Porn obsession

[crubbed]

I am addicted to porn. Like I need to watch it every day, even twice a day. Jerk off and be done with it.

It's gotten to the point that if I want to watch it and I can't, I become unable to do other things until I'm able to surf some porn site. It's addictive, it's life destroying.

I don't drink. I don't smoke. I used to pride myself on being addiction-free. But porn has become an addiction. I even like it better than sex. I have a new fantasy every day and I don't need to worry on STDs or performance anxiety. I watch what I like, I fast forward to the things that get me off and then stop. I'm done.

I've tried a lot of things. Weeks of castity. Treating myself to small prizes. Nothing works. I just wish I could shut down my sexual urges. Any advice on this?

 

[levisboner]

I'm not sure that I can offer advice that will help, except to tell you what happened to me. A few years ago (I think I was 22 or 23) I used to download A LOT of porn on a daily basis, whatever I could get my hands on. My PC even got infected with some nasty shit from some of the sites I visited. I'd jerk off to what I downloaded once, and then look for fresh stuff because I always needed more. It didn't matter how much I had. No amount was enough. And then my computer crashed. I wasn't working so I couldn't afford a new one either. I couldn't jerk off to the stash I'd accumulated anymore. And I think that's what ended up saving me to be honest. The tap was turned off. I could still look at stuff on my phone when I had the urge, that's how I first started - but after a while I found I didn't need to get off on that stuff so often. And I kind of weaned myself off. I know this might not work for you. You can't throw your computer out and you can find anything on your phone these days. But maybe you could put access controls on your browser to block certain sites. Get a trusted friend to help you. I know how hard this can be. I'm sorry I can't be more helpful.

 

[Seasoned]

SCA (Sexual Complusives Anonymous) and SLAA (Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous) are both 12-step programs that could provide help. Check them both online for program information and for meetings in your area. Both of these programs are LGBT friendly. If you are suffering from addiction no amount of will power will be enough for you to stop the behavior and live a serene life.

Wishing you peace of mind.

 

[eastofeden]

^^^THIS....Treat it like the addiction that it is and you will have the best chance of coming to terms with it.

 

[bike10]

I enjoy the pleasures of gay porn on daily bases for enjoyment and jacking off. So much to enjoy from the vintage days to boys of Bel Ami and in between.

 

[Harke the Boeotarch]

The only way to get rid of temptation is to yield to it... I can resist everything but temptation. ~ Oscar Wilde

 

[maxpowr9]

The only thing that I want answered is if you are actually having real sex, even a BJ. If not, then it is a serious issue.

 

[Rolyo85]

OP, what you describe is pretty much my daily routine when I am not getting any. When I AM getting any, I just don't need to do it. I don't consider it a problem at all, I just have a very high sex drive and need regular release. Nothing wrong with that.

 

[Benvolio]

Do it early in the AM and perhaps also at night, as a way to avoid it interfering with your life.

 

[Seasoned]

If you're addicted you won't be able to control it. If you go to the websites of the organizations I mentioned you'll be able to do a self evaluation. The question isn't what you're doing nor how often. It's about how it affects and controls you.

 

[crubbed]

Thanks for all the replies.

This is going to sound weird-- but I'm just not attracted to real sex any longer. The little pain. The missing erections. Me not being endowed. The fear for any STD. I've become so paranoid and anxious, porn replaces sex in my life. I also use porn whenever I feel hot for a guy that I can't have. I jerk it off before I'd do something stupid and then I don't care about him really.

Is it really that wrong? The problem is that porn tends to take control of my life.

Seasoned, I tried those groups. The people there (in my city) are former sex-addicts. The few meetings I attended were not very helpful, but I'll try again. In the meantime, I've found this site in another thread:

http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/adolescent-brain-meets-highspeed-internet-porn

 

[maxpowr9]

Yep. I would do your best to stop masturbating altogether and try to at least get a BJ. You'd probably get a migraine the first few days of not masturbating due to your body not getting the release of endorphins from orgasming so frequently. There is a parallelism between sex addiction and exercise addiction in that they both get the body chemically addicted to releasing endorphins. You basically need to reset your body so your endorphin levels go down to a normal one and you can actually get hard at the sight of a guy you find attractive.

I've done the reset when I went through a "porn addiction" where I was substituting masturbation for real sex. It took me about 3 weeks of not masturbating to reset and now I enjoy sex that much more.

 

[gaylaboy]

You have an addiction. I would suggest trying to replace porn with sex and if that doesnt work, I would contemplate entering a rehab facility or going to meetings. Porn addiction is nothing to be ashamed of and Im sure you're gonna get through it.