Jess' Story -- I Thought I Knew, Book 3

[hardreader]

It seems like the weeks fly by faster as the holidays approach. I will have a new episode for you tomorrow if all continues to go well. I think you'll find it will expand your mind or at least your . . . Well, do let me know just what it expands.

Unfortunately, I believe this will be the last episode for a few weeks. Jess and Paul are already off on their winter break. Both of them have more plans while they're off from school than they will ever manage to get done. I know I'll be busy too and so the chance of our finding time to work on a new episode before January is slim.

I will be working on my new mini-project, since all the research for it is done. I'm not sure when it may debut, but I think you'll like it . . . a lot.

But for now I had better turn to the mailbag:

rain09 -- "Omg...I love this chapter!!! That was such a special moment for you two! The intimacy was very touching...I'm in heaven right now . It was so hot, too! Wow. You two are so cute together... I'm glad you got to spend such an amazing night together like that. The morning scene was so hot. WHen I wake up in the morning, I also wake up in that kind of a haze...I guess I think about these kinds of things a lot even in my sleep. Waking up to someone special like that, finding them hard next to you...wow..." I want to thank you for the enthusiasm that explodes from you in this post. I know when you read this episode you weren't in a position to enjoy Jess & Paul's awakening as you would have liked. But I know it brought you pleasure in the end. Thanks for being such a great fan!

Kyanimal -- Your comic book approach to your message using only emoticons was amazing. I hope guys who missed it will scroll back now to see just how you reacted! Brilliant!

NothingtoSay -- "Oh man each chapter just keeps on getting better and better. Just when I think I found my favorite chapter so far you post a new one and it blows me away. My goodness.... GREAT freaking chapter." By the time I had finished reading this message from you, I knew Jess and Paul had hit a home run with this episode.

BoomerGuyx -- "That chapter was sooooo awesome ... soooo hott ... first time and with a guy who'd unknowingly had been the object of your fantasies .... WOOHOO!!" So just how many times did this episode get you off? Be honest!

TimWhite07 -- "That was an amazing chapter. It was so hot. I cant wait to see what other things jess has to teach paul. HR, every chapter gets better and better. Again to be a fly on the wall. It was great. My cock really enjoyed it. Zach might not when he getts home from his finals. but oh well. he will live." What's the matter. Are you worried because you blew your load before your husband got home? Didn't you save some for him? Oh, well, as you say, Zach will live! And probably get off too! Have a great and safe trip!

DonQuixote -- "Firsts are So important in so many ways. Jess, I knew you knew how important they were, based on your own experiences, . . . You certainly made sure that Paul's "morning afterglow" was running on Acetyline! How long, one wonders, did you wait until Your, unselfish, needs were satiated? And, HOW did you satisfy them? Did Paul handle you, take you into his mouth, or did he ask you to fill him with your essence before you left the bed for the day? I'm sure all things will be revealed in good time . . ." Ah, yes they will, Don. Good questions. The answers to them should be revealed for the most part tomorrow.

Anonymous -- "Of course I'm enjoying the project :] Very hot chapter! I'm working on my own finals too so I know how busy you guys are, and still putting out great work!" So glad we're bring you relief from the finals. And thanks for the kind words.

PerpetuallyHard312 -- "That chapter was so hot...yet touching at the same time! This is by far the most emotional book in the series! I love it I admire how Jess and Paul don't just rush into things and are taking their time. I love how I can feel what Jess and Paul are feeling when HR posts another chapter. Everything is so heartfelt and I get a warm feeling everytime I read this story. Make no mistake though, I still get off reading it everytime! That was truly some way to relieve morning wood!" So do you mind telling us just how you did relieve that morning wood?

skittles -- "WOW! I am speechless" This is truly a first! Or was your mouth too full of something to speak?

bmark_packard -- "Another barn burner! It's nice that Jess has both heads and his heart together." I like that! both heads and his heart together

That's all I have tonight. So until tomorrow, I hope you all stay happy. And stay hard!

 

[hardreader]

Jess' Story
I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
Chapter 12
From Paul's viewpoint​

I couldn’t believe what had just happened. Jess had actually masturbated me for real! His hands were on my penis and made me cum. Oh my god! I have never felt anything like the pleasure . . . no that’s not a strong enough word . . . but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’d never felt anything like the pleasure I had as Jess had masturbated me.

I kept thinking back to what must have been probably Chapter 4 of “I Thought I Knew” when Justin had masturbated Billy for the first time. When I first read that all I knew was that I wanted to experience how amazing it must feel to have another kid’s hand where only mine had been. Doing what only my hand had ever done. I think Billy had said something like there was no comparison between the two. I had never imagined how true that was.

Even in my deepest and best fantasies of having sex with Jess, I had never imagined it could be this good. Then I started to realize that this was only like the first step. There was so much more we could do! My heart was beating so hard in my chest with the excitement of it all. It was almost painful.

For a couple of years, all I had been able to do was imagine the feelings. The sensations. After that morning, I didn’t need to imagine anymore. I only needed to remember. And I was pretty sure I’d never forget. This was so much better than the night before had been. Don’t get me wrong, the night before had been really great, too. This was just so much better. I wanted to do it again. Now!

But I knew there was so much more I wanted to experience and Jess was right beside me. His penis was hard and I could see clear liquid drooling from the tip of it. I knew that was the sweetest liquid a guy could taste and I wanted to experience that.

As I was about ready to get on my hands and knees and start licking Jess’ clear liquid, he said in a lazy kind of afternoon voice, “I wanna do so much more with you.” My exact thoughts! We were so in sync with each other already!

My heart raced. I felt light-headed like I might faint. My head was so full of so many ideas that it was hard to even think. Or speak. I think I said something like, “Yeah, me too.”

Neither of us moved for a minute or two, but I could see Jess’s penis was still so hard and leaking. I could feel the need building in me to do something about it. “Can I take care of you now?” I asked.

“No,” Jess said.

