Lost_Soul4
Slut
The bitch had finally done it. She’d gone and done precisely what she had promised to do so many years ago. It surprised me really that she hadn’t figured it out earlier. Thing was, her warning was still ringing in my mind.
“If I find out that someone in this house likes someone of the same sex, they are out of here and disowned!” She’d said it with a snarl, too. It’s not like the bitch could have mucked up my life any more than usual, could she? Ha!
I still don’t know why I did it, I don’t know why I had said anything at all. I knew what would happen when I had gone up to her and told her I liked guys as much as girls. Hell, I’m lucky to be breathing the way she exploded at me. My only saving grace was the fact that she allowed me to get my stuff and she gave me three hundred dollars to live on. Not a whole hell of a lot in this day and age, but enough to make a start.
Right now, though, I am living in some rinky-dink hotel not too far from school. Currently, at this given moment in my sad and pathetic life, my face is planted directly against my desk in my chemistry class, my eyes closed and my mind contemplating how much worse my day could possibly be.
My question was answered when someone asked me, “What’s the matter, Alex?”
I didn’t lift my head, didn’t bother to even open my eyes to deign the bastard with the fact that I was listening to him. Hell, there was only one person in this God-forsaken school who would dare call me ‘Alex’ and he was the last person I wanted to talk to right now.
And yet, I heard my voice growl at him, “Lex.” Which meant that this was officially a conversation. Damn!
“What’s that?” The prick asked innocently. Oh, he was really pulling the tiger by the tail now!
“For the last bloody time, my name is Lex!” I lifted my head to glare at Ian McKinney. He was at least a half a foot taller than I (bastard), making him about 6’ 7”. Even as my ice-blue eyes glared into his opalescent green ones, they crinkled in laughter, making me angrier than before.
I’ve been told that my eyes held something dark and frightening and a wealth of hidden knowledge so that people avoided staring me in the eyes; I can plainly say that this did not bother me. I don’t like people, don’t like being around them. But does this bastard ever take the hint? Oh, no! He just keeps staring at me with those…sexy (annoying! Not sexy, annoying! Get it right, brain!) sleepy, bedroom eyes.
The bastard even had the nerve to chuckle as he replied with a casual grin, “Sorry. I’ll stop calling you Alex.” Like I haven’t heard that before. The prick always said the same line, day after day after day, each and every time I growled at him. But for some reason, he couldn’t get it past his brain that I did not like being called Alex. It holds too close to my real name: Alexi Volstov, or rather, just Alexi, since they disowned me. I’ve just never liked being called Alexi or Alex. I never really identified with either of those names, but Lex fit me perfectly.
“So what’s the problem, Alex?” The bastard had the nerve to use that name…again! Oh, I was so going to kill him…in a minute.
Oh, just admit it, my mind yelled at me.
‘Admit what?’ I asked it.
You love the crazy prick and the only reason you haven’t jumped his bones is because –
‘Don’t even finish that thought,’ I snarled at it. That was one memory I wanted to keep buried. No one had the right to hear that memory, not even that bitch that used to call herself my mother.
The only good thing that came from that part of my life was my psychic powers. Yes, that’s right, I’m psychic. Got a problem? Deal with it! I may only be able to do some telepathy and telekinesis, but I know I can do a whole lot more if I could only unlock that part of me. Thing was…the lock led down that memory…
As my mind turned to it, energy crackled and snapped around me, even though I fought against it. Luckily, by the time I had my emotions under control, the stupid bastard was looking at everything except me.
“What caused that?” He wondered aloud. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes; no need to give him any clues.
As the bell rang and class began, my emotional state deteriorated into nothing; the calm on which I prided myself was slowly crumbling underneath my feet. I knew the cause; hell, it had kept me up for the past several days, not letting me get some sleep in. Sleep-deprivation; what a killer…
I also noticed that the bastard kept throwing me concerned looks all through the lecture. I inwardly scoffed; why was he worrying about me? He’s one of the reason’s I’m in this mess.
At the end of class, when I was on my way to my next class, the prick managed to pin me to the wall (lucky for him he didn’t try to lift me from the ground). His eyes bored into mine, or would if my long, jet-black, shaggy hair didn’t obscure his view.
“What is going on, Alex? You’ve been brooding all day! Not that you seem to do anything else,” he added under his breath.
“Why should you care?” I snarled at him. This was why I hated him; for as long as I had known him (nearly nine years), he’d always managed to worm under my skin and make me tell him stuff that he didn’t need to know.
He gave me a hurt look and whispered, “I thought I was your friend…”
I scoffed and chuckled darkly at him. When he looked concerned, I stated, “Friend? I don’t have any need for friends. Just walking around, declaring yourself my best-friend is rather daring of you. Why would the swim team captain be hanging around with the resident Goth child?” At that time, my eyes had narrowed into dangerous slits. “This is why I hate humans.” Then, swatting his hands off my shoulders like they weren’t even there, I walked away from him.
Even as I heard him call after me, the past days suddenly began to barrage me and I had a mental overload. I can’t remember what happened; all I know is that I was crying, Ian was holding me and my mouth was moving.
Luckily for my sanity, my mind simply shut down from the stress. I couldn’t bear to look up into his face and see the pity that obviously would be painted there. It would have hurt too much.
A/N:Well, what do you think, folks? This is my first story post here; I hope you liked it. I have other stories, but they're all posted on another site. Anyhow, be prepared for angst, depression, rather...crude gay jokes, and other stuff. This is not my personal opinion, mind you. I just had this idea and wanted to share with you guys.
