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Hi, newly registered, but I've been a lurker for awhile, finally have something worth while to post about. I hope you like it.
So heres my story, I'm 23, mostly closeted gay man, who's still basically a virgin to the man sex. Haven't had any good relationships in the past, introverted, shy, but good looking...my romantic life is pretty dry at the moment.
I've had my fair share of admirers/admirees in the past, but none were ever mutual, until now(at least I think) So this brings me to C, mid 30's, recently divorced(a least 4 years), very short, shaved head, muscular, great ass, a total man's man, (we're total opposites physically/mentally) I also know he has not had a steady GF since his divorce, must have been rough. I met him a year ago at the restaurant I worked at. He became good friends with the owners(who are also in-laws of mine), by conducting business with them and would stop in frequently to eat, considering he only worked down the street. Now we definitely did not just hit it off, his manliness intimidated me and I could tell he sensed my reservedness when he came around ( that and I thought he was HOT)
So one night, last summer, some co-workers and I were out at the club, which is only down the street from where we work. We run in to C, who's had a few already and really exhibiting his wild side. We exchange a few glances but never say anything even though he engages with my co-workers. Later in the night, I'm talking to a friend and the out of no where "WHAM" I feel someone smack my ass, hard!
I turn around and there is C with a serious look on his face, saying "well what are you gonna do about" mockingly, trying to start a fight, I just smile, and my co-workers are laughing, but are just as confused as me. He goes one to say "a guy just smacked your ass!! don't tell me your just gonna stand there, stick up for yourself!" I smile and just brush it off, and two seconds later he smacks my ass again. It's definitely NOT in my nature to randomly rough house with another man, but considering he was a wrestler throughout high school, it may not be very unusual for him to be physical with another man, but one he barley knows? he's drunk but must have some sense.
Later in the night, he sits down next to me and starts telling me how he's a "freak" and loves "the sex". He points out to a girl he had 3some with with (MFF) But I'm still very uncomfortable and I don't know what to say, I just kind of smile and nod...he then says how I'm too shy and that he "gonna take me out one night and show me a good time" and release my "wild side"... I sense a change in his tone now, and he looks at me and says "I'm serious, we're gonna go out and have a good time" I just smile and say...ok...not taking him seriously... hes just drunk. He also brought up how I must have big dick, because I'm so tall, and probably have a good time with ladies...har har...
Now, most of my co-workers are teasing me and are in disbelief about C's actions. They don't know I'm gay and neither does "C" so were all just kind of laugh and joke about it.
I don't see him for a few weeks and finally, he comes in to my work. AWKWARD! he's very quiet and we could barely hello. finally a co-work breaks the ice and brings up the incident from the other night, he blushes, puts on his "serious" face and says that it was ME smacking HIS ass and that I should really try too control myself in public. we start laughing, but it's still very awkward for all of us.
Ok, so summer goes by and I run into him a few more times, we're still very quiet, but every so often he mentions how we still need to go out and "have a good time" "I'm serious" he always says, I'm just like "ok buddy" "sure"... still not taking him seriously and somewhat confused...I can start to sense his frustration and will often catch him looking at me from across the room. He's obviously taking the dominate roll here, but still won't engage in other conversation with me...
So, summer ends, C and I never make "our date". and I'm off to the big city once again to finish up school. I'm some what regretting not taking it further with him and fantasize about the possibility of hooking up with him. Then it really starts to hit me, he may be just what I need, someone older, more aggressive, with more experience. F*ck, I blew it. But I reassure myself by saying he's straight and his intentions are to truly just bring me out of my shell. But why his he so concerned with my reservedness? He still has no idea who I am, what I do, nothing! Why would he be exhibiting such an emotion? other than the fact that he may be physically attracted to me... and is conflicted by it.
So April comes around and I make it back to the restaurant where I worked last summer to catch up with my former co-workers/family. I sit at the bar and about 25 min later C strolls in with his father for some dinner. They sit at a table with-in sight, we exchange a few glances during our dinner. I get kinda of anxious and hope he comes over to at least say hi. He's about to leave and a co-work points out to him that I'm sitting at the bar. (saved) He comes over to me looking more nervous that usual, asks me where I've been all these months, I tell him I've moved to a bigger city, and he says "well we still need to go out, get tanked-up (drunk) and have a good time" he's blushing and can barley look me in the eyes. I feel he worked himself up to say this. I say yeah we should, but thats it, he walks away and leaves with his father... bummer, still can't get a number or anything. But at least he remembers me...
I'm thinking of him a lot more now, I want to take him up on his offer, but it's so hard for us. I have a feeling he's got some fears about what people would think if they saw us exchange numbers, we're in a fairly conservative town...i'm closeted and he's conflicted, it's obvious now. And it doesn't help that if my family found out that we "hooked up" it would either screw up his relationship with the owners (in which he does business with) or screw up my relationship with my family.
