I've been depressed as fuck lately

[Sha-Rok]

Is this shit going around like the flu? I'm extremely unhappy in my life right now. I used to love going out to dance but I've stopped, I feel so disconnected from the world. When friends invite me out I'm thinking of a million excuses not to go. I haven't had the urge to create music anymore. I hate the city I'm living in, my unemployment is about to stop, I cannot find a job due to my school hours and man I'm so fucking through with everything. I can't smoke my medicinal herbs to relax, I have no privacy and fuck it I just needed to rant..but I'm seriously thinking about talking to my school psychologist. I just cannot shake this anxiety life has seem to pile on right now..I'm especially worried about my Partner moving to the east-coast for Med school and what that would mean for us. My only salvation from my personal hell has been being able to fly to the Bay Area and cuddle with him..now soon that privilege will be taken away from me.

God, I need a hug.

 

[G-Lexington]

>>>I'm seriously thinking about talking to my school psychologist.

Do. They're there specifically for people in situations just like yours. It sucks to have to go through all this crap at once, but there's no reason to force yourself to fumble through it alone. Get some more people in your camp.

Lex

 

[Blatino]

I hear ya man, and being in school makes things 10x more difficult but hang in there.

It will work out

 

[JUB]

Hang in there we have all had those tough times. I know I have had plenty where it seems like everything is going to hell but you have to hang in there because it does get better. HUGS!

 

[gustischafer]

Everybody has had this kind of feelings man, just don't give up on anything! Try to do things that make you feel nice and try to set some goals. Good friends have always helped me out, for example, invite your good friends over and watch a movie together, have fun! I don't know, you can do many stuff that can help you. Good luck! (and about the psychologist, if you feel like doing it then go for it!)

 

[hughmc]

Going to sleep and doing nothing is a true sign of depression and sometime bi - polar. Your school psychiastrist will probably give you the opposite advice - get off your ass, crawl out of the shell you crawled in to and do something - almost anything. Get back to your music even though the inspiration may be lacking for a while and hang in there

 

[freefall]

Sleep + talk with someone (anyone). You're moving the right way by considering the psychologist.

 

[ManfanIII]

I also agree by telling your psychologist and bf about this. I believe as well it'll go a long way.

But yes, you are among friends Sha, and were here for you. Hope things get better for you.

 

[Sha-Rok]

Thank you for the kind words everyone..I decided to book a flight back to the Bay Area. I'll stay out there for a couple months to recover and clear my mind. Plus I really miss the sea breeze.

 

[G-Lexington]

I don't remember SF having much of a sea breeze, but maybe the fog will do the same thing. Best of luck to you.

Lex

 

[Sha-Rok]

Don't think I can offer any advice, but I can relate to what you are going through. The past two months have been a terrible time for me. I'm always feeling sad and few things that make me smile rarely present themselves. Worst of all, the thought of suicide crosses my mind daily.

I really hope that what you are going through is just a phase that is resolved quickly. Does your partner know about the situation? I think talking through it with him will go a long way. All the best.

I know what you mean, but then I think about my little brothers, nephews, friends and my Partner.

 

[Sha-Rok]

I don't remember SF having much of a sea breeze, but maybe the fog will do the same thing. Best of luck to you.

Lex

Hehe...Well not the city itself but the beaches over in Marin are beautiful..its not that far way either.

 

[CowboyBob]

Damn!

Sorry to hear you're having a tough time of it. Sometimes you just need to let it out.

Things always gets better and I hope it does for you soon.

A hug for you!


Remember, if anyone needs to talk it out, do it here in the forum in private or in a thread. A lot of others have been in the same boat and we can relate. You're amongst friends.

 

[paintact]

I've been feeling the same lately. For a while actually.

Hang in there. You're not alone.

 

[G-Lexington]

>>>Hehe...Well not the city itself but the beaches over in Marin are beautiful..its not that far way either.

My grandmother lived in Larkspur for many years, and yeah, it's very nice over that way.

Lex

 

[birddog7]

I think it is going around like the flu. I've had some really rough times myself over the past year or so.

Hope it gets better for you. Hang in there!

 

[syoBsUtsuJ]

I foolishly involved myself with a married man. He came on to me, so I used that to rationalize it, and even more so when his wife dropped him off at the motel and came in to introduce herself to see who was fucking her husband. He left her and moved in with me for just over a month ... now he went back to her after my silly encouragements to do exactly that!

Right now, I'm bummed, but I don't think I'm totally depressed. Mr. Sha-Rok ... just give it time, I trust that you'll bounce back to the happy-go-lucky stud you were before. You just need to shift your focus ... if you're fixated on all the shit in your life, of course, you're going to be depressed! Focus instead on all the things you have to be grateful for ... attitude of gratitude is always awesome and resounding -- It'll even rub off on your friends.

 

[Sha-Rok]

Thanks everybody for sharing your own stories and the general love. I feel much better now, Two of my friends are coming into town this week to hangout with me until I leave for the bay next week..I feel so loved

 

[Rubber Rat]

I'm happy you are feeling better.

I believe everyone has gone or will go through depression at some point. I have.

 

[voyager1994]

Glad to know you're feeling well. This is what I like about JUB - words of encouragement never run out!