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refujiunderground
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A late bisexual ^^
Due to my falling numerous times over straight porn, and with the lewd way I looking at hoochie women:
I think Im bi
Has any of you experience this? Usually straight guy experience the other way around when they're caught in slippery slope business in male audition, go go dancer, spa masseuse, personal bodybuilder's assistant
but I think Im pretty late, how come?
well... maybe you are bi. maybe you are a gay guy with a little attraction to women. regardless of the matter, you're not straight and you are one of us.
hell, to be honest with you, since the moment i decided to finally question myself. i've been trying to figure myself out and i'm pretty much am let's say 80 percent there. i know for a fact that i'm not bisexual being that i don't have no emotional, romantic feelings for women and little to no sexual attraction for women. i'll admit when i got horny like yesterday and today, i wanted to jerk off to some women since i was getting a bit tired of jerking off to guys. i felt the need to switch it up. i also noticed two girls at the gym that were really attractive but at the same time, just because i find someone attractive doesn't really mean anything. seeing an attractive woman doesn't spark a frenzy in my mind like seeing an attractive man so i'll remember the guy before i'll remember the girl. i looked at the women and porn in my jerk off folder and yeah, i was aroused but at the same time, i just can't see myself making out with that woman, being in a relationship with her and even having sex with her and feel some sort of connection. it's was me just trying to have something to jerk my dick off to and whatever she was doing with her ass, i have a fetish for muscle control, turned me on so i figured i was going to jerk off to that. however, as i was jerking off, i realized that i wasn't indeed aroused at all to her or any of the women in my porn folder that i created for women so i went to the one i had for guys.
with that said, i'm still going through a period where i'm still trying to come out to myself.. (i'm almost there), let go of the straight identity that i created for myself where i've tried to make myself like women by any means necessary and masturbation was one of them. i believe that i have a clear and cut understanding towards sexual orientation. with that said, i don't think having sex truly determines your sexual orientation and i also don't think that having a bit of arousal or attraction towards women even makes you bisexual. most people are bisexual to a degree but they lean more towards straight or gay. i know that i'm above a 5.50 on the kinsey scale. even if i had sex with a woman that i thought was very attractive, i don't think it would be the same thing as hooking up with a guy that i think is very attractive. i know i can't love a woman the same way i can love a man and this is after 12 years of fighting homosexual impulses, trying to convince myself i was straight or whatever. i don't like women.
in your case, i just think you have to look at yourself and see where your attractions lie. if you have romantic, emotional and sexual feelings for both genders, then you're bi. if you have them more towards guys, you're gay. if you have them more towards women, you're straight. i know i wrote an essay but i like writing essays. i hate reading them though.


..I LOVE this stuff, thanks man ^^
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