So now this brings me to last night, I'm in town again and make my way to the restaurant with my cousin(who's a girl) to eat and hang with my old friends. I'm really hoping I see him again and this time I will make every effort to at least give him my business card. Low and behold, guess who strolls in...it's not uncommon for him to show up on a sat night, its always the first place he stops by to grab a few drinks before heading out into town with his buds to hunt down some "pussy" or whatever he wants. He's already drunk from the wedding he attended earlier, but still cohesive, he sees me and we shake hands and pat backs. Ask me where I've been, and why he never sees me anoymore, I think "hello???, I told you I moved, have you forgotten?" He goes over and chats with the owners and other workers, I glance over a few times and we catch eyes.
I get up and walk over to him like I'm going to the bathroom, and as i'm approching him, he blocks my path, puts up his fists and starts punching me lightly in the chest, "oh this is fun" I think, I play back a little, but it's really not in my nature to play around like this so I just laugh and brush it off. Then one of the first thing he asks me if that was my girl friend I was with, I laugh and tell him it's my cousin. hmmm... After using the rest room, I sit back down. He comes over with the owners, they're just about winding up the night and sit next to me at the bar, as soon as he passes me he heavily pats my shoulders and tells me how I should get more phiscal and rough with people. I'm like "sorry, but thats not how I roll" he's like "I know your problem, your just too shy, we gotta get you out and have some fun...blah blah blah" Hes a lot more physical with me now and taps my ribs, making me jump. Before he leaves he shakes my hand again and asks when he's gonna see me again...I tell him I'm unsure and that I have to leave town again in a few days, he brings up, again, that we have to go out sometime (obviously not now because I was with my cousin) and have a "good-time". But alas, too many people are around and nothing amounts to anything. shit shit shit.
I just want his number, I would call him in a second, and tell him to be honest with me, I'm sick of this, It's hard for me to sleep at night knowing how close I am finding once and for all why I'm reciving all this special attention from him. And trust me it's "special" my former co-workers are almost sure something is up. One even stated that I should go out with him, i'm not sure if he was joking or not, but I'm like yeah, at least someone would buy me some drinks.
Well, kudos to you if you made this far in my post. It's fairly complicated in its simplicity , and I assure you I will get his number even if I have to call his work for it, I don't care if it's stalking, I'll tell him I got it from some one else. But I'm unsure of what to say, should I tell him to be honest, and ask him why all the special attention?, or should I be casual and tell him I want to take him up on his offer and "have a good-time"? not looking for much feedback here, but it feels good/makes more sense having now written it out.
-Cheers
So heres my story, I'm 23, mostly closeted gay man, who's still basically a virgin to the man sex. Haven't had any good relationships in the past, introverted, shy, but good looking...my romantic life is pretty dry at the moment.
I've had my fair share of admirers/admirees in the past, but none were ever mutual, until now(at least I think) So this brings me to C, mid 30's, recently divorced(a least 4 years), very short, shaved head, muscular, great ass, a total man's man, (we're total opposites physically/mentally) I also know he has not had a steady GF since his divorce, must have been rough. I met him a year ago at the restaurant I worked at. He became good friends with the owners(who are also in-laws of mine), by conducting business with them and would stop in frequently to eat, considering he only worked down the street. Now we definitely did not just hit it off, his manliness intimidated me and I could tell he sensed my reservedness when he came around ( that and I thought he was HOT)
So one night, last summer, some co-workers and I were out at the club, which is only down the street from where we work. We run in to C, who's had a few already and really exhibiting his wild side. We exchange a few glances but never say anything even though he engages with my co-workers. Later in the night, I'm talking to a friend and the out of no where "WHAM" I feel someone smack my ass, hard!
I turn around and there is C with a serious look on his face, saying "well what are you gonna do about" mockingly, trying to start a fight, I just smile, and my co-workers are laughing, but are just as confused as me. He goes one to say "a guy just smacked your ass!! don't tell me your just gonna stand there, stick up for yourself!" I smile and just brush it off, and two seconds later he smacks my ass again. It's definitely NOT in my nature to randomly rough house with another man, but considering he was a wrestler throughout high school, it may not be very unusual for him to be physical with another man, but one he barley knows? he's drunk but must have some sense.Later in the night, he sits down next to me and starts telling me how he's a "freak" and loves "the sex". He points out to a girl he had 3some with with (MFF) But I'm still very uncomfortable and I don't know what to say, I just kind of smile and nod...he then says how I'm too shy and that he "gonna take me out one night and show me a good time" and release my "wild side"... I sense a change in his tone now, and he looks at me and says "I'm serious, we're gonna go out and have a good time" I just smile and say...ok...not taking him seriously... hes just drunk. He also brought up how I must have big dick, because I'm so tall, and probably have a good time with ladies...har har...
Now, most of my co-workers are teasing me and are in disbelief about C's actions. They don't know I'm gay and neither does "C" so were all just kind of laugh and joke about it.
