Saturday, October 11, 2014
Over the past several weeks, my main focus has been settling in as best as possible at work. Clearly I can never settle in fully too fast, as there are several changes involved when switching companies. With that said, going into the same field I previously worked in is making the transition a bit easier. Additionally, working with one of the same clients that I used to work with also makes things easier on me. Where the learning curve comes into play is the differing roles between the organizations. With my previous organization, I was responsible for several more things than I will be at this current organization. That’s the way that it is looking at present anyway. In several ways, this idea makes sense; I’m working a regular schedule now (between 40-50 hours a week) whereas before I was working between 60-80 hours per week. With that said, I do anticipate the workload to creep up on me a little bit, but I need to be stronger this time around in saying that I can’t work those hours. I had a conversation up front with the partners to express my concern in that regard so they are well aware that I will not put up with that once again.
Overall in my life I feel as though I am slightly less stressed than I was before. One might ask why only slightly? My answer is that there is still so much to learn in the new position. I’m going to be in more of a management role with this company from the sounds of it, and I will have more decisions to make and more complicated conversations to have with Superintendents and Executive Directors. I do not feel as though that it is something I cannot handle, but rather I feel as though it will be a new experience for me. Naturally in the beginning I am sure I will struggle with it slightly, hence the slight level of apprehension and stress. I also know, however, that the company has faith in me as well, or never would they have hired me on to their team. Clearly they feel as though I am well-fit for the role as well. One of the reasons I chose to work with them as opposed to working independently was the idea that I will have more support at this company than on my own. There will be several resources in this organization to turn to should I need help with something. On that same token, though, there’s also the argument that I could reach out to my network contacts or even reach out directly to the Minnesota Department of Education should I have questions or concerns. I digress. I’m content with the decision to work for this organization at present. Remember to ask me in a few days, and that position may have changed.
In other news and other areas of my life, the end. Right! Not much has changed there, quite honestly. I believe in one of my threads several months back at this point (they are removed as I removed my account several times), I believe I mentioned that I had been communicating with someone who was working for the United States Marines. At the time, he was stationed in Afghanistan, then moved to Warsaw, Poland. Regardless of where I stated he was, he and I continue to be in communication with one another. Quite frankly, I don’t know where things stand between the two of us. Initially, we both thought that we might be able to handle a long-distance relationship until he was able to return home in 2-years’ time. As each day passes, though, without the man in my arms, and without him by my side as I awake in the morning, the more I understand and realize just how impossible and unrealistic that is. Still, I love him. It’s hard to walk away from that. I find myself questioning my thoughts, though, too. Is it truly love? Can it truly be love? I haven’t me this mine in real life, therefore how do I know if it IS love at all? I feel so very conflicted regarding that situation right now. What I will say is that I’m not solely relying on that, either. I am trying to meet other people as well in the meantime. I don’t know where this situation will fall. I can only say for certain that I get lonely without him, and have a hard time committing to someone whom I have never met.
Over the past several weeks, my main focus has been settling in as best as possible at work. Clearly I can never settle in fully too fast, as there are several changes involved when switching companies. With that said, going into the same field I previously worked in is making the transition a bit easier. Additionally, working with one of the same clients that I used to work with also makes things easier on me. Where the learning curve comes into play is the differing roles between the organizations. With my previous organization, I was responsible for several more things than I will be at this current organization. That’s the way that it is looking at present anyway. In several ways, this idea makes sense; I’m working a regular schedule now (between 40-50 hours a week) whereas before I was working between 60-80 hours per week. With that said, I do anticipate the workload to creep up on me a little bit, but I need to be stronger this time around in saying that I can’t work those hours. I had a conversation up front with the partners to express my concern in that regard so they are well aware that I will not put up with that once again.
Overall in my life I feel as though I am slightly less stressed than I was before. One might ask why only slightly? My answer is that there is still so much to learn in the new position. I’m going to be in more of a management role with this company from the sounds of it, and I will have more decisions to make and more complicated conversations to have with Superintendents and Executive Directors. I do not feel as though that it is something I cannot handle, but rather I feel as though it will be a new experience for me. Naturally in the beginning I am sure I will struggle with it slightly, hence the slight level of apprehension and stress. I also know, however, that the company has faith in me as well, or never would they have hired me on to their team. Clearly they feel as though I am well-fit for the role as well. One of the reasons I chose to work with them as opposed to working independently was the idea that I will have more support at this company than on my own. There will be several resources in this organization to turn to should I need help with something. On that same token, though, there’s also the argument that I could reach out to my network contacts or even reach out directly to the Minnesota Department of Education should I have questions or concerns. I digress. I’m content with the decision to work for this organization at present. Remember to ask me in a few days, and that position may have changed.
In other news and other areas of my life, the end. Right! Not much has changed there, quite honestly. I believe in one of my threads several months back at this point (they are removed as I removed my account several times), I believe I mentioned that I had been communicating with someone who was working for the United States Marines. At the time, he was stationed in Afghanistan, then moved to Warsaw, Poland. Regardless of where I stated he was, he and I continue to be in communication with one another. Quite frankly, I don’t know where things stand between the two of us. Initially, we both thought that we might be able to handle a long-distance relationship until he was able to return home in 2-years’ time. As each day passes, though, without the man in my arms, and without him by my side as I awake in the morning, the more I understand and realize just how impossible and unrealistic that is. Still, I love him. It’s hard to walk away from that. I find myself questioning my thoughts, though, too. Is it truly love? Can it truly be love? I haven’t me this mine in real life, therefore how do I know if it IS love at all? I feel so very conflicted regarding that situation right now. What I will say is that I’m not solely relying on that, either. I am trying to meet other people as well in the meantime. I don’t know where this situation will fall. I can only say for certain that I get lonely without him, and have a hard time committing to someone whom I have never met.
