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[KennyD]

Well ... Maybe I am the oldest and biggest fool in the world ... BUT; today I officially told Nick that he can move back in Friday afternoon .
BUT; he does HAVE to return each and every item that he took and pawned ... NO if's, ands, or Butts ...
I've told him that this will be his LAST chance and IF he ever does anything like this again that his ass is going to jail ... anyway; we are now going to start with a clean slate ..
It is kinda funny .. his mother told me that I should throw Nick out and let Scott stay ... trouble is I LOVE him ..
Scott leaves Friday afternoon or maybe even Thursday evening .... BUT ; that was his choice origionally and I am now holding him to it ...although I will definately miss the cash this week ...

Ok ... I'm going to play around and go to bed ..

 

[KennyD]

I've taken a hell of a lot of critizsm because of the way that I've delt with Nick and our relationship ... I've heard it from Family, friends, Acquaintainces, and some JUBers ......
However; I think my method may have paid off ... He came over and said that tomorrow he will go about noon and pick up his paycheck . He will come here and pick me up and we'll go around and pick up the items that were pawned , and then he will pay me two weeks rent in advance and two weeks on his account in advance .....
With the THREAT of my throwing him out on his ass if he ever LIES or Steals from me again .... He has promised that he has given up doing weed .... he will NOT go out on week nights when he has to work the next day .... He will be in by 1 AM on week ends ..... AND .. he says he wants to live with me the rest of our lives . I nearly had to peel him off me he was holding onto me so tight hugging and kissing on me ....
I've told him in No Uncertain terms ... This is the LAST CHANCE ; I believe that he is going to try and work on changing himself around ... we'll have to wait and see ...

Back Later ...

 

[KennyD]

Well, Nick came over this morning and PAID like he had agreed . He had a doctor's appointment ; so he gave me the $$$ for the items that he'd pawned and ask me to hold it until tomorrow and we'll go get the items ... so I agreed .
He told me he loved me and gave me a kiss before taking off ....
I did not see or hear from him until about ten this evening . He came in and stood looking at me in the living room . I was in my boxers and they have the short legs . Anyway; I was in the recliner and my Dick was hanging out of the leg. Nick looked down at it and say ... "Damm, I guess you are glad that I'm back" and kinda laughs ....
He went into his room and came back out in his boxers ... Ya' got to understand ... This Mr. Shy ... he NEVER comes out of his room unless he is fully dressed ... and .. his door stays closed until he is fully dressed . The ONLY other time I'd seen him in his boxers was the night he was very sick and he ask me to sleep in his room with him ...which just about gave me a heart attack ...lol ...
Ok; so he's standing there and says ... "Do you mind if I sleep in your room with you tonight " ... I about fell out of the recliner ... so I turned out the living room light and we went to my room.
I get into bed with the boxers on . I usually sleep nude; but did not want to scare him away at this point ... He stood beside the bed and let his boxers drop to the f'n floor ... this revealed his nice, cut, semi hard Dick ... about 61/2 - 7 inches and not too thick ... But NICE !!
He looks down at me starring and says " I've been waitng for this for a long time" ... and crawls under the covers ....
He reached over and started pulling my boxers down ... and I ask him if he was CERTAIN that this was what he wanted and he said ... "More than anything else in the world !" ...
I'm not going to go into detail about what we did ... But; he is sound asleep now in my bed ... I went to the bathroom and I just can't sleep thinking about all of this ... I am truly overwhealmed !!!
Here is this HOT 'n Sexxy 19 year old guy wanting my short, fat, dumpy, 57 year old ass .... for whatever the reason .
He kept saying all night that he loves me ... and ; I know I love him ... so ...
Where will this go ? How soon will it end ... or .. will it ? I don't have a clue !!

 

[KennyD]

Things are going really well since he has moved back into the house ...
He sleeps in my room and in my bed ... which I still don't sleep thinking it is all a dream .... Even yesterday, we had a big argument about him being out running around all damm day ... he came in past midnight ... gave me a kiss , and crawled into bed wearing his birthday suit ...
I don't know just how long this will all last ... But; I am definately going to ride the wave ..

 

[KennyD]

I finally got him to get into the hot tub with me . I had the temp set up at 104 degrees ...so the water was very warm ...
He was going to wear boxers and I said to him .."We sleep in the same bed, NUDE, so why do we need boxers for the hot tub ..?" He took off the boxers .. lol ..
I've got a buddy who "Might" move down from Pa ... I hope he does anyway ... NO, he'd have his own room .. The most that would happen there is that he'd get a massage with a Happy Ending ... that is ALL ... I don't want to do anything that will screw up what I have right now ...

