I need some help here. My girlfriend of a few months just told me she likes gay porn. more than that she told me the other night after we had sex that she had just pictured me fucking a guy. (for the record shes also told me she finds it hot to think of me with another woman) further to that, she claims to have turned three previous boyfreind "bi". After some questioning she admitted that none of the three actually went as far as to be with a guy but the engaged in the fantasy with her, and one of them did say he wanted to try it with a guy. She told me that one of her boyfreinds had asked her to fuck him with a strap on. I told her that I didn't believe she had turned them at all, only that she had made them comfortbale enough to admit to fantasies they already had. shes not to conviced of that, but i firmly belive it.
Now here is where it gets complicated for me. my first sexual experience was with a guy when i was 14. it was with a friend, and happened over the course of a few months. it started during a sleepover, with masturbating under out blankets, to doing it in the open, to doing it to each other. we went as far as sucking each others dicks, but never to orgasm. He initiated it, and was always the one to take it to the next level. I kept doing it because I was a horny 14 year old and wasnt getting it anywhere else, even though each time, after i came, i would feel a sort of repulsion and regret. he started to get kind of clingy and call me constantly, and i broke off our freindship.
well fast forward 7 years to now. I'm fairly confident in my sexuality. I'm straight, but bi- curious as i think MOST of the population is. I sometimes masturbate to gay porn, and i am aroused by it IF I am already horny. but i cum while watching gay porn, i immediately lose all interest in it, which is different from when i am with my girlfriend and often want to keep going.
I feel like i want to tell me girlfriend about my past experience and my views on gay porn, but im not sure how to explain it. i dont even quite understand it myself. the idea of gay sex does arouse me, the fantasy arouses me, the porn arouses me, and yet, i dont feel any overhwhelming urge to try it with a guy again.
Just to add a wrinkle early in our relationship my girlfriend had told me she was bi. before i had any strong feelings for her, i reacted with a sort of indifference. as i stated to fall for her, it started to bug me, i didnt want a bi girlfreind. i talked to her about it, and eventually she told me she wasn't really bi at all, and in fact she had only been with a girl once and it had turned her off girls. she still apretiates attractive women, but doesnt want to have sex with one again. she had told me she was bi because she expected it to turn me on. not an unreasonable expecation since i like lesbian porn, and yet it actually had the opposite effect.
this rambled on didnt it? human sexuality is god damn complex, im not convinced ill totally ubnderstand it ten years from now.
Now here is where it gets complicated for me. my first sexual experience was with a guy when i was 14. it was with a friend, and happened over the course of a few months. it started during a sleepover, with masturbating under out blankets, to doing it in the open, to doing it to each other. we went as far as sucking each others dicks, but never to orgasm. He initiated it, and was always the one to take it to the next level. I kept doing it because I was a horny 14 year old and wasnt getting it anywhere else, even though each time, after i came, i would feel a sort of repulsion and regret. he started to get kind of clingy and call me constantly, and i broke off our freindship.
well fast forward 7 years to now. I'm fairly confident in my sexuality. I'm straight, but bi- curious as i think MOST of the population is. I sometimes masturbate to gay porn, and i am aroused by it IF I am already horny. but i cum while watching gay porn, i immediately lose all interest in it, which is different from when i am with my girlfriend and often want to keep going.
I feel like i want to tell me girlfriend about my past experience and my views on gay porn, but im not sure how to explain it. i dont even quite understand it myself. the idea of gay sex does arouse me, the fantasy arouses me, the porn arouses me, and yet, i dont feel any overhwhelming urge to try it with a guy again.
Just to add a wrinkle early in our relationship my girlfriend had told me she was bi. before i had any strong feelings for her, i reacted with a sort of indifference. as i stated to fall for her, it started to bug me, i didnt want a bi girlfreind. i talked to her about it, and eventually she told me she wasn't really bi at all, and in fact she had only been with a girl once and it had turned her off girls. she still apretiates attractive women, but doesnt want to have sex with one again. she had told me she was bi because she expected it to turn me on. not an unreasonable expecation since i like lesbian porn, and yet it actually had the opposite effect.
this rambled on didnt it? human sexuality is god damn complex, im not convinced ill totally ubnderstand it ten years from now.