“If I find out that someone in this house likes someone of the same sex, they are out of here and disowned!” She’d said it with a snarl, too. It’s not like the bitch could have mucked up my life any more than usual, could she? Ha!
I still don’t know why I did it, I don’t know why I had said anything at all. I knew what would happen when I had gone up to her and told her I liked guys as much as girls. Hell, I’m lucky to be breathing the way she exploded at me. My only saving grace was the fact that she allowed me to get my stuff and she gave me three hundred dollars to live on. Not a whole hell of a lot in this day and age, but enough to make a start.
Right now, though, I am living in some rinky-dink hotel not too far from school. Currently, at this given moment in my sad and pathetic life, my face is planted directly against my desk in my chemistry class, my eyes closed and my mind contemplating how much worse my day could possibly be.
My question was answered when someone asked me, “What’s the matter, Alex?”
I didn’t lift my head, didn’t bother to even open my eyes to deign the bastard with the fact that I was listening to him. Hell, there was only one person in this God-forsaken school who would dare call me ‘Alex’ and he was the last person I wanted to talk to right now.
And yet, I heard my voice growl at him, “Lex.” Which meant that this was officially a conversation. Damn!
“What’s that?” The prick asked innocently. Oh, he was really pulling the tiger by the tail now!
“For the last bloody time, my name is Lex!” I lifted my head to glare at Ian McKinney. He was at least a half a foot taller than I (bastard), making him about 6’ 7”. Even as my ice-blue eyes glared into his opalescent green ones, they crinkled in laughter, making me angrier than before.
I’ve been told that my eyes held something dark and frightening and a wealth of hidden knowledge so that people avoided staring me in the eyes; I can plainly say that this did not bother me. I don’t like people, don’t like being around them. But does this bastard ever take the hint? Oh, no! He just keeps staring at me with those…sexy (annoying! Not sexy, annoying! Get it right, brain!) sleepy, bedroom eyes.
The bastard even had the nerve to chuckle as he replied with a casual grin, “Sorry. I’ll stop calling you Alex.” Like I haven’t heard that before. The prick always said the same line, day after day after day, each and every time I growled at him. But for some reason, he couldn’t get it past his brain that I did not like being called Alex. It holds too close to my real name: Alexi Volstov, or rather, just Alexi, since they disowned me. I’ve just never liked being called Alexi or Alex. I never really identified with either of those names, but Lex fit me perfectly.
“So what’s the problem, Alex?” The bastard had the nerve to use that name…again! Oh, I was so going to kill him…in a minute.
Oh, just admit it, my mind yelled at me.
‘Admit what?’ I asked it.
You love the crazy prick and the only reason you haven’t jumped his bones is because –
‘Don’t even finish that thought,’ I snarled at it. That was one memory I wanted to keep buried. No one had the right to hear that memory, not even that bitch that used to call herself my mother.
The only good thing that came from that part of my life was my psychic powers. Yes, that’s right, I’m psychic. Got a problem? Deal with it! I may only be able to do some telepathy and telekinesis, but I know I can do a whole lot more if I could only unlock that part of me. Thing was…the lock led down that memory…
As my mind turned to it, energy crackled and snapped around me, even though I fought against it. Luckily, by the time I had my emotions under control, the stupid bastard was looking at everything except me.
“What caused that?” He wondered aloud. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes; no need to give him any clues.
As the bell rang and class began, my emotional state deteriorated into nothing; the calm on which I prided myself was slowly crumbling underneath my feet. I knew the cause; hell, it had kept me up for the past several days, not letting me get some sleep in. Sleep-deprivation; what a killer…
I also noticed that the bastard kept throwing me concerned looks all through the lecture. I inwardly scoffed; why was he worrying about me? He’s one of the reason’s I’m in this mess.
At the end of class, when I was on my way to my next class, the prick managed to pin me to the wall (lucky for him he didn’t try to lift me from the ground). His eyes bored into mine, or would if my long, jet-black, shaggy hair didn’t obscure his view.
“What is going on, Alex? You’ve been brooding all day! Not that you seem to do anything else,” he added under his breath.
“Why should you care?” I snarled at him. This was why I hated him; for as long as I had known him (nearly nine years), he’d always managed to worm under my skin and make me tell him stuff that he didn’t need to know.
He gave me a hurt look and whispered, “I thought I was your friend…”
I scoffed and chuckled darkly at him. When he looked concerned, I stated, “Friend? I don’t have any need for friends. Just walking around, declaring yourself my best-friend is rather daring of you. Why would the swim team captain be hanging around with the resident Goth child?” At that time, my eyes had narrowed into dangerous slits. “This is why I hate humans.” Then, swatting his hands off my shoulders like they weren’t even there, I walked away from him.
Even as I heard him call after me, the past days suddenly began to barrage me and I had a mental overload. I can’t remember what happened; all I know is that I was crying, Ian was holding me and my mouth was moving.
Luckily for my sanity, my mind simply shut down from the stress. I couldn’t bear to look up into his face and see the pity that obviously would be painted there. It would have hurt too much.
A/N:Well, what do you think, folks? This is my first story post here; I hope you liked it. I have other stories, but they're all posted on another site. Anyhow, be prepared for angst, depression, rather...crude gay jokes, and other stuff. This is not my personal opinion, mind you. I just had this idea and wanted to share with you guys.


























