Just Venting! :-(

[FloridaBoi]

I dont have anyone else to talk to so I thought writing out how I feel would help me feel better.

There is this guy that has been using me for my money. He says hes str8 but as soon as he needs something he flips around and calls me baby this and baby that and tells me how much he loves me and rubs all over me.

Just like last night he called me on the phone and was like, Hey baby whats up? Then he turns around and hes like well im here with this chick my cousin brought home for me to meet so Im gonna hang out with her ill talk to you later.

He knows I have feelings for him and he knows how to hurt me but im stupid and I keep letting it happen because I love him and dont even know why nemore.

Then today he calls me and hes like " hey baby I just wanted to let you know that chick didnt mean anything to me" and im like well if u say ur str8 and you dont want me as nothing more than a friend why are you telling me this bullshit?

He calls me when hes drunk all hours of the night just to tell me "Hey baby I just wanted to let you know I made it home" Again if you are str8 why are you calling me all hours of the night just to let me know ur home?

My other friends say that hes only doing it to keep me interested in him so that he can continue to use me.

I didnt realize how much I really cared about him until he told me he was with some chick he didnt even know. That hurt me so bad all I could do is cry.

I dont think it would hurt as much if he wouldnt lead me to believe that he likes me and if he didnt always call asking me to help him. One minute im his baby, next minute im his bro, then im his baby again the one that helps him and loves and supports him, then I go back to bro again.

Im so confused I dont know what to do. I get tired of going thru this all the time. Everytime I think I am over it and I try to move on he calls me and talks all sweet and I fall back under his spell.

Sometimes I think he does it just to hurt me, He called me today and said, "Thanks for the outfit u bought me for my birthday the hoes in the club loved it"

I mean IF YOUR STR8 AND YOU DONT WANT ME WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU USING ME AND HURTING ME! IF you dont want me GO AWAY and leave me the hell alone!!!

Well neways I guess thats the end of my rant.


-Matthew

 

[Magician]

I dare say if you stop giving him money, you will find out the answer rather quickly.

 

[KaraBulut]

It takes two.

He's a user.

You're letting him use you.

I mean IF YOUR STR8 AND YOU DONT WANT ME WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU USING ME AND HURTING ME! IF you dont want me GO AWAY and leave me the hell alone!!!

You can put an end to this.

Why haven't you?

 

[tagman]

I feel for ya but as I say to my mom all the time, there's a great two letter word that you need to you more often-no!

Start saying no and you'll fell better and find someone that appreciates you for everything you have to offer

 

[FloridaBoi]

I try, I get mad and tell him to leave me the hell alone and never call me again, but he doesnt listen.

And yes when he calls I answer like an idiot. I cant help it Ive known him for 2 years and I think I am in love with him. :-(

My heart wont let me do what I need to do.

 

[crzyrazn]

Um...wtf?

Better question: WTF?!

I'm not trying to be mean here, but you need to get a grip on reality. C'mon, dude! Please don't tell me you are confused by this. If the obvious isn't going to persuade you, than what can any of us here say to you that can? Please, I don't understand.

 

[KaraBulut]

My heart wont let me do what I need to do.

Oh, horseshit.

This isn't about your heart. It's about your self-esteem. You're like a hungry dog waiting under the table for food scraps to be thrown your way by this jerk.

This is a circular problem. You don't have enough self-esteem to stop this guy from treating you like shit. And as long as he treats you like shit, you're handing him little bits of your dwindling self-esteem every time you answer the phone and open your wallet.

This is cycle that you can break. Stop blaming this on "your heart". Stop making excuses. Get out from under the table waiting for table scraps and start living a better life without this guy.