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Jess' Story -- I Thought I Knew, Book 3

Jess i have to agree with Don, and Hard. You are in no way a sick-o or anything of the sort. You are going through something most people dont ever have to worry about. You are out here on the internet and you just wanted to tell someone about it, and it backfired. There is nothing wrong with that.

Anne im sure will come round. it was a shock to her. Learning about someone like that is a shock to almost everyone.

Thank you Jess, Paul, and HR. for keeping us hard and for helping us get rid of some of the built up pressure. Jess and paul for the words and story. HR for wording. You bring it to life. When reading about these guys i get an image in my head of what they look like. and what they are doing.
 
I am at HRs today and he said I had better leave a msg here since he is always asking everyone else to do it. I'm not really sure what to say. I always surprised by how much you worry about me. Thanks for that I guess. I had real problems thinking there was something really screwed up about me as you can probably tell. I know in my head that Im ok but that doesnt mean i always feel ok about everything I have done. I think skitles maybe got it almost right when he said I was close to being normal.

Perpetually hard, Hr has told me a little about you and I guess you and he chat sometime. i like your comments because they are so honerst. and HR says you cume like 7 or more times every day. Yyour perfect for him.

tim, i do read some of your stories when I can. they are written really well But they are so sad for me. its really nice hasving someone else reading my story who has done sort of the same kind of thing.

thats about it. Thank you all for taking time to read my story. I hope you like it even though it isnt all so fun to remember.

HR, your the best and like very sexy too. we both real get off working with you. We love you.
 
Thanks Jess! I'm not perfect but I always try to be honest in whatever I do. Yeah what HR says is true. We've chatted a couple times and he helped me get off....such a dirty talker he is...I LOVE IT! lol He told me I should msg you but I've been too nervous. As I told him it's like talking to a celebrity and there are too many butterflies eating away at my stomach to talk to a celebrity...soon though I'll get the nerve to PM you. I'm really glad you are sharing your story with us. Ever since the first book I've been worried about you because you've always seemed the odd man out to me. I don't think that we've seen enough of you in the first book personally and I'm glad that this one focuses soley on you. Your book may not be filled with the passion filled sex like Justin and Billy's but I feel like I'm getting to know your inner workings better than Justin and Billy's because of that. Does that make sense? That doesn't mean that I think any less of them or their story! I got off to every single chapter of ITIK up until this most recent one. You all are a very special group of people( you too Paul) and I cannot express my gratitude for you all sharing your story with us. I simply cant thank you enough!

Oh and Happy Halloween everyone! Don't do anything I wouldn't do!
 
It looks like Paul and I are in the homestretch of getting this latest episode together. We worked on it a lot last weekend when Paul came to my place. We probably would have gotten a lot more done if Jess hadn't come too. The four of us, including my boyfriend, got a little distracted. ;) Once they had left, I found I didn't really have everything I needed and so I've been playing catch-up.

Paul has my final draft. I should get it posted later today or at worst tomorrow morning. I'll go ahead and answer the mail now.

DonQuixote
-- "Isn't it amazing, the places our minds can take us? From the bottoms of deep, dark chasms to the top of Mt. Everest, and back, in the blink of an eye. No, you're not a pervert, or psychopath. You're a normal guy with a lot of "teen"/early 20's angst around your sexuality. I'm sorry Anne didn't understand that when she read the chapter you gave her. A little too tightly wound, I'm afraid." First of all, Jess says he's sorry he didn't acknowledge your thoughtful message when he left his comments. He said he didn't mean it to be his own version of the mailbag. In truth, he was just trying to get me off his back. But back to your comment, you're exactly right about how quickly we can go from despair to elation. The mind is almost as amazing as the penis. It's amazing where both of them can take us!

NothingtoSay -- "I really enjoy these type of chapters. Giving us a glimpse of what is going on inside Jess' head so we can understand him and what he's going through. I know I don't usually say much and may not post a comment after every chapter but know that I do enjoy reading this story. Thanks Jess and Paul for sharing your life with us and thanks HR for putting it all together." Since I started working with three very different guys to tell this story, I thought the first-person perspective was critical to explain how different each of them was. I could either write the stories as though I was omniscient -- which anyone who knows me can testify I am not -- or I could let each of them speak for themselves. That seemed like the easy answer when I started. I'm glad you are enjoying it.

Autolycus -- "Very cleverly written, creating such realism takes a lot of effort and thought!" First you give me a helping hand fixing an error when I first posted this chapter and then you followed up with these kind words. You're a savior time and again. Thanks.

PerpetuallyHard312 -- "Jess: While I can't fully understand what you're going through because I don't have a story about me posted on the internet, I can sympathize with what you are feeling. I don't think that you have to worry about Anne spilling your secret, she's too freaked. I agree with DonQuixote you are not a pyschopath. Though you may be perverted, it's normal for us guys. Especially when we're still young. There's nothing wrong with being horny. Just look at my screen name. I just came for the 5th time today reading this latest chapter and I'm hard again about to launch off another one! I hope all is going well with you! Reliving troubling and confusing times is never easy, but this must have a happy ending or why share it with us to, as you put it," blow our goddamn loads" lol" I already told you that Jess and I talked a little about you. I hope you don't mind. But I love your comment: "Though you may be perverted, it's normal for us guys. Especially when we're still young. There's nothing wrong with being horny. Just look at my screen name. I just came for the 5th time today" That captures you so perfectly! Keep on reading and cumming and commenting and cumming and cumming and . . .

TimWhite07 -- "Jess i have to agree with Don, and Hard. You are in no way a sick-o or anything of the sort. You are going through something most people dont ever have to worry about. You are out here on the internet and you just wanted to tell someone about it, and it backfired. There is nothing wrong with that. Anne im sure will come round. it was a shock to her. Learning about someone like that is a shock to almost everyone." Tim, you seem to sum up the general consensus that Jess is far more normal than he may have thought at the time. You're right of course that most people don't go through the same dilemmas that so often confront gays. Hopefully that is changing.

skittlles -- "That was really fucked up that Anne didn't wanna be friends with you any more Jess, but I think you're better off having Paul as a friend. Right? It's really cool having your thoughts filtered through HR's nasty mind (I love you for your mind after all, HR) because he is REALLY good at what he does!" Did you ever stop to think that my "nasty mind" may be that way because of all the years I have spent so closely with Jess and Billy and Justin and Tom and now Paul. At least you seem to appreciate the results of my writing effort. I base that on the number of times you have cum reading my work! I love your mind, too, Mr. Skits. *|*

Well, that's the mailbag for this week. By tomorrow at the latest you'll have Part 1 of Paul's chapter in your hands. I think Part 2 may follow more quickly than usual. Let's hope.

