Okay, so I have a very good friend who is amazingly hot (we've become fast friends in the last year and a half) who basically "pursued" me as a friend (we have one or two mutual friends). He knew I was gay from the very beginning, and the way he went about us becoming friends was almost as if he was interested in me (talking on the phone, taking me out to dinner, sleeping in the same bed, calling me pet names). It was all very strange because not many straight guys pursue a gay guy as a friend like that. Anyway, our relationship has been very confusing. Over the last year and a half, there's been times when he's wanted to make out, we always sleep in the same bed, he always wants to cuddle, wants me to massage him, hold my hand, etc. Now before I go on, this guy is definitely a pussy hound, always pursuing girls (actually has had a girlfriend for the last few months who he cheats on with other girls). He's told me he's just a big tease and nothing is ever gonna happen between us, but I'm not stupid, it seems very clear to me that this guy has feelings for me and doesn't know how to deal with it. Just the way we are together, the moments we have, the connection, the conversations....it all seems to go beyond us being friends. In fact, there's been times when he's been in tears telling me he wants to be with me but he needs a girl in his life. However, he constantly denies things the next minute. for example, he'll call me baby and beg me to cuddle with him, then in the middle of the night he'll slap my arm away and insist he's not gay.
Anyway, a week ago we hit a new level in our relationship. We were hanging out drinking as we usually do, having deep conversation, being close and cuddly, and he randomly went over to the couch, bent over, and asked me to fuck him. I thought he was joking, because he always jokes around about stuff like that, and then I realized he was serious. I asked him if he was sure, and he begged me to do it. So I did, and in the next 6 hours we fucked about 6 or 7 times, each time he kept begging me to do it again, Basically did it on every surface of his apartment. the first time he asked me to cum in his mouth, and then gagged, so I thought he'd be disgusted by it, but he proceeded to beg for my cum in his mouth three more ties, and each time after the first he was literally begging for it and telling me how good it tasted simply because it was mine. Honestly, I NEVER thought we'd have sex, let alone having him let me fuck him, and the way he was so into it literally tripped me out. He turned into an immediate bottom whore, took it like a champ, talking dirty to me, begging for my cum in his face, asking me things like "Is this ass gonna make you cum? I want your babies in my mouth." It was like a porn. I made him promise me nothing was going to change because I didn't want to ruin the relationship, and he insisted that it wouldn't. He said it wouldn't happen all the time, but that now I "owned this ass" and when he wanted it to happen again it would. I can't imagine many straight guy would let a gay guy fuck them in the ass even once, let alone numerous times and also eat their cum.
The next day we talked and he said he needed some time alone, and basically is all over his girlfriend all of a sudden as if suddenly she is brand new.
so my question is, is this guy just truly fucked up or is he scared of what we did? I'm trying to give him some time to process what happened, because it must have been a big deal for him, but at the same time I'm terrified that I've ruined one of my best friendships. To be clear, I do have feelings for the kid, but he's also one of my best friends so it's all so confusing.
Anyone ever been in a similar situation? what should I do???
Anyway, a week ago we hit a new level in our relationship. We were hanging out drinking as we usually do, having deep conversation, being close and cuddly, and he randomly went over to the couch, bent over, and asked me to fuck him. I thought he was joking, because he always jokes around about stuff like that, and then I realized he was serious. I asked him if he was sure, and he begged me to do it. So I did, and in the next 6 hours we fucked about 6 or 7 times, each time he kept begging me to do it again, Basically did it on every surface of his apartment. the first time he asked me to cum in his mouth, and then gagged, so I thought he'd be disgusted by it, but he proceeded to beg for my cum in his mouth three more ties, and each time after the first he was literally begging for it and telling me how good it tasted simply because it was mine. Honestly, I NEVER thought we'd have sex, let alone having him let me fuck him, and the way he was so into it literally tripped me out. He turned into an immediate bottom whore, took it like a champ, talking dirty to me, begging for my cum in his face, asking me things like "Is this ass gonna make you cum? I want your babies in my mouth." It was like a porn. I made him promise me nothing was going to change because I didn't want to ruin the relationship, and he insisted that it wouldn't. He said it wouldn't happen all the time, but that now I "owned this ass" and when he wanted it to happen again it would. I can't imagine many straight guy would let a gay guy fuck them in the ass even once, let alone numerous times and also eat their cum.
The next day we talked and he said he needed some time alone, and basically is all over his girlfriend all of a sudden as if suddenly she is brand new.
so my question is, is this guy just truly fucked up or is he scared of what we did? I'm trying to give him some time to process what happened, because it must have been a big deal for him, but at the same time I'm terrified that I've ruined one of my best friendships. To be clear, I do have feelings for the kid, but he's also one of my best friends so it's all so confusing.
Anyone ever been in a similar situation? what should I do???
