If you knew me better that by a few scattered lines along five thousand or fifteen thousands posts or, better, if you could READ thoroughly through them, you would have realized that I am not the kind of stupid that suffers that much because of that, for all my Pococuranté tag
No. The meaning of my Pococurantism is not so much weariness as
moments of deceleration in a nature that is meant to be always in perpetual motion and at a certain speed: my
unhappiness has never been derived from the silly idea that everything is shit or the like, but that I am not waddling through it with all my might and main. Pococurantism, the real one, and what you describe, are PASSIVE attitudes: I am anything but passive... even on the rare occasions (well, maybe with the only exclusion of the first time) in which I have bottomed.
I ca not possibly be superior NOW (apart from my most obvious and immediate borken English) because I spent too much time in the past trying to figure out how to develop all my potential.