Hey guys, it's been some time. I'll try to be as brief as possible... =)
I have a friend and I think I'm having a crush on him. He's ok with me being gay, and in fact I think we have a really strong friendship. He's straight btw.
Things started during his b-day party. He was really drunk, and when he's drunk he becomes REALLY stubborn. It was very cold outside that time, and some friends and I stayed at his house to spend the night. When he was ready to sleep, he told me "leave me some space, I'm sleeping with you". Of course I was happy to hear that, but I couldn't believe he actually did it. So he slept with me in his individual bed.
He was cold, so that's when he "hugged" my legs with his. We were both fully dressed, so there wasn't really any direct skin contact. And he was really cold. But I had never slept with any guy like this before, specially with someone I liked. I couldn't believe it and I repeated on my mind "don't screw this, he's just cold...". I just hugged him and he did't do anything to get my arm off him. Then he started teasing me about me wanting to do something to his ass (which of course I didn't do) before he finally fell asleep. After that night I started feeling confused.....
Some weeks later, he broke up with his girlfriend. A month later, at a friend's party, he got drunk once again and mixed beer with vodka or some other liquor. And when he's drunk and fells asleep, there's no human force that can wake him up (or even move him). So we spent the night there and this time he took off his pants and slept in boxers. We slept on the floor. The room was really dark and I could barely see him. Knowing I had him next to me in boxers started to get me a little nervous (and horny, of course). It wasn't as cold as it was during his b-day party, but it was still cold, so before he fell asleep, he "hugged" my legs once again with his, and he didn't asked, he just did it. That turned me on even more.
I couldn't resist, so I slowly placed my hand over one of his legs and started getting it closer to his penis. So I touched it gently and I felt it was still soft. I started teasing his dick and it started to get hard. All this was happening below the sheets, so I could only rely on what I was feeling at that time. So I got hornier and hornier and I couldn't believe I was tocuhing him. His dick finally got fully erected and that's when I started to stroke it (through his boxers). I did it a little bit faster, yet gently, and he didn't seem to react, he was still asleep. I wanted him to cum, but then I thought "if I make him cum, maybe he'll wake up and notice". So I stopped and jerked off before anything bad happened.
The next morning, we woke up and he was now sober and he was still cold so he asked me to cross legs again. I was suprised that he asked me while being sober. It was the first time. So we crossed legs and I even hugged him and cuddled with him... and he didn't told me anything at all. I got my knees as closer to his dick as possible and he didn't told me anything. I still couldn't believe it. After that day I felt even more confused.... I know he's straight and all, but it's still confusing.
The last incident happened during an event were we had to camp. He drank some beers, but not the enough amount to get drunk. So when we went to sleep I was cold and I asked him now this time to cross legs. He accepted and he felt asleep. I wanted to touch his dick again, so I hugged him again and I slowly lowered my arm until my arm touched his dick, rubbing it with my forearm thtough his short so it could get hard again (not directly with my hand, so If something happened, I could say it was an accident). Since he got an erection I risked it and started to gently squeeze the head of his dick with my hand this time. And that's when he noticed I was doing something!!! x__X D:
He told me, half asleep, "hey! stop being naughty"....... and that's it! D: He didn't do anything to get my hand off his dick. So I continued and moments later he told me once again "stop being naughty or I'll leave you in the cold...". So I stopped. But we were still leg-crossed and I was still hugging him. But I didn't dare to touch his dick again so I stopped hugging him and jerked off. The next morning I tried to pretend like if nothing had happened, but he just kept staring at me and calling me naughty, not in an angry way, but in some way I can't describe, like teasing me for that or in a joking manner.
The next day he kept calling me naughty and then I finally asked him if what I had done that night at the tent made him feel uncomfortable. And of course it did. He told me he trusted me and considered me as a brother and asked me why I had done that to him. I felt bad and told him that it wasn't my intention but I couldn't resist and bla bla bla.... you know the rest. But he told me "ok.... I undertsand why you did it", and the we hugged.... what a relief!
Of course by the third incident I was even more confused..... I couldn't assimilate what had happened all this time, and his favorable reaction. And I don't want to screw this maginficent friendship (or brotherhood, if you want to call it that way) but it's hard for me not to see him in a different way given the circumstances. He jokes and teases with me a lot, sometimes touching or rubbing me in the back or my nipples or in some way to arouse me. And I know it's just a game (or so do I believe) but I can't stop to think that maybe, JUST maybe, he's bisexual or something. I know this doesn't necessarily mean that we could have a realtionship, but I'd love to have a real sexual encounter with him if I had the chance and if I knew our friendship wouldn't be affected.
So I'm asking here for some advice. What to do? I know I did wrong touching him (though he believes it happened just one time, luckily), but I couldn't resist, and I know it was dangerous.
But he's really cute and he treats me really nice, he legitimately cares about me (as a friend of course) but I can't help to feel his attention in another way. He has stated several times that he's confident about his sexual orientation and that he likes girls, but I can't help to feel this way. And I don't want to stop talking to him.
The only way I can think of to stop these feelings is to get a REAL gay guy.... but until then, what can I do? What should I do? Thanks in advance and thanks for reading.