“Why?” I asked. I was surprised by his response.

“Because this morning is about me taking care of you. It’s time for me to show you whatever you want to see. To do whatever you want to do. I can do whatever you want me to do for you. Or to you.” Jess rolled on his side and looked right at me with a lusty smile.

I know I was probably smiling just like he was, only he looked sexy and I probably looked like a fool. Jess stared at me as I tried to figure out what I wanted to do next. In my mind this was a lot like when Justin was teaching Billy and Jess how to do gay stuff. I’d read those chapters so many times. I wondered in Jess was thinking the same thing.

I couldn’t believe this was happening. Jess was teaching me. And not in some story where after I came I realized it was still just me alone in my room. How could my life have changed so much? So fast?

Suddenly it came to me what I wanted to happen next. It was like writing my own fantasy story. I could have Jess do whatever I wanted.

“I want to know what it’s like to taste your . . .” As often as I had read the term, I suddenly realized I had never even said it out loud. So many things were still the first time for me.

“Cum? You want to taste my cum?” Jess said and his smile turned from lusty to downright sexy in the cutest way.

“Well, maybe that too,” I said and I must have blushed. I couldn’t believe he had just made me cum and now we were lying naked next to each other talking about me tasting his semen. “But first I want to taste you pre-cum, I guess. I’ve read so much about how sweet it is. I’ve always dreamed of tasting it.”

I paused and looked at him. He looked like he was sort of laughing at what I had said.

“So can I?” I asked and then added, “Please!”

“Sure. This is all about you this morning. If you wanna taste my pre-jizz, go for it. I’m just happy to help you out.” With that he reached down and grabbed his hard cock at the base. I know Hardreader always said it is eight inches long, but to me that morning it looked so much bigger. Bigger than mine for sure. And so much better. Maybe it was because he was with me that he was bigger, I thought. It was the kind of fantasy thoughts I’d always had about a moment like this.

Jess tightened his grip on the shaft of his penis down close to his testicles. He slowly squeezed it and he moved his hand toward the top.

As his hand got closer to the top of his penis, I could see more and more of the clear liquid oozing from the tip, like he was squeezing it out of a toothpaste tube or something like that. When he had a lot on his fingertips, he started to remove his hand and I was pretty sure he was going to offer it to me.

I quickly took hold of his wrist and put his hand back on his throbbing penis. I got on all four as I had been about to do a few minutes earlier when Jess had stopped me. I leaned in to taste his . . . his pre-cum.

At first I just put the tip of my tongue to the tip of his penis. As I pulled it back toward my waiting mouth I could see a thin strand of the liquid trailing from my tongue to his penis. All I could think was oh my god! I sucked it in a little and got a taste. It was really sweet. Just like in all the stories I had ever read. So sweet! At least compared to my semen.

I had tasted my own semen often enough. HardReader’s stories always described the taste of semen. That made me curious and pretty soon I pretty much always ate some of mine when I masturbated. But I didn’t produce pre-cum like he said Billy and Justin did. Or even like Jess. When I saw Jess’ pre-cum for that first time, it looked like a lot more to me than I had imagined it would be.

I think the little bit I produced the night before was the most I could ever remember. For some reason, I had never tried tasting my pre-cum. I don’t know why. I just hadn’t.

“How do you like it,” Jess asked.

“It’s really good. It’s sweet like I thought yours would be,” I said.

“Yeah, a guy’s pre- is usually a lot sweeter than his jizz,” Jess said like he was a world expert on the subject. He probably was. He sure had tasted more than I had. I knew that for sure.

It was then that my instincts took over and I started licking as much of Jess’ pre-cum off the head and shaft of his penis as I could. I was licking and slurping. I probably sounded like a kid with a melting ice cream cone.

I was drifting into a world of my own, licking up and down. Jess’ penis was so hard. So amazingly beautiful to see and touch and taste. Every bit as handsome and perfect and powerful as Hardreader had described it. Only better!

I was tasting Jess. Smelling Jess. Touching Jess. And from the groans he let out, I was making him feel as good as he had made me feel a little earlier.

I think it was his groans that put me over the edge. I couldn’t stop myself. I wrapped my lips around the head of his penis and held it in my mouth. I was so flooded with sensations and emotions. I wanted to make sure that I took it all in. I wanted to remember this forever.

I massaged the hard end of his penis with my lips and bathed it with my tongue. It was much warmer than I had expected it to be. Much harder. So smooth! And with my mouth wrapped around it I was almost overwhelmed by the scent of his sex.

I knew my own smell. Some mornings I would wake up and while I was still hard with morning wood I would run my fingers across the moist area around and beneath my testicles. This sounds kind of crude, but I liked to smell them and imagine I was smelling another guy.

But what I was smelling as I inhaled Jess’ fragrance was the same kind of scent but completely different. I was so turned on by it all. I was raging hard again and that made me work Jess’ throbbing penis with even more enthusiasm.

I couldn’t resist taking more and more of it into my mouth. It felt so good. This hard, warm piece of flesh. The sexual essence of the man I had craved for years. And now his hard penis . . . his fucking cock . . . there I said it . . . his fucking cock was in my mouth. The same cock . . . I love saying that now . . . that Justin sucked, that Billy sucked . . . the same hard cock that fucked both of them . . . it was in my mouth at last.

I only wished I could taste Justin and Billy too as I sucked Jess’ penis that morning. But I couldn’t. But believe me tasting, feeling, smelling, touching Jess in this way was truly more than enough. But I always seemed to want more!

I sucked Jess and thought about all I knew about him and all the things I wanted to do with him. As I did I realized that somewhere in the back of mind I had been thinking about how much I wanted to talk to Jess about all this. If I could speak freely about what I knew about him, it would liberate our whole relationship. Take it to a higher level. Give us the freedom to . . . I don’t know exactly, but I felt trapped by the secret that lay between us. Unspoken by Jess. Unspoken by me.

