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I was a lurker on JUB for a year before officially joining in Sept of 2004 and finally came out to myself in Jan of 2005 that I was truly gay. Since then, I have been enjoying my new life. I have not come out to anyone yet but I am happier than I have ever been.

Came across a site that evaluated your "Slut Level". After taking the test, I think you would say that I am enjoying my new life. I am in at a Slutcom 4

You are a Slutcom 4, and um... wow. They look at you. They blink. You pounce. Your room is characterized by a "Now Serving" counter above your bed and a "Take a Number" box outside your door. Anyone who enters your lair is required to be irradiated before leaving. We're talking two people in a night, multiple hook-ups each weekend... dirrty.

Anyone interested in taking the test, here is the website

http://quizilla.com/users/jjofriends/quizzes/The Slutcom litmus test

 

[muscleboy82000]

Went to my first group sex party yesterday afternoon and had an awesome time . The host has a regular monthly party/session and has an area of his house just set up for these sessions and it is perfect for guys to have fun. Had a nice group of about 20 guys show up with a variety of ages, body types and preferences and everyone left with big smiles on their faces. Because this is a regular thing, the host as some very firm rules that result in everyone having fun while being safe.

I was very nervous at first, being my first party and new to our world, but I finally relaxed and had an awesome time. The two most enjoyable moments were suck off a beautiful stud and having him shot his load all over my chest and being f**k by a well equipped and skilled guy. The only downside was I stood around for while watching others as I built up the nerve/courage to get involved. That will not happen again.

Can not wait for the next session.

 

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It has been roughly six months since I finally decided to hide who I am from myself and admit that I am gay. I thought that it would be a good point to pause and reflect on the decision and my life. I can not remember being this happy about my life as I have been. While I have not come out to family or friends, I felt a great burden life from my shoulders with finally realizing who and what I truly am. I am approaching everything from a position point-of-view as apposed to the negative. I have started working out and eating right again to get back into shape. During my not-liking-myself period, I ate a lot of ice cream to try to feel better. I have found a wonderful group of people to chat with the net that have been very supportive of me. I have been amazed out the friendliness of the people I that have reached out and chatted with. I have also begun to explore the sexual relationship part and overall it has been a positive experience.

Overall I would say that it has been a great six months and looking forward to what the next six will bring. I have no plan or agenda for what is ahead but continue to head in the direction of being happy.

 

[muscleboy82000]

Decided to take a few test to see how a rate

The first one is "How gay are you?"

You dig dudes, which is ok. Your pretty calm about your sexuality and it sort of builds into your self-confidence...YOU GO BOI!!

The test can be found at
How Gay Are You

The second one is What type of gay anime porn are you?

The test can be found at What Type of Gay Anime Porn

 

[muscleboy82000]

In keeping my SLUTCOM 4 rating, I took the afternoon off today and hooked up with an awesome stud today . We connected via one of the on-line sites and then spent three hours on Monday just chatting. Based on Monday, we decided to get together and see how things went. Well he came over and we spent some time chatting and getting to know each other better. This led to putting some porn in the DVD and “making out” on the couch for about 30 minutes . This stud was a great kisser and knows how to use his tongue. This lead to a nice hot shower to back sure we were nice and clean. We barely dried off as we moved to the bedroom for some great action that resulted in both of us blowing a huge load of cum. On finally calming down, we saw that we had been playing for nearly three hours. WOW.

I am looking forward to getting with this stud again. He is a great guy and a passionate lover that I want to play with again.

 

[muscleboy82000]

OK, here is the reason that I am calling myself CHICKEN. This past weekend was Pride Weekend in Washington DC and thought that I would attend a couple of events. Nothing major but was thinking of going to watch the parade on Saturday afternoon and visiting the street festival on Sunday. But in the end, I did not attend a single event. Not because something important came up but because I could not muster the courage to attend. On both days, I left the house and started towards the event and then changed my mind before getting into the city. On Sunday and even turned around and headed back into the city a second time before changing my mind again. What was I scared of, only my confused mind will know for sure but I came away with lots of lame excuses.

