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Passenger Seat
- Thread starter -Hectic-
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Putting some finishing touches on a new chapter. Promise to have it out soon. But in the meantime I thought I'd share some music that helps me write, or at least puts me in the mood to write. 'Cause when I re-read my chapters a lot of these songs are playing in my head, kinda helps set the mood, so maybe you guys will have it playing while you read too 
(it at least helps with the more romantic moments)
"Emancipator - Nevergreen"
"Nujabes - Reflection Eternal"
"Mt. Eden ft Ruby Frost - Oh That I Had"
(it at least helps with the more romantic moments)"Emancipator - Nevergreen"
"Nujabes - Reflection Eternal"
"Mt. Eden ft Ruby Frost - Oh That I Had"
Chapter 5
The morning sun kissed my eyes and warmed my cheeks as it peered through the window to my right. I cracked my eyes open and was reminded of my magical dreams from within this deep auburn room. I tried to reach over to fix the curtain so the glowing sun would let me go back to sleep. As I reached I felt a warm, soft and soothing weight on my left arm. A shallow whimper escaped the angel who now rolled over onto my arm facing me. The sunlight that once blinded me was now caressing his soft cheek. His shirtless body pressed against mine as he put one arm over me. I laid back down next to him and looked at his closed eyes as they lightly flutter from the sunlight now poking at them. I watched as his chest slowly rose and fell. The intricately detailed heart turned into a lock tattoo delicately placed over his heart, came closer and drifted away with each slow falling breathe.
"Didn't anyone ever tell you Don't Stare?" he asked as he smiled.
"It's hard to look away from something so beautiful." I said.
"Wow, really?..That was pretty cheesy." He said as he leaned up to kiss me.
"Lucky for me that sort of thing works on you." I said as I came down to meet him.
Our lips lightly began to graze one another as I placed my hand on the side of his head, rubbing my thumb against his ear. Our lips slowly opening to allow one another's tongue to perfectly fit. Just as they did, his door opened.
"Hey Mad, do you still have my..Oooh." said Zoey.
Madison slowly opened his eyes at me and fell back onto his pillow and sighed, then rolled his gaze to her. "Do I still have what?" he said.
"Is it weird that this is kinda hot?" she said.
"Weird that you think its hot, yea kinda weird." he replied.
"Can I get in there?" she asked.
"Zoe.." he said as he pointed to the door.
"Alright alright, calm down, just fuckin' with you. Or has that already been happening in here?" she laughed as she closed the door behind her.
We laid there for a moment just smiling at each other, thinking of how the moment was recently ruined.
"Shit, what time is it?" I asked as I stumbled to get up.
"It's nine fifteen. why?" He replied as he placed his phone back on the nightstand.
"Practice starts in a little bit." I said.
"It's Sunday." He retorted.
"Yea, with the weather, it was cancelled yesterday and pushed back to today." I stated as I stood up looking for my pants.
"The boxer brief look is working for you." he said as he sat up looking at me.
"Didn't anyone ever tell you Don't Stare?" I said as I leaned over the bed to kiss him.
He rolled his eyes and pressed his lips against mine. He placed a hand on my chest as I let my hand slide across his shoulder.
"No, no no. I know what you're doing." I said as I pulled away.
"What? I'm just kissing the guy I like." he said with a smile.
"No, you're trying to make me late so that I just stay here with you." I said as I pulled my pants out from underneath the bed.
"Am I that easy?" he asked with a smirk.
"Do you really want me to answer that?" I said with a huge smile.
"Fuck you." he said with laughter.
"Not till you're old enough." I said smiling while pulling my pants up.
"Ohh, funny. You're only older by a year." he said while throwing a pillow at me.
"Where is my phone?" I asked as I rummaged through the bed sheets, then under the bed, and finally checking my backpack.
"Find it?" he asked.
"No." I said as I continued to look for it. Checking everywhere, even in my shirt that was on the floor. Finally I let out a sigh and sat on the edge of the bed. Madison's arms wrapped around my upper body and he kissed my cheek.
"Older, but not nearly as crafty." he said as he raised his right arm and held out my phone infront of me.
I kissed his arm and took my phone.
"Maybe I'll come by and see what all the hooplaw is about this thing called Baseball." he said while letting go of me and laying down next to my lap.
I smiled and said "You just want to see all the boys in tight pants."
"Well duh, did you think I was going for you?" he said while standing up and stretching.
"Alright, I gotta get out of here." I said while slipping on my shirt and grabbing my bag, swinging it over one arm.
He kissed my cheek and smacked my butt. "Go get 'em."
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The sun was gleaming down through the clouds, leaving small blinding openings of light on the track as the team ran laps. Thoughts of Madison filled my mind while I jogged next to Nathan. He was certainly shorter and smaller than my body type, but whenever he had his arms around me, I felt like he was protecting me from something. I wonder if he felt the same way when I hug him.
"So you two had sex?" asked Nathan.
"What? Where did that come from?" I asked.
"Nowhere. Zoey told me about finding you two in bed." He said.
"No." I stated.
"It's okay, you can tell me. I mean, you already know that I don't care you're into dudes." he blurted.