 

[KennyD]

Well , I was waiting for a friend of mine to come down from Pa and rent the xtra bedroom ... BUT; he has not called me and I've lose his address ... BUT; I'll give him 'till Thursday and then it's GONE ... I've got about twelve applications for that room ......
Nick is doing so much better ... he was in at 9:15 .... this evening ... He turned in about ten ... I think I'll watch a little tv and turn in and snuggle up ...
Later ...

 

[KennyD]

It is very strange ... Being in this dream relationship and wondering when it will die out ... I realize that I am 57 years young and he is only 19 years old ... so odds are he will naeed to move on .... What will I do when he does ? I really just can't imagine as I made him my world ...
YES; I LOVE to share a nice warm shower , dry each other off ... crawl into a nice bed with cool sheets and covers ..then just snuggle up ever so close ... hold each other ever so tight ...
Well, the buddy in Pa did not call today and I even sent him a special message by another person who verified that she called him ... BUT ... he has not replied . So the room will go to a young guy named Randy .. he is a cook ... Lucky me .. the $$$$ are beginning to come back ... I'll sure be glad when Nick gets back to work ...
Time to hit the sack as someone is calling for me ... Good Night !

 

[KennyD]

I do believe that I am going to go fishing on Saturday .. need to relax a little . I don't know if Nick will go or not; but that will be his choice. I'll ask him tomorrow and if he does not want to go, then I'll ask his lil brother who dearly loves to go fishing .... and begs me all the time to take him ...
I'd like to thank "dpnice" for his words of kindness and support as well as constructive criticizm as I've poured out my life here ... So; THANK YOU !!
No Open House this week ... I need to try and get the room rented out . I called the Randy guy but his dad said he was staying at a motel . I called back and his mom told me that she'd make sure he calls me tomorrow as he needs a place to live ... Motels are too damm expensive .. So; hopefully ... he will get moved in tomorrow ..
I talked to Michael up in Pa ... he is so undecided on just what to do ... so I told him I'd go ahead and rent out the room .. then IF he decides to come down, he can ... and I will get another bed for him and put it up in my room and he can sleep in there ... Of course; that would put a real cramp in my current situation and relationship .... BUT; we'll work it out in due course ...
Ok .. time to watch some tv and turn in ... Busy day tomorrow ..

 

[KennyD]

Yep, it is almost three in the morning and I just cannot sleep ...
I've decided not to go fishing later this morning ; BUT rather to go Sunday morning. Aaron wants to stay over Saturday night (Tonight actually) and go to breakfast and then fishing ... He is my mid nephew .. about sixteen years old.
OMG ... Nick will have to sleep in his own room for the first time in a few days .. He will not like that ...LOL ...
The guy who had wanted the room so damm bad never returned my calls ... so I'm back placing ads for the room . Got to get the thing rented .... Bills are due ..
Ok; I'm going to try to turn in now ... Good Night .. eh .. Morning .

 

[KennyD]

We went fishing down at the Wiekiva River .. Spent about four hours ... Caught four Bass, and two catfish ... However; I believe in "Catch 'n Release" so we put them back in as we caught them ..
I've beeen fishing since I was six years old ... and really enjoy it .... I can relax and forget my trials and tribulations of the world for a few hours ...
Nick and I had a argument and we both left the house ... he still is not back .. some mean things were said by both and maybe I am to blame somewhat because of my jealousy ... I have to control it more .. It already ruined one terrific relationship ...
Anyway .. I'm going to work on MySpace for a few .. Good Night ..

 

[KennyD]

Nick ask me this afternoon if there was any way that we could take the pool table with us to Ohio when we move .... I told him we'd buy another when we get there ... OH ... YES; we made up for two hours .. NO SEX ..just holding each other and laying in the bed kissing and cuddling really tight ..both of us crying most of the time .... then we jumped into the shower and washed each other really good .... I can't believe I'm "IN LOVE" again .. and I cannot share it with those who I am close to ...
Oh ..back to the title of this entry .. The realtor's listing here expires in about four weeks and they are already asking to re list .. They are so nice ; BUT that does not sell houses ... and mine is definately NOT being pushed . SO; I will simply reduce the price under $200,000 and sell it myself ... I can afford to do that if I take off realtor fees and hire a lawyer for the legal aspects ....
I had thought that our house that we want in Ohio had ben sold ... BUT; it is still available ... Hopefully no one will get it before us ...
Ok ..I'm going to play around a little ... then go to bed and snuggle up ...
TO: dpnice ... Thanks for the continual comments ... I ruined one really strong relationship with my overbearing jealousy ... I'm trying so hard this time to keep it in check ...

