yea.. keep in mind there a lot hiding out there in the closet, there's probably someone you know that you'd never guess was in the closet, but they will hide. So you have to keep in mind there are so many hiding out there. and i've heard a similar story of this one a bunchh of times, a stereotypical straight guy stressing out about coming out, you are not alone. And you coming out does a service to those people out there too, your helping other stereotypically straight looking jocks that have been thinking about being with men and are curious but are scared to say to themselves they can do it, but they can look at you, whether its one member on here or two people you know, your still doing a great thing for others and yourself!
One more person that ppl can say well if he can do it.. so i can i. You have the power to give that strength. Plus, you are one more person that will break down the gay stereotype. And once you come out, be strong, because if you are confident that is me and so what. Don't make a big a deal out of it (because its not) there's some a big stigma behind the word "Gay" as its linked with all these other things, but were all more equal than society has showed us to be dominant. Symetrical looks, light eyes, heterosexual couples, skinny, marriage is neccessary, all "in" according to society, but fuck that.. why are there these unwritten rules? Truth is some white guy in some office somewhere behind a billion dollar company makes these rules ( i took media at my university this year and was astounded when hearing this) and story lines to shows and movies owned by the same company are edited to make it more "suitable" for what THEY think is a good message and story for all.. And many buy into it, but who could blame them, these images are everywhere of rings being put on women's fingers, women as sexual objects, men having all the power, but are men and women really all that different underneath it all? i really dont think so. Sexuality labels, like gay, straight and bisexuality were even created, there's no real definition because everyones interpertation of them is different. But people enjoy labels because we all like to be put in categories, it helps us better identify ourselves with ourselves and other people. "Men liking men" is one interpretation of the word "gay" but if you said both of those terms to a group of people, their reactions would probably be different to both terms because gay is such a loaded word. My point, don't propose you wanting to be with a guy like its a big deal because you think you are different, because you really are not different. Your more alike everyone else than you think.
Like men and woman, underneath it all were not all that different as ads, media, gender us to be. Were all human, and thats all there is to it. If your friends get wierd about it, fuck that, cuz thats THEIR issue and THEIR ignorance on the topic. And we all get scared about what others will think because we can't expect them to have full knowledge on a topic. And a lot of the time, i have not found many people in the world who understand sexuality, there are a bunch of stereotypes and it makes some people uncomfortable and some ppl don't even know why it makes them uneasy, but it seems to be a touchy subject for some. But it's their un-education about the men liking men topic that will make them form opinions and judgments, so you can educate them if they react as if they have something against you because of it, make a joke about it. So your "straight" friends want and are going along with what society has shown the country is the dominant way of life.. so, they take what they are fed if they react badly to you. Good luck on your friends being accepting, but believe me, its worth it just to come out! Don't put your heart through lies, thats no fun for anyone involved..the girls, you, your friends. Enjoy what you want to enjoy, fuck whoever has something to say about it, they are just wasting your time if they don;t like it, because who are they to say anything? They are in no way better than you or anyone..
and with the girls you've been with sexually, tell them you always knew you were, but were scared.
Good luck. Ahh i normally don't write that much to someone's post, but this one hit home as I know some people closeted.
I did put the disclaimer on my statement right? I've been out for awhile. I actually had people who teased me in elementary and middle school for being gay come up to me and go ' Dude I'm sorry I didn't know you were really gay' Always told em 'sok I didn't either' 
totally agree with this whole post. That was a shorter version of what I was trying to say but couldn't find the words. 