I don't see him for a few weeks and finally, he comes in to my work. AWKWARD! he's very quiet and we could barely hello. finally a co-work breaks the ice and brings up the incident from the other night, he blushes, puts on his "serious" face and says that it was ME smacking HIS ass and that I should really try too control myself in public. we start laughing, but it's still very awkward for all of us.
Ok, so summer goes by and I run into him a few more times, we're still very quiet, but every so often he mentions how we still need to go out and "have a good time" "I'm serious" he always says, I'm just like "ok buddy" "sure"... still not taking him seriously and somewhat confused...I can start to sense his frustration and will often catch him looking at me from across the room. He's obviously taking the dominate roll here, but still won't engage in other conversation with me...
So, summer ends, C and I never make "our date". and I'm off to the big city once again to finish up school. I'm some what regretting not taking it further with him and fantasize about the possibility of hooking up with him. Then it really starts to hit me, he may be just what I need, someone older, more aggressive, with more experience. F*ck, I blew it. But I reassure myself by saying he's straight and his intentions are to truly just bring me out of my shell. But why his he so concerned with my reservedness? He still has no idea who I am, what I do, nothing! Why would he be exhibiting such an emotion? other than the fact that he may be physically attracted to me... and is conflicted by it.
So April comes around and I make it back to the restaurant where I worked last summer to catch up with my former co-workers/family. I sit at the bar and about 25 min later C strolls in with his father for some dinner. They sit at a table with-in sight, we exchange a few glances during our dinner. I get kinda of anxious and hope he comes over to at least say hi. He's about to leave and a co-work points out to him that I'm sitting at the bar. (saved) He comes over to me looking more nervous that usual, asks me where I've been all these months, I tell him I've moved to a bigger city, and he says "well we still need to go out, get tanked-up (drunk) and have a good time" he's blushing and can barley look me in the eyes. I feel he worked himself up to say this. I say yeah we should, but thats it, he walks away and leaves with his father... bummer, still can't get a number or anything. But at least he remembers me...
I'm thinking of him a lot more now, I want to take him up on his offer, but it's so hard for us. I have a feeling he's got some fears about what people would think if they saw us exchange numbers, we're in a fairly conservative town...i'm closeted and he's conflicted, it's obvious now. And it doesn't help that if my family found out that we "hooked up" it would either screw up his relationship with the owners (in which he does business with) or screw up my relationship with my family.
So now this brings me to last night, I'm in town again and make my way to the restaurant with my cousin(who's a girl) to eat and hang with my old friends. I'm really hoping I see him again and this time I will make every effort to at least give him my business card. Low and behold, guess who strolls in...it's not uncommon for him to show up on a sat night, its always the first place he stops by to grab a few drinks before heading out into town with his buds to hunt down some "pussy" or whatever he wants. He's already drunk from the wedding he attended earlier, but still cohesive, he sees me and we shake hands and pat backs. Ask me where I've been, and why he never sees me anoymore, I think "hello???, I told you I moved, have you forgotten?" He goes over and chats with the owners and other workers, I glance over a few times and we catch eyes.
I get up and walk over to him like I'm going to the bathroom, and as i'm approching him, he blocks my path, puts up his fists and starts punching me lightly in the chest, "oh this is fun" I think, I play back a little, but it's really not in my nature to play around like this so I just laugh and brush it off. Then one of the first thing he asks me if that was my girl friend I was with, I laugh and tell him it's my cousin. hmmm... After using the rest room, I sit back down. He comes over with the owners, they're just about winding up the night and sit next to me at the bar, as soon as he passes me he heavily pats my shoulders and tells me how I should get more phiscal and rough with people. I'm like "sorry, but thats not how I roll" he's like "I know your problem, your just too shy, we gotta get you out and have some fun...blah blah blah" Hes a lot more physical with me now and taps my ribs, making me jump. Before he leaves he shakes my hand again and asks when he's gonna see me again...I tell him I'm unsure and that I have to leave town again in a few days, he brings up, again, that we have to go out sometime (obviously not now because I was with my cousin) and have a "good-time". But alas, too many people are around and nothing amounts to anything. shit shit shit.
I just want his number, I would call him in a second, and tell him to be honest with me, I'm sick of this, It's hard for me to sleep at night knowing how close I am finding once and for all why I'm reciving all this special attention from him. And trust me it's "special" my former co-workers are almost sure something is up. One even stated that I should go out with him, i'm not sure if he was joking or not, but I'm like yeah, at least someone would buy me some drinks.
Well, kudos to you if you made this far in my post. It's fairly complicated in its simplicity , and I assure you I will get his number even if I have to call his work for it, I don't care if it's stalking, I'll tell him I got it from some one else. But I'm unsure of what to say, should I tell him to be honest, and ask him why all the special attention?, or should I be casual and tell him I want to take him up on his offer and "have a good-time"? not looking for much feedback here, but it feels good/makes more sense having now written it out.
-Cheers