I also realized that an unshaped plan was forming in my head to deal with that secret. Before I could judge its worth or even figure out where it might end, I had pulled back from Jess’ penis to ask, “I want to help you cum. So tell me, how do you like to have an orgasm? I mean if you were like here alone and pleasuring yourself, how would you make yourself cum?”

Jess raised his head from his pillow and looked at me with his lusty grin. “That’s kind of an unusual question. Why do you want to know that? There are lots of ways I like to get off.”

I lied. “Because I want to please you just as much as I can. As much as you just pleasured me.” What I wanted was for him to tell me he liked to take his own cum straight in his mouth. I knew that, but I couldn’t say that. I knew so much about him that I wanted to act on. But I felt restrained because he didn’t know how well I already knew him. That’s why I needed my plan. And this was it.

“So if you were here alone and woke up with morning wood and needed to . . . you know . . . masturbate or whatever, how would you want most to do it?” I asked again.

“You may think this is a little kinky, but I like to lick my own cockhead and shoot my load into my mouth,” he said.

I did my best to look surprised. I guess I was surprised. Even though I knew the answer, still Jess had just told me he liked to lick and suck his own cock and eat his own cum. Hearing him say those words . . . to me . . . it was stunning. It made this all so real. I could actually feel his words in my penis. It ached with need and . . . it’s too early for this word . . . but I think with love too.

Jess looked at me, taking in my reaction. I guess I was convincing.

“You mean you can suck your own penis?” I asked trying to sound like I was in disbelief. “I’d love to see that!” That last part was not a lie. I wanted to see Jess’ put his penis in his own mouth so bad.

“I don’t need to get myself off. You suck me a lot better than I can suck myself,” he said.

“Please,” I whined.

“OK, but . . .” he paused and gave me a very curious look. “OK, but I need to move around so I can get in position.

I got off the bed while Jess turned his body completely around, his feet resting on the top of the headboard. His neck and shoulders bearing the brunt of his body’s weight. When he seemed to be settled, he looked over at me and said, “You’ve got me so worked up, this isn’t going to take long.”

As he started to lower his hard penis toward his waiting lips, I said, “Just a second. I want to get a really good look at this.”

I climbed on the bed. My feet toward the foot of the bed. My head right next to Jess’ head.

“Can you see OK?” he asked. I was so close, I think he meant it as a joke.

“Great!” I said. Jess moved his head just enough so he could kiss me. It was a strange feeling kissing him like upside down. His head pointing one way. Mine the other. Our lips and our tongues toying with each other. They felt completely different to me.

We broke our kiss and Jess lowered his penis to his mouth. I could see his tongue slither out and lap at the head of his penis. He left a wide, wet trail of saliva across its almost purple surface. I could seen the sheen in the light.

Jess made it all look so easy. I’d tried to reach my penis with my mouth and couldn’t. I knew what he was doing wasn’t easy.

I watched completely entranced as he tasted his own pre-cum. “That’s amazing,” I said. And it was. Truly amazing. It was exactly as Hardreader had described it. As I had imagined it so many times as I masturbated dreaming of Jess and me together. Though never quite like this.

“Can I have a taste?” I asked. I didn’t wait for his answer before I moved my head in and lapped at a fresh drop of Jess’ sweet pre-cum. I wrapped my lips briefly around his cockhead before withdrawing a little.

“Mmmmmm! That feels so good. Do that again,” Jess said in a soft, sexy voice.

I suggested we do it together and he agreed. It took a couple of tries but soon Jess was lowering his cock into his mouth and then shifting it to mine. While he sucked himself I ran my lips and tongue along his hard, hot shaft. Sometimes nuzzling his dangling testicles with my nose or face or even my tongue.

When I sucked on the end of his penis, Jess kept his lips close to mine. I could feel and smell his breath.

We’d been doing this for only a couple of minutes when Jess said, “Gonna cum. Open your mouth!”

His penis was just above his own mouth. I moved mine right beside his. We both reached out and touched the head of his penis with our tongues. I’ll never forget that moment. Jess had his hands sort of on his own butt and must have pulled himself into a tighter ball, because his cock jerked downwards bumping into both our mouths.

Then he groaned and his penis moved back an inch or two. “Aghhhhhh!” he moaned as he came. His hot, slimy semen sprayed into both our mouths, with some on my chin and neck. The taste was like a burst of excitement in my mouth. Like a flood of sex. I loved it.

Our tongues and lips continued to stretch out to try to lap and suck at his exploding penis. It was like a shower of cum. I don’t really know how to explain it except to say nothing had ever made me feel so real, so alive as I did at that moment.

I could feel the sticky wetness of his semen all over my face and neck. I could smell the bleach-like smell of his cum. His breath was raspy as he began to use one hand to stroke his semen-dripping penis. His semen had flooded my hair and my face and his too. We were a complete mess of cum.

I raised one of my hands and stroked his testicles. He must not have shaved them in a day or two because I could feel the stubble of his short trimmed pubic hair on them. The soft bristles felt glorious to me. I also felt the warm smooth skin of his shaft with my fingertips. The softening penis beneath this amazing covering. My dreams were all coming true.

At last Jess squeezed his cock and coaxed a few last drops of his semen from his penis. He sort of doled them out. One for me. One for him. One for me . . . Then he was done. Exhausted. Spent. And going limp

He eased his body down and let it rest against the headboard. We kissed again. This time Jess’ semen . . . its taste . . . its smell . . . its texture . . . all overwhelmed our upside down kiss. We sucked and lapped cum from each other’s lips and mouths. Rubbed our cum-covered faces against each other. Celebrated the explosion of passion.

“Oh my god man, I thought you were like a virgin. Where did you learn how to do all this stuff?” Jess asked, laughing as he tried to scoop more of his cum between his lips.

“I watch a lot of porn. And I read a lot of porn,” I said.

Jess kind of froze. I didn’t want to scare him by moving too fast, but my plan . . . unfinished as it was . . . was unfolding.

“What do you watch? XTube?”

