its 4 am and i cant sleep :/

[menRsexii]

ive got a lot running through my mind all of a sudden, at a really inconvenient time.

as you all now, i recently just got into a relationship. i really like the guy for a lot of reasons, but for some reason, in this early morning, i cant stop thinking about my ex (or whatever you wanna call him -- the guy i was seeing for a couple months from the beginning of the school year)

i feel so stupid even giving it a thought, but i realize i really do miss him :/ i think we had a lot of potential and maybe i just gave him away too quickly, without even really trying.

i guess you could say that right now im feeling some regret, but who doesnt every so often?

is it normal to be feeling like this? i always seem to want the guy i cant have. if it were the other way around, and i was still in a relationship with the other guy, id probably want my boyfriend even more. im so f*cked up sometimes, seriously. im always searching for something better (part of my perfectionism trait) and i cant be happy with what i have, right in front of me.

well anyways, im still technically friends with my ex on facebook and whatnot, but i honestly didnt want to see his posts, so i unsubscribed to his feed. i think it hurt me that he didnt even seem to care that what we had, whatever it was, was over. my time to him i guess was invaluable so why i keep thinking about it -- i dunno. i need to get my priorities straight.

welcome into my head at... its 5 am now! well, yes these are my absurd, crazy thoughts. i appreciate any and all of those that choose to endure in my sporadic thought process.

 

[menRsexii]

hard-up, you always know exactly what to say to make me feel better and for that i say thanks! i really appreciate your advice -- you seem to know what youre talking about

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haha and i dont know if this is a good thing or not, but i dont think im going to get any sleep tonight/ today. its 6 am now and my mom is making me coffee along with her im ready for the day already

 

[menRsexii]

aww too bad you didnt ask for them a couple hours earlier -- i had some for dinner and everything!

 

[menRsexii]

just trying to be honest. i would never want to upset you -- you have helped me so much here!!

 

[menRsexii]

sorry id bring some to you if you were closer :/

 

[rareboy]

ive got a lot running through my mind all of a sudden, at a really inconvenient time.

as you all now, i recently just got into a relationship. i really like the guy for a lot of reasons, but for some reason, in this early morning, i cant stop thinking about my ex (or whatever you wanna call him -- the guy i was seeing for a couple months from the beginning of the school year)

i feel so stupid even giving it a thought, but i realize i really do miss him :/ i think we had a lot of potential and maybe i just gave him away too quickly, without even really trying.

i guess you could say that right now im feeling some regret, but who doesnt every so often?

is it normal to be feeling like this? i always seem to want the guy i cant have. if it were the other way around, and i was still in a relationship with the other guy, id probably want my boyfriend even more. im so f*cked up sometimes, seriously. im always searching for something better (part of my perfectionism trait) and i cant be happy with what i have, right in front of me.

well anyways, im still technically friends with my ex on facebook and whatnot, but i honestly didnt want to see his posts, so i unsubscribed to his feed. i think it hurt me that he didnt even seem to care that what we had, whatever it was, was over. my time to him i guess was invaluable so why i keep thinking about it -- i dunno. i need to get my priorities straight.

welcome into my head at... its 5 am now! well, yes these are my absurd, crazy thoughts. i appreciate any and all of those that choose to endure in my sporadic thought process.

It took you an hour to write this? What the fuck?

Snap out of it.

And move your computer out of your bedroom and start drinking hot milk with vanilla and sugar before you go to bed.

 

[loveguys72]

And that's why this song exists.

 

[xbuzzerx]

Words, mere words.

I want TATERS!

Me on this topic:

 

[FPNY]

go take a nap, you'll feel better.....

 

[youfiad]

I think that I'm going to be in your place in a few hours. I took a 3 hour nap because I felt that I could sleep through the night since I was so damn tired. Then I woke up at 10 30 and am not able to fall asleep. Arghhhh.

 

[menRsexii]

It took you an hour to write this? What the fuck?

Snap out of it.

And move your computer out of your bedroom and start drinking hot milk with vanilla and sugar before you go to bed.

lol no it didnt actually take me an hour to write that. i actually started the thread like quarter to 5, but it was really late so i just rounded down for some reason

 

[voyager1994]

It took you an hour to write this? What the fuck?

Snap out of it.

And move your computer out of your bedroom and start drinking hot milk with vanilla and sugar before you go to bed.

No sugar, just warm milk...or camomile tea - I find personally find it very calming esp at night.

 

[voyager1994]

It took you an hour to write this? What the fuck?

Snap out of it.

And move your computer out of your bedroom and start drinking hot milk with vanilla and sugar before you go to bed.

No sugar, just warm milk...or camomile tea - I find personally find it very calming esp at night.

 

[menRsexii]

I saw the other thread and thought of saying something along the lines of "congratulations," but figured nothing I could say would really be genuine without coming off as a "shitheel" (to quote Hard-up's comment in the exact thread). I had a nearly identical reaction to the first commenter in that thread ("Uhhhh... okay... congratulations.") But that poster would do on later to deny being skeptical.

You constantly talk about wanting a boyfriend, and then you got one and said "let's see where this goes." I wondered if you didn't have any idea what direction it was going in, why he was even your boyfriend to begin with. From my perspective, it seems as if you always need a boyfriend. Him being your boyfriend may have nothing at all to do with you liking him as a person, but merely him being the closest current fit to this boyfriend position you desperately need filled. It doesn't shock me that you're up at night wondering if he's the one only a week later. Slow down.

(Just my O. Hope for the best, want you to be happy)

maybe youre right. maybe youre wrong. im being honest in saying that im still learning about myself and my place in this world and with this comes mistakes. I'm going to make mistakes, but hopefully if im smart enough, ill learn and grow from them.

i see your point of view, and i really appreciate and value it, but i also think it could be flawed. i only reveal so much of my life online and i may have not done a good job at explaining my situation(s) so that could be my bad.

maybe i am looking for someone, anyone, to fill a void -- being a boyfriend? but what if im also just a normal young guy, trying to explore my relationships and sex. thank god my situation isnt really a serious one (like i didnt get married or something, whew!)

basically, my point is, if im making a mistake, im just learning and in the end ill be thankful whatever happens.

*fyi: i didnt rush to put a label on the relationship -- he did. i actually like taking things slower but hes been progressing the relationship, not me.