just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[rareboy]

I'm in the middle of another bout of depression (which is being medicated, and I'm fine with daily living) but I have a bitch of a cold which has also raised my blood sugar levels. Already this week...

1. My nan was getting small shocks from plugs and switches in her flat. I told her it was static from her carpet, not an electrical fault. She got the managers in, who got an electrical company in who said it's static buildup from her carpet!
2. My nan's phone wasn't working. I looked at it, and a contact inside isn't connecting. Said it wasn't a problem with the line, but the phone and I'd get a new one. Plugged the spare phone in, working fine. Uncle goes round and gets the phone company to check the line, they say the line is okay, so uncle says I don't need to get nan a new phone. Uncle plugs the old one back in, and it isn't working. Buys a new phone.
3. Mum orders some new bedroom furniture. I tell her it's too much and she'll feel claustrophobic in the room and it'll partly block the loft access. Build furniture up and she now feels claustrophobic and we can't get the large suitcase down from the loft.

Why the fuck do I bother giving advice, or try to sort problems out when no fucker pays attention! I'm not saying I'm right all the time, but why bother asking for help or an opinion if you're going to disregard it completely! And it didn't help that I got soaked in the rain when I walked down to my nan's flat!!!

Firstly:

Most people aren't asking for your advice.

They are asking for your validation. What you need to learn to do is to kick the can down the road. Always suggest they consult another party. Always. Particularly family. Always pass it off to another family member by saying, "I would ask so and so because they probably have more experience with this'

Or....Tell them that there are no colours of black dark enough to describe the state of your clinical depression at any moment when they ask your advice and that you couldn't be held responsible for what might be existentially dicey suggestions. In other words....use what you've got. HINT: They will probably back slowly out of the room if you have a red lipstick smile painted on when you are telling them this.

I have to agree that a cold wreaks havoc with the perspective on the world...my partner of 30 years and I are about two steps away from a death match because of our colds. We are just toxic this week. Hopefully we will not be like the gingham dog and calico cat, but I'm just saying. Get lots of good sleep. Make yourself go outside for even 15 minutes 3 times a day for a short walk.

Don't be afraid to talk through your depression with others...just bear in mind that all this too shall pass.

 

[refujiunderground]

All violent acts start with a violent thought.

Getting rejected on a dating site is no reason to go hitting people with bottles.

They'll get their comeuppance some day anyway - look at Mr. Abercrombie CEO as exhibit A.

trust me, there's nothing to worry about. i'm crazy, not stupid. i would rather punch a hole into the wall than to hurt somebody getting myself in a whole bunch of unnecessary drama. bad enough if i can't find a job without a criminal record.

just because i feel like it doesn't mean that i'm actually going to do it. it's just venting.

 

[rareboy]

Oh I forgot.

I am totally pissed that because of Factor V Leiden I still seem to be able to develop Thrombophlebitis while on warfarin sodium.

It makes me really cranky when my veins get destroyed with blood clots this way.

 

[refujiunderground]

I have a cold and I feel like shit.

get you some theraflu, man.

 

[Lefty]

JMHO, But...

Your body and I agree. You don't need no silly slave ornamention. Nipple piercing was once used

to suspend people in the air. It was a punishment, a torture...even whatever they were trying to

do in A Man Called Horse or something. The Gods of body worship and symmetry hate

piercings, except maybe the ears (unobtrusive) or between the eyes (large calibre,
1 shot)

Their list of Eleven commandments Includes this one...

Thou Shalt Not Pierce.

 

[TheLyingGame]

Just when I'm happy and comfortable I say something that makes everything totally awkward.
I'm definitely more imaginable than talkative, I just never know what to say next.

I guess my problem is thinking that I have to keep the conversation flowing until they decide to go, but instead I say something totally weird and force myself to apologize.

Still, I think you ought to take that ego back and get a refund, because you are nothing special and that holier than thou attitude? It's really starting to piss me off. You may be cute, but you're not THAT cute.

If you want something to play with, go find yourself a new toy. This one's due for an upgrade.


Ahhh.

 

[Scealle]

I have a cold and I feel like shit.

get well soon.