Until then, stay happy. And stay hard! Like I really need to say that each time to this crowd. ;)
 
Jess’ Story
I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
Chapter 8, Part I

From Paul’s viewpoint

I guess I should say right up front that I had a crush on Jess almost from the moment I even knew he existed. From the very first descriptions of him. I don’t know why exactly. It sounds so juvenile to say that out loud, but I’ve always known I had a crush on this guy. I couldn’t deny it. Even before I met him.

When I did finally come face to face with him and discovered that he was everything I had imagined and more, it was so confusing that he was involved in some way with Anne. I really didn’t have a clue what that was all about. How did it happen that he left his cum sprayed across the bed in her room? She didn’t even seem to know it was there.

But I have digressed. I probably should just tell you what happened from my perspective.

I picked Anne up for our date as planned. As much as I wanted to ask her about what I had smelled and seen in her dorm room earlier that day, I couldn’t. I mean, it was Anne and you can’t ask Anne something like that. You just can’t. I was starting to wonder if she even knew what cum was. Much less that some guy had sprayed a healthy load across one of her beds.

So we went out, had a good enough time and eventually ended up back outside her dorm. I was holding her and kissing her, trying to turn this evening into something it hadn’t been. But my mind kept wandering away, looking for the kid I had seen earlier leaving her dorm. Thinking about the trail of jizz he’d left behind. Believe me, I was getting really aroused thinking about it, even as I was kissing Anne. My cock was pressing into her hip. She had to feel it. I had a gentle motion working and was getting some good friction. I was getting so hot. Kissing Anne. Thinking about the kid.

I’d gotten off earlier that afternoon fantasizing about how the kid might have jerked off while Anne was in the shower. Shot a really nice load all over the window screen. But as I kissed Anne outside her dorm, my fantasy of what had happened had changed. In my mind she had fished that kid’s hard cock out of his pants and was stroking him off as he lay back. He was giving himself over completely to whatever she wanted to do with him. To him and his throbbing cock.

I had begun to imagine myself in his place when . . . Ooops! Anne’s hand grazed across my hard penis. I mean, it was in my pants and all, but just the same she’d touched it and I didn’t think it was by accident. Like my fantasy sort of coming true. This had happened once before. Not the fantasy coming true, but Anne’s hand touching my hard-on. Once might be an accident, but twice?

My mind was racing with possibilities. Had I completely misjudged Anne? Was she a more sexually ambitious girl than I had thought? As I pondered that and let my mind fly off in wild sexual fantasies, her hand touched by hard penis again. She didn’t take it away.

Instead she wrapped her fingers around my hard-on as though she were testing its size through the fabric of my pants. My heart stopped. My breath stopped. Anne began to stroke my throbbing penis through the fabric of my pants. Once. Twice. . . . Oh my god! . . . Three times she stroked me. Then she paused.

I let out an audible sigh of pleasure and leaned into her slightly, hoping to encourage more of the same. With the images of that kid whirling through my head again, his cum, his look back at me, it wasn’t going to take me too long to get off.

“Did you like that,” she said in her sweet, innocent little girl voice.

“Oh yeah,” I said and moved to kiss her.

“I’m so glad I could bring you some special pleasure tonight,” Anne said as she turned and pushed open her dorm door. “Goodnight,” she said over her shoulder, leaving me hard and horny and incredibly pissed and confused. Was this some kind of joke? Or tease? Was she really that clueless?

No, Anne couldn’t be clueless. She sure wasn’t too clueless to get that kid off in her dorm room in the middle of the day. But still she left me with an aching hard-on out on her dorm stoop. Had I missed something?

Then at lunch the next day . . .

Just a little porn humor. I know that you want to know what I did with the hard-on Anne left me with. I’ve read enough of these stories to know it’s my turn to tell.

OK, so I went back to my place, working on my hard cock all the way home. I started with my hands deep in the generous pockets of my pants. That’s one reason I loved to wear those pants. They were made for playing pocket pool. I was working my meat. Making sure it stayed good and hard. I liked the way that felt. My sensitive, over-sexed, crazy cock in my hands. Only the thin pocket fabric separated flesh from flesh. And the fabric was so soft it was almost like lube on my penis.

There was virtually no one out on the streets, so there was no one to see what I was doing. As horny as I was and with thoughts of this kid messing with my mind, I unzipped my pants and worked my cock free. It would have been perfectly obvious to anyone who had seen me that I was jerking myself, but, as I said, there really wasn’t anyone around.

When I got up to my little space, I stripped off all my clothes. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked pretty good. All my work was paying off. I thought I looked especially good with my hard cock arching out in front of me. It was nicely proportioned and made my newly tightened abs look that much better as a backdrop for it.

I smacked it with my open hand a couple of times to get it maximum hard. I really like feeling aching hard.

When my penis was pumped to the max, I stroked it with my right hand, feeling my fingers curl around it. Drumming on the underside with my fingertips. I let my left hand play across my chest, feeling my hair stubble just starting to grow out. Not too much but enough to feel sexy. At least to me.

I squeezed my right nipple. Twisted it. I could feel the connection. That squeeze had sent a jolt from my nipple to my cock. From my left hand to my right. I could toy with my nipple, turn it like a dial, and feel the blood surge into my cock. I loved doing that.

The human body is an amazing thing. The way the parts all connect and interact. The feelings you can create. I worked my cock with both hands. One on my penis and one on my nipple.

I was so turned on. I grabbed my big bottle of lube and lay on my bed. I could feel the heat in the room. The heat and humidity of summer. But mixed with that of course I could feel my own heat. Sexual heat.

Without warning Anne popped back in my mind. I wasn’t really pissed at Anne or anything. I wasn’t’ really into her. I just found what had happened today too confusing. And thoughts of Anne were forcing their way forward in my brain.

I tried to work on my cock. Wrapping my right hand around my cockhead and twisting my sweaty palm back and forth across the most sensitive part of my body. I tried to focus on the kid I had seen. The scent of his cum. The fantasy I had earlier when I shot a good load of jizz at my window just thinking of him in Anne’s dorm room.

It wasn’t working. I was hard. It felt good. But it was too confusing. Not satisfying. I wanted something more.

So I got up and turned on my computer, signed in to one of my favorite porn sites and started to read one of my favorite fantasy stories about Justin and Chris, Two high school athletes who shared a lot more than their interest in sports. Just the kind of story that is virtually sure to get me off. Part 12. That part always worked for me. I was reading along. Jerking. Edging. I knew my favorite part was coming. But I was already so close.