“Yeah I’ve watched a lot of XTube. Most of it’s not very good, but some of it is amazing. It taught me a lot, but maybe not so realistic,” I said.

I saw Jess sort of clench his jaw and then bite his lower lip. I thought I remembered Hardreader writing something about that look, but I couldn’t remember what he’d said. Then Jess asked, “So what did you read?”

My heart stopped for second. Was I going to do this? Then I relaxed and said, “Mostly porn on line?” I steeled myself for the next question I felt certain he would ask.

“Got a favorite place to find gay porn to read?”

With that question I rolled onto my back, Staring at the ceiling. I don’t remember exactly what was in my head at that moment but I probably couldn’t bring myself to look into Jess’ face when I said the words. “Yeah, I really like some of the stories at JustUsBoys.” My confidence was wavering, but I’d said it.

Jess was silent for a long time and so was I.

To Be Continued . . .

I'm sorry to say that this is probably the last episode to get posted in 2009. With all the demands of the holiday season, I doubt we'll have much time to put the next episode together until school resumes for Jess and Paul in January. I hope you can wait that long.

But while you're waiting, consider leaving a comment and rating this project. Or if you're ambitious you can follow bmark_packard's lead and reread Books I and II. Whatever you do, have a great holiday season!

Until we meet again, stay happy. And stay hard!

 

[glorff]

It's a good thing that I know that they are working on this project together or the suspense would kill me.

Thanks for the new ultimate fantasy, now all I have to do is find the other guy to share it with.

 

[DonQuixote]

Paul, You are such a great addition to the ITIK family = You are, after all, the manifestation of so many of we poor readers' fantasies fulfilled. You're the boy who got the golden goose(gander?!), so to speak. And oh what a Gander he is!

Thank you for continuing to share your most intimate experiences with us.

And, HR, master craftsman extraordinaire - and one helluva'n S&M master - you're going to make us wait til after the holidays to read the conclusion of this ciffhanger? The Bomb that we've all been waiting for?

Santa's going to leave you a heap o' coal for being such a baaaad boy to us.
Tormenting us over the holidays. Sure, you spread a little good cheer with the super sexy retelling of Jess and Pauls' morning after glow and more, then you yank all the warm feelings away with the short exchange at the end . . .
LOL

Another great chapter. And the young love budding in the intense sexual exploration and giving to one another. I hope you are together over the holidays. We know Jess is from Chicagoland, Where does Paul call home, again? And, how are the families taking to your relationship, or is it too early to delve into that one?

I'm sure you'll let us know in your good time.

In the mean time, Thank You, again, Paul, Jesse, and HR - yeah, Billy and Justin and Tom, too.

Hope you all have a VERY Merry Christmas and super New Year.

 

[PerpetuallyHard312]

So fucking HOT!! I know exactly how you felt Paul...believe me. I read another story a long time ago about a guy who could suck his own dick like Jess can...I only wish to witness it one day myself. Oh man....I need to get some water....number 7 took a lot out of me this time...I'm not usually this worn out.lol I can't wait for 2010...another even year at last! I hate odd years. On that note, Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, Hanakkah, and any other holidays that I may have missed, and a Happy New Year to you all! My dear sweet cousin had the good fortune of being a New Year's Baby so we'll be having a special 21st B-day party for her!

 

[Anonymous]

Gahh, I think the suspense will kill me! Very nice chapter!

Happy holidays to the ITIK crew! Get lots of rest and write us some more next year! :]

 

[MyBFCallsMePaul]

I know it is Hardreader's job to comment to each of the readers. However, every time he posts one of my chapters, I am always amazed by the wonderful reactions. To think that part of my life is Glorff's "ultimate fantasy." That is so much more than I ever expected. DonQuixote always says so nice things too. And I know a lot of you, like perpetuallyhard and Skittles, mostly like the sex. So do I for sure.

I don't have time to mention each of you, but I do read all the comments and try to answer my private messages as best I can. I'm sorry for anyone I leave out.

I also wanted to say that reading my Chapter 12, I was surprised how much Hardreader wrote everything using the way I used to talk. I know I always said penis instead of cock and masturbate not cum, or nut, or get off. I know I did talk that way when I first met Jess. That has changed a lot. I do slip back into it sometimes, but Jess has changed me in so many ways. I just didn't want everyone to think I'm still the hayseed I was back then. It was so weerd for me to read it the way Hardreader wrote.

I hope you all enjoy the holidays. It will be sad for me being away from Jess so much the next few weeks, but as you have all figured out, we do make it through this rough spot ahead.

Thanks everybody.

- Paul​

 

[TimWhite07]

Greetings from Denver, CO...

We pulled into denver ans decided to take a break from the driving. We need to get some food. Zach has been driving all night, so i'm going to drive the rest of the way.

Of course while we are taking this break i had to read ITIK. HR told me that he would have it out yesturday, but there was no way i would get to read it. I just did, and i loved it. It was a beatuiful chapter. I had to read it away from my little brother, just like HR said i would. Im glad that i did. I had to eat something that was somewhat healthy. Everyone else when to get something fried.

Jess, you are great a wonderful guy. Your passing on what you learned form your experience with billy and justin. That is wonderful. Not many get that kind of chance. You are very lucky and to be able to share it with Paul. That makes you ever luckier.

Pual, you to are a wonder guy. I was wondering why you kept saying Penis, and masturbate. It seemed a little proper for this story. But know i know. I bet being with Jess would change any man. Maybe for the better, but Mayeb for the worst.......... if you know what i mean. Even though you are going to be away from Jess for a little while, im sure when you get back to him, the impending inconture will be amazing. One that fireworks will need to be in the background. lol. Little fantasy of mine.

HR, if you are not a gift to all gay men, then i dont know what it. You have this way of taking our minds, my mind, from our body and putting it in a whole nother scence or person. You turn us on with words, you get us off the details. The smell, the flavor, the touch. When i read what you write, i sense all of it. It was wonderful gift that you bring, and i hope that you continue to bring to us for a while.

