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All the things being done to make this a better place are just making it worse.
Sit in the chair and be good now
And become all that they told you
At the top of the window it says JustUsBoys Community Message Boards... I kinda think community should be removed.
Rep was a fun thing but if you took it seriously you are stupid... of course the rep thread is full of good job etc... but you can never be sure if people are just kissing ass. I don't care that its gone but it would have been nice if there was a vote or something... but I am just a normal member here so what does my opinion matter...
meh I will just post this... its getting to the point where it doesnt even feel like its safe to say what you really mean....

 

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hey mum
thanks mum
love you mum

 

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Been spending so much time underground
I guess my eyes adjusted
To the lack of light
I got covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

I have been waiting
Always waiting for something new
Happiness has always ended
In the blink of an eye
There was no one attending
No one attending

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I got covered in darkness
Covered in darkness
Ever wonder why I never really truly connect
Although my eyes are open
I can hold your gaze
But I am never connected
Never connected

I am famous for my generosity
They say I am the kindest
But it is easier to
Give than receive love
Give than receive love

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

Turning pages over
Run away to nowhere
And it's hard to take control
When your enemy's old and afraid of you
You'll discover that the monster you were running from
Is the monster in you

Better to hold on to love
Better to hold on to love
Change will come

It doesn't really matter where it all began
All I know
I was covered in darkness
Covered in darkness

It doesn't really matter where it all began
Cuz all I know
I was lost
I was lost
No, no
It doesn't really matter where it all began no no
All I know
I was lost
I feel lost
Lost
No...

 

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Why is Jonny so thin and gorgeous... I want to be the hottest.... I think he has been sent to ruin my life.

Even the way he spells his name is cool.

 

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Hello, Hello? Anybody there? Echo

 

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but peace is fucking boring

 

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so today Jonny winked at me... that must mean something

 

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that day, that day, what a mess what a marvel, I walked into that cloud again and I lost myself, and I'm sad, sad, sad, small, alone, scared, craving purity, a fragile mind and a gentle spirit, that day, that day, what a marvelous mess, this is all I can do, I'm done to be me, sad, scared, small, alone, beautiful, its suppossed to be like this, I accept this, its suppossed to be like this, that day, that day, I lay down beside myself, in this feeling of pain, sadness, scared, small, climbing, crawling, towards the light, and its all I see and I'm tired and I'm right and I'm wrong and its beautiful, that day, that day, what a mess, what a marvel, we're all the same and no one thinks so, and its ok, and I'm small and I'm divine, and its beautiful, and its coming, but its already here and its absolutely perfect, that day, that day, when everthing was a mess and everything was in place and theres too much hurt, sad, small, scared, alone and everyones a cynic and its hard and its sweet, but its suppossed to be like this, that day, that day, when I sat in the sun and I thought and I cried cos Im sad, scared, small, alone, strong and Im nothing and I'm true, only a brave man can break through and its all ok, yeah its all ok.​

 

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You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over
I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
That you used to know
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me
You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
If you want to show me
I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend happy end
Let me know let it show
Ending with letting go
Let's pretend, happy end

 

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this morning i got woken up by a newspaper wanting to interview so I decided to start a thread about it. It wasnt meant to be taken seriously or anything but I have a bit of spare time this week so I thought I would participate a bit more in JUB.

Unfortunately ClockStrikes9 decided to join the thread even though a few weeks ago he made a complaint about me and I was asked to avoid him which I was more than happy to do. His only intention in posting in the thread was to cause trouble and he must be so happy he did.

I get a warning for my posts to him in that thread... the thread was closed and reopened and then closed... and he was leaving comments for me.

http://www.justusboys.com/members/viewimage.php?image=yetigetthewarning.jpg&u=1283&album=personal
Yet he doesnt recieve a warning.. basically nothing was said to him at all... and the moderator who did it, I considered a great friend.

My thread wasnt the only one closed today... a discussion on cut and uncut was closed for some unknown reason despite it being quite an interesting conversation... This is the other thread that was closed

I was looking forward to getting back into jub over the next few days but this place is just getting worse and worse. I remember a time I didnt need to complain. It appears the site is aiming to be the blandest site.... no wonder all the people with personalities rarely stick around long.

 

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I am bored waiting for my sister to come online to send me photos... so I decided to look at the member list and did the top 100 posters and counted how many I like more than half the time... the number was 39 which is higher than I thought it would be... must give up cigarettes and coca-cola

 

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you should know by now... just tell me and let me know one way or another.


I am so sick of stressing about it.

 

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whilst reading the forums here, I notice that there are a handful of posters who no matter how cheery and upbeat the topic is.. they always post stuff like 'poor me'.. 'I am so pathetic'.. 'I live a miserable life and its never going to change'.

Its annoying... and then there is always people who come along and say 'no you are not pathetic yadda yadda'... and then the thread turns into a pity party.

I may have caused one or two threads to go slightly off topic because I have been 'apparently' bitchy but I dont do it all the time and I dont intend to ruin a thread.

Meh my point is... why waste your time putting yourself down all the time... the world is full of people who will save you the hassle... bad things happen to everyone but not all of us make it the focus of everything we say.

 

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meh everything is going wrong and i have put on a pile of weight.

i cant do much about anything but i am going to stop eating... I want to see my bones again....

 

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You say I have changed
Self-centered and vain
And you don't respect me for it
The world is the same
So I'll play the game
And you've grown to hate me for it

So we rearranged
There's no one to blame
But still you resent me for it
I call all the shots, I hold all the cards
And you feel emasculated

Believe it, I need it
I feel intoxicated
I love it, I want it
Don't make me leave you for it

How do we reconcile this?

 

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Μερικές φορές οι άνθρωποι ενεργούν σαν βρίσκομαι πότε λέω ότι έχω έναν ελληνικό πατέρα.

Βλάπτει λίγο. Ειδικά εξετάζοντας δεν έχω συναντήσει ποτέ τον πατέρα μου. Τα μόνα πράγματα ξέρω ότι για τον είναι ότι είναι ελληνικά και ότι το όνομά του είναι ο Alex.

Έχω μιλήσει για να βρώ τον πριν. Δεν ξέρω εάν αλλά ίσως. Ακριβώς με δεχτείτε για ποιους είμαι.

 

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kind of...

But I did get a new job that I really really really wanted... I start in 9 days... I'm so happy

 

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I am so not a morning person and having to get up and get dressed by 6am is making me all homicidal. I don't get to sleep in until Sunday this week...

 

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Its only week 2 but I am loving it so much... its the most inspiring rewarding interesting thing I have ever done.

 

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Today I decided to do my washing cos I am starting to run out of clothes to wear.. so I go to the washing machine and its full of clothes. It wouldn't be a problem except EVERY time I do washing there is always a load of washing in there waiting to be hung out. I would love to just throw it in the basket and leave it but then I would be the inconsiderate one.. It drives me up the wall. I almost feel like wearing filthy clothes. Why cant people hang out their own washing... nobody hangs out mine.. nor do I want them to.