just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[glasvegas]

I am going stop being nice. Everyone takes me as granted as if I am supposed to do their shits. No. Go fuck yourself.

 

[Alistair]

I give up. I've spent the last year trying to make a long distance relationship work. I can't do it any longer, it's not worth the stress and heartache.

 

[Scealle]

^ Such long staircase. My car is parked on the 6th floor and every time I go our I had to walk the 6 stairs and drive down the 6 levels of spiral parking. Times like that I wish I had lifts in the parking or live in ground houses.

when I'm single, there's not much that annoys me more than happy couples.

bitter and sad, I know.

lol Str8 couples annoy me to no end. Gay ones makes me happy and gives me hope haha that I can someday be like them

 

[Lefty]

 

[Kulindahr]

the worst thing is when people stand side-by-side on the escalator... that makes me rage, and I frequently end up nudging one aside.

there's an unspoken rule on the escalators.. if you're going to stand there, stand on the right and allow people who are walking down to pass on the left. never block the entire escalator unless there's literally no one else around.

Heck, I don't even block an escalator with my service dog.

Of course, that's because he's pulling me up the steps because he wants OFF!

 

[Kiwils]

<hugs Kiwils>

Kiwils, ISFJs have hard lives. In my experience, most of them turn into enablers.

Thank you, Johann.
I confess, I'm very much an enabler, mostly with family.

I am going stop being nice. Everyone takes me as granted as if I am supposed to do their shits. No. Go fuck yourself.

I feel this way at times, but the world doesn't need more people like that. With all the cynics in the world, it's refreshing to meet kind hearted souls every now and then. Probably why I prefer to be around kids and animals. With that said, it's ok to say no. You shouldn't have to feel badly about it. It's ok to put yourself first sometimes. We all have our own things we want/need to get done.

I give up. I've spent the last year trying to make a long distance relationship work. I can't do it any longer, it's not worth the stress and heartache.

I've done the long distance thing. It didn't work out, but we're still friends. It's definitely a lot more work. It's not for everyone or even most.

 

[refujiunderground]

when I'm single, there's not much that annoys me more than happy couples.

bitter and sad, I know.

you're keeping it real. you have every right to be annoyed. i feel the same exact way. being single and a virgin my whole entire life, i feel like i'm on death row kinda. watching people who are way younger than me go to the "other side", get laid, get into relationships before me while i'm still waiting, contemplating about letting things happen naturally where i just so happen to find someone or someone finds me or i'll just say fuck it and give it up to whoever to get things over and done with. sometimes, it just pisses me off. so far, 26 going on 27 this year. it also doesn't help when the issue doesn't go away because someone's always bringing it to your face 24/7 talking about it. you come on the forum, someone talks about it. you turn on the tv to watch your favorite tv show, it's there. you go to sleep and then the issue is right there in your dreams. sometimes, i miss being a kid where issues like this didn't exist.

but speaking of which, i was irked the fuck out today. i was getting so annoyed of being alive, being in this body where i can feel everything happening in my body from my skin touching the sheet to my heart beating the blood in my veins, i just wanted to pull the plug on me for a second. i just wanted my heart to stop. i just wanted to be dead for a moment of time where i just didn't feel a single thing around me, not even myself. just allowing myself to simply not exist where i would get a chance to rest in peace because even when i'm sleeping and dreaming, i don't feel like i'm resting. i still feel alive. i'm still alive where i could feel my insides working and i'm like damnit. stop working for a minute. just stop. i know i can't make time stop BUT it would be cool if i could just stop forever and then start when i feel like it. i wasn't suicidal or depressed, at that moment, but i just got a bit annoyed when i woke up like why the fuck am i still here to basically face the same shit that i want to run and get away from period. after i feel like i'm well rested and have the energy, strength and willpower to go back to life, i would just turn myself back on or plug myself into the wall and come back to life. i wish i could do that. basically have the ability to let myself die and then come back to life when i feel like it.

 

[ElmosToe]

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i was getting so annoyed of being alive... basically have the ability to let myself die and then come back to life when i feel like it.

Sounds like you've exhausted the limits of boredom.

 

[refujiunderground]

Sounds like you've exhausted the limits of boredom.

i've been feeling like this for years though and i would basically do things to keep things exciting. i used to wake up having something to look forward to back when i was a teenager such as my main problems disappearing and things going the way that i want them to go or things going back to normal before they were fucked up. then i realized that they weren't going to go anywhere and i had to deal with them as much as i was bothered by them such as my sexuality for example. it was exciting to run away from my problems though for a time. i was fun to deny that i was gay because at the time, i felt like it was really catching up to me where someone was going to force me to deal with it. i sensed that other people around me were catching on or had already catched on where they were ready to pull my card. i really wonder what would have happened if i chose to ignore my feelings.


now that i'm dealing with certain issues, i pretty much don't have anything to look forward to. it all seems to be boring now. i don't think i would even be excited if i ended up getting a job or a boyfriend. there's pretty much nothing to live for at this point. i don't feel nor plan on killing myself though as i'm not suicidal or out of my mind yet. it's that i just have a meaningless existence where i just feel like life is a snoozefest where it can't get any better. it can get worse though so i'm crossing my fingers that it doesn't end up like that despite it looks more like that everyday, i wake up.

