FINALLY found time to post you all!
I'm using the laptop in LilBit and frankfrank's room - they're both snoring loudly just now.
All I can say is....
WOW.
What an INCREDIBLE few days this has been. Like nothing I've experienced before.
And it started on Thursday in Eau Claire. I met
swerve and
kevbo (the first openly gay guys I've ever met). It says a lot about swerve, that the very first thing he did on seeing me, was give me a big hug.
And then, it was over to the local gay bar (the first I've ever been to) and kevbo did a few karaoke numbers.

It's great to see someone so relaxed and confident like that. What a really cool guy.

I even managed a chat with someone! Some guy who was in a red USMC shirt - a local firefighter, he said - swerve and kevbo know who I'm talking about. Was he really interested in me? I dunno. But the biggest thing I took from that whole night, was that not once did I feel nervous, anxious, or uncomfortable. NOT ONCE. And for me, that was quite remarkable. I surprised even myself with that.
Then, on Friday morning, I got a ride to Minneapolis in swerve's truck!

Can you believe it! And we stopped at a truck stop diner! I guess not many tourists to America get an experience like that! swerve's such a big-hearted and kind guy.
Then I met
LilBit and
frankfrank. LilBit's such a witty character. He puts us all to shame with his one-liners. And all with a touch of camp and femininity.

frankfrank is the great traveller and navigator of the meet. I think we'd have got lost more than once without him.
We spent that evening at
Lube and his partner's house. It was so great to see a couple like that, living together happily, for years on end. And they were the perfect hosts.
Transpogue gave us a few tips on 'dykedom 101'

I think that her, kevbo and LilBit should form a comedy triple act. They're so sharp on the draw.
Saturday, and I saw the Mall of America! Got a souvenir gift for my dad (anyone have the photo?) a Minnesota log-cabin bird house!

That brings us to last night, which we spent at
omminc's apartment. He's such a fountain of geek knowledge! And a really friendly and down-to-earth character to boot. His expertise also covers art and design, and, erm, Japanese 'cartoons'
That night was one of the highlights of the trip for me. There was such a wonderful casual, relaxed, friendly, atmosphere, all of us just hanging out in that room together. I felt so comfortable there. Comfortable inside.
At one stage, a lot of tits were exposed

but I'm going to put this down to temporary insanity and a 'collective wardrobe malfunction'.
And OMG, kevbo's boyfriend! What a sweet guy! I'm afraid I couldn't resist glancing over whenever kevbo went to give him a quick kiss.

It was just such a lovely and brilliant thing to see.

They eventually, erm, departed for a mysterious and undisclosed hotel room in a secret location for some reason or other

and returned later on. And what better way for all of us to end the evening than with a big group hug.
I must admit, I felt a pang of regret at one stage. Here was this 18-year old, already out, already in a relationship, happy, and living life to the full. And then I thought how I was when I was 18. I couldn't help but feel down, for the 15 years difference in our age, that I've missed out on. But I know that I can't have those years back. It just takes a bit of time to put this issue behind me, and focus instead on the future.
The last few days, since Thursday, have been some of the best of my life. I know that it doesn't show, but they have.
I know that outwardly, I may seem a bit socially awkward, withdrawn, and quiet, but inside, I'm having a great time. I've experienced the company of openly gay people for the first time in my life. And it feels wonderful. Mostly at the end of the day, in the quiet of the hotel room at night, I reflect on things. And I realise just how far I've come in my life in the past year.
JUB has come through for me, big time, just when I needed it. And I feel SO LUCKY to have this experience. THIS is the sort of lifestyle I want to lead, and the one I want for every gay person in the world. No delusion, no denial, no self-hatred.
I wish I had the ability to live away from home. I'm beginning to dread the thought of having to go back home to that isolated, closed-minded island. It offers nothing for me any more. I really don't want to go back. I'm wildly trying to think of ways to avoid it. I don't know if I've got much choice in the matter. I'll just have to wait and see what the future holds for me.
So that's about it, I've gone ever so slightly overboard on this post. It seems that I'm a little more comfortable expressing myself on here that I am in real life, doesn't it?
Andrew