. . . his hands traveled south and undid my belt, which he threw to the ground. My pants were next, first the button then the zipper and they too fell atop the pile of clothes already gathered on the floor. Lucky for him I decided to free ball so his work was done. My cock too, stood erect. I mean how could it not. His hands gently massaged my cock taking care to cover every spot, while at the same time he kissed his way down my stomach. I felt his breath hit my cock and I felt a shiver come across my entire body, already I was in ecstasy. And before I could say anything his lips wrapped around me and he sucked the whole of it into his mouth.​
My cock had been hard for almost two hours by then. The anticipation of reading one of my favorite chapters of “Shower With My Brother’s Friend” had my nuts worked up in anticipation. This happened to me far too often. As Justin felt a shiver come across his entire body, I felt my own shiver start. And when Chris “wrapped his lips around me and he sucked the whole of it into his mouth . . .”

I could feel his lips on my penis. The pressure building deep within my nuts. An ache throbbing somewhere in the center of me. I could feel my hand sliding in the lube. Caressing my hard, throbbing cock. Urging on the surging cum. I was going to . . . Oh yeah . . . I started to cum.

I wanted to see my cum shooting from my penis. Shooting out of my pouting cocklips and flying free. I wasn’t disappointed. I splattered my chest and got some on my pillow just over my shoulder. As always, there was an errant string of cum that went to the left and landed near my nipple.

My neck craned to give me the best view possible. It felt so sexy seeing my rock hard penis jerking and twitching with the excitement of my orgasm. My thick cum spurting out in a half dozen volleys. Splattering against my flesh. My hard abs glistening with sweat. It felt so good to finally release that built up tension. To feel the pleasure surge through my cock. So strong a feeling.

I let my head fall back on my pillow. I caught my breath and then surveyed the mess I’d made with my fingertips. Slipping and sliding across my body. Almost tickling myself, but mostly just keeping that erotic sensation stirring within me.

I guess I fell asleep enjoying the moment. Forgetting what had brought it all on.

I was thinking about that kid when I awoke. If I’d been having a dream about him, I couldn’t remember it. But he was foremost in my mind. And he stayed there most of the morning.

At lunch that day . . . So was that good enough? Can I go on with the story now? I hope you guys liked my big sex scene. Anyway . . .

At lunch that day I was sitting in my favorite lunch spot just finishing eating when Anne came in. I had all kinds of questions I wanted to ask her, but I knew I never would. At least I would get to see how she reacted toward me after walking away from me last night. Leaving me . . . Well, I’ve already told you that part.

She came up and greeted me all smiles and niceness. Acted like nothing had happened. Said she had a good time. Hoped we could do it again soon. Then she said she was meeting Jess for lunch. She talked like she’d mentioned a guy named Jess to me before. Like I should know who he was. But I didn’t really.

The next thing I knew, there he was. It was the kid from outside her dorm. The one with the cum I could smell in her room. The one I’ve been jerking off to. And he was standing there looking down at me. Did he recognize me from the day before? I was completely flustered. The most obvious explanation never occurred to me for some reason until Anne said, “Hi, Jess, this is my friend Paul.”

Of course, he was she was there. She was meeting him for lunch. He hadn’t come over to see me. But did he recognize me? I wondered.

He sat down and we chatted for a minute or two. I don’t remember a word any of us said. I just remember him saying something and then he smiled at me. I know I blushed. I couldn’t help it. I felt like he must know I’d been jerking off thinking about him. Then I had to go. I really wanted to stay, but it was obvious they had something they needed to talk about. I wondered if it had to do with yesterday afternoon. I didn’t have a clue.

So I left and wandered around campus for an hour or two. I was feeling really lonely and sort of like an outsider. It sounds stupid but I really just wanted to stay and get to know this guy. Maybe figure out what his deal was with Anne. Obviously it was more than I had going on.

I probably jerked off twice at my place that afternoon and evening. I had some reading and a paper to do, but mostly I sat around reading porn and thinking about that kid. His name was Jess. He looked as good close up as he had when I saw him crossing the street. Better actually. I loved his smile. It showed a side of him that was almost like wicked or something. Like maybe ha had a dark side.

When I was reading porn and jerking off to stories, I was putting his face and what I imagined of his body into my fantasies. That’s what was happening when Anne called.

She said she wanted to talk to me about something. If I wasn’t too busy . . . I looked down at my aching boner. Slick with lube. Red from hours of being worked over. Throbbing to get off one more time to fantasies of Jess.

“Give me 30 minutes or so,” I said, already stroking my hard penis at a finishing pace. I knew the time for edging had passed.

When she opened the door to her dorm room, I’ve got to admit I tried to see if I could smell him. Smell his cum, I mean. But I couldn’t smell anything. At least no cum smell.

We quickly got through the “Hi, how are you” part of the conversation. I could tell immediately that Anne was mad or pissed or something.

“So what’s that matter? You seem upset,” I said.

“It’s Jess,” she started, “he . . .”

“What did he do to you?”

She started to cry. I put my arm around her and we sat on the edge of her bed. I comforted her until she pulled herself together and then she explained.

Jess had asked her to read something he’d written. A story he wrote about himself when he was in high school and apparently trying to figure out if he was gay or bi or whatever. Those aren’t the words Anne used, of course, but that was the gist of it.

He said the story had gotten onto the Internet and a lot of people had read it, but apparently no one knew it was by him or about him. He’d kept it a secret ever since. Never telling anyone about what he had written or done. For some reason that she didn’t explain, he thought he finally might want to show it to his friends instead of keeping it a secret.

I didn’t know why, but he’d asked Anne . . . Anne of all people . . . go figure . . . to read what he had written so she could give him her opinion.

I guess she had tried to read it and couldn’t get even halfway through it. It upset her too much. That’s when she’d called me.

She handed me a manila folder with a few sheets of paper in it. I started to open it to take a look at it. I was curious to say the least. So good ol’ Jess had at least toyed with the idea of doing something with other boys. I really wanted to know whether he’d enjoyed it or not. Was it possible we were playing for the same team?

But as I started to opened the folder, Anne let out a sharp, “No!” Her hand pressed on the back of mine, closing the folder and almost knocking it from my hand.

“Could you take it home and read it? I don’t think I could stand to sit here while you read what’s in there,” she said.

I immediately started to get nervous about why Anne had thought I was the person to read it. Why not throw it away? Or just give it back to him and say she couldn’t finish it? And then I almost panicked as I began to wonder if she had some idea that I was gay, or bi or curious? She’d never shown any indication that she doubted me, but . . .

