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Chapter 9
Standing there after the lecture, inattentively answering the boring questions that the over-eager students peppered him with, Daniel thought over what he'd spotted during the lecture. As was becoming the norm, nothing that involved Eric escaped his notice, and Donna and Carter Winthrop sitting next to each other and holding a deep discussion as though they were the best of friends was certainly something to note.
Their failure to pay attention to the lecture didn’t bother him in the slightest but the fact that they knew each other, and were seemingly so close, did bother him somewhat. Daniel had not expected Carter to have gotten to the point where he had begun getting friendly with his own best friend – much less almost be the best friend himself – and had there been any doubt about that, the hug they shared before they left cemented the idea in his mind that Donna and Carter were getting close.
Although unexpected, this development didn’t cause consternation for Eric, with time, he knew, he’d find a way to utilise it to his advantage and to rid Eric's life of them both. If there was one thing that Daniel was more than certain of, it was this. Once he and Eric were together, Eric wouldn’t need anyone else, he would be all that Eric wanted or ever needed, for one simple reason, nobody could understand Eric in the way that he would and nobody could ever love Eric the way he could.
Catching sight of Eric out the corner of his eye, standing back, clearly unsure of himself Daniel dismissed the group of students in front of him assuring them that as the course progressed, their questions would be answered. Abruptly he turned to Eric, “Eric, could you please join me in my office?”
Eric looked up at him, his eyes conveying his mixed emotionst, and slowly he walked from the lecture theatre behind Daniel.
“I’m sorry if I sounded a bit cold there,” said Daniel as they stepped out into the summer heat, “I wasn’t sure what to say to you…” his voice diminishing as though he was uncertain of what was happening.
“It’s okay, I understand,” Eric replied falteringly. They walked in silence, Daniel adeptly mirroring everything that Eric truly felt, the self-consciousness, the reticence, the anxiety and apprehension at what was going on.
Finally Daniel broke the silence before his voice trailed off as they walked into the cool air of his air-conditioned office, “I’m sorry if I put you in an awkward position this morning…”
“No, it’s okay, I get what you…” Eric’s voice trailed off as well.
“I just really,” Daniel paused a moment, seemingly in doubt at what he wanted to say before continuing, “I just couldn’t stop myself. Everything I said to you, I meant.” He looked at Eric, the softness of his voice feigning hesitancy, “I don’t know if you feel the same as I do so…”
Clearly spurred on by the look and sound of unease in Daniel’s face and voice Eric spoke with his words tumbling out with all the fervour he’d felt that morning, “I do. I don’t know why I was being so quiet now. After this morning all I could think was to get to you, speak to you, and just like you said ever since I yesterday when I saw you in the lecture theatre all I could think of was you. So when you said – what you said, I – I just…” his words trailed away as he looked away, embarrassed, by the ferocity of his emotion.
A moment passed. Daniel stared intently into Eric's eyes, eyes which try as he might, Eric could not stop from darting everywhere but right back at Daniel. Slowly, Daniel walked around the table and softly took a hold of Eric’s hand, “You’re trembling,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper, “Are you sure this is what you want?”
Eric gulped down as Daniel caressed his hands, still staring ever so intently at Eric, drawing him towards him little by little, Eric whispered back, his voice as hesitant as his heart, “I don’t know, I mean – no. It’s just that I’ve just never felt like this…”
“I think very few people ever get to feel this,” Daniel said, his one hand breaking away and slowly snaking around Eric’s waist, softly pulling him in slowly until it was only the slightest of breadths that separated them.
“I’ve dreamed of it for so long, wanted this, for so long, I’m just so…” Daniel silenced Eric, his lips gently, tentatively, brushing against Eric’s before pulling back.
Eric’s lips, sought Daniel’s looking to see where this would lead. He kissed Daniel, tenderly, gingerly, fearfully.
Led by Daniel, the passion of the kiss intensified, responding to a raw animal hunger he sensed hidden beneath the sensitivity and gentleness of Eric’s lips. Daniel, arms wrapped around Eric, pulled him away from the desk where they had been standing and pushed him down onto an overstuffed sofa mindful of Eric’s ankle.
Daniel’s muscular frame lying above Eric, his arms propping him up, he pulled away from Daniel, looking into his eyes, his own eyes and voice filled with emotion, “You’re beautiful – you’re perfect. I don’t know…” Daniel cut him off, grabbing him and pulling him back into the kiss, clawing at Eric’s shirt, the yearning to have Eric overwhelming Daniel.