 

[refujiunderground]

now here i am at home feeling like i'm in a standstill. even my vision is getting blurry from being tired. i haven't done shit today besides wash dishes and cook vegetables for my mom. this is fucking pathetic.

i try to look for fun and even try to encourage the people around me to have fun but they're not interested in doing shit except the same old things. hell, i wouldn't mind driving to somewhere like boston or buffalo or toronto or whereever down the east coast for fun instead of being in this motherfucker all day. this shit is weak. this isn't even fun. this site is okay BUT right now, i need to be livened up. i'd go to the gym to run to do some cardio but i need something more than just that. i often find myself doing shit in order to make my boring life exciting or to keep me from just going to bed and sleeping all day. if this was back in 2005, i'd do that. just flick out the lights, wrap myself up in a sheet and go to sleep. my dreams are so much better than my waking life.

my mom told me about going on a greyhound and going to whereever. i'm like "no, i prefer to drive". fuck riding a bus with 40 other people with someone else driving me to whereever they want to go. fuck that. i rather drive to somewhere alone, have my camera on deck, take photos and chill. if anybody is interested in coming, they better not fuck up my trip by going like "naw... i don't want to do this or that". i remember when my brother and me drove over to toronto 4 years ago. i had this plan about renting a car and driving past some cities like rochester and buffalo to sightsee. i was interested in staying in toronto for some days or two and not coming back to new jersey as soon as possible. dude simply wanted to be on what i thought was some straight up bullshit and fuck the trip. we only spent like 3 days there. 1 day heading there, one day going there, and another day going back. oh god.... i was pissed.

i also want to say i'm also tired of people telling me to stop speaking my mind too. i don't give a fuck about what you think about what i have to say. you can keep that to your goddamn self. i certainly don't tell people to shut the fuck up whenever they speak their minds about whatever even if i want to tell them to stop whining or whatever. they expect me to show them the basic courtesy and respect to let them talk and speak their minds. why the fuck can these same people do the same shit for me? FUCK THEM!

but yeah, my boredom makes me want to do some crazy things sometimes. i daydream about doing wild shit all the time for thrills or simply to keep my entertained. the problem with that is sometimes some of the wild shit is actually criminal activity which i won't say on here that i think is a thrill sometimes. i FUCKING hate routine. i'm just waiting til i get my own place where i can isolate myself in total peace away from everybody. i might not feel inclined to say hello to anybody. might not call my parents, my brother or whatever. i don't feel like talking on the phone, being on facebook, texting or whatever. just leave me alone. the moment i get myself a car and my own place. i don't think i'm going to stay indoors enough to be on here all day.

one of these days, i plan on saying goodbye to the internet community and basically saying fuck this site and all the other sites that i spend and live my life on. i can't be bothered with this anymore.

 

[Lefty]

Tough shitskis there FUJIama.
We all on this BUS together and shutting up is not allowed.

Many a coulda shoulda wouldas turn to Didn't so I cant RANTS
You made a short but heavy list^.
Sadly, after the hating 'routine' line and the just waiting (damn man that's getting to be a routine), it was routine.
Get off your New Jersied ass and grab your camera. Take a few pics of where in your area you would move if you
could do so tomorrow. Do a blog here man...describing the place(s) and why you would like to move there.

You can't go no where if your mind won't go there.

Your nagging guy, loquacious lefty.

 

[refujiunderground]

Tough shitskis there FUJIama.
We all on this BUS together and shutting up is not allowed.

Many a coulda shoulda wouldas turn to Didn't so I cant RANTS
You made a short but heavy list^.
Sadly, after the hating 'routine' line and the just waiting (damn man that's getting to be a routine), it was routine.
Get off your New Jersied ass and grab your camera. Take a few pics of where in your area you would move if you
could do so tomorrow. Do a blog here man...describing the place(s) and why you would like to move there.

You can't go no where if your mind won't go there.

Your nagging guy, loquacious lefty.

the thing is... it's most definitely not here and i doubt anybody would let me use their car like that. don't know where i would move to to be honest. the state of new jersey certainly isn't somewhere i'd stay though. not feeling this state at all. fuck it, i might even look at overseas. i wouldn't mind moving over to europe since most of my extended family is over there. don't think i could live at any particular place for too long though before i would want to move to somewhere else.

gotta say this though. washington dc does seem like a nice place to live so does north carolina and virginia. i'd move to north carolina just for the food. maryland seems okay. delaware is nice to visit but not to live. new york city seems exciting but don't really want to be running around all day. nyc has changed and isn't what it used to be. upstate new york is eyyy depending on where you go. some of the cities upthere are boring. connecticut is some place that i'm not of used to. could have went to bridgeport but over there is like living in newark. pennsylvania seems like a really boring place to live. happy as hell my parents made the RIGHT decision not to move over to the poconos when we had to move. i would rather stay in jersey. couldn't imagine how my life would have been if we moved there.

i think i need to travel around the country more.

 

[cgymike]

Manhunt is great...


Great for getting hit on by guys more than twice your age :c)

Manhunt is shite...absolute crap!

 

[Lefty]

Gosh Raz...

How do you really feel about D.C. and its suburbs?