"We didn't." I said mildly aggravated.
"Alright, whatever you say." he said.
I stopped jogging and Nathan stopped ahead of me and looked back.
"What?" he asked.
"We didn't. We came close to it, but he said no. Said he wanted it to be something special, not just some random day thing." I said.
"Seriously?" he asked.
I nodded.
"Well, that's actually pretty awesome." he said.
I began to jog again before we got yelled at.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Well, I just mean that, like, him saying that, means he doesn't just see you as some random guy right? He's not some heartless douche ya know? 'Cause to be honest, I was kinda worried he might be. Just from what people are saying." he said.
"What are people saying?"I asked.
"Lily was just telling me how he use to do things." he answered.
"The hell does that mean? What kind of things?" I blurted.
"Well it's all hearsay, but....."
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The morning sun kissed my eyes and warmed my cheeks as it peered through the window to my right. I cracked my eyes open and was reminded of my magical dreams from within this deep auburn room. I tried to reach over to fix the curtain so the glowing sun would let me go back to sleep. As I reached I felt a warm, soft and soothing weight on my left arm. A shallow whimper escaped the angel who now rolled over onto my arm facing me. The sunlight that once blinded me was now caressing his soft cheek. His shirtless body pressed against mine as he put one arm over me. I laid back down next to him and looked at his closed eyes as they lightly flutter from the sunlight now poking at them. I watched as his chest slowly rose and fell. The intricately detailed heart turned into a lock tattoo delicately placed over his heart, came closer and drifted away with each slow falling breathe.
"Didn't anyone ever tell you Don't Stare?" he asked as he smiled.
"It's hard to look away from something so beautiful." I said.
"Wow, really?..That was pretty cheesy." He said as he leaned up to kiss me.
"Lucky for me that sort of thing works on you." I said as I came down to meet him.
Our lips lightly began to graze one another as I placed my hand on the side of his head, rubbing my thumb against his ear. Our lips slowly opening to allow one another's tongue to perfectly fit. Just as they did, his door opened.
"Hey Mad, do you still have my..Oooh." said Zoey.
Madison slowly opened his eyes at me and fell back onto his pillow and sighed, then rolled his gaze to her. "Do I still have what?" he said.
"Is it weird that this is kinda hot?" she said.
"Weird that you think its hot, yea kinda weird." he replied.
"Can I get in there?" she asked.
"Zoe.." he said as he pointed to the door.
"Alright alright, calm down, just fuckin' with you. Or has that already been happening in here?" she laughed as she closed the door behind her.
We laid there for a moment just smiling at each other, thinking of how the moment was recently ruined.
"Shit, what time is it?" I asked as I stumbled to get up.
"It's nine fifteen. why?" He replied as he placed his phone back on the nightstand.
"Practice starts in a little bit." I said.
"It's Sunday." He retorted.
"Yea, with the weather, it was cancelled yesterday and pushed back to today." I stated as I stood up looking for my pants.
"The boxer brief look is working for you." he said as he sat up looking at me.
"Didn't anyone ever tell you Don't Stare?" I said as I leaned over the bed to kiss him.
He rolled his eyes and pressed his lips against mine. He placed a hand on my chest as I let my hand slide across his shoulder.
"No, no no. I know what you're doing." I said as I pulled away.
"What? I'm just kissing the guy I like." he said with a smile.
"No, you're trying to make me late so that I just stay here with you." I said as I pulled my pants out from underneath the bed.
"Am I that easy?" he asked with a smirk.
"Do you really want me to answer that?" I said with a huge smile.
"Fuck you." he said with laughter.
"Not till you're old enough." I said smiling while pulling my pants up.
"Ohh, funny. You're only older by a year." he said while throwing a pillow at me.
"Where is my phone?" I asked as I rummaged through the bed sheets, then under the bed, and finally checking my backpack.
"Find it?" he asked.
"No." I said as I continued to look for it. Checking everywhere, even in my shirt that was on the floor. Finally I let out a sigh and sat on the edge of the bed. Madison's arms wrapped around my upper body and he kissed my cheek.
"Older, but not nearly as crafty." he said as he raised his right arm and held out my phone infront of me.
I kissed his arm and took my phone.
"Maybe I'll come by and see what all the hooplaw is about this thing called Baseball." he said while letting go of me and laying down next to my lap.
I smiled and said "You just want to see all the boys in tight pants."
"Well duh, did you think I was going for you?" he said while standing up and stretching.
"Alright, I gotta get out of here." I said while slipping on my shirt and grabbing my bag, swinging it over one arm.
He kissed my cheek and smacked my butt. "Go get 'em."
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The sun was gleaming down through the clouds, leaving small blinding openings of light on the track as the team ran laps. Thoughts of Madison filled my mind while I jogged next to Nathan. He was certainly shorter and smaller than my body type, but whenever he had his arms around me, I felt like he was protecting me from something. I wonder if he felt the same way when I hug him.
"So you two had sex?" asked Nathan.
"What? Where did that come from?" I asked.
"Nowhere. Zoey told me about finding you two in bed." He said.
"No." I stated.