Have a Marry Christmas to you all...... A happy Hanukkah.....A great Kwannza..... Whatever you might celebrate this time of year, may it be wonderful. Enjoy what is left of this year and may the next year be amazing for us all.

I need to eat then it is time for us to hit the raod again.

 

[rain09]

HR I'm always amazed at how good of a job you do at writing these chapters. I agree with the other people who commented, you do a fantastic job at engaging ALL our senses. Especially our sense of cum .

Jess I hope you are able to read my comment. I think you are amazing. It's probably a good thing we have not ever met, b/c I don't know what I'd be willing to do with you...

and same goes for you Paul. I love the formality, saying "penis" instead of "dick" or "cock", trying to paint your situation in a more innocent light, then realizing it's even more pleasureful just indulging in it...

I know the feeling of being a little bit too reserved... I've known it too well and I'm trying hard to let go of it. I guess it's a matter of determining the right balance between your integrity and pleasure... or at least a matter of redefining what your integrity is, or redefining what pleasures you.

It's clear these have been redefining moments for both of you. For Jess, perhaps this moment has transcended just "getting off", since you are starting to love Paul.

For Paul, this moment must have been a release, a Nirvana of sorts. I must say Jess is extremely lucky to be able to share the experience of having you release your inhibitions in such a powerful way...all over him. I'm sure he enjoyed it very much .

The chapters of book 3 have been getting better and better. Yes, the chapter was amazing and it made me hard as hell. Also, it touched me deep inside- it's almost as if you guys are radiating new love for each other in the same way new stars radiate new light to the other reaches of space....

Thank you for sharing your experiences Paul and Jess. It's an honor to be able to read into them like this. It's a pleasure to have HR writing them, thinking with his ever-hard cock of course . HR your writing as always impresses me. You are very very very good at writing stories and conveying all the emotions, feelings, smells, tastes, lusts...passion... .

Merry Christmas/ Happy Holidays to everyone. I hope you all get to enjoy your holidays. Jess & Paul: I'm sure you'll find ways to cope being away from each other . It'll be all worth it when you come back, embrace, kiss, and so on... Have fun everyone!

 

[JustJess]

I thought I ought to give you and update since the story won't be starting for a few weeks. I only started my winter break and I already getting bored and missing my Paul. I've got too much time and not enough planned I think. I probably will try to see H.R. and ... tonight at their place. Mostly I'm waiting for new years eve when Paul will be here for two days and I think Billy and Justin will be here too. The four of us haven't been together for a long time.

Last night I read all of the comments again and I want you to know how great I think you all are for the stuff you say.

One more thing. Pauls no hayseed and never was. That's just how H.R. wrote it.

 

[bmark_packard]

OMG what a sweet chapter. I gasped when reading the last few lines but all is well after Paul's post. The first reading of the chapter was hot hard and I came but the second and third time thru was just a sweet love story. Right?
Jess you and Paul are one of us but just hit the jackpot, bam wam big! I want to hug and kiss both of you at the same time.
It is amazing how a couple PM"s and a few posts will make one feel like he is part of the gang, a real fan. Give me a cap and T-shirt with a logo. Humm?
HR you are the master, and TW07 said it so well. After all he is a writer and a good one. I can not add.
Ok boys, cum on, fuck, suck, kiss, drink, smoke, and celebrate the moment, the now.
Happy New Year all!
BMP

 

[gaytxn09]

Great update as always, boys.

 

[rain09]

Keep up the great story. I'm getting a strong feeling that the story, as amazing as it is, is only a glimpse of the fantastic things you guys get to do. I'm happy for you all of you .

 

[Kyanimal]

Uh, Yeah! Is it soon to be "soup time" yet???

Keep smilin'!!
Chaz

 

[hardreader]

It's been far too long since I posted here. I've missed working on this project. I've missed the exchanges with fans. I've missed the whole experience. But on the plus side, all of the guys were able to get back to Chicago and to my place for NYE and day. We had an awesome time and even talked about some of you. You can just wonder what we said about who.

With the holiday stuff now behind me and all the houseguests gone back to wherever they came from, I finally had a chance to get back to work.

I think when you read this next episode, you'll probably understand why we didn't want to work on it during the holidays. But I was finally able to pull it together and am almost ready to post. I still need to hear back from Jess one more time, but hopefully that will be soon.

So now for the long-overdue mailbag:

glorff -- "It's a good thing that I know that they are working on this project together or the suspense would kill me. Thanks for the new ultimate fantasy, now all I have to do is find the other guy to share it with." I hope 2010 brings you that guy to share it with. Until then, we're gonna continue to try to provide you the ultimate adventure even if you're travelling alone. And you'll just have to clean up your own mess!

DonQuixote -- "Santa's going to leave you a heap o' coal for being such a baaaad boy to us. Tormenting us over the holidays. Sure, you spread a little good cheer with the super sexy retelling of Jess and Pauls' morning after glow and more, then you yank all the warm feelings away with the short exchange at the end . . . LOL" Actually Santa left me something warm and creamy buried deep in my . . .Oh, he says I'm not supposed to talk about that here. Anyway, DQ, you know I have a penchant for leaving readers at cliff's edge. So don't act surprised. Just enjoy the sex and wait for the next episode to see where this all goes.

PerpetuallyHard312 -- "So fucking HOT!! I know exactly how you felt Paul...believe me. I read another story a long time ago about a guy who could suck his own dick like Jess can...I only wish to witness it one day myself. Oh man....I need to get some water....number 7 took a lot out of me this time...I'm not usually this worn out.lol" So just how much did No. 7 take out of you? And is it true what I hear from a friend that you may have set a new record over the holidays?

Anonymous -- "Gahh, I think the suspense will kill me! Very nice chapter!" Then be prepared to be killed twice.

skittles -- "if this is gonna be the last chapter of the year then you guys are certainly going out in style. I have to say that this was easily the hottest chapter so far. For sure." I was happy with how this chapter worked out, but it sounds like you and some of your ITIK buddies really got off on it. Consider that an early holiday gift from us to you.