 

[ElmosToe]

now that i'm dealing with certain issues, i pretty much don't have anything to look forward to. it all seems to be boring now. i don't think i would even be excited if i ended up getting a job or a boyfriend. there's pretty much nothing to live for at this point. i don't feel nor plan on killing myself though as i'm not suicidal or out of my mind yet. it's that i just have a meaningless existence where i just feel like life is a snoozefest where it can't get any better. it can get worse though so i'm crossing my fingers that it doesn't end up like that despite it looks more like that everyday, i wake up.

Forgive me for being an optimist and without delving into your certain issues... I've seen pics of you in some random thread on here and as I recall you're a pretty good looking dude. You are young and you have no job (aka you don't need one?). That right there would be reason enough for me to get out of bed. I would look forward to all the endless ass I could get before I have to go back to bed. (half joking) But maybe you SHOULD just go out and get a job or start working form home. Try Odesk or Elance.

One thing that helps me when I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin from shear boredom and the monotony of everyday mundane life or just a need to get away from crazy shit and the crazy people who create it is a nice long road trip out of town or out of state. Just be spontaneous, don't plan much, pick a place, grab a friend, load up a long playlist and drive there to see what happens. Sometimes a random adventure to an unknown place can help refresh your perspective.

 

[refujiunderground]

Forgive me for being an optimist and without delving into your certain issues... I've seen pics of you in some random thread on here and as I recall you're a pretty good looking dude. You are young and you have no job (aka you don't need one?). That right there would be reason enough for me to get out of bed. I would look forward to all the endless ass I could get before I have to go back to bed. (half joking) But maybe you SHOULD just go out and get a job or start working form home. Try Odesk or Elance.

One thing that helps me when I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin from shear boredom and the monotony of everyday mundane life or just a need to get away from crazy shit and the crazy people who create it is a nice long road trip out of town or out of state. Just be spontaneous, don't plan much, pick a place, grab a friend, load up a long playlist and drive there to see what happens. Sometimes a random adventure to an unknown place can help refresh your perspective.

it's easier said than done. you know something that's messed up, it seems that even getting the simplest things in life seem so damn hard to get. i've been very fortunate to have two parents, come from a nice home, not to be broke and etc. i'm thankful for it but i also have been unfortunate as well in a sense where i've ended up in some situations that i've had no control over that i've had to fight my way out of or been very lucky to make it out of. most people i know seem to catch a break or two where i pretty much had to fucking bust my ass just to get one simple thing. not saying that i have it tougher than other people because i don't or trying to play the pity card because that's not cool to feel sorry for yourself, i have a father that does that bullshit, but after awhile, i get frustrated and fed up where i'm like fuck it, i give up. i remember searching for a job the longest back around high school, first two years of college and i ended up with some minimum wage paying job that was shitty my second semester of my second year in college. got fired from that and ended up at somewhere which was about the same except with cooler people that i could relate to very well. been looking around for the longest for a job, even lost hope for a bit at that job where i was like "fuck it, let me just focus on school and just live with this wack job that i have since these employers aren't giving me a chance."

i know about starting somewhere but to be honest with you, i'm really getting sick and tired of having to settle for less, bust my ass and come up short then watching other people basically getting shit handed to them. what even gets me madder is that these same people that are getting the shit handed to them and aren't even putting in that work are telling me that i'm not working hard enough. like huh?

i did this civil service exam thing but to tell you the truth, i'm really not interested in just settling for some correctional officer job. i'm just going to try out law school even though i don't think i have what it takes to make it through the entrance process. i do think i have what it takes for the classroom though. just have to work on the public speaking skills but i can do the work. all that stupid entrance work with the standardize testing, writing essays, and all that shit is annoying. reminds me of the bullshit process i had to do at the end of high school. all that talk about how hard college is and it ended up being easier than high school. flunked my sat with a 800 but still went into community college and a 4 year school busting ass to get a 3.4 gpa so @ those folks talking about the SAT shows what type of student you'll be in college. still don't know how some of these guys that have the chance to live on the college campus off of scholarships and their parents money can flunk out. it's really not that hard.