"It's okay, you can tell me. I mean, you already know that I don't care you're into dudes." he blurted.
"We didn't." I said mildly aggravated.
"Alright, whatever you say." he said.
I stopped jogging and Nathan stopped ahead of me and looked back.
"What?" he asked.
"We didn't. We came close to it, but he said no. Said he wanted it to be something special, not just some random day thing." I said.
"Seriously?" he asked.
I nodded.
"Well, that's actually pretty awesome." he said.
I began to jog again before we got yelled at.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Well, I just mean that, like, him saying that, means he doesn't just see you as some random guy right? He's not some heartless douche ya know? 'Cause to be honest, I was kinda worried he might be. Just from what people are saying." he said.
"What are people saying?"I asked.
"Lily was just telling me how he use to do things." he answered.
"The hell does that mean? What kind of things?" I blurted.
"Well it's all hearsay, but....."
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I love this story.
and the first kiss was awesome.. they look cute as a couple can't wait for more 
musicalgenius14
On the Prowl
Love this story! Keep up the amazing work, and thanks for the new music ;-)
Craiger
JUB Addict
Oh no! Not the "but" thingy...... Here we go with another teasing cliffhanger. Again though, it makes my mind run crazy. All the things that could be hearsay and can't be too flattering or we wouldn't have the cliffhanger...lol That was one romantic session, Hectic, particularly since they both had restraint and are waiting for the "special time." Zoe really does like to gossip and it's fortunate that it's to Nathan.
Craiger
Craiger
Glad you guys like it and are wanting more. I hopefully won't be leaving you guys with that cliffhanger for too long. I'll do my best to get another chapter out quickly.
And to MusicalGenius14, glad you like the music. There's a lot more I listen to when writing, but it's really dependent on what I'm trying to write about. Lately, the song
"Borne on the FM waves of the heart" by "Against Me!" seems to really describe their relationship, to a degree. So that's been playing on loop while I write as of late. But, Against Me! 's music is just generally how I see Madison. But then again, music is just a huge influence in everything I do so I guess that's why.
To LilVirgin, it's awesome that you think their first kiss was awesome. Spent a few hours deleting and rewriting it. Glad you liked the final product.
And to MusicalGenius14, glad you like the music. There's a lot more I listen to when writing, but it's really dependent on what I'm trying to write about. Lately, the song
"Borne on the FM waves of the heart" by "Against Me!" seems to really describe their relationship, to a degree. So that's been playing on loop while I write as of late. But, Against Me! 's music is just generally how I see Madison. But then again, music is just a huge influence in everything I do so I guess that's why.
To LilVirgin, it's awesome that you think their first kiss was awesome
. Spent a few hours deleting and rewriting it. Glad you liked the final product.Hey guys, really sorry I havn't posted a new chapter right away. But theres been a lot going on.
My Grandmother (relative in hospital) is doing great. She's getting better. Most of my time has been spent going to see her in her rehab clinic. But as luck would have it my boyfriend and I broke up so there's certainly been a rollercoaster of emotions lately. I have been writing some stuff for the new chapter but it's really hard to find the right mindset to come up with loving emotions lately. I'll try to muster up something for you guys to read, can't guarantee it'll be up to your standards from what i've written before but it'll be something.
My Grandmother (relative in hospital) is doing great. She's getting better. Most of my time has been spent going to see her in her rehab clinic. But as luck would have it my boyfriend and I broke up so there's certainly been a rollercoaster of emotions lately. I have been writing some stuff for the new chapter but it's really hard to find the right mindset to come up with loving emotions lately. I'll try to muster up something for you guys to read, can't guarantee it'll be up to your standards from what i've written before but it'll be something.
Craiger
JUB Addict
Hey Hectic,
Glad to hear your grandmother is doing better. It's awesome that you have been spending a lot of your time with her giving her support.
However, life is full of bitter/sweet experiences. On one hand your grandmother is doing better, but on the other, you and your b/f broke up. I can't imagine the emotional turmoil you are going through at this time. Being torn between two emotional and stressful conditions can really play havoc with ones life. Thinking about us and "Passenger Seat" should be the lease of your worries. The only thing that comes to mind is that it could be good therapy to sit and direct your attention periodically to writing. Sometimes that can clear the mind and give you better perspective on how to deal with what is happening in your life at this time.
Don't forget there are many of us here to talk to if you feel the need. And as looseliam said, don't rush on our account. We'll be here waiting.
Craiger
Glad to hear your grandmother is doing better. It's awesome that you have been spending a lot of your time with her giving her support.
However, life is full of bitter/sweet experiences. On one hand your grandmother is doing better, but on the other, you and your b/f broke up. I can't imagine the emotional turmoil you are going through at this time. Being torn between two emotional and stressful conditions can really play havoc with ones life. Thinking about us and "Passenger Seat" should be the lease of your worries. The only thing that comes to mind is that it could be good therapy to sit and direct your attention periodically to writing. Sometimes that can clear the mind and give you better perspective on how to deal with what is happening in your life at this time.
Don't forget there are many of us here to talk to if you feel the need. And as looseliam said, don't rush on our account. We'll be here waiting.