TimWhite07 -- "Jess, you are great a wonderful guy. Your passing on what you learned form your experience with billy and justin. That is wonderful. Not many get that kind of chance. You are very lucky and to be able to share it with Paul. That makes you ever luckier. Paul, you to are a wonder guy. I was wondering why you kept saying Penis, and masturbate. It seemed a little proper for this story. But know i know. I bet being with Jess would change any man. Maybe for the better, but Maybe for the worst.......... if you know what i mean." I think we all know what you mean, Tim. But then change is what life is all about. Right?

rain09 -- "I know the feeling of being a little bit too reserved... I've known it too well and I'm trying hard to let go of it. I guess it's a matter of determining the right balance between your integrity and pleasure... or at least a matter of redefining what your integrity is, or redefining what pleasures you. It's clear these have been redefining moments for both of you. For Jess, perhaps this moment has transcended just "getting off", since you are starting to love Paul. For Paul, this moment must have been a release, a Nirvana of sorts. I must say Jess is extremely lucky to be able to share the experience of having you release your inhibitions in such a powerful way...all over him. I'm sure he enjoyed it very much." You have such great insight into what is happening with these guys and even with yourself. I hope you find the perfect balance of integrity and pleasure for you. I think you're well on your way.

gaytxn09 -- "Great update as always, boys." Thanks. It's great to have you as a fan.

Kyanimal -- "Uh, Yeah! Is it soon to be "soup time" yet???" It sure is, Chaz. Let me stir this pot one more time and then we'll just have to wait for Jess to say it's time to eat!

I'm not sure when I'll hear from Jess, but when I do, you'll be the first to know.

Until then, stay happy. And stay hard!

 

[hardreader]

Jess' Story
I Thought I Knew -- Book Three
Chapter 13, Part I
From Jess' viewpoint​

To understand how I felt when Paul said he liked to read stories at JustUsBoys, you have to understand how I felt before he said it.

Remember that Paul and I had just shared a load of my cum. I’ve done a lot of stuff with a lot of guys and girls, but somehow cumming in my mouth had always been a private thing. It had never even occurred to me to do it with someone.

Sure Billy and Justin and H.R. and even his boyfriend had all seen me do it. But even then it was something I did with . . . no, did for myself. It was me taking care of me in a world where no one else ever seemed to want to take care of my needs.

With Paul it was like everything had changed. He did care about me and what I liked. What I wanted. What I needed. Or at least he seemed to.

When I felt his tongue join mine as I licked my hard smooth cockhead, it was like electricity running between us. To feel him licking my nuts as I sucked my cock. His warm mouth sucking in one nut and then the other. To feel his tongue caressing my cock. It made me feel so good. So connected. At last I was really connected to someone. It’s like his doing this for me validated all the time we had spent talking and getting to know each other. It changed everything.

When I felt my cum starting to churn and knew I would cum soon, my mind was thinking I’d cum in my mouth. But then I realized I could cum in both of our mouths. I could really share this with him the way he was sharing with me. Or at least the way I thought he was sharing.

Then we were kissing. Sharing my cum again. So close. So bonded So much like becoming one . . .

I don’t know how to explain it but it was like the first time our high school swim team had won the regional state championship. Something happened when we won that last race that like bonded us together. When we all hugged each other beside that pool, we were connected as never before. We all knew it.

I was bonded with Paul that way. It was a shared experience unlike any I’d ever had with a guy. OK, so it was kind of like that the night I asked Billy and Justin to each show me what it was like to be fucked by a guy. It was kinda like one of those moments. But I’d known even as Justin first tried to gently work his monster into my hole that he was doing it as a favor for me. Not exactly pity sex, but not so far from it either. After all, he was only doing it because I all but begged him to. Billy was more enthusiastic, but still it was nothing like this.

I could completely sense how important this was to Paul. It felt like I was changing his whole life. Maybe mine too. It just felt like we were completely in sync in everything.

It wasn’t just the sex, but it didn’t hurt that we were swapping my load of cum back and forth. Our tongues playing in it. Our bodies sweaty as they writhed against each other in the aftermath of my fucking best cum in probably forever.

At that moment I felt that I somehow knew everything about Paul I ever needed to know. It had confirmed all I had felt as we’d spent most of yesterday together doing pretty much nothing at all.

So we were lying there face to face. Naked. My mind felt like it was melding with his like in one of those sci-fi stories.

Then suddenly he said something about reading porn. My guts cramped up as all the fears and terrors that my nightmare caused came crashing down on me. Only in real life, it wasn’t my mother who knew . . . but Paul.

It may be completely illogical, but when I realized that he might have read my story on JUB, my guts almost exploded. My thoughts cringed in the back of my brain. My body . . . I couldn’t even move.

Immediately my brain told me that Paul couldn’t possibly connect me to that story even if he had read it. H.R. had gone over that with us so many times. He’d taken every precaution. I should have been able to reassure myself. But just like when I had my nightmare, I couldn’t control the fears and doubts. The guilt. The shame.

I don’t know how I found the strength to ask, but I had to ask, “Do you have a site where you like to read it?” Maybe I was hoping he’d say something other than JUB. Maybe I just asked because I couldn’t stop myself.

It was like I was in freefall from the greatest moment of my life to the worst. I guess it didn’t really matter what I asked. I was falling and couldn’t seem to stop.

“Have you ever heard of JustUsBoys?” he asked.

That’s when I hit the bottom. Hard. Like it knocked the wind out of me.

I knew I should answer, but I couldn’t speak. I tried to open my mouth to answer, but I couldn’t seem to make it work. I tried to nod my head yes, but my head just fell kind of to the side.

Suddenly my mind was overpowered by the memory of Paul standing in front the picture of me that Justin had drawn. Paul staring at my cum-splattered body. Oh, fuck me!