“It doesn’t sound like anything I’d planned to read today,” I said, gathering my thoughts and my composure as best I could. “So what am I supposed to do once I’ve read it?”

“Just call me and tell me what you thought.” She couldn’t even look me in the eyes as she talked. “I’m not going to tell Jess I had you read it, but I just can’t do it myself. So I need you to tell me what I should tell him. OK? You can call me a little later and let me know. OK?” Anne looked sad and hurt and like she might start crying again.

I really didn’t want to spend any more time comforting her and I really wanted to see what Jess had written that was so . . . whatever . . . that Anne couldn’t even read it.

I rushed back to my place and sat in front of my computer, pushing my keyboard aside and opening the folder. Four typed pages. Unnumbered. No title. Nothing but four printed pages.

The second I started to read, I couldn’t believe it.

I thought I knew what real friends were, how friendship worked. I thought I knew what friends were for and what friends did and didn’t do. I thought I knew a lot of things.
I’d read it before. More than once. A lot more than once. The first four words said it all.

This didn’t make any sense.

To Be Continued . . .

I hope to be back pretty soon with the continuation of this chapter. But don't feel you have to wait for Part 2 to comment. I sure hope you're enjoying it. Anyway, until next time, stay happy. And stay hard!
 
HR....you sly dog...I was already worked up enough as it was when I started reading this and despite having cum 8 times today already....I just shot off number 9!!! Shower with my brother's friend is another one of my favs...I can't believe that it's one of Paul's fav stories too! That made me cum all the harder. My balls are sooo drained and sore now....thanks a lot HR lol. Can't wait for part 2.....and Paul I see that you and HR have been conspiring to have me break my record of cumming more than 12 times in one day...you were close...maybe part 2 will prove sucessful? So what do you guys say? Do you accept my challenge to make me break my record?
 
Wow... That was a good chapter. So Paul, like so many of us, has read ITIK. more then once infact. Im not sure what i would be able to do in that situation. Knowing my self i would call anne and tell her that he was trying ti figure himself out. Then i would try and find jess.

I have only ever met one person that has read my story. It was pretty werid to say the least. All he knew of me was from back in highschool. All we talked about was the story. we talked alittle bit about what my life is like now, but nothing really.

So i cant say for sure what i would do. I might do the same thing, just talk about the story because that is what i know about the person. but then again, i might try and find out what he is like now.

Anyway, Great chapter guys. loved it. I am on the edge of my seat, waiting for part two.
 
Paul- Dont worry so much. Your doing great. ..| Thanks for sending me your two latest chapters. nothing you said it either one bothered me at all. its all ok. I'm so glad it you doing this now instead of me. Working with the man is nt as easy at it seems is it? You guys have a great time and make sure HR shows you a good time. *|* Cash in while you can. Send me a txt. your number must be changed again. ](*,)
 
First off, I apologize for not posting earlier. I was treated to your lastest installment in my e-mail in-box yesterday so, I snuck a peak while I was at work.
Unfortunately, by the time I got home to be able to log in and post a comment, my ass was dragging - still recuperating from the flu - drip drip drip takes it out of you (Post Nasal, HR, you cum dog!)

Paul,
You are definitely making HR's writing career easy. I can tell you're getting into this whole
"They're gonna put me in the pictures,
They're gonna make a Big Star out of me,
They're gonna put me in the movies,
And all I gotta do is, act naturally"
thing. lol (With apologies to the Beatles, but now that I think of WHO sang the song . . . Paul!)

Seriously, thank you for becoming active in this story. Having your thoughts and feelings adds so much texture and colour to the story. I can tell that you and Jess have become very important to each other, and we're really only at the beginnings of the tale.

You even managed to get Billy to post - and in English instead of txtspk!

I am enjoying your refreshing, self-confident style. You might have been bouncing all over the place in the fantasy land of your mind about who is this guy Jess, and what might "we" become, but your story telling exudes a guy who isn't afraid of what or who he is, what he wants to explore/experience, or where he's headed. I suspect you and Jess have been VERY good for each other, on many different levels.

Jess, I think the consensus is in, and it's that Paul is a keeper.

HR, I can see the struggles you must have had, working with this character. How you managed to get anything put to PC while you were so busy "taking care of business" in other geographic regions of your body. lol I think I would have enjoyed being the proverbial "fly on the wall" at your place this past weekend.

A cumtastic extravaganza it must have been. Maybe the four of you can collaborate on a special chapter towards the end of the book . . . or would that be six or 8?! lol
..| :=D: :wave:
 
Hi, guys! I said I wouldn't make you wait so long for this next episode. And I won't. It should be posted by the end of the day. Paul and I got a lot of work done this weekend and I think it turned out well. It isn't long, but I think you'll like it.

It has been interesting reading the mail to notice how many of you describe this book as the most introspective look inside the guy's heads. At least into Jess' and Paul's heads. Maybe your just saying that because all they have done so far is jerk off thinking about each other. Of course, for all you know that may be all they ever do. ;)

I think your assessment is probably correct. It is in the nature of Jess, and to only a slightly lesser degree with Paul, to be introspective. Billy, of course, is the most impulsive. And Justin is the most . . . well let's just say that Justin likes to be in control. It's probably the top in him.

But enough about that. It's time for the mailbag. So here it goes:

PerpetuallyHard312
-- "I was already worked up enough as it was when I started reading this and despite having cum 8 times today already....I just shot off number 9!!! Shower with my brother's friend is another one of my favs...I can't believe that it's one of Paul's fav stories too! That made me cum all the harder. My balls are sooo drained and sore now....thanks a lot HR lol. Can't wait for part 2.....and Paul I see that you and HR have been conspiring to have me break my record of cumming more than 12 times in one day...you were close...maybe part 2 will prove sucessful? So what do you guys say? Do you accept my challenge to make me break my record?" Paul and I chatted over the weekend. He's certainly up for the challenge. And I really like seeing Paul when he's "up". He said he would be glad to edge you on, but he'd like it to be recorded so that it can be more official. And I guess I should ask, can anyone else out there cum more than 12 times in 24 hours. If so, please speak up. Maybe you can get in on this.

