Obsessed Over A Former Classmate

[SilverWolf]

Hi everybody. I recently just discovered this site while looking for gay porn and decided to join. I need advice and hope you can help if its not too much trouble. If this is in the wrong section I apologize and will try to delete this. Anyway I'm kinda obessing over a former highschool classmate. We graduated last year and I haven't been able to get my mind off him. If anybody could tell me I'm reading too much into this or if I have had a shot with him or I would be greatful. I just want to hear other people's opinion on this. Hopefully then I will move on with my life. (Or just stare at his picture). This is long and I'm sorry but I dont know how to make it shorter

This is the situation. My highschool was an all boy catholic highschool with a really good football team. (I hate football so I don't why I went there) My class wasn't really all that bad as many guys frequently smacked other guys on the butt. I kind of came out of the closet accidentally. Long story short my friend accidentally saw videos of two guys kissing and doing other stuff on my phone. (I know, it was dumb but I honestly forgot I had it) We still remained friends by ignoring the subject. (Strange I know since he has no problems discussing it with other people) Well since he has a mouth the size of the American continent the entire senior class heard I might be into guys. I got off lucky as no one gave me any trouble (even the kids who normally try to make my life hell) There was one other gay kid in my class and he was out and he was mostly accepted.

Well this was my situation. I was sitting in class when this really hot guy walked in. I couldn't help but stare at his "special place". Dumb move by me as he noticed my stare, However he suddenly grabbed himself as if to give me a better view. However I was freaking out in my mind and couldn't think of anything except Oh God!. Well at the end of class the teacher offered to show us our grades. We both stayed and asked if we could do extra credit. (I wanted to make sure my grade was high enough to not be affected by finals. I was a senior so the chances of me seriously studying near the end of the year were non existent) He asked why a kid with an A needed extra credit. "So I don't have to study at the end of they year I replied" You should share the extra credit he said. Nope its all mine I laughed. Oh come on he said as he moved closer. Share the love. Suddenly I noticed a warm hand rubbing my butt. I just looked at him as if he grew a second head. He just smiled. Well I forgot about the extra credit and just ran.

Now its the end of the day. He was sitting next to me. He must have dropped something because he leaned over to pick it up giving me a good view of his behind. As you can see subtlety is not my forte and he caught me a second time. Luckily the bell rang rand I made my escape. As I was walking through the hall I felt that hand on my butt again. I turned and saw him but he wasn't looking at me since we were surrounded by classmates. In a leave of my senses my hand found its way to his butt. He said nothing but ooohhhhh. Like as in ooohhhh naughty boy. (He didn't actually say naughty boy but I thought it was that kind of ooohhh)

A few moths later we were sitting in class. My friends and I were discussing the anime show Naruto and trying to decide to who would be a good girlfriend for the main character. Well the hot guy whom I cannot keep my eyes off of suddenly said the main character should with his MALE best friend (Naruto fans know what I'm talking about. If there any Naruto fans here). We just looked at him. I explained the male best friend wants to revive his clan. He can do enough to get a kid and go right back to his friend he said. That resulted in a change of topic suggested by me. (Keep in mind he doesn't even like Naruto, he only knows about it through his brother) Another day in class the teacher suggested I pay more attention. The hot guy said I need to stop texting. I said I didn't have a phone (the teacher was right by us but looking back on it he sat in the front and I sat in the back, I'm amazed he even knew what I was doing since I don't see him turning around much)

One day after class we were at our lockers and nobody was directly around us. He told me very candidly what he wanted to do with my mouth. I said only if its big and he assured me it was big. I challenged him to do it and he replied when no one is looking. Well I did what I did best and ran for the hills. (I'm a coward, But bear in mind he is super hot and I have the face of a dog's behind and I'm overweight) Another day he was sitting behind me and stretched giving me a good view of his stomach and happy trail. Third time I was caught. I turned around then turned back after a minute to see if he was looking at me. He was. He didn't say anything, just kept looking (I guess since other kids were around)

Well finals came and he was sitting across from me. End of the year energy made me kind of crazy and I actually looked at him and licked my lips. He mouthed something to this day I can not determine what it was. It could have been you're a fag, I wanna **** you or Find me on Facebook. ('I'm not good with lips) Last I ever interacted with him.