 

[KennyD]

Yes, unfortunately I will be sleeping alone this evening / tonight . I am having some problems with my blood sugar and am sweating off and on very bad ... so I told Nick to sleep in his room , alone .. He told me that it was his duty and responsability to stay with me tonight in my room , just in case I needed him ... BUT; I told him that IF I need him, I'll use the intercom system and summon him ...
I wasn't going to let him lay there and be covered in sweat etc .... BUT; he did say if he wakes up during the night that he'll probably come and get in bed anyway .. and I told him ok .. what else could I say ?
I am very Pissed at MySpace !! Last week I lost five sections of my profile ... No One knows where they went ; they just disappeared . So; I've spent HOURS redoing the damm thing ... adding graphics etc that I wanted ... and .. tonight as I was adding another graphic ... I lost several sections of my profile !!! I went into the edit section and four of the sections are a total BLANK ....
At this point, I will give it just ONE more chance before I quit MySpace for good .. it is not worth the upset and the hassles ....
Again; THANKS very much to dpnice for the comments ... I really do appreciate your feedback ...
Now, my eyes are giving me a problem .. so I'll go lay down or maybe try to answere a few post and THEN go lay down ...

 

[KennyD]

Now don't get too excited there folks .... LOL ... Nick and I adopted a six month old Brindle Pit Bull Terrier today .... Nick named him D' og like D Oh Gee .... He's wanted a dog for quite a while and while I told him we'd look ... we both fell in love with this dog that seemed to pick us out also .
He kept coming to both of us ... and ... he was already neutered .... saving us about $50.00 ... and he has the chip.
We've got a big yard with a six foolt chain link fence around it .. so no fear of him escaping to anywhere .
So we adopted D'og ... and have the papers ... and we now say we are parents ..... LOL ... although NO ONE but ya'll know that we have a relationship going on here .... To everyone else, Nick just rents a room at my home .. and ... he has already made it clear, once and for all ... that he plans on going to Ohio with me when I go .....
I guess Monday will be "Our Day " NO cell phones, NO friends, No house phones .... Just Nick and I ... we are going to get up and go fishing .... then home 'n shower ... then to lunch ,
maybe go out and do a litttle shopping .... come back and get in the hot tub .... Nick will fix dinner ...... then we are "camping out" in the living room ..... and watch a couple of movies before I rub his back and/or chest as we snuggle up and go to sleep .....
Ok ... going to see if I can fix up MySpace again ...

 

[KennyD]

Well , I just cannot sleep and with my current health problems .. cannot take sleeping aids.
I worry about my current relationship; even though I get reassured ..I can't quite be assured about what he is doing when he is out and away from me ...
He left this morning and did not get back until about an hour ago ... I did not even speak to him this time as I was afraid I'd say something wrong .... He continues to reassure me that he's just hangin' out with his friends and that it IS me he comes home to and sleeps with etc ... Is that really enough ? Am I being too jealous ? Too controling ? I am trying ... I just don't want to try too hard and lose him ..
D'O*G is doing well ... laying at my feet as I post this .. such a baby ... Someone rang the door bell this afternoon and he ran and got behind me and was peeking from around my legs ..lol... This Pit is NOT a danger to anyone ...
Ok .. I'm heading to bed ...

 

[KennyD]

Our dog is doing quite well .. seems to be very smart and is already housebroken ... YEAH !!! He also knows know what sit means .
So, I think his training is coming along quite well ...
I realize that many people and communities say that Pit Bulls are dangerous; BUT I believe that it is the owners and handlers who make them that way ... you cannot find a more loveable animal than D'O*G ... Right now, he is up on my bed watching me as I am on the computer ...
Nick is going to end up in jail as he just refuses to LISTEN ; he has such a damm thick head !!! His tag and insurance have expired and yet he drives his truck around anyway . The fool already had one care impounded for the same offense , so when will he learn ... IF he does get caught ; I WILL NOT bail his ass out ... PERIOD ... NO WAY IN HELL !!! We've fought over this for the last couple of days .... and I am sticking to my guns on this one ....
I got to get some flea stuff for D'O*G ... don't want the li'l feller bringing fleas into the house ... UGH ...
I got a lady who says she'll come back after my listing expires and look at my house .. she is very interested ; so I've got my fingers crossed !!!!
OH; Nick has a night job beginning Monday . He'll work as a "Help" person when folks call in and have problems with their cell phones ... It pays $11.05 per hour .... Yea; this means I start getting Rent again ....
Well ; got to go .... Back when I can ..