Tim White07 -- "So Paul, like so many of us, has read ITIK. more then once in fact. Im not sure what i would be able to do in that situation. Knowing myself i would call anne and tell her that he was trying to figure himself out. Then i would try and find jess. I have only ever met one person that has read my story. It was pretty weird to say the least. All he knew of me was from back in highschool. All we talked about was the story. we talked alittle bit about what my life is like now, but nothing really. So i cant say for sure what i would do. I might do the same thing, just talk about the story because that is what i know about the person. but then again, i might try and find out what he is like now." I love it when guys find comparisons so close in their own lives and try to figure things out from that. It actually is what makes this story so important to so many readers. Thanks for your insights, Tim, and thanks for your own great writing

skittles -- "Holy Fuck! So was that for shits and giggles or had you actually read ITIK at that point, Paul? I wonder if Jess got you even more worked up once you knew his backstory. Jess, missed you in this chapter but Paul, you did wondefully. Hr you did a great job of letting Paul's thoughts remain his own. Really hot chapter guys, I can't wait to read the second half of Paul's chapter!" All of your questions will be answered by day's end. Too bad you didn't ask more questions. And "Holy Fuck!" right back at you.

DonQuixote -- "Paul, I am enjoying your refreshing, self-confident style. You might have been bouncing all over the place in the fantasy land of your mind about who is this guy Jess, and what might "we" become, but your story telling exudes a guy who isn't afraid of what or who he is, what he wants to explore/experience, or where he's headed. I suspect you and Jess have been VERY good for each other, on many different levels." I am glad Paul is getting such a good reception. I have to say he was beaming when we talked about the comments so far. For the record, he has been great to work with. One last note DQ: What happened in my condo last weekend stays in my condo.

So now I'll just wait for the OK from Paul and Part 2 of the latest chapter will be on its way.

Until then stay happy. And stay hard!
 
Jess’ Story
I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
Chapter 8, Part II

From Paul’s viewpoint

It was the end of the summer before my Freshmen year in college. I’d been holed up in my room reading a lot of porn that summer and feeling so alone. So isolated. Nobody knew that sometimes I was attracted to guys. I was so confused by the urges and desires that seemed to bubble up from within me. My sexual urges were getting out of control. The way I felt back then, I both hoped and feared no one ever would find out.

I’d started reading “I Thought I Knew” shortly after it first began to be posted. I took to Jess from the very beginning. Billy’s first words in the very first chapter said, “I thought I knew everything about Jess. I’d known him forever.” Within a few chapters, I started to feel the same way.

I felt I could see into his heart and touch his feelings. I felt the way Billy must have felt. Like I’d spent all my free time with Jess. Like Jess and I had sat together side by side on the end of my bed and jerked off together almost every day. Sometimes more often than that.

In reality I’d spent years beating off alone. I’d learned how good it felt to make my dick hard when I was maybe 11 or 12. By the time I was 13 I’d discovered I liked to cum and was starting to realize that it was guys I liked. Girls were OK, but guys were becoming more and more interesting.

I hate to think how many hours I spent fantasizing that someday I’d meet a guy and . . . But once I started reading about Jess, I guess I sort of fixated on him. His life. He was what I thought about each time I pumped out another lonely load. Thinking of him, I didn’t feel so lonely anymore.

It was close to love. I think of it as an enduring crush. His story made me cry and laugh. Like a lot of the guys who posted comments to the project on JUB, I got off more than I should probably admit. Jess was a dream come true for me. A guy struggling to figure out who he was. Where he fit in. What he should do.

I had the same struggles and fears as Jess did. What I didn’t have was Billy or Justin. I wanted to be with Jess so bad. And spending time with Justin and Billy wouldn’t hurt either. Even though I resented them for excluding Jess from so much.

I really wanted to send private messages to Jess. To tell him how much he had come to mean to me. How close I felt to him. How much I understood how he felt. Because I felt the same way.

I knew his story forwards and backwards. I’ve read the whole thing all the way through at least twice. And most chapters I read three or four times waiting for HardReader to post the next one. Some of my favorite chapters I have read a dozen or more times. I know when the story got to the part where Jess was with Billy and Justin in the hot tub, I probably came a dozen times that week reading that part again and again. Oh, hell, maybe more than 20 times that week. And plenty of times since. I still read it sometimes to help me get off and to bring back those memories of Jess.

All of that and I still never had the balls to write him.

But this Jess, the Jess who had stumbled into my life, Anne’s Jess, he couldn’t be the Jess from “I Thought I Knew.” Hardreader had said that he changed a few things around so that no one could figure out who the three kids really were. While this Jess had the same name spelled the same way, too many other things didn’t fit. I know H.R. won’t let me say what was wrong, but I was sure from stuff that was in the story that this Jess wasn’t that Jess. I couldn’t make the pieces fit together. The Jess from “I Thought I Knew” couldn’t be at this university at this time.

So why would Anne’s Jess have given that one chapter of the story to her to read?

There was one more thing: Jess in the story didn’t write the story. Anne said that her Jess told her he wrote it. Maybe this Jess was really HardReader. I didn’t feel like I knew that much about HardReader. But it seemed to make more sense to me if the writer was a friend of Jess and Billy and Justin. A kid their own age, rather than some older guy writing the story for them like HardReader claimed to do.

So maybe this Jess was really HardReader and in the story he just swapped names around. But then why had Anne’s Jess said the story was about him?

So maybe Jess was the writer of the story and the Jess in the story too. My mind kept coming back to that possibility. I wanted so badly to believe that I was finally meeting the Jess of my dreams. I was getting a headache thinking about it.

So that’s where my thoughts were when I couldn’t take any more and started to let all the possibilities go. I just stopped thinking about them and started imagining what it would be like if this kid really was THE Jess. I was almost instantly as hard as I had ever been. And with my horny cock, that’s really hard. Like it hurt it was so hard.

My mind transported me back to the end of my bed. I was slowly jerking my cock side-by-side with my Jess. As he jerked his cock, he looked over at mine. I was so aching hard for him. And I looked back at his cock and he was just as hard as I was. Did he really want my cock as bad as I wanted his? In my mind, he looked at me and smiled and asked, “So, how do you like it?” Just what he’d said the first time I caught him jerking off in his room.

I sat silently stroking my cock and smiling back at him. He reached over and took my cock in his hand. I shivered as he wrapped his warm, moist fingers around it. The same pre-cum lubed hand he’d been using to stroke his own cock. It was almost like our cocks were touching each other.

I could feel my cock swell in his hand. I looked down and saw my purple helmet so slick and shiny. Full of blood. The skin stretched so tight across it. And his fingers moving steady. Up and down my penis. I knew this wouldn’t last long. Couldn’t last long. I had no control. My lust was getting the best of me.

I reached over and took hold of Jess’ cock. I couldn’t believe how warm it was. How alive it felt in my hand. How easy his flowing pre-cum made it to stroke. It was bigger than mine. Not a lot, but some. And he had more hair around his than I did.