I thought that I had made great progress in allowing the real me out but I guess my progress was not as far as I thought. What was a scared of, was it being seen by someone I know, was it having to admit in public that I am gay, or was it that I might find out that I do not fit or conform into yet another group. I will never know what positive benefit could have come from taking a few hours and taking the chance.

Well, there is always next year. I guess that the only statement to sum up the past weekend is “Am I Original or Extra Crispy”

 

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Thought I would make this entry about my progress improving the outer me. After coming out to myself in January, I began to like myself again and feeling positive about who I am. Once the inside was heading in the right direction, I took stock of the outside and saw that I had REALLY gotten out-of-shape. During the period of not liking myself, I tried to manage my sorrow around with lots of fast food and ice cream, mainly Byers Strawberry. While I was not overly fat, I was definitely out-of-shape and did not look the best I could. Since i was heading is a positive direction with the inner me, i decided to change this and work on the outer me too.

After spending two months cleaning up my diet and proving that I had the will power to stop eating junk food, I decided to move to the next step, working out . I joined a Golds Gym near work and started working out. First it was the three times a week, then four, the five and now it is at almost every day. I was pulled into it as the more that I do, the better I felt and the more I want to do. This week, I finally started to see real results. It started on Tuesday when I put on a pair of pants that we getting tight in the waist that were now lose and I was shocked. Then last night, I put on a tee shirt and noticed that the sleeves were actually tight. I was shocked that I went into the bathroom and really looked in the mirror and saw something amazing, progress. While I am not a fitness model, I noticed that my entire body was firming up and looking good. I am so happy that after only about six weeks of working out that I am starting to make improvements.

I can not wait to see what is will happen over the next six weeks.

 

[muscleboy82000]

Well, today I became a JUB Slut and I am damn proud of it.

It took a lot of time, effort and dedication to reach this high level of distinction. I would like to thank everyone who created all of the great threads that I have commented on . These threads have provided me with an occasional cry, a good amount of laughter and a large number of erections that that resulted in some really awesome masturbation sessions and the resulting orgasms. I only hope that I have given something back to the JUB community to offset the large amount of pleasure I have received.

 

[muscleboy82000]

Took the Hotlanta Kink Test today and I shocked myself. I scored a 438 out of 700 which places me in the Major League Gangster category.

I was a little surprised at my rating being so high but then again, I am enjoying the exploration of my new life . I can only hope that i will live up to such a high standards.

If anyone is interested, they can take the Kink Test at Hotlanta Kinktest

 

[muscleboy82000]

Just took the famous OkCupid Test and here is my results. If you are interested in taking the test, here is the link OkCupid Test


The Backrubber
Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer (DGSDm)


Lusty but indirect. Kind, but also using friendship as a means to sex. Oh, that feels gooood. You are The Backrubber.

We call you "The Backrubber" because you straddle that fine line between coming on to someone and just treating her nicely. Backrubs are just one example; you'd meet for coffee, or talk about books/movies, or even argue a little bit, all the while mostly preferring to screw.

Your indirect approach is not some evil trickery, but rather a result of your open mind. You'd enjoy either love or sex, but the latter definitely doesn't require the former. While you are responsible and ambitious, you absolutely DON'T have uptight views on relationships. So ultimately, you just enjoy a woman, and let things take their course. If she wants you, great. If not, that's fine too.

Though you're not thinking too much about Love at this point in your life, odds are, when the time comes, you'll be very happy settling down. Your ideal mate is gentle and horny, just like you.

 

[muscleboy82000]

Since it has been one year since I self-accepted myself as Gay, I thought that I would take stock and see how things have gone. Overall things have gone ok and, if grading myself, I would give myself a good solid C. How did I come to this self-acceptance, I was stranded at home and alone over the Christmas Holiday of 2004 due to the weather and had time to think and reflect on my life. I realized that I did not like me and the reason was I was hiding who I was and not enjoying my life.

