I realize that I’ve not been the most prolific writer in my journals of late, and I want to do some catch up. I know there are people who read them on line with a religious fervor. Yes, they have builded me an altar and everything. Okay, now that we’ve established that point...
I’ve been taking A's class faithfully. It’s getting easier in some places, but in others I’m still pretty lost. It’s not that I can’t do it (form is not wonderful though), it’s that I get lost in the routime. On the other hand, I tend to do well in the racing he's enthralled with making us do. He’s been closing the classes with stretching exercises, and that’s a great thing for me. It’s something I’ve not done enough of. I’ve not been paying enough attention to my weight training, and it will probably show. I’ve just got to find my groove with all of it. I might start doing a class on Fridays–especially if he's teaching it.
Damn, that guy is fueling too damned many sexual fantasies. I’m either going to have to fuck him for real or get over him. I’ve always had this attraction to him, but of late it’s getting out of hand. Also, I notice that he’s in the locker room quite often when I’m in there. It’s not always, but often, and if he sees in some state of undress, he seems to do a double take. Of course, it could all be my overactive imagination. But I’d be happy if it weren’t and there could be something physical between us.
I’m trying to remain carb conscious and limit them to between 120 and 150 per day. These last few days have been a little higher than I’d like. I’ve got tres leche cake that will probably put me over the top, but I have to have some pleasures in life beyond working out.
Let’s see...I did do church on Sunday today. I sat through the entire service and even paid attention to the sermon. With GE's encouragement (and literal help), I got up and re-did the altar. It was completely out of balance. We made the changes to it to keep it in some semblance of order. What would gay male visitor think if they came in and the altar was out of whack? They'd think they might as well check out the Presbyterians down the street or the Anglicans next door.
TDW was out on Friday, so it was like a vacation day for all of us. Is that horrid? Well, it’s true. TBW will be back next week. Sometimes, he’s not a lot better than she is though. But I can deal with him better. I have never wanted to just box his jaws until his ears ring like church bells. TDW is JP in a skirt. No, she's worse because she's also very insecure and has no one to cling to like JP had UT's skirt tails. I guess what I'm really looking for is a supervisor who’s suave, openly gay, smart, clued-in, cute, and possesses a certain je ne sais quoi. I guess I want a supervisor that is nearly a mirror to what I want in a mate. Is that too much to ask?
And I need to visit my favorite coffee house in all the world. That should make me feel better. I'll make it up there tomorrow. I hope they're open.