As much as I wanted this to go on forever, it wasn’t going to. Jess looked straight into my eyes and smiled. After that I didn’t really see anything more. I just sort of fell inside myself. Consumed by the touch of a guy’s hand on my penis. Overwhelmed by the surge I could feel building deep inside of me. I knew what was coming.

I held my breath. My chest was tight. My cock so sensitive I could scream with the feelings. Then I felt the movement inside me. My cock went completely rigid as Jess continued to pump me. He knew what was cumming and he wasn’t backing off.

Oh my god, such intense sensations. Like fireworks in my penis. I didn't think I could stand much more and then . . . I came. I could feel my own cum splattering on my chest. So much cum. It was better than ever before. So much cum. So hard. So long. As my own orgasm eased, I felt Jess’ cum running over my knuckles. Warm and slick. It felt so good. I felt so close to him at that moment. I could almost sense his heart beating in unison with mine.

I finally opened my eyes and looked down at the inevitable. My cum-covered cock was still hard. I was squeezing it tight in my own cum-covered hand. I was alone. As alone as I had ever been.

I let go of my cock and lay down on my bed. I really didn’t care if Anne’s Jess was the same as the Jess in the story. That didn’t seem to matter anymore. All I cared was that Anne’s Jess became my Jess.

I didn’t want to hurt Anne, but if I had to . . .

I knew in my heart that the Jess I had always imagined since I first read about him looked and felt and smiled and talked and even smelled just like the Jess I had seen crossing the street. Just like the Jess who had smiled at me at the restaurant.

Things were starting to become clearer for me. Reading “I Thought I Knew” in high school had given me hope, made me feel I was not alone. It had changed my life. I guess in a way I thought I knew that HardReader’s story was about to change my life once again.

I was older now. I realized that story had taught me an important lesson. I was responsible for myself. I needed to create my own future. I needed to find my own Jess. Even though he couldn’t be the Jess I had dreamed of when I was younger, he could be my Jess. I had the chance to make it happen. I could make it happen. I would make it happen!

To Be Continued . . .

I want to thank all of our readers who have rated "Jess' Story". Earlier today "Jess' Story" got its 5-star rating. If you haven't rated it yet, please consider casting your vote.

So thanks to those stalwart fans who have supported this project. I can assure you that all of us involved in "I Thought I Knew" will work as hard as we can to make this last book every bit as good as our first.

Until next time, stay happy. And stay hard!
 
Well ... after reading your comments at the end of this chapter, I immediately went "back up top" to cast my vote. I tried giving you 5 more stars, because I'm not allowed to give you More than 5, but, it said I'd already done that!! Yes! This is, indeed, Stellar!! (!)

I'm really liking the further tie-in to ITIK! WOW! What are the odds? This is just getting better, and Better!! (!w!)

THANK YOU! to HR, and all the guys, for sharing this with "Us"! And, yes, your telling of the story(ies) can, indeed, have ramifications far beyond what even You can imagine!! ..| (group)

AWESOME! :=D:

Keep smilin'!! :kiss:(*8*)
Chaz :luv:
 
I can not help but feel a bit jealous of you paul. I started reading I thought i knew when HR first started posting it on Nifty. I didnt even know about this site then. I spent hours reading and rereading the chapters waiting for the next one. Then a guy i ment on the internet told me that it was farther along here so i came here and read from begining to end and then started posting.

Through the hours i spent reading about these guys, i came to love them. Love as in a friend that i could and would do anything for. Maybe not share my life with them, No offense to you boys, by the time i started reading on JUB i was engaged. I felt their pain, their anger, their joy and their sorrow. It felt like these guys had been my best friends. I know others feel like that.

When i was reading on JUB i read the comments in between. I wanted to know how eaveryone felt about these guys. I wanted to know if anyone else the same way as i do. I came to find that almost everyone did.

Know that the story is this far along, through the first 2 books, I know that i would be willing to do anything for these guys. and as this book goes on, i am starting to feel the same about you paul.

You guys are amazing, the dedication you have to putting out new chapters is outstanding. And i thank you from the bottom of my heart for keeping me HARD *|*.

This is a 5 star story.
 
Paul,
Wow, again. Welcome to Never Never Land. Where dreams really do come true!
I'm of a different generation but, when I read ITIK, I thought back to urges and feelings I had when I was your age.

I never found my Jess, and my life is different than it might have been.
I can't say I would have changed a lot, but some.

Having a guy friend who I could have been this intimate with would definitely have been a plus.

You are becoming our collective poster boy - the one who got the "brass ring" in Jess, as it were.

I look forward to the next chapters, as you and Jess get to know each other, cross those awkward moments when you come out to each other, and you find out that, "Yes, Virginia(Paul), there really is a Santa Claus" lol

I've made a little light of your situation, but it's deep. Very deep.

Thanks, again, for sharing your intimate thoughts with us.

HR, I don't know how much editing and re-writing you have to do with Paul's work -- but I sense that he is making your job a joy.
:wave:
 
WOW!! What an explosive and touching chapter! I think that all of us grew to love these boys in some way or another. How could you not? To some degree we all feel the way Paul did when he was reading ITIK whether it was about Justin, Billy, or Jess. When I first started reading this story on Nifty I was envious of the boys....honestly I still am a little. But that's how I feel about all the stories I read whether they're true or not. Being alone does that to a person you know? But as I read along and saw the trials each of them faced and the uncertainty, I developed a sense of understanding and maybe even kinship. This story has inspired me and given me hope time and again. I wish noting but happiness for Justin, Billy, Jess, Tom, Paul, and HR, and Mike for without whom we wouldn't even be enjoying this story today. So I send you all my blessing and my love. May you all bask in happiness, love, and cum! ;)
 
Another week has gone by and I'm happy to announce that Jess and I managed to get things pretty much wrapped up on schedule. I'll be doing the final editing this afternoon and probably posting the next chapter tomorrow.

But for now, I should get the mail answered.


Kyanimal -- "I'm really liking the further tie-in to ITIK! WOW! What are the odds? This is just getting better, and Better!! THANK YOU! to HR, and all the guys, for sharing this with "Us"! And, yes, your telling of the story(ies) can, indeed, have ramifications far beyond what even You can imagine!"

