HappySmiles
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Hello everyone, I've been browsing this forum for sometime now and finally decided to make myself an account. Anyways, I met this guy around this time last year. Prior to meeting him, I would always see him around campus. I'd always look at him because he was very impressive. One day as the new sessions of class began, I noticed that he was in one of my classes. During the whole first session he kept looking at me. The next day, I decided to sit next to him. From that day on, we became really good friends. We would hang out outside class and always study together. For the most part we kept in contact throughout the summer, as he went back and forth since he traveled to go visit his family.
New semester, and we had a few classes together. I was already completely "in love" with him. I can say since first day. At the end of that semester, we went off to the city. We hung out and a waiter was hitting on me as we ate. He found it funny but I was a bit embarrassed. As we drove back, he took out a bottle of vodka which I eventually drank. I guess me getting wasted caused me to say what I felt. I told him that he meant everything to me and that he was my everything. He wouldn't say not much but just to calm down.
After that incident, he started going out with this girl. He even introduced me to her and we went out to dinner once. A different waiter was hitting on me and he kept insisting that I go at him. Eventually, he noticed that I wasn't feeling his r relationship so he called it off. He would always say "I will break up with her if you want me to." However, to this date I know that they still somewhat talk. I got annoyed and acted that I didnt like him anymore and he would get really hurt. He would say such things as "you and my family are all that matters, you are most brilliant person ever." etc
This year, we still had somewhat of an emotional relationship. Just words that he would say like "Te Quiero Mucho, Sos lo mejor." which means like "I like you a lot, you are the best." I have a nickname for him and it all of a sudden it became a nickname for me aswell. We have called each other "babe,baby" a few times.
Anyways, Im gonna cut to it. I was so annoyed by him that I made up a lie and told him that I was talking to my ex. That night he flipped out and told me over messenger that he was "curious" about me but that he wasn't gay. He made me reassured him that I "liked, loved him." Ever since then, the text messages have become more romantic and he is very sweet. He still have our problems. It has come to the point where I massage his neck and shoulders. I often run my fingers trough his hair. I gave him a hand job once.
Last night, he wanted to see mine and I showed him. I proceeded to give him a hand job and he gave me one. A good one but with constant "Dont tell anyone, I am not gay just curious." However, I was on cloud nine since I am so attached to him. I cant really say what he is since he confuses me a lot. I dont know what he wants and at time I feel "used." I persist because I have a feeling that in the future when he comes to terms he might respond to me. I feel that he likes me. I have a lot of love for him and he knows it. I just dont know what to do anymore. I can continue this nonsense or keep going. We are really close as friends and well I dont want to jeopardize anything. I just feel a lot for him.
I guess I just came here to share my story since I dont have anyone to really tell. All of our friends are straight. Besides online, I dont really have any 'gay' friends. I have told one friend but she always gets annoyed and compares us to Alexander and Hephaistion lol. She says that I give a lot and that he will never come to terms with what he really wants. But as time goes on he seems to be more open with me. Oh yeah, I am 21 and he is 23 if you guys wanted to know
New semester, and we had a few classes together. I was already completely "in love" with him. I can say since first day. At the end of that semester, we went off to the city. We hung out and a waiter was hitting on me as we ate. He found it funny but I was a bit embarrassed. As we drove back, he took out a bottle of vodka which I eventually drank. I guess me getting wasted caused me to say what I felt. I told him that he meant everything to me and that he was my everything. He wouldn't say not much but just to calm down.
After that incident, he started going out with this girl. He even introduced me to her and we went out to dinner once. A different waiter was hitting on me and he kept insisting that I go at him. Eventually, he noticed that I wasn't feeling his r relationship so he called it off. He would always say "I will break up with her if you want me to." However, to this date I know that they still somewhat talk. I got annoyed and acted that I didnt like him anymore and he would get really hurt. He would say such things as "you and my family are all that matters, you are most brilliant person ever." etc
This year, we still had somewhat of an emotional relationship. Just words that he would say like "Te Quiero Mucho, Sos lo mejor." which means like "I like you a lot, you are the best." I have a nickname for him and it all of a sudden it became a nickname for me aswell. We have called each other "babe,baby" a few times.
Anyways, Im gonna cut to it. I was so annoyed by him that I made up a lie and told him that I was talking to my ex. That night he flipped out and told me over messenger that he was "curious" about me but that he wasn't gay. He made me reassured him that I "liked, loved him." Ever since then, the text messages have become more romantic and he is very sweet. He still have our problems. It has come to the point where I massage his neck and shoulders. I often run my fingers trough his hair. I gave him a hand job once.
Last night, he wanted to see mine and I showed him. I proceeded to give him a hand job and he gave me one. A good one but with constant "Dont tell anyone, I am not gay just curious." However, I was on cloud nine since I am so attached to him. I cant really say what he is since he confuses me a lot. I dont know what he wants and at time I feel "used." I persist because I have a feeling that in the future when he comes to terms he might respond to me. I feel that he likes me. I have a lot of love for him and he knows it. I just dont know what to do anymore. I can continue this nonsense or keep going. We are really close as friends and well I dont want to jeopardize anything. I just feel a lot for him.
I guess I just came here to share my story since I dont have anyone to really tell. All of our friends are straight. Besides online, I dont really have any 'gay' friends. I have told one friend but she always gets annoyed and compares us to Alexander and Hephaistion lol. She says that I give a lot and that he will never come to terms with what he really wants. But as time goes on he seems to be more open with me. Oh yeah, I am 21 and he is 23 if you guys wanted to know