Well I need help in figuring this out. I'm pretty sure he had a girlfriend but he is known for doing gay things ( as in smacking/touching another guy's but). Do you think he was curious and wanted to experiment or was simply having fun with my attraction for him? I am not quite but pretty sure he heard that I was bisexual and I know he caught me staring at him like he was a doughnut with jelly on the inside (don't ask how I got that) If he did want a physical relationship, why would he choose me? He was incredibly attractive in my opinion and I need to put a brown paper bag over my head to hide my ugliness. Not to mention I am overweight, have braces, and am the kid that never grew out of a childhood stutter. He was popular and he knew lots of guys so surely one of his friends could satisfy his desires. If he couldn't find a friend there was an openly gay kid at school that he could have tried his luck with. Not to mention the fact that his girlfriend was probably attractive since he is too. So why would he want something other than that? If was serious why didn't he just come out and say what he wanted? As you can see this is driving me nuts and I would really like some opinions positive. Any positives and constructive feedback is more than welcome and greatly appreciated. Thank you .

 

[hotb0d]

First of all, Naruto's girlfriend has to be Hinata. She's the only one that actually like Naruto. Sakura is just a lovestuck whore with Sasuke. There! I'm done with my Naruto comment lol. Onto the main story.

I'm assuming you graduated? Do you still see this guy around the neighborhood or something? It sounded to me he's just horny and a big teaser. Unless we have ourselves a chubby chaser here. How comfortable are you with your sexuality? I mean if you're out and proud, might as well initiate something with this guy if he's REALLY interested in doing something with you.

 

[Kinsho]

hotb0d I completely and absolutely agree with you on your naruto statement.

Silverwolf, I think you should look into it. Try to get in contact with him again and see where it goes from there. If it is a hit and miss then chalk it up to experience and tell it as a story to some good friends. If it does go somewhere then all the better. I guess I am just saying go for it.

 

[hotb0d]

^^^^^Oh if that turns true. Sakura will castrate them both.

 

[Seasoned]

He was teasing and he likes the attention of anyone who thinks he's hot. I think you need to forget him except as a masturbatory fantasy.

It's time to work on you, specificly, self-esteem and body image. More on and start making gay friends. Good luck to you.

 

[rareboy]

Wow.

Why are long stories short never short.

You need to seriously work on your self image and self-esteem issues.

So the hot guy told you he'd let you blow him.

But he's not looking you up is he?

Stop wasting time with guys that fuck with your head and your feelings.

Get your head screwed on right about yourself. No one has the face of a dog. But here's my advice. Get your hair cut. Don't dress like a slob. Smile more. Eat less. Move more. Stop spending your life playing computer games. Get a bike. Get a manual labour job. Get out of the house.

 

[AlmondMilk]

Wow.

Why are long stories short never short.

You need to seriously work on your self image and self-esteem issues.

So the hot guy told you he'd let you blow him.

But he's not looking you up is he?

Stop wasting time with guys that fuck with your head and your feelings.

Get your head screwed on right about yourself. No one has the face of a dog. But here's my advice. Get your hair cut. Don't dress like a slob. Smile more. Eat less. Move more. Stop spending your life playing computer games. Get a bike. Get a manual labour job. Get out of the house.

I agree with him needing to stop wasting his time, but stop playing games and whatnot? lol...

It's fine you watch anime, just definitely find someone who will treat you better and not tease you as much. You'll definitely find guys who play these kinds of games, but it's best to learn when a guy's worth chasing and when he's out of reach. If you do happen to find him on facebook, then cool, if not, then let it go.

If he were interested, he should've made a move on you by now. If he is yet "shy", then it's his loss.

 

[KaraBulut]

I agree with him needing to stop wasting his time, but stop playing games and whatnot? lol...

Rareboy is certainly capable of speaking for himself but I think his point (and a point I agree with) is that we get a lot of young men who talk about how doughy and out-of-shape they are and how nobody wants them. And it turns out that they spend a lot of time in a chair, sedentary playing games.

