So I figured I'd dig up this old thread instead of creating a seperate one that would only cover the gist of what THIS thread was originally created to do: quit smoking. Having said that, here's my update thus far....
So its been nearly 9 months since my first post on this thread declaring my desire to quit, and I'm going to be 100% honest with you... I have not done so. At first it was a little cheat here and there, whether it be while I was drinking or stress from school would hit, I'd bum one from a friend and have one, and then move on in life...go for weeks without one and then have a cig, etc etc...you get how the cycle went. So anywho I guess my heart wasn't 100% into the whole quittin thing, but mostly the appeal of saving so much money and everything was more important than my health benefits would from quitting. I guess I'm rambling a bit here...anyways,
So yea, I've fallen back into horrible old habits, and am back to about a pack every 2 days. I don't know WHAT exactly brought it out of me, sure I can make a ton of excuses...worrying about paying for school, school work itself, working two jobs, breaking up with a bf, etc etc...But I know thats not acceptable. I can't figure out WHY i've been driven back to smoking, but anyways to get MORE to the point of why I'm posting, here we go:
So yesterday after being back home all summer working and saving up some money, I moved back to the town where I go to school, about 2 hours away from home. Anyways, on the way back down here, my mom follows me to help me unload and unpack some things for my room. So during the trip she somehow figured out I smoked, something neither her nor my father knew, and wasn't ever planning on telling them because I figured this would be a part of my wild and young days, once I graduate, I'd give it up for good. So yes she found out and told my Dad, who yall really have to know, but picture him being the most stereotypical southern man alive: a biggot, stubborn, ignorant, control freak, and scared of change. I fear this man, anyways. The best part of this story, is HOW they found out. My sister sold me out to them. My freakin sister, the ONE person on this Earth I feel i can trust more than any other..sells me out to my parents. The rents go on to tell me that if I don't quit, they will cut off they;re help with school, take away everything they pay for for me (i.e. vehicle, cell phone, etc) and make me come home and either go to school there or work. Which I will say ain't happening.
To get to my main concern, i guess I'm stuck with the decision to quit. I know its harder to quit something if your heart isnt in it 100%, which is true, I'm not into it simply because im being told to quit and blackmailed into it rather than it being a personal choice. My thing is, I need to know how to quit like never before, I've heard gradually comin off of it, like weening, is the best medicine, but I'm not sure...any suggestions, thoughts, or anything?