Craiger
Thanks for the support looseliam and craiger. Strange enough I already planned on doing this chapter but now it's really fitting for me. But yea, hope you guys enjoy.
And a little heads up, the next chapter will be all about Madison and his past.
Chapter 6
Club music filled my ears as I, strangely, walked through Nathan's house. All kinds of women trying to frantically grind against me. Politely smiling but saying "No Thanks."
"Hey you made it." said Nathan as he placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Yea got off work early." I replied.
"Hey you!" said a voice as a hand was placed on my head and pushed around to mess with my spikey hair.
I turned and saw Zoey.
"Hey, how've you been?" I asked her.
"Been pretty good. Just not looking forward to the birthday sex I have to give." she said with laughter as she wrapped her arms around Nathan.
We all laughed and I tilted my cup to them.
"Cheers for that." I said.
"I'll be back in a sec, gotta find Mad before he gets in trouble." said Zoey as she left the kitchen.
I completely forgot he'd be here. All the memories rushed through my head leaving me in silence, staring at the Sprite inside my cup.
"You alright?" he asked.
"Yea, I'm fine. Why?" I replied.
"Come on man, no need to lie to me. I know how you two were." he said.
"Yea don't worry. You told me he would be here anyway." I said.
"Good, 'cause you can't be all sad and depressed n shit on my birthday." he laughed.
I could see Zoey pushing through the crowd of kids in Nathan's living room, clearly enjoying the atmosphere that she created for them. Giant speakers by the fireplace blasting perfect dancing music. Flashes of colored lights pierced the room as they hung from the ceiling. Some song started to play and Nathan sighed.
"Not this song again." he said.
"What song?" I asked.
"I'm in Love. It's by Christian TV. Madison keeps playing it. Kinda weird since you two broke up. Go figure." he said.
I know that it could have been my imagination, but I swear that it was like a movie. I was talking to Nathan, and as I did, the dancing kids in the living room seemingly began to spread away from eachother for me to catch a glimpse of him as the chorus of the song started. There he was, the perfection that I let slip away. The one I chased away. I peered through the crowd of people and I saw the boy I was madly in love with in the center with rays of colored light crashing around him as he danced.
The song filled my ears as he danced around the room, obviously catching the eye of several boys and girls. Zoey reached him and I could see them talking back and forth. He followed her into the kitchen. He entered the room breathing heavilly and drinking a bottle of water. It's been month's since I've seen him, his hair grew quite a bit since then. His hair no longer had that bed head look, it was now bleached blonde and grew in a slightly hipster way, with his bangs falling just above his nose, with it pushed to the left side of his face. He had a lip ring at the right corner of his bottom lip. I probably never would have recognized him if I didn't see the changes happening first hand. After I confronted him about the rumors I heard around school he ended it there.
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"What's with all the stuff I'm hearing?" I asked.
"Uhm, depends on what you're hearing I suppose." he laughed.
"I'm not fucking kidding Madison." I stated.
"Okay..what are you hearing?" he asked with a very shocked look on his face.
"You use to sleep with atleast 5 different guys every week!" I yelled.
"That sounds like a lot of time and effort." he said jokingly.
"Can't you be serious for ten fucking seconds?!" I shouted.
"Forget what you heard." he said calmly.
"How am I suppose to forget something like that? I'm suppose to just forget something like that? What if it's true?" I asked.
"The fuck did you just ask?" he questioned.
We stared at eachother blankly for what seemed like an eternity.
"Fuck you and the pedastal you think you're standing on. Don't for a second think you know what I've done or been through." he stated.
"It's not that I--" I said.
"No, you don't get to fuckin talk to me anymore. What we had is done. If you even thought for a second that any of it was true then there is nothing between us anymore." he said even calmer than before and walked away.
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I hadn't seen him for months since then. Only pictures of him here and there on Zoey's folder while we sat in woodshop. Looking at him now was probably one of the hardest things I've had to do in my life. Look at him knowing that it was all my fault. I had to leave.
"Hey where are you going?" asked Nathan.
"Just gonna get some air." I replied as I left the kitchen and went out the side door.
I stood on the raised patio that only reminded me of when Madison stood in this very spot playing with his band. I leaned over the railing because even just the thought of him made my knees weak. I sipped my drink and looked at the blue waves of light splashing against my face from the light at the bottom of the pool. The smell of cigarette smoke stung my nostrils as I saw a cloud of smoke rise infront of me. I looked over the rail and saw Madison laying on a bench as he staired up into the sky. I walked down the stairs and stood next to him. His eyes were closed and the wind brushed through his bright and new hair color.
"I thought you quit?" I asked.
He slowly opened his eyes and rolled them to me then closed them again. "I quit having a reason to." he said.
Clearly, I understood that the reason was me.
I sighed, "I tried." I whispered as I turned to walk away.
"Am I suppose to say That I love you and I can't live without you?" He asked.
"I dont know." I replied.