Then my mind raced off in a new direction. A couple of little things he had said ran through my head in rapid succession: “I’ve read how sweet your pre-cum is. I dreamed of tasting it.” . . . “It’s sweet like I thought it would be.” . . . And Paul staring at that picture of me saying, “Justin must be a really good friend.” The words echoed in my head. I thought I was going to be sick.

He knew about Justin and the picture. He knew about my pre-cum. He must have known I could suck myself off. He’d planned it all. It was an elaborate scam. He knew all about me. Everything! He was playing me. Tricking me into shit. This was some sort of game to him.

I panicked. I scrambled out of bed. Found my shorts. Pulled them on. My head was reeling. I didn’t really know what I was doing or why. I just knew I needed to get away from this.

I just remember thinking, I’ve gotta go. I bolted from the room grabbing a T-shirt and I was gone. I was out in the parking lot before I realized I was barefoot. But I couldn’t go back. I just started to run. The T-shirt still clutched in my hand.

I know I ended up in a grassy area on campus near the administration building. I was completely winded and confused and scared. I don’t remember thinking about anything. I must have sat there a long time because it was almost dark by the time I got back to my place. I remember how hungry I was. I guess I hadn’t eaten all day.

I probably should have tried to figure out if Paul was still there, but it didn’t even occur to me that he could be.

When I got inside I found a note from him:

Jess

I had a really great time. Actually it was a lot better than great. It was the best. I can’t thank you enough for making my first time so special. You couldn’t have treated me any better than you did. I’ll never forget it. You are the best!

I am sorry you had to leave so fast. I sure hope everything is OK with you. I’ll call you later. Maybe we can get together this evening. I’ll be hanging out at my place.

Thanks again. Paul​

I reached down with every intention of crumbling up the note, but somehow I just couldn’t. It made me so sad. I could feel what he was trying to tell me and I wanted to tell him the same thing.

But I couldn’t forget that he knew and he didn’t tell me. He led me on. Played me. I reached toward the paper again, but there was like this struggle inside me that wanted me to hate him, fear him, drive him away. And one that wanted me to hold him and . . . That’s when I started to cry. I cried for a very long time.

Finally I was all cried out. I walked into the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. My eyes were puffy and red. I looked like I hadn’t slept in days. Even my skin looked like shit.

Finally I climbed in the shower and let the warm water run over me till it turned cold. I dried myself off and went and sat on my bed. I couldn’t help but look at the disheveled sheets. With their obvious cum stains. Our cum stains. Me and Paul all mixed together.

I ripped them off the bed and threw them on the floor. Then I sat on the stripped bed and I called H.R.

I remember him saying, “I hear you. I hear what you’re saying. But I don’t think he could possibly know even if he did read the project. We’ve been through this a millions times. He can’t know.

“Yeah, I know the picture is a big clue we didn’t figure on, but even that doesn’t make the link. Think about it. Think what he saw. Think what I wrote about you guys. How does he make the connection? He can’t. It’s just a coincidence. You met a guy who read your story and you're falling in . . . OK. OK. So you're not. It just seems like you’re really into this guy and if you are then don’t let this stop you.

“OK, let’s assume he does know. So what’s the harm? . . . Wait! Just wait! So he didn’t tell you that he knew who you were. So face it, you haven’t been completely honest about who you are either. When he said he read shit on JUB you didn’t say, ‘Oh I have a fuck story about me posted there.’ . . . Well, you had every opportunity to tell him. . . . I know you were scared and upset. . . . I’m just telling you I think you’re over-reacting.”

I hung up really pissed at H.R. It seemed to me he was taking Paul’s side. Fuck him!

About a minute later my phone rang. I checked and it was Paul. I let it ring.

It was the next morning before I checked my messages. Paul had texted me twice. The first one thanked me again for “a wonderful time”. The second said he was checking to see if I was OK. I ignored them

Actually I did my best to ignore thinking about Paul at all. It upset me and it confused me. I was mad, angry, scared and sad. All in no particular order. Just a mess of feelings whirling around in my head and stomach.

It had been about 10 days since that night we’d spent together. Paul had stopped texting me daily after the first four days.

I was so depressed about the whole thing. I’d stopped trying to figure out what had happened and just accepted that it had. My little JUB project had bitten me in the ass big time. The first guy I thought I might have really made it with and it was all fucked up because of that stupid story.

I was taking a shower playing with my cock a little for the first time in maybe almost a week. My soapy hand couldn’t ignore it. Or more precisely, my cock wouldn’t let my soapy hand ignore it. I hadn’t been getting myself off much for some reason since . . . since Paul.

I guess I was horny. Anyway I was rock hard in seconds. I didn’t want to rush this. I was horny but I needed some me time. I needed to do this nice and slow. I deserved that much. Just me and my cock getting reacquainted.

I was slow stroking, feeling the warm comfort of my familiar hand wrapped around my aching cock. I closed my eyes and could almost see my hand stroking my cock as clearly as when my eyes were open. But with my eyes closed, it felt better. Getting myself off all alone. The warm water on my back. That aching need in my cock and nuts. The silky feel of my soapy hand against my hard, throbbing cock.

But somehow, without realizing it at first, in my mind my hand became Paul’s hand. It was Paul slow stroking my cock. Making it feel so good. It was that first time again. In my bed. Lying naked between his legs as he stroked me off for the first time. I could feel the warmth of his face beside mine. Feel his hard cock pressing behind me. Smell his manly odor as he . . . Oh, this was so good! So much better than I’d ever . . .

My nuts were getting tight. My breathing raggedly. I wanted to cum so bad. I wanted to be held and loved and . . . Ohhhh, fuck. I came so hard. Cum spraying on my chest and abs. On the shower wall.

I kept stroking as my orgasm seemed to go on and on. And all the while Paul was wrapped around me. Stroking me. Making me feel so good.

I opened my eyes. Alone in the shower. Cum on my hand. On my body. On the wall. I didn’t want to be there alone anymore. I closed my eyes, but I couldn’t conjure back that image I had just enjoyed. I started to cry again for the second time.