There's nothing wrong with playing games but when it replaces exercise and face-to-face social interaction, then it's not healthy.

If OP were to commit 1/2 the time that he spends with games into a workout program and taking care of himself, he wouldn't be saying "I have the face of a dog's behind and I'm overweight"- something that no one should ever say about anyone- much less say it about themselves.

 

[chillyboi]

i was a lil more distracted by the underclassmen, my classmates were all jerks

 

[billybob109]

In my opinion which no one ever listens, he could be the closeted gay type and yes of course he is going to fuck with yuor head all guys do it especially ones who do not want to come out of the closet. And maybe you are his type? My friend at work is ultraaa hot and has a huge cock but he has the worst taste in women ever he likes really big women and most of the time they are not pretty to the ones he points out, and when i say that guy is hot he disagrees so i mean it is what it is. I would contact that sexy ass on facebook or myspace and try to get into that mouth asap!

 

[SilverWolf]

Hi Everyone

Thank you for your advice and opinions. I did decide to contact him on Facebook. (I wouldn't normally do this but I am so desperate and he was so hot) Well after more than a year has passed he didnt know what I was talking about. Deleted my Facebook after that. So I guess I will go back to staring at his picture and jerking myself hourly. Oh and thank you for your opinions on Naruto's girlfriend. I thought I was the only bisexual/gay person who liked anime. I agree he should end up with Hinata but secretly wish it was Sasuke. By the way does anybody actually read the manga or just watch anime episodes online?

 

[bounder]

Didn't know what you were talking about? What did you say to him? I hope you didn't talk about anything you thought you were perceiving a YEAR ago. If anything, you should have just asked him if he wanted to hang out.

 

[SilverWolf]

Didn't know what you were talking about? What did you say to him? I hope you didn't talk about anything you thought you were perceiving a YEAR ago. If anything, you should have just asked him if he wanted to hang out.

I guess my message was a little vague but it was like 5 in the morning and I was driving myself insane and was extremely frustrated/horny over this. I basically asked him if he was serious. I wanted to say more but was too scared too do so. I should have known he would not remember any of this. I really should have asked him if he wanted to hang out and see where it went from there. Well I am off to stare at his picture some more.

 

[rareboy]

Well I am off to stare at his picture some more.

Oh for the love of God. Get over it.

I think that you actually are using him as an excuse to avoid investing the time and effort into meeting other guys. As long as you're mooning over him and the love that will never be, you can just live in a comic book fantasy world and never have to live in the real world.

That would be sad and not just a little creepy.

It is possible that your hot guy thinks you are immature and superficial. Work on this. Spend your time focusing on the adult you want to be instead of the child you want to be.

There's a good chance that you are a swan and not an ugly duckling.

 

[SilverWolf]

Oh for the love of God. Get over it.

I think that you actually are using him as an excuse to avoid investing the time and effort into meeting other guys. As long as you're mooning over him and the love that will never be, you can just live in a comic book fantasy world and never have to live in the real world.

That would be sad and not just a little creepy.

It is possible that your hot guy thinks you are immature and superficial. Work on this. Spend your time focusing on the adult you want to be instead of the child you want to be.

There's a good chance that you are a swan and not an ugly duckling.

Jeez that was kinda harsh. If you've seen my face you wouldn't tell me to get over him so soon. He could have been the best thing to happen to me and if I "get over" him" then I lose all hope of anyone ever finding me attractive. I admit its pathetic to still be obsessed over him but the minute I "get over" him, is the minute nobody finds me attractive real or imagined. So I will happily stay in my comic book fantasy land with my fantasies of him than live in the real world and face constant rejection.

 

[D_Pipa]

Oh please! Everyone knows that Sasuke is the only girlfriend/boyfriend for Naruto.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9Af4wrIoAk

was going to say that

 

[hotb0d]

^^^lol Nice Ippo!!

Silverwolf...I have to agree with them on this. It's safer to live in anime and manga but you can't do that forever. I should know, I was there. Real life isn't as action packed or interesting like manga/anime but it's real. You have to face it sooner or later, might as well do it now. Don't say you're ugly, I'm 100% sure that you have AT LEAST 1 good thing about you that will make other people go crazy.