just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[TheLyingGame]

The world is ending in 16 days and I still don't know what I'm going to wear.

 

[refujiunderground]

I work for a web hosting company... my department manages backups and storage (which are semi-unrelated, but backups use more storage than anything else, so we ended up managing it by default)

had a client request 8TB in ssd storage by the end of business today. I know the quick answer is "no," and I know that my coworker spent all day working on an alternative solution, but he never actually updated the client before going home for the day at 4 pm (and now here it is 5:59 pm and the client is wondering where his drives are because no one bothered contacting him all day)

wow. that's fucked up. there's nothing more annoying than having a coworker that doesn't do what they're supposed to do and leaves you to do it for them along with all the other work you have to do. it happens to all of us but at the same time, if it's something that's major like that that could get a complaint sent by a customer where it becomes your headache. grimey.

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The world is ending in 16 days and I still don't know what I'm going to wear.

the world isn't going to end.

 

[GregKII]

Call me crazy, but I hate slow drivers. I've been driving for around 8 years now, and I've never had a ticket, I go at least 5 miles above the speed limit minimum, but it's usually 10. I suppose I've become used to speeding, and everyone else is going the "right" speed, because I constantly find myself caught behind slow drivers, with no way to go around.. it's the most frustrating thing in the world. It's not even like I'm in a rush to get somewhere, but I do admit that I have an affinity for 'fast driving.'

 

[refujiunderground]

Call me crazy, but I hate slow drivers. I've been driving for around 8 years now, and I've never had a ticket, I go at least 5 miles above the speed limit minimum, but it's usually 10. I suppose I've become used to speeding, and everyone else is going the "right" speed, because I constantly find myself caught behind slow drivers, with no way to go around.. it's the most frustrating thing in the world. It's not even like I'm in a rush to get somewhere, but I do admit that I have an affinity for 'fast driving.'

it depends on what you think slow is. maybe you're one of those drivers that drives 50 mph in a 25 mph zone. if that's the case, then maybe you need to learn how to calm your nerves when hitting the road. when you drive all aggressive, fast and etc, you pretty much put the lives of other people other than yourself in danger. plus to top it off, when you hit a certain speed, you never know when you're going to have to break. it takes a split second to fuck your life up behind the wheel.

now that you mentioned it. i gotta say that around where i'm at, the "lovely" state of new jersey, there's too many reckless and aggressive drivers that don't know how to drive for shit on the road. i ALMOST got in a car accident with a dumbfuck that cut me off riding in his escalade. don't know if the guy was drunk or on drugs or if he was just an idiot but i'm in the lane to turn right and this moron is in the wrong lane as he's in the left lane which is for going straight. the jackass tried to make a right turn in the left lane and in the process, he almost crashes into me. i hit the fucking horn and he still keeps going like a FUCKING moron. between here and new york city. i can to some degree understand why new york city drivers are aggressive BUT jersey on the other hand is a different story. folks like to rush like it's new york city except when NOT in nyc. you have folks driving all crazy on the road and the highway like they have to go to the emergency room, driving wreckless going 100mph, cutting off cars, and the whole nine only to exit off the highway or to turn off of a side street. it's crazy seeing folks driving up my block which is a residential area going 50 mph up the road like it's a racetrack. i'm surprised that i haven't gotten into a car accident yet with the many close calls i had with some of the dumbasses out here on the road. terrible.

 

[cgymike]

Call me crazy, but I hate slow drivers. I've been driving for around 8 years now, and I've never had a ticket, I go at least 5 miles above the speed limit minimum, but it's usually 10. I suppose I've become used to speeding, and everyone else is going the "right" speed, because I constantly find myself caught behind slow drivers, with no way to go around.. it's the most frustrating thing in the world. It's not even like I'm in a rush to get somewhere, but I do admit that I have an affinity for 'fast driving.'

So in a 30 mph zone or whatever it is for your residential you go 40? You will get a ticket or speed cams will bust you. They do have those speed limits for a reason. Not calling you crazy but you are being an unsafe driver and you are also violating the law. "I've become used to speeding" won't get you out of a ticket (that was a joke btw).

Could it just be that the "slow" drivers are actually obeying the law?

It's a miracle you have never had a ticket.

 

[frankfrank]

you have to do the prescreening first and then you get to meet with the psychiatrists and therapists to get evaluated to see what's wrong and you get medication.

You meet withTHE...RAPISTS??

You ARE actually doing it. Good on you, guy.

 

[refujiunderground]

You meet withTHE...RAPISTS??

