Please Forgive Me ( I don't know what to do anymore )

[marcde]

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so low
You sound as if you are in control of things but I have been there, it is hard to carry out your working life when your emotions are getting the better of you.

You sound as if you just need some time away from work to gather your thoughts and to regain control of your emotions. Have you discussed the way you feel with your Doctor? Maybe he can write you out a sick note, your bosses should hopefully be understanding and then you will have time to yourself, knowing that you will have a job to return to.

From the information you have presented, it is hard to know why you feel so lonely - have you got any close friends that you can discuss this with?

I like your attitude,in that you know you will beat your "blues" - Your positivity will help get you through this hard time in your life. I wish you every success, but don't battle in silence - talk to people, it should help.

 

[Christopher123]

I don't quite know what to say, but I'll give you one of these....

 

[ByronMc]

Have you thought about seeking help from a therapist or a clinic. I wnet through a very severe clinical depression for more than a year when I was in my early 30s. I thought I should have enough willpower to get myself out of it. Unfortunately, will power in and of itself isn't enough. It helps a lot to have a therapist who is first and foremost on your side all the time and knows how to gently lead you toward the probing questions that get at underlying emotions and causes. And quite frankly, medications are sometimes helpful in providing enough relief to getting things started.

The combination of a wonderful therapist (at an almost free clinic) and some appropriate medications...and a lot of hard work got me through it, over it, and above it. I remember the turning point for me. It was after about 6-8 months of endlesdsly asking why my mother did this to me, or why my father did this to me, or why my bf did this to me that one day I asked: why did I let them do it. THat's when I began to find real answers that have been lifelong.

You know, we go to doctors for a cold or a back ache or a headache, and we take medications for colds, flu etc....why is it so difficult to think that sometimes wqe need to go to doctirs for emotional health and well being. For myself, after my first experience, I was never afraid to go back for a few months when I would find myself in situations that I was not handling well or coping with effectively. Emotional health is no different than physical health...and perhaps, in the long run, more important.

Don't be afraid to seek help; it can really make a huge difference. AND THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOT STIGMA ATTACHED. It is the smart thing to do.

Best of luck...and lots of hugs.

 

[Croynan]

I would think with the severity of the symptoms you are describing that you should and or must see the need for some degree of seeking out professsional help for your entire well being.

There could be a physical cause but if not then maybe some level and or degree of therapy is needed along with the possibility of some degree of meds. to assist you through getting through what you are currently experiencing. Finding the right the therapist is not an easy process, but you will sense and know when you have found the right person.

There so many new meds. that have appeared that are offering various levels of help and support to many individuals.

I don't think, however, that continuing on day after day is not in your own well being.

You might start the process with a consultation of your physician so that he can direct you properly to the person you need to see - by the way there should always be a least three referrals available - and if none of them prove acceptable - ask for another set of three referrals. This is usually the proceedure provided.

As for mental health clinics, here again i would discuss such an option with your physician.



eM.

 

[herenthere]

First of all, I want to make it clear that I have no training in dealing with such issues. But, because I do care I want to try and make a couple of suggestions.
First of all, your letter reflets your strength, not weakness. This is the time, my friend, that you must reach out. Reach out to your family, your friends, a group support system, or better yet get some professional help. There are so many new wonderfull drugs now that will help you thru this point of your life. The very fact that you acknowledge that something is not right, is the first step toward freedom. The pits of darkness from Clinical Depression makes you feel so totally lost and desperate. Help is all around you..I'm sure you know there are many of us on this forum, that really do care.
My very very best of luck to you..take that next step..

Hugs
Shaun

 

[caddymac]

Hereinthere is right. You have made the first step in the fact that you know there is a problem. There is help out there for you and family is a good place to start. We will give you what support via words but that is not enough--Sorry.

Hugs

 

[gabriel1]

All I can say is PLEASE PLEASE seek some professional help.

 

[Sausy]

I would think with the severity of the symptoms you are describing that you should and or must see the need for some degree of seeking out professsional help for your entire well being.

There could be a physical cause but if not then maybe some level and or degree of therapy is needed along with the possibility of some degree of meds. to assist you through getting through what you are currently experiencing. Finding the right the therapist is not an easy process, but you will sense and know when you have found the right person.

