Married to a woman but into guys more

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Maybe it is generational. Though I have always been attracted to men, I have also been attracted to women. Given the choice, a life with a woman is/seems easier than a life with a man. I definitely knew that I wanted a family, and I got what I wanted. Also, I'm sure that I deluded myself a bit into thinking that I was equally attracted to both. It turns out that I am not.

Then you have no business being married to a woman.

I felt the same way as you do. I was in denial for years (decades).

But at some point you have to say: Forget what society wants--what do I want?

That's not to say you should abandon your kids. You have a responsibility to them, just like any divorced straight dad. You'll just end up being a divorced gay dad.

Be true to yourself.

P.S.--You are not alone. There are millions of guys like you. Dozens of us on this board alone (like Elwood and me).