"You tell me what to do, because to be honest, I have no fucking idea. I've never let anyone accuse me of a damn thing, but i've also never let anyone get as close to my heart. You managed to accomplish both of those within the first two weeks we met. You broke down every wall I spent years building. And after all that you managed to leave me feeling as though I never should have let it happen. So please, tell me what the fuck I'm suppose to say or do. Because right now I have not a god damn clue what I should be doing or feeling."
"I-I dont know." I stammered.
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"I-I dont know." He stammered.
I sat up on the bench and stared for a moment at the red haired statue that I have loved with every fiber of my being.
"Madison!" a voice called out.
I looked and nodded at my sister as she motioned for me at the top of the patio. I flicked my cigarette off into the distance and stood up.
"Where are you going?" asked the tall muscular man I loved.
"I dont know." I replied to my romantic red head.
As I walked past him I locked eyes with him. My heart caught on fire as my blank brown eyes sparked from his evergreen eyes.
"Goodbye." I whispered as I passed him.
And a little heads up, the next chapter will be all about Madison and his past.
Chapter 6
Club music filled my ears as I, strangely, walked through Nathan's house. All kinds of women trying to frantically grind against me. Politely smiling but saying "No Thanks."
"Hey you made it." said Nathan as he placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Yea got off work early." I replied.
"Hey you!" said a voice as a hand was placed on my head and pushed around to mess with my spikey hair.
I turned and saw Zoey.
"Hey, how've you been?" I asked her.
"Been pretty good. Just not looking forward to the birthday sex I have to give." she said with laughter as she wrapped her arms around Nathan.
We all laughed and I tilted my cup to them.
"Cheers for that." I said.
"I'll be back in a sec, gotta find Mad before he gets in trouble." said Zoey as she left the kitchen.
I completely forgot he'd be here. All the memories rushed through my head leaving me in silence, staring at the Sprite inside my cup.
"You alright?" he asked.
"Yea, I'm fine. Why?" I replied.
"Come on man, no need to lie to me. I know how you two were." he said.
"Yea don't worry. You told me he would be here anyway." I said.
"Good, 'cause you can't be all sad and depressed n shit on my birthday." he laughed.
I could see Zoey pushing through the crowd of kids in Nathan's living room, clearly enjoying the atmosphere that she created for them. Giant speakers by the fireplace blasting perfect dancing music. Flashes of colored lights pierced the room as they hung from the ceiling. Some song started to play and Nathan sighed.
"Not this song again." he said.
"What song?" I asked.
"I'm in Love. It's by Christian TV. Madison keeps playing it. Kinda weird since you two broke up. Go figure." he said.
I know that it could have been my imagination, but I swear that it was like a movie. I was talking to Nathan, and as I did, the dancing kids in the living room seemingly began to spread away from eachother for me to catch a glimpse of him as the chorus of the song started. There he was, the perfection that I let slip away. The one I chased away. I peered through the crowd of people and I saw the boy I was madly in love with in the center with rays of colored light crashing around him as he danced.
The song filled my ears as he danced around the room, obviously catching the eye of several boys and girls. Zoey reached him and I could see them talking back and forth. He followed her into the kitchen. He entered the room breathing heavilly and drinking a bottle of water. It's been month's since I've seen him, his hair grew quite a bit since then. His hair no longer had that bed head look, it was now bleached blonde and grew in a slightly hipster way, with his bangs falling just above his nose, with it pushed to the left side of his face. He had a lip ring at the right corner of his bottom lip. I probably never would have recognized him if I didn't see the changes happening first hand. After I confronted him about the rumors I heard around school he ended it there.
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"What's with all the stuff I'm hearing?" I asked.
"Uhm, depends on what you're hearing I suppose." he laughed.
"I'm not fucking kidding Madison." I stated.
"Okay..what are you hearing?" he asked with a very shocked look on his face.
"You use to sleep with atleast 5 different guys every week!" I yelled.
"That sounds like a lot of time and effort." he said jokingly.
"Can't you be serious for ten fucking seconds?!" I shouted.
"Forget what you heard." he said calmly.
"How am I suppose to forget something like that? I'm suppose to just forget something like that? What if it's true?" I asked.
"The fuck did you just ask?" he questioned.
We stared at eachother blankly for what seemed like an eternity.
"Fuck you and the pedastal you think you're standing on. Don't for a second think you know what I've done or been through." he stated.
"It's not that I--" I said.
"No, you don't get to fuckin talk to me anymore. What we had is done. If you even thought for a second that any of it was true then there is nothing between us anymore." he said even calmer than before and walked away.
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I hadn't seen him for months since then. Only pictures of him here and there on Zoey's folder while we sat in woodshop. Looking at him now was probably one of the hardest things I've had to do in my life. Look at him knowing that it was all my fault. I had to leave.
"Hey where are you going?" asked Nathan.
"Just gonna get some air." I replied as I left the kitchen and went out the side door.
I stood on the raised patio that only reminded me of when Madison stood in this very spot playing with his band. I leaned over the railing because even just the thought of him made my knees weak. I sipped my drink and looked at the blue waves of light splashing against my face from the light at the bottom of the pool. The smell of cigarette smoke stung my nostrils as I saw a cloud of smoke rise infront of me. I looked over the rail and saw Madison laying on a bench as he staired up into the sky. I walked down the stairs and stood next to him. His eyes were closed and the wind brushed through his bright and new hair color.