TimWhite07 -- "I can not help but feel a bit jealous of you paul. I started reading I thought i knew when HR first started posting it on Nifty. . . . I spent hours reading and rereading the chapters waiting for the next one. Then a guy i met on the internet told me that it was farther along here so i came here and read from begining to end and then started posting. Through the hours i spent reading about these guys, i came to love them. Love as in a friend that i could and would do anything for. Maybe not share my life with them, No offense to you boys, by the time i started reading on JUB i was engaged. I felt their pain, their anger, their joy and their sorrow. It felt like these guys had been my best friends. I know others feel like that."

skittles -- "Jess, I'm so glad that you decided to go ahead and share your story and I'm sure the others are grateful as well. I'm also happy that you and Paul have found each other. Paul, you've done an excellent job of capturing the feelings that Jess stirred up inside of all of us (No offense to either Justin or Billy). You guys deserve to be happy together."


DonQuixote -- "Paul, Wow, again. Welcome to Never Never Land. Where dreams really do come true! I'm of a different generation but, when I read ITIK, I thought back to urges and feelings I had when I was your age. I never found my Jess, and my life is different than it might have been. I can't say I would have changed a lot, but some. Having a guy friend who I could have been this intimate with would definitely have been a plus. You are becoming our collective poster boy - the one who got the "brass ring" in Jess, as it were."

PerpetuallyHard312 -- "I think that all of us grew to love these boys in some way or another. How could you not? To some degree we all feel the way Paul did when he was reading ITIK whether it was about Justin, Billy, or Jess. When I first started reading this story on Nifty I was envious of the boys....honestly I still am a little. But that's how I feel about all the stories I read whether they're true or not. Being alone does that to a person you know? But as I read along and saw the trials each of them faced and the uncertainty, I developed a sense of understanding and maybe even kinship. This story has inspired me and given me hope time and again. I wish noting but happiness for Justin, Billy, Jess, Tom, Paul, and HR, and Mike for without whom we wouldn't even be enjoying this story today. So I send you all my blessing and my love."

NothingtoSay -- "It's chapters like this one that I enjoy reading the most. Just knowing that there are other people out there that have similar thoughts makes me glad I wake up every day. I don't know what else to say except thanks to everyone."

There has never been a week of mail like this. It truly leaves me speechless. I think I'll just say thanks to each of you and leave it at that.

Thank you!
 
Things have changed a bit since I wrote the mailbag. I had planned Chapter 9 to be much longer. But when Paul saw what was planned, he wanted to tell the second part of the chapter instead. We talked about it. Jess disagreed. But in the end I think Paul was right. So overnight I have cut Jess' Chapter 9 shorter and written all of Chapter 10 from Paul's viewpoint. I think this will work better.

Since today's chapter is shorter and contains no real sex (sorry, guys) and since Chapter 10 is now essentially done, we decided that I would do my best to post Chapter 10 tomorrow. So you get a real bonus this week. And maybe you'll get a real boner (and maybe more) tomorrow as a result.

I have one other announcement before I get to Chapter 9. I have been working with a relatively new fan of the "I Thought I Knew" project -- PerpetuallyHard312. In the past week, with everything else I have had to do, he and I have managed to craft a three-part mini-project telling a part of his story. It's been a great project to work on and I think you guys are going to enjoy it at a number of levels. So please watch for the cumming of PerpetuallyHard's project on Wednesday. I hope you're up for it! ;)

And now just a word of thanks to skittles for his undying support. You're such a great fan. I love that we make you and yours feel so good.

Now on with the story:


Jess’ Story
I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
Chapter 9

From Jess' viewpoint

I found myself thinking about Paul repeatedly that evening after he called to invite me to lunch. Something had attracted me to him since I first saw that picture of him in Anne’s dorm room. He looked so hot. Stripped to the waist. I had jerked off staring at that picture and I couldn’t get him or that special feeling out of my head ever since.

But there was more to it than that. More than just a great cum. But it was a great cum even with Anne right there. Both times I’d seen him -- crossing the street in front of Anne’s dorm and at lunch the next day -- there seemed to be this kind of vibe I got from him. Hard to explain, but it felt good.

What didn’t make any sense was that he was dating Anne. So probably I was only imagining that there was something happening between us. He just wanted to be friends. He probably didn’t even know how tuned into him I was. Friends? What the hell, I could use another friend.

To be honest about this stuff, I should tell you that I jerked off thinking of him again that night after he called. I felt kind of stupid getting so fixed on this guy. I had hardly even met or seen him more just briefly. He’d only asked if we could have lunch cuz he didn’t have any friends on campus. I was acting like a stupid high school Freshmen with a crush.

By the time we met for lunch on Tuesday, I’d jerked off thinking of him two more times. The call from him had somehow pushed all my negative thoughts about Anne from my head and refilled it with fantasies of this guy.

I hadn’t had feelings like this for anyone since Tolley my Freshmen year. To be honest, when I was jerking off picturing Paul, I was also remembering Tolley a little. It was like a cautionary tale. It was warning to me: Don’t get too into this guy. It’s easy to get hurt.

I’d certainly gotten hurt by Tolley and trying to move things too fast. At least too fast for him. I knew I was getting myself all worked up over Paul. Fucking horny is what I was. And I was pretty sure there wasn’t a chance he was gay or even bi.

As I waited for it to be time for my lunch with Paul, the hours and minutes and seconds crept by. As they did, I’d decided a couple of things I would and wouldn’t do: I’d be honest and up front that I was sexually “undeclared.” I hoped he would tell me if he was bi or straight or whatever. But if he didn’t I wouldn’t ask or pry. No matter what he said, I would not come on to him. Not right away. I’d make it clear I wanted to be friends. If he wanted more, he’d have to make the first move, at least for now. Let him set the pace. I’d have to be content to follow his lead. But above all, I’d do my best to be honest with him. As honest as a friend could be.

Honesty and friendship. It was like my new mantra. I found myself repeating it over and over in my head. “Honesty and friendship.”

It made sense to me, but I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I was too worked up over this guy for anything to be easy. I needed to relax and calm down. That’s why I’d whacked off twice. I thought it might curb my need. It usually worked that way for me.

I was more than 20 minutes early to meet Paul for lunch. That pretty much says it all. The good news, at least in my mind, was that he was almost 15 minutes early. We both made excuses for why we were so early. I think his was about as lame as mine.

We got our food and then both sat there just looking at each other silently. Both of us awkwardly waiting for the other to speak first. I was trying to figure out if he was giving off that same vibe he had the first two times I saw him. Or if my gaydar was picking up anything. I’d pretty much decided neither was in play when . . .

“So I guess you have a lot of friends.” After making that odd opening comment, Paul quickly looked down at his food and started toying with a grape in his fruit cup. I didn’t really know what to say. I saw Paul look up at me over his food. He had a hopeful look in his eyes. That look sent a vibe I liked!

“I guess I know a lot of people. Not all of them are really friends,” I said. Wondering where he was going with this opening.

