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Last time I went to Palm Springs Pride was probably several years ago probably back in 2008 I suppose. It was fun back then but there was something about it this year that made me just go hmmm...
It felt very unwelcoming this year, probably it's just because of the recent vibes I've been getting lately with gay people. The feeling of feeling like an outsider, feeling that I'm not apart of this community at all. Probably why I avoided Gay Days at Disneyland. It seems each other it gets worse and worse.
I'm not an expert as these sort of things. I will never understand and probably not expecting someone to explain it to me in layman's terms about these things that occur.
I could just make out what I know, I know that due to not being apart of the bar scene I am not apart of the big boys who populate that area. So that pretty much cuts me off from enjoying gay life since it's all about the bar scene. Well I suppose there are other things to do with gay people right?
I'm not a big drinker, I don't consume large amounts of alcohol so since I don't drink I am already crossing out a large group of gay men who enjoy casual drinking. So alcohol and bar scene scratches off a large amount of gay men since most enjoy drinking.
I suppose there are the sex resorts right? Maybe might enjoy those. Since I'm partnered and in a monogamous relationship going to those gay resorts are not very enjoyable or even worth going to unless you're planning to have sex with other men there. So...that scratches off the gay resorts. What else is there to do then. Well...I can...just enjoy Pride?
That's pretty much what Palm Springs Pride was, sitting around and looking at the booths. Most of the people at the booths were very unfriendly and some wanted your money. I do have to say that the highlight of the day was sitting there waiting for Ce Ce Peniston to come out on stage. I took good pictures of that but then when me and Tony went back to the motel it felt like there was nothing else to do. We spent most of the night just watching TV. Been trying to figure out what else there was to do, to be honest. There was NOTHING to do in Palm Springs, without it containing sex, alcohol, or bars. I know that many of you said "Well you have to have sex in order to make friends, you need to drink alcohol in order to talk to other gay friends, you need to go to the bars to talk to other guys there" but why should I have to do those things if they don't interest me? So does that mean in order to make gay friends you have to have something in common with those three things?
I know the Internet has been an easy place to find other gay people because you're not exactly seeing their picture and you have to write to through these gay sites but, do they really want friends or people to have sex with? I sometimes feel that it's close to impossible to make gay friends... People who say it's the easiest thing to do, but what exactly are you offering them? or is it because you are into drinking or having sex, or maybe other things.
I went to Pride and seen some of the most coldest gay men in the world, so cold it felt like I was in New York during Winter time. They were very shallow and some what stuck up. But when you're a determined person to sit there for 4 hours to wait for Ce Ce Peniston you will do ANYTHING including just sitting there and hearing people bitch and complain that they couldn't fuck this guy or have sex with that guy.
Probably anybody reading this might even think I'm a stuck up asshole who should drink or go fuck a few guys and get rid of my boyfriend. Sometimes I don't even feel like I belong in this gay community cause it just seems pretty fucking depressing. I mean where are the people who want to make friends? Where are the guys who will be your friend who don't give a shit what you look like, what you drive, or how much money you have in your bank account? Perhaps in other states... That totally sucks...
I don't think I'll do another Palm Springs Pride, every time I go to a Pride it is just one more disappointment after another. I think I'm officially done with Pride events. They are no fun unless you know people there. I didn't exactly know hardly anyone, and the person I was suppose to be meeting there had other plans so it just sucks... No it really fucking sucks! Yeah I am understanding that you can't actually make gay friends unless you are fucking somebody, that I need to just shut up and stop complaining and go fuck someone. But is that what there is to do is just go around fucking other guys, and drinking larges amount of alcohol?
Last time I went to Palm Springs Pride was probably several years ago probably back in 2008 I suppose. It was fun back then but there was something about it this year that made me just go hmmm...
It felt very unwelcoming this year, probably it's just because of the recent vibes I've been getting lately with gay people. The feeling of feeling like an outsider, feeling that I'm not apart of this community at all. Probably why I avoided Gay Days at Disneyland. It seems each other it gets worse and worse.
I'm not an expert as these sort of things. I will never understand and probably not expecting someone to explain it to me in layman's terms about these things that occur.
I could just make out what I know, I know that due to not being apart of the bar scene I am not apart of the big boys who populate that area. So that pretty much cuts me off from enjoying gay life since it's all about the bar scene. Well I suppose there are other things to do with gay people right?
I'm not a big drinker, I don't consume large amounts of alcohol so since I don't drink I am already crossing out a large group of gay men who enjoy casual drinking. So alcohol and bar scene scratches off a large amount of gay men since most enjoy drinking.
I suppose there are the sex resorts right? Maybe might enjoy those. Since I'm partnered and in a monogamous relationship going to those gay resorts are not very enjoyable or even worth going to unless you're planning to have sex with other men there. So...that scratches off the gay resorts. What else is there to do then. Well...I can...just enjoy Pride?
That's pretty much what Palm Springs Pride was, sitting around and looking at the booths. Most of the people at the booths were very unfriendly and some wanted your money. I do have to say that the highlight of the day was sitting there waiting for Ce Ce Peniston to come out on stage. I took good pictures of that but then when me and Tony went back to the motel it felt like there was nothing else to do. We spent most of the night just watching TV. Been trying to figure out what else there was to do, to be honest. There was NOTHING to do in Palm Springs, without it containing sex, alcohol, or bars. I know that many of you said "Well you have to have sex in order to make friends, you need to drink alcohol in order to talk to other gay friends, you need to go to the bars to talk to other guys there" but why should I have to do those things if they don't interest me? So does that mean in order to make gay friends you have to have something in common with those three things?
I know the Internet has been an easy place to find other gay people because you're not exactly seeing their picture and you have to write to through these gay sites but, do they really want friends or people to have sex with? I sometimes feel that it's close to impossible to make gay friends... People who say it's the easiest thing to do, but what exactly are you offering them? or is it because you are into drinking or having sex, or maybe other things.
I went to Pride and seen some of the most coldest gay men in the world, so cold it felt like I was in New York during Winter time. They were very shallow and some what stuck up. But when you're a determined person to sit there for 4 hours to wait for Ce Ce Peniston you will do ANYTHING including just sitting there and hearing people bitch and complain that they couldn't fuck this guy or have sex with that guy.
Probably anybody reading this might even think I'm a stuck up asshole who should drink or go fuck a few guys and get rid of my boyfriend. Sometimes I don't even feel like I belong in this gay community cause it just seems pretty fucking depressing. I mean where are the people who want to make friends? Where are the guys who will be your friend who don't give a shit what you look like, what you drive, or how much money you have in your bank account? Perhaps in other states... That totally sucks...
I don't think I'll do another Palm Springs Pride, every time I go to a Pride it is just one more disappointment after another. I think I'm officially done with Pride events. They are no fun unless you know people there. I didn't exactly know hardly anyone, and the person I was suppose to be meeting there had other plans so it just sucks... No it really fucking sucks! Yeah I am understanding that you can't actually make gay friends unless you are fucking somebody, that I need to just shut up and stop complaining and go fuck someone. But is that what there is to do is just go around fucking other guys, and drinking larges amount of alcohol?