Fuji,

You need to shake some of that paranoid stuff and
get one of those 'See America' Greyhound passes...
if they still have them. Ride until you are bored. Get
off a bit until you are bored (day or 2 maybe?) and
repeat a few/bunch of times. As a kid some of the
most fascinating people I met were on the buses and
trains. My first plane ride was WOW, then after that
boring, the people snooty or talking down.

Wanna learn sumpin, go Greyhound or Amtrac, or
their equivalent ...WOW
b t

 

[Nishin]

Manhunt is great...


Great for getting hit on by guys more than twice your age :c)

HHmmm that's my kinda guys ...

 

[refujiunderground]

Refuji, Washington DC is a fucking overrated cesspool of zombie-like government stooges and uptight people driving expensive cars like reckless fuckheads in the midst of horrible traffic. And the supposedly "mild weather" really means you're just getting the worst of everything. x_x Oh, AND living around there is expensive as all get-out. (Have fun paying 1000/month for an apartment filled with roaches, mice, garbage, and appliances/structures that are faulty.)

DC is good for employment opportunities and ideological liberalism but that's about it.

There's a good reason why I'm looking to hit up the west coast when I'm finished my studies.

if that's the case then i'll look towards elsewhere. maybe further down south or up north or out west. jersey isn't really a bad place to live for the most part. it's that there is a negative atmosphere that surrounds this place. very negative. people are five times more miserable up here. when i went down to dc last friday, it shocked me how negative jersey was because everybody seemed to be all cool and friendly. in jersey, people for the most part will be rude assholes and douchebags to you for no reason other than "they're just keeping it real". after that short trip, it was time for a scenery change. i most definitely will be traveling around more often to look into places where i can move to.

Gosh Raz...

How do you really feel about D.C. and its suburbs?

Fuji,

You need to shake some of that paranoid stuff and
get one of those 'See America' Greyhound passes...
if they still have them. Ride until you are bored. Get
off a bit until you are bored (day or 2 maybe?) and
repeat a few/bunch of times. As a kid some of the
most fascinating people I met were on the buses and
trains. My first plane ride was WOW, then after that
boring, the people snooty or talking down.

Wanna learn sumpin, go Greyhound or Amtrac, or
their equivalent ...WOW
b t

most definitely will be doing that. i actually want to go out to colorado, south carolina, texas, florida, arizona and california next year. thinking about going back to school where i can go off to college in another state.

 

[MrRochesterNY]

if that's the case then i'll look towards elsewhere. maybe further down south or up north or out west. jersey isn't really a bad place to live for the most part. it's that there is a negative atmosphere that surrounds this place. very negative. people are five times more miserable up here. when i went down to dc last friday, it shocked me how negative jersey was because everybody seemed to be all cool and friendly. in jersey, people for the most part will be rude assholes and douchebags to you for no reason other than "they're just keeping it real". after that short trip, it was time for a scenery change. i most definitely will be traveling around more often to look into places where i can move to.

Horace, the Roman poet, said, and it's true ... AND it fits your case exactly: Post equitem sedet atra cura.

Translation: Behind the rider sits black Care. You can't run away from your problems or your discontents.

 

[JayHawk]

Rant page huh?

Muther fuckin cock suckin stupid cunt faced piece of retarded shit the best part of you ran down you fuckin mothers legs and crusted on her worksite -- the whore.... cut me off at eighty JUST to get a car length ahead of the next guy.... fuck you... I should just run your ass off the road .....bitch

Man that feels good....

cheers

 

[Lefty]

......Wal-Mart......

Q-P, how could you?

Crikers, and next you'll

be admitting you shop

at the K-Mart.

Can Dollar General be far behind?

 

[Kulindahr]

Personal beefs?

My buddy has a dog he rarely gets out to exercise. I took her along biking today. The bitch has a habit of zigging or zagging right in front of my bike -- twice she just about got me wrecked!

Dumb dog.

 

[bankside]

Rant page huh?

Muther fuckin cock suckin stupid cunt faced piece of retarded shit the best part of you ran down you fuckin mothers legs and crusted on her worksite -- the whore.... cut me off at eighty JUST to get a car length ahead of the next guy.... fuck you... I should just run your ass off the road .....bitch

Man that feels good....

cheers

okay wait, where is overland park? cause i think we had that driver in edmonton today too….

 

[Lefty]

Pier 1 is just upscale WalMart...still 89% made in China.

Now Trader Joes on the other hand...more sophisticated clientele

and truly products/delicacies from around the world. Oh, that tall

Mediterranean looking hunk in the wine aisle, maybe... Oh go ahead

ask him if he might know a wine to go with the cheeses you bought

from the blond hunk in dairy.