Silence descended on us again until I finally broke it. “So I guess one of my friends must have given you my number. Why not just ask Anne?” I guess maybe that came out a little harsh, cuz Paul blushed and looked really uncomfortable. For a second I thought maybe I’d screwed up and he was just gonna take his lunch and leave. So I added, “I was really glad that you called. I think I could use a new friend.”

I could see the relief in Paul’s face. His whole body suddenly relaxed and he smiled. That made me smile and it hit me hard how important it was to me to make this guy, a guy I didn’t even really know, happy.

“Well, I actually got your number from Anne’s cell. It’s just that she doesn’t know,” Paul said cautiously, like he was testing to see how I’d react to that bit of information.

“She doesn’t know you got my number from her cell . . . Or she doesn’t know about you asking me to lunch?”

“Both. I know she’s pretty upset with you. She didn’t say why, but she said something like you’d gone too far. I doubt she’ll be pissed for too long. I think she sort of has a crush on you.” Paul said. Again I could see had had that kind of uncertainty as to how I might react. I just played it cool.

“Well, I don’t know if she’s upset or not,” I lied, “but we had a little disagreement the other day. I think it’ll blow over. You think she’s got a crush on me? I never would have guessed that.” I wanted to move away from my problem with Anne as fast as I could. I didn’t want this conversation going there. If I was gonna be honest with Paul, I didn’t want to do it discussing why Anne was so mad at me.

Honesty and friendship.

Paul went on talking about Anne. Asking how I came to know her. Telling me how he had come to know her. It turned out he didn’t even really remember her from high school. She saw him on campus and asked him out and kept calling him. Since he didn’t have any friends at our school, he’d said OK. “She’s a nice girl and all, but . . .” He paused and shrugged and thrust out his lower lip in a way that seemed to dismiss her importance. Thank god, at last maybe we could start talking about something else.

Lately Paul had met a few guys who played touch football on Sunday afternoons. But even after a month of joining them, he still felt like an outsider around them.

We talked about classes and majors and bars and stuff like that. It was easy talking to him and I liked finding out about him and what he was into. I got the feeling that we really could become friends. In some ways being there with him just talking reminded me of killing time with Billy. I liked it.

There was a little pause as we both started eating again and then he asked, “So are you dating anyone?”

I knew what he really meant was “Are you gay, or bi or what?” I had sort of anticipated that question, or at least letting him know. But when I was confronted with answering it, I started to stammer.

“It’s summer, you know, not a lot of . . . you know, people around,” I said not looking him in the eyes. “Usually I go out most every weekend, but I don’t usually date really. I just go with what’s going on.” Even I didn’t know what that meant.

“Yeah, me too. I’m not really into dating,” he said and gave me another one of his wicked ass smiles. It left me staring at him and thinking how much I could really get into this guy. It also reminded me how important it was to stick with my game plan. Honesty and friendship.

I guess I was ready to tell him I was “undeclared” or whatever, which is pretty much what I meant to do. But then I got to wondering. Had he just tried to tell me he was . . . What had he told me? Or was I reading too much into that one question?

My stomach went tight.

The conversation had come to a halt all of a sudden. We were both just sitting there looking at each other. He was giving me his smile. I felt like a dog in heat, but my stomach was so knotted up I was about ready to barf.

I had told myself I’d be honest with him, so I blurted out, “I take it where I can get it.”
Paul looked stunned at first. Like maybe I’d hit him in the nuts or something. Then he nodded like he understood, but I felt compelled to explain, “Sexually, that is.”

There, I’d said it. But for some reason I couldn’t just leave it at that. “It doesn’t matter to me so much if it’s boys or girls.” I stared into his eyes to see his reaction.

Paul was leaning back in his seat with the biggest smile I’d seen from him, which at that point was saying a lot. And he kept smiling that wicked-ass smile at me. My answer seemed to make him too happy. I didn’t get it.

At last he sort of nodded like we’d come to some sort of agreement and said, “Yeah, me too, I guess.”

I didn’t know what to say. Was he telling me that he . . .?

There was an awkward pause. I think maybe we had both caught each other by surprise. We stared at each other. He was smiling. His big smile. A real smile. I wanted to feel the way he felt. But instead my smile was an attempt to cover-up the wild churning in my guts.

“So I gotta go. I told this kid I’d come look at his car,” Paul said kind of sudden like, making like he was getting ready to check out.

I didn’t want him to go. I thought we were about to really start talking to each other. About stuff that really mattered. At least to me. But also I was afraid that if we kept talking, this could be like Tolley and me all over and maybe I’d never see him again.

Honesty and friendship. Honesty and friendship.

I needed to keep him there. I needed to keep him engaged.

I was grasping at straws or whatever. I asked, “So you work on cars? You a good mechanic?”

“No, I hardly know anything about cars, but I’m trying to buy one,” he said, settling back into his seat as he answered. “I called this kid who has to sell his car. He lives not too far from here. Do you want to come with me? I could use a little help. I really don’t know anything about buying cars.”

Why did every second of every minute with Paul seem so important? Should I go with him? Should I . . .

Honesty and friendship.

“I don’t know a thing about cars either, but if you want a little company while you look, I can join you.”

He smiled. I smiled back. We each paid for our own lunch. This could work. I just needed to relax. This could really work.

To Be Continued . . .

I hope you liked today's chapter. Of course, we'd love to have comments about it from any and all of you. Remember that tomorrow I'll be posting Chapter 10 and there will be a major development!

Plus I hope you'll check out the new mini-project that I have written with PerpetuallyHard312. It's another true story about a real guy. He says he'll be willing to answer your questions as best he can.

So until the double-feature tomorrow, stay happy. And stay hard!
 
That chapter has got me feeling all jittery, nervous,and excited all at the same time! Go get 'em Jess, he wants you too....more than you know ;) And as HR said we have our own mini project that just came out of the blue. I'll answer any questions I can after he posts the first chapter. I hope you guys like it!
 
Love it! Jess & Paul ... can't wait to "see" them together making out ...

And PH - I am really looking forward to YOUR story!
 
I'm liking where Jess and Paul are headed! And, no, I don't mean the car! :badgrin: :slap:

It's as though We all KNOW what direction this is going to go, but THEY don't, yet! I'm appreciating the look into their uncertainty, hesitancy, and anticipation. Yeah! It really does happen like that in Real Life!! (!w!)

And ... looking forward to PH's mini-project, too! Would appreciate a link to it when it's posted! (group)

Keep smilin'!! :kiss:(*8*)
Chaz :luv:
 
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