Silvernitrate
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So, I have been away from family for almost a year now, and it's killing me! Thanksgiving is coming up, and I finally get to see some people, but not much. Come December, though I'll get to fly out and see the rest of all my family. I'm pretty stoked about that, but when i get into town, it's going to suck in a way.
So, there is this guy I had a long relationship for a few years with, but I moved on after I transferred colleges. We had been talking since high school. He means so much to me, but right now I'm disappointed in him.
Since my move out here I had only talked to him a few times and he told me how much he thinks about me and we both miss each other so much!
Recently he would call me every night and ask me when I'm coming back to see him!
It saddens me so much that I can't be with him right now. Anyways, we got to talking for a bit, then he suddenly stopped calling me so much, but that was okay with me. Then his calls stopped, but I'm very busy so I didnt think much.
Just yesterday I got a call from one of my friends and she told me he was caught having sex with another guy recently.
I acted as if I didn't mind because we were not technically together any more, and since I lived half way across the united states from him, it was inevitable. It really was inevitable, in retrospect, but I didn't really think he would do it I really was not okay, when she told me the news, but I acted very nonchalant and cool about it. I told her I didn't care, but I LIED!!
Now, when I go back home to visit, I wont be able to look at him the same. I dont even want him to know I'm in town. I still loved him so much, but I can't go back to him if he's with another guy now. I've deleted his number from my contacts and have ignored all his calls. I'm not going to confront him about what he does, because that is his business, but I think it's time I should move on too! It's a tough one, but right now, even with all the hot guys here LA that compete with his looks just dont seem to cut it for me, because there was so much that connected us.
I need to be single for a while longer and figure myself out, before i try to get in a relationship with someone else. Or actually just.. get over this guy and fall out of love with him. grr this sucks! I wish i got to hold him and be with him one last time for good knowing it would be my last!
So, there is this guy I had a long relationship for a few years with, but I moved on after I transferred colleges. We had been talking since high school. He means so much to me, but right now I'm disappointed in him.
Since my move out here I had only talked to him a few times and he told me how much he thinks about me and we both miss each other so much!
Recently he would call me every night and ask me when I'm coming back to see him!
It saddens me so much that I can't be with him right now. Anyways, we got to talking for a bit, then he suddenly stopped calling me so much, but that was okay with me. Then his calls stopped, but I'm very busy so I didnt think much.Just yesterday I got a call from one of my friends and she told me he was caught having sex with another guy recently.
I acted as if I didn't mind because we were not technically together any more, and since I lived half way across the united states from him, it was inevitable. It really was inevitable, in retrospect, but I didn't really think he would do it I really was not okay, when she told me the news, but I acted very nonchalant and cool about it. I told her I didn't care, but I LIED!!
Now, when I go back home to visit, I wont be able to look at him the same. I dont even want him to know I'm in town. I still loved him so much, but I can't go back to him if he's with another guy now. I've deleted his number from my contacts and have ignored all his calls. I'm not going to confront him about what he does, because that is his business, but I think it's time I should move on too! It's a tough one, but right now, even with all the hot guys here LA that compete with his looks just dont seem to cut it for me, because there was so much that connected us.
I need to be single for a while longer and figure myself out, before i try to get in a relationship with someone else. Or actually just.. get over this guy and fall out of love with him. grr this sucks! I wish i got to hold him and be with him one last time for good knowing it would be my last!