"I thought you quit?" I asked.
He slowly opened his eyes and rolled them to me then closed them again. "I quit having a reason to." he said.
Clearly, I understood that the reason was me.
I sighed, "I tried." I whispered as I turned to walk away.
"Am I suppose to say That I love you and I can't live without you?" He asked.
"I dont know." I replied.
"You tell me what to do, because to be honest, I have no fucking idea. I've never let anyone accuse me of a damn thing, but i've also never let anyone get as close to my heart. You managed to accomplish both of those within the first two weeks we met. You broke down every wall I spent years building. And after all that you managed to leave me feeling as though I never should have let it happen. So please, tell me what the fuck I'm suppose to say or do. Because right now I have not a god damn clue what I should be doing or feeling."
"I-I dont know." I stammered.
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"I-I dont know." He stammered.
I sat up on the bench and stared for a moment at the red haired statue that I have loved with every fiber of my being.
"Madison!" a voice called out.
I looked and nodded at my sister as she motioned for me at the top of the patio. I flicked my cigarette off into the distance and stood up.
"Where are you going?" asked the tall muscular man I loved.
"I dont know." I replied to my romantic red head.
As I walked past him I locked eyes with him. My heart caught on fire as my blank brown eyes sparked from his evergreen eyes.
"Goodbye." I whispered as I passed him.
What just happened?
Craiger
JUB Addict
OUCH! That was intense, Hectic. Didn't expect that. Communications......that's what we all need. Talk things out and learn the facts instead of making accusations based on rumor. Sad to think Kevin and Madison, with the intensity they had in their budding relationship, would end it so abruptly. Particularly since both still have those deep feelings for one another.
It will be interesting to find the true facts from Madison's standpoint. Looking forward to that part of the story. However, as has been stated before, give yourself some space and write when you feel up to it. Hope all is well.
Craiger
It will be interesting to find the true facts from Madison's standpoint. Looking forward to that part of the story. However, as has been stated before, give yourself some space and write when you feel up to it. Hope all is well.
Craiger
Thanks Craiger. To be honest, i really dont need to step back and collect myself. There's a lot more anger for what happened. I'm partially sad because i loved him, but far more angry about when he decided to call me and tell me it was over.
But yea, i'll try to get Madison's life written down for you guys.
But yea, i'll try to get Madison's life written down for you guys.
oh wait so is this a true story? or a fiction one i'm kind of confusedbut other than that i'm sorry dude
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It's fictional, some aspects are coming from real events i went through, and some are things i wanted to happen. and don't worry, it happens. I'm pretty good at shrugging things off ^_^
Well heres the next chapter. Hope I didn't leave you guys waiting too long.
Chapter 7
Three loud knocks woke me from my not nearly deep enough sleep. I tossed and turn hoping it was nothing. Another set of knocks fully got my attention.
“What?!” I shouted.
“Get up, we have to go to school.” my sister said through the door.
I threw the blankets off and stumbled to the door. Cracking it slightly to see her.
“I don’t feel like going.” I said.
“That’s cool an all, but we promised dad we’d actually try this time remember?” she said and asked.
I sighed, “Fine.”
I closed the door and slid on the nearest pair of pants, which happened to be the pants I wore the night before. They smelled a little like cigarettes and booze, but I really didn’t feel like looking for cleaner clothes. I grabbed my little red sweater and slid my jacket over it. Grabbing my folder as I headed to the door. I snatched my keys from the dresser and stared at them for a second as a small heart shaped keychain dangled from it. I unhooked the heart from my set of keys as I walked down the stairs to see my sister Zoey standing by the front door. I threw the heart into the trash outside as we walked to the car. I turned the key and turned up the radio. Zoey was doing some last minute touch ups on her make up through the visor mirror. We came to a stop light and I lit a cigarette and yawned.
“So are you over him?” she asked as she lined her eyes with black.
“I dunno.” I replied.
“That’s a pretty dull answer.” she retorted.
“Well its only been a day.” I said.
“Mad..he tried to-” she started to say.
“Trust me I know what he was trying to do.” I interrupted.
“Dad wants to kill him.” she said.
“You told dad?” I asked shocked.
“Of course I told dad.” she replied.
“What the fuck Zo?” I asked.
“What?.. He needed to know. You know that if the same shit happened to me you’d tell dad too.” she replied.
I sighed as I hit the gas when the light turned green. School had already started by the time we made it there. Lucky for us there was only one student parking open and we snagged it. We headed through the main office to get on campus, and of course, just like any school we managed to find that one intensely bitchy office lady.
“You two are late.” She stated.
“No shit.” I muttered.
“What?” she asked.
Zoey nudged me in the arm, “Sorry, we’re new, we got a little lost on the way here.” she said.
The office lady rolled her eyes and began writing on some paper on her desk. “I’ll excuse you two this time. Now head to first period, and don’t get lost.” she said.
We walked through the double glass doors past her.
“What a bitch.” said Zoey.
“Loving this school already.” I said sarcastically.