 

[ElmosToe]

"fuck it, let me just focus on school and just live with this wack job that i have since these employers aren't giving me a chance."

i know about starting somewhere but to be honest with you, i'm really getting sick and tired of having to settle for less, bust my ass and come up short then watching other people basically getting shit handed to them. what even gets me madder is that these same people that are getting the shit handed to them and aren't even putting in that work are telling me that i'm not working hard enough. like huh?

Who are these people getting shit handed to them?

I will tell you, working in corporate America for 15 years has taught me that the old saying is true, it's "who you know" that gets you anywhere. You can have a PHD but if the people who you want to work for either don't know you from a referral or don't like you for whatever reason, you won't be working there. Same is true in reverse, you can have no degree and no experience and be the dumbest nut job and still get hired in a nice cushy high-paying position if you know the right people and kiss a bunch of ass. I have seen it happen time and time again.I have been both the benefactor and victim of both scenarios myself as well. Now I am working for a huge multinational corporation in Life Insurance as a claims analyst making $12/hr with no benefits. I could be making more as a waiter... It's not an easy or fun job either. My previous job was just a business specialist making $60k/year.

Most employers are not hiring people now, especially full time, they will hire temps with no benefits and pay them pennies. Many want you to have at least a bachelor's degree...to make $12/hr!!!!

There will always be people there who want to tear you down, make you feel less worthy, use it as motivation to be a success in life, proving someone wrong and making them eat their words, that's the biggest "fuck you" of all.

 

[refujiunderground]

anxiety is annoying as FUCK!!!! damnit, i'm so anxious right now i want to go to bed. just saw something that really has me wanting to shit in my fucking pants right now. i want to run to my bed right now and sleep the feeling off.

i think that i may have walked into some shit. damn, not again. i complain about not being in a relationship or not finding anybody and yet when confronted in a situation where someone's like , i get really uncomfortable where i want to flee and back away.

 

[refujiunderground]

Who are these people getting shit handed to them?

I will tell you, working in corporate America for 15 years has taught me that the old saying is true, it's "who you know" that gets you anywhere. You can have a PHD but if the people who you want to work for either don't know you from a referral or don't like you for whatever reason, you won't be working there. Same is true in reverse, you can have no degree and no experience and be the dumbest nut job and still get hired in a nice cushy high-paying position if you know the right people and kiss a bunch of ass. I have seen it happen time and time again.I have been both the benefactor and victim of both scenarios myself as well. Now I am working for a huge multinational corporation in Life Insurance as a claims analyst making $12/hr with no benefits. I could be making more as a waiter... It's not an easy or fun job either. My previous job was just a business specialist making $60k/year.

Most employers are not hiring people now, especially full time, they will hire temps with no benefits and pay them pennies. Many want you to have at least a bachelor's degree...to make $12/hr!!!!

There will always be people there who want to tear you down, make you feel less worthy, use it as motivation to be a success in life, proving someone wrong and making them eat their words, that's the biggest "fuck you" of all.

the job situation is REALLY, REALLY bad right now. REALLY bad. i think it's safe to say that america is about to go in the way of russia in the next 2 decades. we're finished. all the companies that left america are not coming back and everything that is going on over here, is drying up. why now though?

 

[ElmosToe]

why is there no love for the period

Couldn't resist.

 

[Stoowii]

i have something to say you know what i really hate is when people online just type without using a period in their sentences they just type in one long endless sentence i don't know why they do this but it's really annoying they also forget to use pretty much any other form of punctuation in their comments except for the occasional acronym lol do you know what i mean idg why it's happening i find it really strange and headache-inducing like why is there no love for the period it is an essential part of writing i just thought i'd vent about that thanks for reading

I read this in one breath.

 

[maxpowr9]

I'm have my Jewish friend from Oscar night over again and he is not with his husband this time thankfully. I get the feeling this playfulness that we are having casually on the couch will expound later with more alcohol. I pulled my roomie aside to make sure I don't make it worse but my lust is saying else wise.

Ugh, if it wasn't for tax breaks, I doubt many people would give a shit about marriage in the US.

 

[xbuzzerx]

Ugh, if it wasn't for tax breaks, I doubt many people would give a shit about marriage in the US.

And you'd be wrong, most likely.

 

[refujiunderground]

Someone obvs didn't watch Married with Children.

they don't know what they missed out on. married with children was and still is that show. they don't make shows like that anymore.

 

[maxpowr9]

^It's a victim of its time. I was just pontificating about the wondrous decade that was 90s music [in the CE&P music thread. Yes, such a thing does exist!] I don't even say that with a strong bias as a 90s child. Thank god dubstep is on the downswing already. At least maybe, breakbeats will become popular like it was back in 2003.