There so many new meds. that have appeared that are offering various levels of help and support to many individuals.

I don't think, however, that continuing on day after day is not in your own well being.

You might start the process with a consultation of your physician so that he can direct you properly to the person you need to see - by the way there should always be a least three referrals available - and if none of them prove acceptable - ask for another set of three referrals. This is usually the proceedure provided.

As for mental health clinics, here again i would discuss such an option with your physician.



eM.

TCB,I offer you my thoughts and prayers and support as one of the truly nice guys here .I had no idea you felt so much sadness and depression,and hope that you will remain strong and overcome this darkness that has greatly affected your work that you love so much.Croynan has given you great advice,please don't try to do this all on your own.Some big for you,and hopes that you get find yourself on the right track very soon!

 

[eddielee]

As already mentioned, it is very important that you seek medical attention. It sounds as if you have major depression. It does not just go away with time. The good news is that there are treatments that will give you relief. You are already on your road to recovery by talking to us. Again, I must stress the need for you to see a doctor. I'm very sorry that you are going through such a bad time. There is light at the end of the tunnel and things will not always be like this. I will keep you in my prayers. Hugs for you as well.

 

[Kurn]

YES! Get some Doctor-help.
Two little tips: When a bad mood strikes remember to sit down and breathe slowly, consciously, deeply. Or don't even sit down, just breathe deep!

During the day, drink enough water. Sometimes the brain is thirsty, ergo, depression.

 

[EveretteB1975]

Please get help my friend. being depressed is no joke i have lost my mother because of it. she had commited suicide at least three times and it killed her during the third try. please be strong and u deserve this


Everette

 

[NickCole]

This is a very bad time of year for depression.

I always get hit this time of year and I know a lot of others do as well.

I also, a little like you maybe, have been struggling with something for a while that seems to be a hole I can't get out of. I make some progress then back down I go. It's frustrating, it's painful, it's sad, it's paralyzing, it's tiresome and wearying.

I don't know how old you are. I'm 50 and I can tell you at least this much. I've been through times like this before. I don't have a magic formula for getting out of it but I know we do come out of these depressions. I always have before and I know I will this time as well. And so will you. Don't give up, that's the main responsibility you have.

Do whatever you can that seems like it might help. Seeking professional help, for me, has never worked so I understand if it doesn't for you. But if you've never tried it, you might give it a shot. At least it's something to do, an action you can take for yourself. If one-on-one doesn't appeal to you, maybe try a group meeting. Often group meetings are listed at gay & lesbian centers and are free.

Try to not be alone too much. Go out, talk to people, interact with other human beings. It helps. Reading good books can help as well. And of course avoid drinking -- alcohol is a depressant and will only make depression worse.

Hang on. There are lots of twists and turns in the road, and who knows, the next one might be the relief you've been hoping for.

Big hug.

 

[UnderUrVoodoo]

Sorry to hear that thirsty. Like the other posts,i suggest that you should talk to someone....your friends,family or even better the doctor.I wish you luck man !

 

[harald020]

it seems that you suffer from severe depressions. I just can enhance what some guys said before. Look for professional help immediately!
Depressions can be treated succesfully.
Here's a link to treatment possibilities (but it is essential that you will contact a therapist!!):
http://www.psychologyinfo.com/depression/treatment.htm

 

[cocktales]

TCB:

Herein, you have received tons of support, of which I truly extend mine as well, and begging you to seek some professional help.

Just remember, you recognized your symptoms so don't even think about it, look for a therapist you can afford, else you may end up losing it all.

I don't want to scare you; but when you get to this point in depression, you have one of two roads to take........let's take the "right" one!

I know that your depression is NOT the kind that canNOT be dealt with, with minor medicines or just talking it out with a trained pro...

One thing about JUB, we may fuss and fight like siblings; but when a member is down and out, we respond to our family, because love conquers ALL!

If you need any of us.......personally, we are just a PM away my friend!

We ALL wish for you brighter days ahead!

 

[Kurn]

Would it be possible to stay on with the company in a part-time position?
Please consider the local unemployment situation.
Any successful company will accomodate dedicated workers.
Just my best advice with limited information.

 

[hunky]

Been there, done that. It is just a phaze.

 

[Riverrick]

Don't forget to get help for the emotional issues. They tend to color everything you do.

Good luck!