt like I was ready to be in a relationship. At this point in my life I'm just too consumed in building my future and didn't ever really see how a new person would fit, especially not one requiring the obscene amount of attention my bf did. I think that was the downfall - I just didn't ever feel like I was in the relationship for me.
That said, I fell in love with him because I couldn't help it, and for a period I did enjoy being in that relationship. But when I discovered his unwillingness to even attempt to sympathize with the tough situation I'm going through right now, I began feeling distant. I began feeling as if he was more interested in demanding all of my time and energy and less interested in my own wellbeing.
He must have sensed the imaginary distance because he told me that if I was unhappy in the relationship I should let him know. Tonight I did, and I got all of my feelings out, and that was the end of it.
Right now I'm feeling slightly empty, very sad, somewhat confused, and, as much as I hate to admit this, relieved. Sooner or later I'll be back to myself, but right now I'm just feeling a little off center. My Feng Shui is not happy with me tonight.
The moral of this story: Relationships and love can be awesome, until they're not anymore.
From the very beginning I knew I liked him, but I honestly don't remember a single point before he asked me to be his boyfriend when I felt like I was ready to be in a relationship. At this point in my life I'm just too consumed in building my future and didn't ever really see how a new person would fit, especially not one requiring the obscene amount of attention my bf did. I think that was the downfall - I just didn't ever feel like I was in the relationship for me.
That said, I fell in love with him because I couldn't help it, and for a period I did enjoy being in that relationship. But when I discovered his unwillingness to even attempt to sympathize with the tough situation I'm going through right now, I began feeling distant. I began feeling as if he was more interested in demanding all of my time and energy and less interested in my own wellbeing.
He must have sensed the imaginary distance because he told me that if I was unhappy in the relationship I should let him know. Tonight I did, and I got all of my feelings out, and that was the end of it.
Right now I'm feeling slightly empty, very sad, somewhat confused, and, as much as I hate to admit this, relieved. Sooner or later I'll be back to myself, but right now I'm just feeling a little off center. My Feng Shui is not happy with me tonight.
The moral of this story: Relationships and love can be awesome, until they're not anymore.