In looking back, I think that the best way to describe my year would be to compare it to the Grief Cycle (Shock-Denial-Anger-Bargaining-Depression-Testing-Acceptance). Today, I feel that I have completed the cycle and I now am totally comfortable and accepting of who I am. This is amazing as I use to not like myself, thought of myself as ugly, and tried to solve my mental issues by eating too much ice cream. Now, I am comfortable with whom I am and I really do not care what people think about me, my lifestyle or who I am dating or falling in love with. I feel excited about 2006 and am ready to continue exploring my new life and meeting new guys like me. It has not been easy, but then nothing in life that is important is suppose to be. Over the last year, I did disappoint myself, mostly by chickening out of doing things at the last minute but I have and will continue working on that. Overall, I have learned a great deal about my self and what I want out of my life in the future and I am excited about what is to come in 2006.

 

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I hate being sick. I have not felt well the past couple of weeks, mainly sinus, and have been fighting it with over-the-counter stuff. Felt ok on some days and worse on others. Finally I became tired of being sick, gave up and went to the doctors with the ideal that I had a sinus infection, get a prescription for some antibiotics and feel better in a few days. Well, it was a good concept but after I told the doctor about having a sinus infection, he did his exam and then shook his head. He said sorry but you have more than just a sinus infection – try bronchitis/walking pneumonia.

Them the fun started a breathing treatment to open up my lungs from all the congestion, blood work and chest x-rays to confirm that I was really sick and finally a painful steroid shot in the ass to break up all of the congestion. What I thought would have been a simple 20 minute in and out visit turned out to be a 90 minute ordeal, not counting the time at the drug store getting two prescriptions, one being a high power antibiotic and a very nasty tasting liquid cough medicine. All I can say is thank god I have good health insurance because I can only guess what the office visit cost and the prescriptions would have cost over $150. Of course I was told by the doctor to get lots of rest but that has not been possible. Between preparing for a major customer meeting next week and the end of our fiscal year that has been difficult, if not impossible for me to take anytime away from work.

So the plan for this weekend is to do nothing more than rest and watch a large stack of DVD's. Hopefully I will start to feel better this coming week.

 

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Well, after taking and finishing all of the medication that the doctor gave me two weeks ago, I am still feeling like crap. This now makes a total of over 5 weeks of being sick and I have not done anything since Christmas. I am really getting tired of being sick.

So back to the doctor's again today and more fun. They must have felt sorry for me because I got in on the same day and was called back almost as soon as I walked in the door. Another breathing treatment, more blood taken, another shot of steroids in the ass and two new prescriptions. It would have been nice if at least the doctor had a cute male nurse but not with my luck. Mental note - discuss this with the doctor next time.

Hopefully the second time will be the charm. I want to start to feel better so I can start hitting the gym. Only a few more weeks until the big JUB Meeting in Dallas in March. BTW if anyone is interested in joining us, check it out at TEXAS AREA JUB

And before anyone asks, yes I am traveling from KY to Dallas for the weekend of fun.

 

[muscleboy82000]

Thought I would take some time and update my blog.

Health – Well it seems that the second time is the charm and I am feeling almost normal. I am giving myself another few days before I head back to the gym. I really don’t’ know what was worse, being sick or not working out. The one thing I am glad about is that I selected the better health insurance plan. Got the statement from the doctor today and saw they billed the insurance company almost $400 for all of the tests and treatments and I only had to pay my $15.00 co-pay.

Work – I finalize come to realize that I am now one of those type people, management. I have been skirting the issue for the last 6 month as being the “unofficial deputy program manager. This role still allowed me to be involved in performing technical work but that door was slammed shut yesterday. During a meeting, I suggested that I might be the right person to lead a new task but the program manager said no. I was mad and we talked after the meeting and he said that it was more important for me to focus on helping to manage the program than to lead or provide major technical support for specific tasks. It was one of those moments in your life that you realize your life is changing. I am no longer one-of-guys or part of the group, I am now management, one of those people that I have complained about for years. The people that prevent technical staff from doing their jobs and more interested in paperwork and process. This was a shock and has taken some time to adjust too. I was sad and depressed because I love solving complex problems, working and leading teams of great people and being proud of what we accomplish and now I will be pushing paper and being the “bad guy” to keep the task leads on task, on schedule and on budget. I know it is an important job, I know that the program manager and line management have a great deal of respect and confidence in me but it still hurts. It is like any of the other defining moments in your life when you realize that you are no longer the same person, like when you learn about Santa, graduate from high school, your first real job and finally realizing you are an adult.