At last I pulled myself together and was getting ready for class when my phone rang. Without thinking, I picked it up and answered it.

“Jess?” a sort of timid, shy voice said. I didn’t recognize it.

“Yeah, who’s this?”

“It’s me, Paul.”

I almost hung up, but instead stood frozen, my phone to my ear.

“Are you still there?” Paul finally asked.

“What?” I asked, surprised by how flat my own voice sounded.

“I’ve . . . I’ve missed you and hoped . . .” There was a long pause. “ . . . hoped you’d talk to me. I really want to talk to you. I think we need to talk.”

“About what?” I asked, again in that flat voice I didn’t recognize as my own.

“About us. About what’s happened. I think I must have upset you and I’m sorry. Can we please talk?”

“You’re damn right you upset me. So what do you want to say? Say it now.” I was suddenly angry.

“Can’t I talk to you . . . face to face?”

“Tell me what you have to say, or I’m hanging up and that’s the end of it!”

There was a long pause.

“I should have told you right away, but I didn’t know how. I know who you are. I know about your story. I’ve read it. And I think I love you.”

I remember it was like a bullet piercing my brain. Pain. The words actually hurt. My head hurt and I felt dizzy. I think I hung up without saying anything. Just hung up. I’m not proud of that moment, but that’s what I did. Paul said he loved me and I hung up the phone.

To Be Continued . . .

I hope you found this episode interesting and will join us in a week or so as Jess' Story continues. Please leave a comment and, if you haven't rated this project yet, now would be a good time.

Until then, stay Happy. And stay hard!

 

[WildBeast]

Hi! This is my first post in this board, so feel honored I've been reading your story for a couple days, I'm currently on Book 1, chapter 19. I think it was a wonderful idea for Jess, Billy and Justin to write about your experiences, you must have a great deal of trust within each other to pull it off. Hardreader, you're doing a great job on pulling their emotions into a book; you managed to make me (and a lot of other readers, I guess) feel and care for the characters, and knowing it all happened AND that they're around, it makes for the most vivid reading experience I've ever had. The different views in each chapter were a brilliant idea as well! You could make a best-seller out of this, seriously.

A special note to Justin, you're so, so sweet, I want my boyfriend to be like you . I hope you're still on the cast as I write this! I should tell you though, I'd work on the spelling of your posts, sometimes I couldn't figure out what you were saying

Keep up the good job

P.S.: I'm not checking for latest comments until I'm done reading (don't want to risk spoiling the story xD), so if any of you reply to this post, please PM me your reply

 

[thermodynamics]

The stars just never seem to line up for Jess. Something always goes awry.

 

[TimWhite07]

Oh that first moment you hear that 3 word phrase. It is a dragger of sorts. One that you dont expect and dont have an answer for when you first hear it.

I remember mine with Zach. I ran from it, i beat around the bush. He jsut kept saying it. I knew that i felt the same about him, but i was scared to say it back. He was the frist guy (and only) that i could say it to and be honest.

"I love you" The phrase is so powerful that it can shatter the strongest of men.

Im cant say that i know what you must have felt Jess, when you found out that Paul knew who you were. I have met people that asked me to. It is strange, the only thing that we could seem to talk about was what i wrote. that was the basis that they went off. What they knew about me was 4 years old. They only thing that is the same about me from 4 years is my love for zach and my family. I really only have one friend from highschool. Everyone else has moved away or stopped talking to me.

Jess you are an amazing guy, No-one can blame you for being scared. Being in that situation, any guy would be. Hell i might even had been mad at HR for someone finding out after he told me so many times that no-one ever could.

Pual, you are great also and lucky to have shared that moment with jess. To be the first one he shared that moment with. It is one thing to watch it, it is another to be a part of it.

I most go now, i have to acutally got back to work in the moring. I got one day of rest after getting back. .....sigh.....

 

[rain09]

Jess, this chapter tells me so much about you. I can't blame you for feeling afraid, confused, angry, and shocked that someone you were beginning to love had just discovered your most personal secret. I was disappointed in how you handled your emotions, but then again this was a tough time for you. The fact that you had cried alone speaks volumes about the flood of emotions that were just about drowning you. The emotions you felt in the last chapter gave me enough confidence to say that you did overcome this eventually- with Paul and HR's help no doubt.

Paul, you are a really nice friend I'm sure. Through all of this, not once did you accuse Jess of anything, nor did you show any resentment about it. You were concerned for your new friend/lover Jess, and you just wanted to help him deal with what he was going through. Jess is lucky to have someone as supporting as you are.

HR, I must say it- you are very much a part of this story, and you shouldn't think otherwise. From the many times I've been able to chat with you, I've gathered enough to know that you are a great friend and that you are a very helpful/ giving person. Your relationships with all the characters in ITIK may be more of a backstage sort of thing, but you still have a crucial role. Without you, I'm not sure Jess and Paul would even know each other. A lot of things would be different, and nowhere near as good, if you weren't as involved as you are. You are probably the most influential character in the story, even though it's only just becoming apparent in what you've written. I look forward to chapters with you more involved, hopefully .

As always, I loved this chapter. So what that it wasn't full of sex. Is life always about bunnies and unicorns? No. It's nice to know that story includes the individual development of each character as a person beyond the wild random sex . I'm just happy I have the privilege to learn from the collective experiences of everyone involved in ITIK. It truly has been a blessing and a very enlightening experience for me to read about everyone's developments in the story. I'm glad all of you involved (including HR and HR's bf) have been willing to contribute and allow the story to grow. Great job everyone.

I agree with WildBeast that you could have an amazing, best-selling series from the ITIK books. Just find the right publisher someday .

P.S.

You could DEFINITELY say I was "wondering" what you guys were saying . Btw Billy, HR was right lol . As for your "awesome time"- BIGGEST UNDERSTATEMENT EVER!!! You guys are awesome and soooooo lucky .