You ARE actually doing it. Good on you, guy.

that's what it feels like, i'm messing with people that are going to eat me alive and that i'm exposing myself to. i've done it before but this time feels different. went over there today to get the charity service paper. just need my mom to sign off on it tonight so i can take it back there tomorrow for the scheduled appointment. felt really uncomfortable being there.

it was creepy. for some reason, i felt like i was 4 again in special ed where they took the whole class to the hospital for some reason. that hallway looks familar even though i never been there before. i'm afraid, man. it's like i'm afraid the worst will happen.

 

[refujiunderground]

you know, my father really pisses me the FUCK off. he really does and i can't stand his ass.

dude is a lying, manipulative, self centered asshole. you know, if you lost your billfold with your license and all that other important shit last monday or tuesday, WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELL ME THIS SHIT ON THURSDAY OR FRIDAY? are you serious? you call home telling me to file a fucking report saying that you might have lost it on the bus or the train. you basically called me to help your ass. you lost that shit so you should have been up to the boogied that issue if you really gave a fuck about your damn billfold with your fucking personal information on there. dude calls me up on thursday or friday of last week telling me he lost his billfold, sounding all panicky on the phone or whatever. i help your ass out and even at that moment, i knew that dude couldn't be trusted. he's done way too much bullshit to ever be trusted.

now today, you wake me up and tell me that the information is supposed to be on the site by now when i filled out the info saying you lost it on thursday or friday or the time you called me. you say that you may have lost it last week monday to me NOW. WTF? then you want me to go down to the dmv with you to pick up the information and etc on wednesday as if it's my duty and responsibility to do that shit for you. i'm NOT doing that shit. you can do it your fucking self. if you're so interested in doing that shit or if you REALLY cared about your billfold or the things you lost in there, you would have done that SHIT yourself from way back WHEN. why are you leaning on me to do that for you? you're a grown ass man who's 65 years old. QUIT trying to fucking push all your responsibilities onto other people and then act like you're some king where you do this, that and the fifth thinking people can't fucking live without you.

NOT ONLY DOES HE NOT KNOW WHEN HE LOST IT, HE DOESN'T KNOW WHERE HE LOST IT EITHER. HE SAYS THAT SOMEONE MIGHT HAVE PICKPOCKETED HIM. YOU KNOW, THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DEAL WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE OUT FOR THEMSELVES. NOW, i can inquire that he simply doesn't know where his shit is or he may have intentionally lost that shit on purpose for whatever reason. i know my father well. he's the type of guy that will basically fuck something up for his own reasons, blame somebody else and then suddenly it turns up or everything is okay. he's a calculated and manipulative person that plots his every moves. everything he usually does is intentional or for a reason. this is why i say he's a sociopath. dude basically uses and abuses people for his gain or to have a sense of power over them. he takes no responsibility for his actions. he blames people. he prides himself. he basically wants to have control over people's lives. dude lost his billfold and he wants ME to take care of that shit for him as if it's mine. i'm NOT going to go to the dmv with him. dude is acting like that's my responsibility. he lied to me about when he lost it IF he lost it at all or whatever and expects me to go and handle that shit for him. i don't trust him or his fucking motives. he's a certified jackass. dude basically wants to fuck over people and do whatever he feels like then play the sympathy card like a cunt.

 

[refujiunderground]

is there a way of suggesting to my roommate that I'd gladly accept blowjobs instead of $$ rent without making him feel like a prostitute/sex slave?

sounds like you want him as your boyfriend.

 

[Ram]

I wish I could eat something without hating myself after that. Just one meal...

 

[bankside]

I wish I could eat something without hating myself after that. Just one meal...

Don't do it for yourself….it's for the centipedes…

 

[Kulindahr]

Why do I have to eat less at this time of year in order to not gain weight??? I'm getting as much exercise, eating the same or less, and gaining weight.

I know, it happens every year, and the doctor says it's connected to SAD... but I still hate it.

 

[refujiunderground]

nah... we've had the discussion, and he's pretty actively not looking for anything more serious than a fuck buddy. I define relationships based on how far into the future I can picture the two of us. with him, I rarely picture anything more than a few weeks into the future.

he's likely moving away for grad school after he graduates in the spring, so I'm just enjoying the friendship with benefits while I've got it.

but he gives amazing blowjobs and I can't think of a way to tell him that I'd love more of them

well, that's an interesting thing though. so you're stuck between getting good blowjobs, sex and letting your roommate not pay rent or letting your roommate slide for free as long as he sucks you off. you can't give him a discount? is he broke?


well, you know, this is nothing new and i've always done this since i was in high school, down in the dumps, feeling like i'm not amounting to shit and having other people such as my mother and my brother beating into my head the same thing as IF i don't know. i'm disappointment with myself and how i turned out. you know, if this was about 10 years ago, i would say take full responsibility and say that it's my own doing how i came out to be like this. however, i even realized back then that looking at my behavior, my feelings and etc, that i was going through some issues that i didn't know how to deal with and the people around me weren't of any help either. they pretty much didn't give a fuck.