A knock at the door interrupted them. Daniel placed his finger on Eric’s lips. The knock came again, “Professor Keller?” Shocked by the unmistakable British accent Eric knocked over a pile of books.
“I think he knows we’re in here now,” Eric whispered, his face with an apologetic grimace as he gently moved Daniel off of him.
“Hang on a moment, Carter. I’ll be with you soon – with a student right now,” Daniel said loudly, getting up off of Eric.
“I’m sorry Daniel, I just didn’t…”
Straightening Eric’s shirt, Daniel said, “No, it’s okay. It was an accident, I know,” a roguish smile spreading across his face he said, “It didn’t seem like you were so desperate to get out of here.”
Eric cast his eyes downwards, blushing as his usual reticence came to the fore. Helping Daniel straighten things up around them as much as he could, Eric asked, “That’s Carter Winthrop at the door right?”
Pretending to be surprised Daniel said, “Yes, You know him?”
“Well yes. He’s the cause of the crutch; he hit me with his car last night on my way to work.”
“What?”
“No, no, it wasn’t his fault, it was an accident.” Turning and picking up his bag, ready to leave Eric said, “Just wish I didn’t have to run into him here of all places.”
Thinking to himself, whilst allowing the comment to go without interrogation, Daniel knew that Carter had already begun sounding the warning bells, but clearly to no avail. Wrapping his arms around Eric, Daniel said softly, “I have to see him now, but could I come see you tonight?”
Looking into Daniel’s eyes and drawing strength from him, Eric said, “I’ll be waiting.”
Daniel strode to the door, Eric behind him, his mind racing with the knowledge that Carter was standing behind that door, knowing that after everything that Carter had said to him before about Daniel, there was no way that Carter wouldn’t know what had been going on between him and Daniel in the office. “Excuse the wait Carter,” said Daniel opening the door and letting him in, “I believe you’ve met Mr Thompson.”
There was a slight pause before Carter replied, “Yes, we’ve met. Fancy seeing you here Eric?”
“Hi Carter.” The look that Carter gave Eric wasn’t what Carter had expected. In place of a look of smugness, the resignation that Eric saw in Carter’s eyes was everything but smug. For a moment there, Eric thought he saw shock, but more importantly – for a moment Carter thought he saw pain and disappointment, feelings that to Eric, from Carter, made no sense. Too surprised and ashamed to hold Carter’s gaze, Eric said as he backed out of the office, “Well I guess I’ll leave you two to it then, see ya’round.”
As he rushed off to his dorm, his mind raced as wildly as his heart beat, trying to take stock of all that had just happened. The moment with Daniel had been so intense, and had been the last thing he’d expected when he’d gone to Daniel. What it was exactly that he’d expected was unclear to him as well. But that – what had happened, had certainly not been it. In those brief moments for Eric, it seemed as though life had come to a stop, yet at the same time still, it was as though he was experiencing more life than he had ever experienced. Even thinking of it made his already racing heart gallop even faster. And to think of what was to come later that evening…
Eric came to a sudden surprising the girl who’d been walking behind him. Carter... Slowly walking again, his mind turned to him, who was the one thing that Eric just could not seem to get his finger on, who was still such an enigma to Eric. As Eric remembered their angry run-in in his dorm room that morning his mind ran the gamut of emotions that Carter could with a look, a word, a smile, raise in him. From the most blinding of rage – anger that scared even him, to such a sense of calm, a serenity that had been sorely lacking in his life lately, to happiness, and even to…
Love... That was the word that had come to Eric’s mind, but as quickly as it entered, Eric pushed it out. Love was not a word he could use regarding anybody, not Daniel and certainly not Carter. No, love was something that had not been judged upon yet, Eric thought to himself, and were love ever to enter into his life, to think about it and have it involving anyone besides Daniel already felt disloyal.
Even though Eric pushed it into the deepest darkest recesses of his mind, those recesses knew what he denied to himself – either way, Carter, not Daniel, was the one who’d brought the thought of love into Eric’s mind. He was the one who was there, and pretending that he wasn’t would in no way get rid of that diminishing but ever present voice in his mind and gnawing in his heart that constantly seemed to seek to remind Eric of that.