Family – Last weekend, my brother, sister-in-law, three of the kids and mom came to visit for the weekend. The correct term is the invasion. I love them always, like them most of the time but thank god they live four hours away. I have no control of anything, what we do, when we do things, what we eat and everything else.

JUB Meet in Dallas – Decided to do something for me and I am heading down to Dallas to spend the weekend with fellow JUB guys, have some fun and generally recharge my batteries. It has been a long time since I did something just for me and this is just the start. I have decided that this year I am going to do a long weekend every couple of months to recharge myself. I have decided to take care of me for a change.

 

[muscleboy82000]

I was trying to find an easy way to help everyone to get to know me better. I saw the ‘Things about me” lists on several blogs and liked them. So, here is my attempt. It is a work-in-progress. and if you have questions, please ask


1. I grew up in a “Leave it to Beaver” type family
2. My family is very loving a caring
3. The family consisted of Mom, Dad, me and a younger brother
4. My Dad died in 1993
5. I miss him every day
6. I have three nephews and two nieces
7. During high school, I did not attend any after school functions
8. I have delivered seven babies outside of a hospital
9. I have owned 5 vehicles since my 18th birthday
10. My favorite was a Nissan Pathfinder
11. I have never smoked or taken illegal drugs
12. Got my first job at the age of 16
13. It was McDonalds and I lasted over three years
14. I love to take long walks while it is snowing
15. I love to sing in the shower and the car
16. I love to laugh
17. Growing up, Mom would wake me up on Friday nights at 2am to watch the original Star Trek series.
18. I consider my Mom as one of my best friends
19. I try to talk to her every day and end with “I Love You”
20. I had to tell my brother that one of his friend’s was dead
21. Then I had to tell the friend’s parents
22. I don’t have a lot of close friends
23. My job has allowed me to do some very interesting and exciting things
24. I am not very good at sports
25. I have been on five cruises
26. The last three were with the family – all 9 of us
27. I love comfort foods, especially if Mom is cooking
28. Spent 6 months working in NYC and had a great time
29. Spent 8 weeks working in Athens Greece and had a great time
30. I like to cook and bake
31. I would like to find a guy to be that someone special in my life

 

[muscleboy82000]

Here is the next installment of my list.

32. I am political junkie and believe that everyone should be active participates
33. I am a fiscal, foreign policy, national security and homeland security conservative
34. I am a social moderate
35. I enjoy Science Fiction
36. I have seen every Star Wars and Star Trek movie multiple times
37. I’ve seen every episode of Star Trek, Star Trek: The Next Generation, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, Babylon Five and the new Battlestar Galactica series.
38. I’ve seen most episodes of Star Trek: Voyager and Star Trek: Enterprise.
39. I will miss West Wing, it has been an awesome show
40. I have been to the White House several times
41. I have stood on the floor of the chambers of both houses of Congress
42. I love to read
43. I have been so absorbed in a book before that I stayed up until 4:30am to finish it
44. I do not like to eat seafood
45. My favorite type of Cheesecake is plain with fresh berries
46. My favorite ice cream is strawberries
47. As a child, I ate salads all the time and still do
48. I like all types of music, except rap
49. Nothing is better than laughing at silly movies like Airplane, The Pink Panther and the Naked Gun
50. As a child, I loved playing with Lego’s
51. My favorite color is blue
52. I have not found a diet drink that I like
53. Growing up, my family took some great vacations
54. In High School, I never felt like I fit in.
55. I love early morning walks on the beach just as the sun is rising
56. I love to fall asleep to the sound of ocean waves crashing onto the beach
57. I am tired of celebrities trying to force their opinions on everyone
58. Some people are not entitled to their 15 minutes of fame
59. Looking back in time, I now realize that I have been gay since I was 12 years old
60. I suppressed my true sexuality until recently and I regret it
61. I wish I was more adventurous
62. I love to be around children