HOWEVER, i'm starting to realize that i have a problem and despite what some people like my mother or my brother might say or want to believe that there is nothing going on with me, i am convinced there is. if i listened to my mother and went like "hey.. i can snap out of it. i need to keep myself busy. i need to do this, that and the fifth and basically IGNORE my issues" then i would wind up just like how she is. she basically is an example of what happens when you ignore your issues, try to take them on and basically fuck yourself over in the process.

i NOW realize that when i was 12 or 13, i might have been suffering from depression and anxiety issues. top that off with realizing that i might be gay and didn't know how to deal with it. i pretty much didn't know how to deal with so i decided to turn towards other things as a means of voicing myself. all the while, i was only digging myself into a bigger hole than i already was. when i reached out for help such as turning towards my mom who at the time i felt could have done something at my age, she didn't think that i had any issues or want to deal with it so she was like "you have nothing wrong with you. deal with it". i was brushed off and in turn, my issues got worse. i eventually turned towards the internet and eventually web forums expressing myself and my pain since that was the only place i felt comfortable since i was told by other people to "fuck off". i became comfortable with it instead of going to get help from a professional and things still got bad.

i am starting to realize that as much as i love my mother. she helped me, she loves me and all BUT at the same time, she kind of fucked me over by i say encouraging me to get to this point. she feels that i'm BLAMING her whenever i tell her to be supportive towards me getting help when in reality, i'm trying to let her know that her way of just "sweeping things under the rug and acting like my issues didn't exist where i should smile and pretend that i'm okay" isn't the right way to go. she thinks that i'm wasting my time going over to the shrink to talk as "there's nothing wrong with me". but then again, i realize that she too has problems and her way of handling them isn't the way to go such as her marriage. she wanted to have a happy home unlike the one that she came out of. she wanted my brother and me to have a mother and a father in the household. HOWEVER, she was there busting her ass and she stayed with a man that had no interest in being a father or a husband besides looking out for himself. she pretty much put herself in a shitload of stress and trouble trying to paint a reality that didn't exist and when i look @ her now, i see someone who still needs help. she realizes that she played herself BUT @ the same time, she thinks there's no way out of the mess that she built up.

i feel like that. i built a mess for myself but at the same time, i realize that the mess i built is NOT entirely my fault as i wasn't in the right fame of mind which affected my thought and decision process. if my head was in a better place from way back, i wouldn't be where i'm at today.

now, here i am, no ambition, no drive, feeling hopeless, drained, etc basically thinking that i can handle my own issues and now when i'm facing

 

[xbuzzerx]

On the earlier topic of slow drivers: what TRULY infuriates me is when you're on a pretty bustling street and you get behind one of those people who has to come to a NEAR COMPLETE STOP before turning right into a driveway or at an intersection. ARGH. Learn to drive.

 

[cgymike]

On the earlier topic of slow drivers: what TRULY infuriates me is when you're on a pretty bustling street and you get behind one of those people who has to come to a NEAR COMPLETE STOP before turning right into a driveway or at an intersection. ARGH. Learn to drive.

Yeah but your infuriation won't ever change their behaviour.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

I thought of a better way to frame it...

I'm perfectly fine (within reason) with him being a freeloader, but he feels bad about it and wants to contribute towards household expenses. but there's no great way to tell him that I'm more in need of sexual favors than rent money

but, er... that would kinda make him a prostitute? lol

If no money is exchanging hands, he's more of a "Kept Woman".

 

[borg69unimatrix]

On the earlier topic of slow drivers: what TRULY infuriates me is when you're on a pretty bustling street and you get behind one of those people who has to come to a NEAR COMPLETE STOP before turning right into a driveway or at an intersection. ARGH. Learn to drive.

This is why phasers and photon torpedoes will be invented.

 

[xbuzzerx]

Yeah but your infuriation won't ever change their behaviour.

Um okay. Though the same could be said about the entire concept of the thread but thanks for contributing.

 

[frankfrank]

This is why phasers and photon torpedoes will be invented.

Everytime they mentioned these things in Star Trek, I always imagined a big futon flying through the air, LOL.

 

[Kulindahr]

On the earlier topic of slow drivers: what TRULY infuriates me is when you're on a pretty bustling street and you get behind one of those people who has to come to a NEAR COMPLETE STOP before turning right into a driveway or at an intersection. ARGH. Learn to drive.

It's annoying, but I always wonder of they're carrying something that would be ruined by a sudden sharp corner -- like maybe a wedding-type cake.