Me and Zoey went our separate ways for class, well, she went to class, I just walked around campus trying to find a bench to sit on. I sat at the lunch area, the benches weren’t exactly the best, but they got the job done I suppose. I sat there going through my phone, deleting various texts and photos from him. I didn’t know whether I should feel sad or angry, or feel anything at all. I wasn’t really In-love with him. I liked him, he was fun to be around and I did care for him. I just don’t think I’d go as far as to say I loved him. I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone, truthfully. I’ve dated quite a few guys, none that I was head over heels for. I’m not the picky type, but none of them were exactly what I wanted from another person. I never was the type to like the glamorous, or the infamous. I never liked the notorious hot guy that all the world loved in t.v shows. I found myself more into the nerdy or quirky guy. The one who didn’t do anything noteworthy. All the guys I’ve dated, I thought were that, but it turned out they weren’t, obviously, or else I wouldn’t be single. But then again, maybe that’s my problem. I’m trying to find that loveable dork when in actuality I’m meant to be with some arrogant jock or something. But there’s my problem again, I don’t like the buzzing of popularity. I liked simplicity. I think I’d even go as far to say I loved simplicity. My life has never been that so that’s probably why I want it. A tap on my shoulder startled me out of my deep thoughts.
“Weren’t you suppose to go to class?” said my sister from behind me.
“Weren’t you?” I asked.
“Yea.. I tried, but that teacher was kind of a bitch.” she replied.
“I see why you left. You can’t have two bitches in one classroom.” I said obviously indicating her as the second of two.
“Exactly… So, has he tried talking to you at all?” she asked.
“Yea there were a few texts in her that I got last night.” I replied.
“Did you reply?” she asked.
“Nope.” I said.
“Good boy, I have taught you well young one.” she smiled.
The bell ring for the end of first period rang loud in my ears.
“You’re older by a few seconds, calm down.” I reminded her.
“Still older.” She said as she walked away to second period.
I don’t remember what my second period was. I remember walking in and sitting down, then I fell asleep. The smell of rain woke me up as I stumbled out of second period headed to third. The rain somehow always made me calm. While everyone else screamed “it’s raining! Aaah” and scurried under something, I just let it fall against my cheeks. I soon realized I wasn’t the only one who liked the rain. I saw a boy walking slowly as it too fell onto him. His short red hair slightly being pushed around with the breeze that accompanied the falling water. A varsity baseball jacket protected his clothes from the rain.
“Are you ready to play with some wood?” asked my sister as she came up behind me.
“I’m always ready for that.” I laughed.
“That’s the spirit. Lets go get our hands on some of that wood.” she smirked.
“You just like saying wood.” I stated.
It took us twenty minutes, after the late bell rang, to find the class. Turns out its at the back of the school behind all the other buildings. We entered into a shop deep with the smell of fresh cut wood. I scanned the room trying to see if there were any people I’d try to get a long with, and there I saw, at the back of the class, the red haired boy. Small droplets of water were littered across his jacket.
God, he’s really cute but not the type to go for someone like me. I thought to myself.
We handed our schedules to the teacher and he introduced himself and directed us to the back of the class, and apparently, we’d be sitting with the two varsity baseball players. Which I, obviously, had no problem with. Well, I’ve never really been the type to get a long with the jock guys, but I had high hopes for this one. As me and my sister approached our chairs next to them I could see the red haired boy’s green eyes gazing at me, studying every possible feature. Or I at least hoped that’s why he was staring at me.
Alright Madison, play it cool. Be the cool uninterested kid, everybody falls for that.
So, I decided, that I’d pretend to be try to sleep when we sat next to them. I only hoped, it would work out for me. Either he’ll totally fall for it, or he’ll be completely ignore me.
Let’s hope this works. I thought to myself.
Chapter 7
Three loud knocks woke me from my not nearly deep enough sleep. I tossed and turn hoping it was nothing. Another set of knocks fully got my attention.
“What?!” I shouted.
“Get up, we have to go to school.” my sister said through the door.
I threw the blankets off and stumbled to the door. Cracking it slightly to see her.
“I don’t feel like going.” I said.
“That’s cool an all, but we promised dad we’d actually try this time remember?” she said and asked.
I sighed, “Fine.”
I closed the door and slid on the nearest pair of pants, which happened to be the pants I wore the night before. They smelled a little like cigarettes and booze, but I really didn’t feel like looking for cleaner clothes. I grabbed my little red sweater and slid my jacket over it. Grabbing my folder as I headed to the door. I snatched my keys from the dresser and stared at them for a second as a small heart shaped keychain dangled from it. I unhooked the heart from my set of keys as I walked down the stairs to see my sister Zoey standing by the front door. I threw the heart into the trash outside as we walked to the car. I turned the key and turned up the radio. Zoey was doing some last minute touch ups on her make up through the visor mirror. We came to a stop light and I lit a cigarette and yawned.
“So are you over him?” she asked as she lined her eyes with black.
“I dunno.” I replied.
“That’s a pretty dull answer.” she retorted.
“Well its only been a day.” I said.
“Mad..he tried to-” she started to say.