I have a friend and I think I'm having a crush on him. He's ok with me being gay, and in fact I think we have a really strong friendship. He's straight btw.
Things started during his b-day party. He was really drunk, and when he's drunk he becomes REALLY stubborn. It was very cold outside that time, and some friends and I stayed at his house to spend the night. When he was ready to sleep, he told me "leave me some space, I'm sleeping with you". Of course I was happy to hear that, but I couldn't believe he actually did it. So he slept with me in his individual bed.
He was cold, so that's when he "hugged" my legs with his. We were both fully dressed, so there wasn't really any direct skin contact. And he was really cold. But I had never slept with any guy like this before, specially with someone I liked. I couldn't believe it and I repeated on my mind "don't screw this, he's just cold...". I just hugged him and he did't do anything to get my arm off him. Then he started teasing me about me wanting to do something to his ass (which of course I didn't do) before he finally fell asleep. After that night I started feeling confused.....
Some weeks later, he broke up with his girlfriend. A month later, at a friend's party, he got drunk once again and mixed beer with vodka or some other liquor. And when he's drunk and fells asleep, there's no human force that can wake him up (or even move him). So we spent the night there and this time he took off his pants and slept in boxers. We slept on the floor. The room was really dark and I could barely see him. Knowing I had him next to me in boxers started to get me a little nervous (and horny, of course). It wasn't as cold as it was during his b-day party, but it was still cold, so before he fell asleep, he "hugged" my legs once again with his, and he didn't asked, he just did it. That turned me on even more.
I couldn't resist, so I slowly placed my hand over one of his legs and started getting it closer to his penis. So I touched it gently and I felt it was still soft. I started teasing his dick and it started to get hard. All this was happening below the sheets, so I could only rely on what I was feeling at that time. So I got hornier and hornier and I couldn't believe I was tocuhing him. His dick finally got fully erected and that's when I started to stroke it (through his boxers). I did it a little bit faster, yet gently, and he didn't seem to react, he was still asleep. I wanted him to cum, but then I thought "if I make him cum, maybe he'll wake up and notice". So I stopped and jerked off before anything bad happened.
The next morning, we woke up and he was now sober and he was still cold so he asked me to cross legs again. I was suprised that he asked me while being sober. It was the first time. So we crossed legs and I even hugged him and cuddled with him... and he didn't told me anything at all. I got my knees as closer to his dick as possible and he didn't told me anything. I still couldn't believe it. After that day I felt even more confused.... I know he's straight and all, but it's still confusing.
The last incident happened during an event were we had to camp. He drank some beers, but not the enough amount to get drunk. So when we went to sleep I was cold and I asked him now this time to cross legs. He accepted and he felt asleep. I wanted to touch his dick again, so I hugged him again and I slowly lowered my arm until my arm touched his dick, rubbing it with my forearm thtough his short so it could get hard again (not directly with my hand, so If something happened, I could say it was an accident). Since he got an erection I risked it and started to gently squeeze the head of his dick with my hand this time. And that's when he noticed I was doing something!!! x__X D:
He told me, half asleep, "hey! stop being naughty"....... and that's it! D: He didn't do anything to get my hand off his dick. So I continued and moments later he told me once again "stop being naughty or I'll leave you in the cold...". So I stopped. But we were still leg-crossed and I was still hugging him. But I didn't dare to touch his dick again so I stopped hugging him and jerked off. The next morning I tried to pretend like if nothing had happened, but he just kept staring at me and calling me naughty, not in an angry way, but in some way I can't describe, like teasing me for that or in a joking manner.
The next day he kept calling me naughty and then I finally asked him if what I had done that night at the tent made him feel uncomfortable. And of course it did. He told me he trusted me and considered me as a brother and asked me why I had done that to him. I felt bad and told him that it wasn't my intention but I couldn't resist and bla bla bla.... you know the rest. But he told me "ok.... I undertsand why you did it", and the we hugged.... what a relief!
Of course by the third incident I was even more confused..... I couldn't assimilate what had happened all this time, and his favorable reaction. And I don't want to screw this maginficent friendship (or brotherhood, if you want to call it that way) but it's hard for me not to see him in a different way given the circumstances. He jokes and teases with me a lot, sometimes touching or rubbing me in the back or my nipples or in some way to arouse me. And I know it's just a game (or so do I believe) but I can't stop to think that maybe, JUST maybe, he's bisexual or something. I know this doesn't necessarily mean that we could have a realtionship, but I'd love to have a real sexual encounter with him if I had the chance and if I knew our friendship wouldn't be affected.
So I'm asking here for some advice. What to do? I know I did wrong touching him (though he believes it happened just one time, luckily), but I couldn't resist, and I know it was dangerous.
But he's really cute and he treats me really nice, he legitimately cares about me (as a friend of course) but I can't help to feel his attention in another way. He has stated several times that he's confident about his sexual orientation and that he likes girls, but I can't help to feel this way. And I don't want to stop talking to him.The only way I can think of to stop these feelings is to get a REAL gay guy.... but until then, what can I do? What should I do? Thanks in advance and thanks for reading.