 

[KennyD]

Not really too much going on around here right now ... everything is somewhat quiet and peaceful ....
I'd like to get that xtra room rented out ; BUT only two people even called about it this today when the ad broke .. and, $$$ are few and far between .
I've been calling and looking into doing a refinancing on the house ... and ..thankfully have had several mortgage companies call me back , even today ... to discuss rates etc ..... IF I can do this .. it will help so much financially .
Nick finally starts work Monday night ... it will be weird sleeping all alone again .. WAIT ! I forgot , the dog will be sleeping there ... BUT; I must get him a bed going on the back porch as I'd rather like to train him to be mostly an outside dog ..
D'O*G is laying about a foot from my feet ... he has to be that close to me all the time unless I close a door and keep him out ... Ugh ..he just leaned over and licked my foot ...
IF I get the re-fi , I believe I will take a couple of vacations and go to Missouri and to Ohio to visit friends ..
Ok; that's about it for now ...

 

[KennyD]

Ok, I will NEVER ever try to put anything about refinancing into a computer engine ... of any kind ...
Since Friday; I've had calls starting at 8 A.M. thru 9:30 P.M. almost non stop wanting to re fi this house ... My poor messed up mind is so damm full of figures and numbers etc that I cannot remember who is who or offering what ... Driving me Crazy !!
I've got a couple though that seem like the best ... at least I Guess they will do ... BUT; I found out that I'm going to be getting like $8,000 buck very soon ... so , I might not even have to re fi ... I'm hopeing anyway ...
Nick is staying ot tonight and is not back yet ... and it is past midnight ....He'll come strolling in like nothing is wrong about 1:00 am ... I'll be glad to get him to Ohio and I won't be dealing with this Bullshit like this ...
Say; got a new roommate ... YEAH !!! He saw my massage stuff and has already inquired about my working on him ... and .. he said he is anxious for me to have the service call on the hot tub as he has never been in one and would like too .... I hope to have it going again by the end of the month ... and I wear only my Birthday Suite into the Hot Tub ...No matter who is in there with me ...
Ok ..I'm done for now ....

 

[KennyD]

Yep ... I am finally back from house and babysitting those two teen young guys ... No problems , one played video games 95% of the time and the other was over at his friends house ....
So glad to be HOME !! I don't care where you go or who you go to see ... there is NO PLACE like HOME !!!
The first thing I did was to get me a cold beer, strip down, and jump in the Hot Tub . I've got it set at 105 degrees and it was AWESOME !!!!
I got to head to the VA tomorrow and have my eyes looked at to make sure that this diabetes is not causing me anymore problems ...
Ok ..it is off to bed ....

 

[KennyD]

Ohhhh I just do not know anymore .. I feel kind of Lost ....
Anyway ... about one more week and I can sell the house without paying a real estate fee !! YEAH !!!
The dog is doing very well . He hardly lets me out of his sight ... likes to be my my or Nick's feet all of the time . Hell; sometimes we even trip over him ... lol ...
The new roomie seems to be a little "Nutz" ... can't put my finger on it BUT there is definately something odd about him ....
I've decided to buy the programs that allow me to do background checks on people, since I currently need to rent out extra room ... it is all 100% legal , so I could even do them for other landlords- businesses too and charge them for it ...
Nick has worked all day today ... he'll be very tired when he gets in .....
Guess ..I'll get off of here for now ...

 

[KennyD]

Ok; things are very slow and boring around here .... I'm going stir crazy !!
I'm going to go to a church in Sanford tomorrow ... I visited there last week for the Mother's Day Service and really enjoyed the entire service ...
I've been working on uploading pics and managed to get some on MySpace ... next, I try here ...
I'd like to get some more; BUT Nick left my digital over at a friends house .... I told him I wanted it back ASAP !!
Ok; I'm done ...