“Trust me I know what he was trying to do.” I interrupted.
“Dad wants to kill him.” she said.
“You told dad?” I asked shocked.
“Of course I told dad.” she replied.
“What the fuck Zo?” I asked.
“What?.. He needed to know. You know that if the same shit happened to me you’d tell dad too.” she replied.
I sighed as I hit the gas when the light turned green. School had already started by the time we made it there. Lucky for us there was only one student parking open and we snagged it. We headed through the main office to get on campus, and of course, just like any school we managed to find that one intensely bitchy office lady.
“You two are late.” She stated.
“No shit.” I muttered.
“What?” she asked.
Zoey nudged me in the arm, “Sorry, we’re new, we got a little lost on the way here.” she said.
The office lady rolled her eyes and began writing on some paper on her desk. “I’ll excuse you two this time. Now head to first period, and don’t get lost.” she said.
We walked through the double glass doors past her.
“What a bitch.” said Zoey.
“Loving this school already.” I said sarcastically.
Me and Zoey went our separate ways for class, well, she went to class, I just walked around campus trying to find a bench to sit on. I sat at the lunch area, the benches weren’t exactly the best, but they got the job done I suppose. I sat there going through my phone, deleting various texts and photos from him. I didn’t know whether I should feel sad or angry, or feel anything at all. I wasn’t really In-love with him. I liked him, he was fun to be around and I did care for him. I just don’t think I’d go as far as to say I loved him. I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone, truthfully. I’ve dated quite a few guys, none that I was head over heels for. I’m not the picky type, but none of them were exactly what I wanted from another person. I never was the type to like the glamorous, or the infamous. I never liked the notorious hot guy that all the world loved in t.v shows. I found myself more into the nerdy or quirky guy. The one who didn’t do anything noteworthy. All the guys I’ve dated, I thought were that, but it turned out they weren’t, obviously, or else I wouldn’t be single. But then again, maybe that’s my problem. I’m trying to find that loveable dork when in actuality I’m meant to be with some arrogant jock or something. But there’s my problem again, I don’t like the buzzing of popularity. I liked simplicity. I think I’d even go as far to say I loved simplicity. My life has never been that so that’s probably why I want it. A tap on my shoulder startled me out of my deep thoughts.
“Weren’t you suppose to go to class?” said my sister from behind me.
“Weren’t you?” I asked.
“Yea.. I tried, but that teacher was kind of a bitch.” she replied.
“I see why you left. You can’t have two bitches in one classroom.” I said obviously indicating her as the second of two.
“Exactly… So, has he tried talking to you at all?” she asked.
“Yea there were a few texts in her that I got last night.” I replied.
“Did you reply?” she asked.
“Nope.” I said.
“Good boy, I have taught you well young one.” she smiled.
The bell ring for the end of first period rang loud in my ears.
“You’re older by a few seconds, calm down.” I reminded her.
“Still older.” She said as she walked away to second period.
I don’t remember what my second period was. I remember walking in and sitting down, then I fell asleep. The smell of rain woke me up as I stumbled out of second period headed to third. The rain somehow always made me calm. While everyone else screamed “it’s raining! Aaah” and scurried under something, I just let it fall against my cheeks. I soon realized I wasn’t the only one who liked the rain. I saw a boy walking slowly as it too fell onto him. His short red hair slightly being pushed around with the breeze that accompanied the falling water. A varsity baseball jacket protected his clothes from the rain.
“Are you ready to play with some wood?” asked my sister as she came up behind me.
“I’m always ready for that.” I laughed.
“That’s the spirit. Lets go get our hands on some of that wood.” she smirked.
“You just like saying wood.” I stated.
It took us twenty minutes, after the late bell rang, to find the class. Turns out its at the back of the school behind all the other buildings. We entered into a shop deep with the smell of fresh cut wood. I scanned the room trying to see if there were any people I’d try to get a long with, and there I saw, at the back of the class, the red haired boy. Small droplets of water were littered across his jacket.
God, he’s really cute but not the type to go for someone like me. I thought to myself.
We handed our schedules to the teacher and he introduced himself and directed us to the back of the class, and apparently, we’d be sitting with the two varsity baseball players. Which I, obviously, had no problem with. Well, I’ve never really been the type to get a long with the jock guys, but I had high hopes for this one. As me and my sister approached our chairs next to them I could see the red haired boy’s green eyes gazing at me, studying every possible feature. Or I at least hoped that’s why he was staring at me.
Alright Madison, play it cool. Be the cool uninterested kid, everybody falls for that.
So, I decided, that I’d pretend to be try to sleep when we sat next to them. I only hoped, it would work out for me. Either he’ll totally fall for it, or he’ll be completely ignore me.
Let’s hope this works. I thought to myself.
Craiger
JUB Addict
Ah! We are finally getting a glimpse of Madison and his "lurid" past. I'm really interested in finding out what Zoey meant by, “Mad..he tried to-” and that it's only be a day... this has to deal with someone in his past that wasn't too terribly nice. I can hardly wait, however, I'm going to be gone for about a week and I hope I have some good reading when I come back. Thanks for the update, Hectic.
Craiger
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